Jonson's Diary

March 2018, 3, cloudy

Xue Lin stir-fried vegetables with a cold face. They were about to explode, but she still held her breath and cooked my favorite dishes.

He was angry because he was sick, but I didn't go to see him. I was going to go out to visit the set today, and Li Keji was filming nearby.

A very small supporting role in a TV series, starring actor Chen who I have met once.

Xue Rin made the dishes bang on purpose, every time he felt that I was ignoring him, Xue Rin would make a loud noise on purpose, knowing that I hate harsh metal sounds.

I ignored him and went straight out.

"Hey! Why are you going?!"

"I won't eat it."

The sound of the plate breaking and the muffled sound of the table colliding with the ground were all blocked by the door.

In fact, no matter which industry has its own sadness, people will only see the glamorous illusion, and are unwilling to dig out the mud under the gorgeous skin.

Li Keji was taking his shots over and over again, and the edits were only a few seconds.

I was at the side, and actor Chen came over to talk to me: "Are you here to see Li Keji? He missed this scene today."

"Yes, he worked very hard, but there is still room for improvement. I hope you will forgive me, Best Actor Chen."

He quickly waved his hand: "Where is it! Speaking of which, you should be very good friends, then do you know if Li Keji retired because of his depression?"

Feeling overwhelmed, depression?I smiled and didn't answer.

"Actually, it's not a secret in the industry. His family has a background and has been a doctor for generations. He is also a military doctor. His brother Li Weiren learned psychology because of him."

"I admire him very much! He seems to be retreating recently, so I'm just asking if you know."

"I accepted some dramas and some programs because of him. If he doesn't go, I won't go either."

"You know, I just want to make a good relationship."

I nodded my head in understanding.Without saying a word, these rumors are true or false, who knows how feasible they are?Li Keji happily ran over and hugged my neck with a smile.

This time, he finally got his wish and went to his secret base.

Not far from the flower bed where I often go to daze, is a very small room, similar to our university dormitory.

There are many decorations inside, most of which are handicrafts, such as bicycles made of waste CDs and pen refills, sniper guns made of cardboard, and even a large box of marbles of different colors.

The lighting in the room is not good. Although it is not enough to stretch out your hands, you need to turn on the light during the day. It is a warm yellow light, and the lampshade is a budding flower.

The furnishings are a bit messy, but cozy, and there is a window over there.

The new branches and leaves are verdant, the blue sky is clear and clear, and the birds stretch their wings, with layers of wine red feathers, like the scorching sun.

It reminds me of the legendary Suzaku, if there is one, its feathers probably look like this.

"How is it?" Li Keji gave me a glass of water. The water glass is a gradient color without extra carvings.

"I painted that window for a long time, isn't it good?"

Not only is it good!You are going to heaven!Although I don't know how to paint, how to match colors, and what skills, for a layman like me, the painting is quite good.

"Hey! Why don't you just keep talking? I'm panicking when you're like this! Although the drawing is a bit rotten, it's not so bad that it can't be evaluated, right? I drew it when I was in junior high school, I miss it so much!"

"Have you studied drawing for a long time?"

"Me? No! I'm just interested in painting casually. There are a lot of them, and they're all in the cabinet."

As he spoke, Li Keji opened the cabinet, and what he saw was a mountain of trophies.

"Hey! It's not this cabinet, I misremembered it, sorry, sorry! It's this one."

I flipped through them one by one.

There are very abstract figure paintings, all of which are distorted, and there are also very realistic works, which depict his brother's serious concentration while reading a book.

There are also some random graffiti, the puppy on the homework book, and the totem on the letterhead.

Li Keji also copied the works of many masters, such as Van Gogh's "The Crow on the Rye Field" and Monet's "Sunrise Impression".

Finally, I turned to a medical certificate, Hypermemory and mild depression, I put it back calmly.Li Keji looked for the painting he wanted to give me in another cabinet.

"I heard you want to retire?"

"Yeah, it was a challenge to do it at first, but, I later found out that this is not the life I want."

"I want to be like Uncle Zhang, open a piano shop, teach outstanding students, and when the weather is good, I can invite a few old friends to travel when I have free time."

"I went to Tibet last time. The snow-capped mountains that never melt all year round and the vast and boundless land are like a miracle."

"I also participated in the salt-carrying team of the locals. People of the older generation said that one is not a man without carrying salt, which is very shocking."

"I'm planning my next trip, are you coming?"

I smiled and nodded.

Hypermemory is an extremely rare medical anomaly, which belongs to the branch of non-selective memory. The clinical manifestation is that the brain has an automatic memory system.

People with hypermnesia store long-term memories using the left frontal lobe (the area normally used to process language) and the occipital region at the back of the brain (usually used to store pictorial memories).

All of this seems to be happening subconsciously.

People with hyperamnesia have no ability to forget.

I can clearly remember the things I have personally experienced, and can be specific to any detail.

Hypermemory is not an enhanced version of memory ability, it is not helpful for learning, nor is it helpful for memorizing knowledge points.

Patients can only remember the time, place and process of events in their lives as they are in a journal.

Thus, hyperamnesiacs remember a large number of facts, but tend not to extract the essence.Memorizes a ton of random facts, but lacks organization.

The ability to think through ideas.What's more serious is that patients will save more painful and sad memories than ordinary people, which will affect their mental health, and the probability of depression is higher than ordinary people. (Excerpt from Baidu)

Li Weiren was my life-saving straw, because he was my psychiatrist.

Now, Li Keji is also my life-saving straw, because looking at him, I feel that I can still be saved.

But the bow did not turn back.