Time flies, eyebrows become books

【12】

I went back alone during the winter vacation that year, and I didn't even call Ziqi. This was the first time we had known each other for so many years.That winter vacation was very boring, firstly because of Chengcheng's incident, and secondly because my work had not been fulfilled.In fact, I also have an offer, but it’s not in this city. I admit that I have no backbone. Even if everyone makes trouble like this, I still want to stay and live under the same sky as him.

Before the holiday was over, I went back to school early and wanted to find a job again.Maybe it was luck, the resume I submitted accidentally online before had a response, and after three rounds of interviews, I got an offer, and the unit was in his district.At that time, my first thought was to announce the good news to him, but as soon as the call was made, I regretted it and hung up quickly.What reason do I have to pester him again?For so many years, he has almost become a monument in my life. I have been looking up to and following him, but it is impossible to be immortal in the end. We still have to go our separate ways.

After the work was implemented, I focused on my graduation thesis, went to the library to spend time when I had nothing to do, and occasionally got together with Chengcheng.Chengcheng's condition is obviously much better than before, and she basically doesn't mention childbirth anymore. I'm curious how a woman's feelings can fade in a short period of time, or maybe she is like me, knowing that there is no hope, so she doesn't bother anymore.

The next semester passed quickly, and more than two months passed in a blink of an eye. I didn’t have any news about my child. Even when I met with my fellow villagers, they deliberately avoided mentioning him. I think we will probably not have any contact.

I was writing a dissertation in the library that day, and suddenly received a call from him. I was so surprised that my hands trembled, I ran out quietly with my mobile phone, and took N deep breaths before carefully picking it up.

"Hey..." followed by a long period of silence, the voice that used to move me the most turned out to be the saddest note.

"Hi... Long time no contact." I couldn't think of what to say.

"Do you have time?"

"It's not busy at the library..." I knew I was missing the point.

"Then come out, I'll wait for you at the milk tea shop in the service area." We used to frequent the milk tea shop he mentioned.

When I rushed over, I saw him sitting on a chair outside the store with two cups of drinks in his hands. He still remembered that my favorite drink was not milk tea.We wandered casually along the road, feeling awkward and dull.I couldn't help sneaking glances at him several times, he looked calm and indifferent. "How's the paper?" It was he who spoke first.

"It's almost there, some places need to be changed." I don't want to go into details, and I have nothing to say.

"What about work?" he asked casually.

"I've already signed the agreement, it's XX." I couldn't help staring at him, wanting to see his reaction.

"I know that, it's pretty good, isn't it on XX Road?" He was a little happy, and it was rare to see his smile again.

"No, it's on YY Road, it's quite close to yours, what a coincidence." After finishing speaking, I couldn't help scolding myself for being stupid, the word "what a coincidence" is really abrupt and funny.

"Do you have something to do in the afternoon? Let's go to karaoke together?" I was stunned by the sudden words.

"Is it just the two of us?" The two of us have also sung before, but it seems to be only once, and usually a group of people go.

"Just us, we haven't sung for a long time, and suddenly want to sing." In fact, he is rarely someone who suddenly does something unplanned.

"Okay." I was afraid we would be embarrassed, but I couldn't help but look forward to it.

We went to a frequent shop outside the school, because it was not a weekend, there were no people.I suddenly remembered that today is Wednesday, and couldn't help but ask, "Are you okay today?"

"I have something to do, but I don't want to go. I asked for leave." I feel unreal. I have known him for so long, and I don't remember his experience of skipping class. ?

We sat down, he ordered 8 bottles of beer, and then began to choose songs. I wondered why he thought of drinking today. We usually don’t drink, especially his alcohol capacity. I have a sense of crisis that a rainstorm is coming.

He chose a few songs by Jacky Cheung, and then started to sing silently. I was a little embarrassed, so I had to pretend to be serious about picking songs and secretly pay attention to his actions.Later, when the wine and snacks came, he invited me to have a drink together, and I couldn't help but ask, "Is there anything bothering you?"

"Nothing, just want to sing and drink all of a sudden. Do you still remember the time when you graduated from high school? Before the score came out, you said that you didn't feel good and you might not be able to come here together. Then we went to drink together. That was my first time. After drinking so much wine at one time, we were all so drunk that we passed out and slept in someone else's shop all night." He laughed as he spoke, but I always felt weird and couldn't help but think of the word "farewell" , But this is not my wish, I finally stayed, even if we can't meet often, I can't help but have a glimmer of hope.

Several times, I couldn't help but want to tell him that I have no relationship with Chengcheng, but I felt abrupt again, and the words slipped out of my mouth, and I held back them again.I only drank a little, and he started to faint after drinking about three bottles by himself. I didn't let him drink any more, and he fell asleep on the sofa.

That was the first time I looked at him without any scruples. I didn't care about the people around me, and I didn't care that he would wake up suddenly.He curled up like a baby, I couldn't help but want to hug him, the soft hair was stuck to my arm, I squatted and looked at him.I don’t know when he became the weakness in my life, and he became the driving force for me to move forward. His slightly parted lips are an infinite temptation to me. I kissed him excitedly and sadly with despair. Touched him, gently, sweetly, astringently.Later, I helped him to live in a nearby hotel. He was groggy and half asleep. I bought him some porridge at night, but he was silent for a while, and then fell asleep again.The next day I had an appointment with my mentor, so I had to leave first. I called him later, and he went back. After that, we had no contact for a long time.

When we graduated, fellow villagers in our graduating class invited everyone to dinner together, and he also came.As in the past, he is still the most funny. Everyone is a little excited and a little sad. One fellow is going back to his hometown, and the other two are going to different places. Just me and another fellow who is studying in graduate school are still here. Let them come to me when they return to their alma mater, with food and lodging included.Everyone was laughing, the jokes were one after another, but my heart was a little sour. The future was like a curtain in front of me. I didn't know how to kick off the prelude.