Time flies, eyebrows become books

【7】

Everything went well, and we were all admitted to M University.As expected, I stumbled into a relatively unpopular major, and he was admitted to his ideal major. In any case, we are very happy, he is happy that we are still together, and I am happy that I can still be by his side.

We were all on the same campus in the freshman year, and the accommodation was a few buildings away. Although we all had different majors, we still took some common elective courses. In addition, the academic pressure of the freshman year was not high, so we made appointments to have dinner or play together when we had nothing to do.During that time, we had a very happy time, and the rich and colorful club activities led us to integrate into university life quickly.

Not long after school started, there were clubs recruiting new students.He forced me to join the Go club. I said I didn't even understand the rules and I didn't want to go. He said he would definitely teach me.I bit the bullet and joined the Weiqi club. Facts have proved that things that I am not interested in are still difficult to motivate me. I went with him two or three times, and then I left him behind.In the Weiqi club, he met several like-minded chess friends, and would make appointments to play chess when he was free, but he rarely participated in the activities of the chess club.He also joined the music club, and we made fun of him at the time, saying that he didn't want to drink, but wanted to meet beautiful girls.He was silly and did not defend himself, but insisted on participating in related activities.

The last semester was fleeting in everyone's fight. My final exam ended earlier than him, but I still bought the same train as him.At that time, his mother asked him to buy a plane ticket or train sleeper, and he asked me how to get back. I didn't want to waste money and said that I wanted to grab a hard seat ticket.

"Then I'll go with you and grab one for me."

"Your mother let you fly, why are you suffering?"

"It's boring to go back alone. Last time I came here, I was alone. It's boring. Let's go together."

"I'm not scaring you. For more than 20 hours, sitting without sleep all night, it's very uncomfortable, and my feet will be swollen."

"It's okay." He still had a bright smile on his face, unaware of the coming pain.To be honest, I really don’t want him to suffer with me. Although taking the train home is a very common thing for college students. At that time, many fellow villagers would make an appointment to take the train home together, but I still couldn’t bear to let him sit with me. I feel like that environment doesn't suit him at all.

In the end, he couldn't hold me back, and I couldn't hold him back either, so we could only compromise with each other, and bought him a soft berth, and I bought a hard seat.

I remember that it was the train at noon, we left fairly early, and the Spring Festival travel had not started, so the control was not strict. I could stroll to his sleeper area, we chatted and played cards together, and the time passed quickly.It was almost 11 o'clock in the evening, and I thought I should go back, so I said, "I'm going back, you go to bed first."

"No need, you might as well sleep here too." He looked sincere.

"How can I sleep in such a small bed?" In fact, my heart was already turbulent, but I said it calmly.

"You sleep for a while, I sleep for a while, take turns to rest."

"No need, then everyone can't sleep well." I really don't want him to be troubled by me.

"It's okay. Anyway, the train makes noise when it's running. I can't sleep well. It's so uncomfortable for you to sit there. You can help me look at things here." He said it thoughtfully and reasonably, obviously thinking of others , but with a pleading attitude, his concern is always warm and unassuming.

We did take turns to rest in the first half of the night. I let him sleep first, but it was obvious that he really didn’t sleep well. The rumbling noise of the train made him unable to sleep. He was always sensitive to light and sound.He barely slept, so he let me sleep, saying he didn't want to sleep anymore, and told me to leave him alone.But how could I sleep peacefully alone and let him sit alone?I just chatted with him, trying not to disturb the people around me.Gradually, snoring came and went, but we chatted more and more vigorously.He lay on his side inside, pulled me to lie down too, and we leaned our heads against each other so that we could speak in a low voice.I really have no memory of what we talked about at that time, only the sound of my own heartbeat.The bed was very narrow and we were so close that I could even feel his breath.I lay on my back stiffly, with almost half of my body hanging outside. I tried my best to calm myself down and try to distinguish what he was talking about.But the more this happened, the more confused the brain became.Although the surroundings are dim, his appearance is like slides, flashing through my mind one by one, from the first time I met him to the present, manipulating my thinking mercilessly.

"Hey, are you sleepy?" I was pulled back by him, who was almost out of my body, only to find that we were almost stuck together. He was on his side, holding me with one hand on the waist. "Are you about to fall, are you asleep?" He asked me with concern.Yes, his pretty face was full of concern, but my heart ached.We're so close together, I'm so full of fantasies that my body has a damn reaction.And he just had a concerned face.I suddenly understood how helpless it is to be so far away even though we are so close.

I hurriedly shook off his hand and sat up with my back to him. I was afraid that he would find out my ugly appearance, and I was afraid that any discord would destroy our friendship.

"Are you okay? Are you uncomfortable?" He leaned over my shoulder, and I dodged involuntarily. Even though it was dark all around, I clearly felt that he was frozen.He didn't speak, and silently retracted his hand.He coughed twice, as if he wanted to relieve the embarrassment at the moment, "Sleep if you're sleepy, I'm not sleepy at all, I'll go out for a while." He let me out of the bed and walked away.I was left alone to sit and regret, chaotically recalling the scene just now, did I react too violently?Are you being too unnatural?Did he discover something?God!Can anyone tell me what he was thinking.

Later, when it was dawn, he hadn't come back yet, and I searched around the aisle but didn't see him.With an idea, I ran to my hard seating area to have a look, and sure enough he was there, reading a magazine.He saw me walking over and asked with a smile, "Did you sleep well?" I was speechless.

After returning home, I stayed at home almost all the time. I occasionally saw my former classmate. He called me several times, but I excused myself.After that incident, I really didn’t have the courage to face him. I was afraid that my gaffe would destroy our friendship for many years. At the same time, I myself fell into a state of confusion. There were many thoughts that wanted to cover up and deny, and they visited my mind every day. , I fell into the conflict of self-affirmation and denial.Almost half a month later, one day he suddenly came to my house with fruit.As soon as my grandma saw him, she laughed from ear to ear and asked all kinds of questions.Grandma has always liked him, one is because he is really lovable, and the other is that he is the one who rescued me from being completely closed, and grandma is grateful to him.

That day, I talked and laughed with him as calmly as possible, and observed his behavior quietly.In the end, nothing could be seen. I don't believe that such a delicate person didn't notice anything, but I also believe that such a delicate person would pretend not to notice anything.The more he was like this, the more uneasy and awkward it made me feel.I want to explain the abnormality that night, but I am worried that there will be no silver 300 taels here.

"I'll stay at your place tonight, I told my mother to play with you." He said casually.

My heart tightened and I didn't know how to answer.Originally, this is a rare and common thing, but it is very special to me.We have known each other for so many years, and it is not uncommon for him to come to my house to play, but it is indeed the first time that he said he would stay overnight.Grandma's old house is not big, I live in one room, and grandma lives in the other. If he stays, he will definitely live with me.I was a little puzzled, didn't he notice anything that night?

Grandma left him full of joy, prepared some fruit for us for supper, and then went to rest, leaving the two of us to play in the room.At that time, I didn't have a computer at home, so I could only sit and chat or read a book. I felt very uncomfortable, but he naturally lay down on my bed after washing up, and asked me if I wanted to play chess.

"I haven't learned it yet, how can I play it?" I remembered that when he encouraged me to join the Go club, he promised to teach me to play chess.

"Then I'll teach you now." He looked at me, his eyes were as bright as stars.

Even simply looking at each other makes me restless at the moment.In fact, I am not interested in playing chess, but I think that instead of sitting awkwardly, it is better to find something to do, which can also ease the atmosphere.So I moved a chair and sat by the bed, and he sat on the bed. We chatted and played chess casually.He doesn't seem to be in shape today, and he also made a slight mistake when playing against a layman like me.After playing for a long time, we all felt boring, so we gave up and went to bed.

When we lay down side by side, I blushed again, and the pounding heartbeat reminded me of my cowardice and helplessness again.Even though it was pitch black, I could still feel the light in his eyes, staring at me earnestly and gently, and said, "What are you up to lately? Even if I ask you to come out to play."

"Um, I have a toothache recently, and I got angry when I came back, and I don't want to go out at all." I knew that I found a stupid and stupid reason, but I could only bite the bullet and talk nonsense.

He didn't say anything, and after a while he said, "That's it!"

After hearing this, I felt uncomfortable all over my body, and I couldn't figure out what he meant, so I could only hurriedly say: "It's getting late, go to bed!"