All men are like my ex

Le Dong is the person who has been accompanying Bai Yichen for the past four years, and he is also the person who has been following behind Bai Yichen before, so he is the person who knows those four years best.

Shi Yinan picked up the cell phone that he had dropped, dialed the phone, and was picked up after only two rings. He breathed a sigh of relief, thankful that Le Dong's cell phone number hadn't been changed.

But obviously, Le Dong didn't know who was calling from these strange numbers: "Hello?"

"... Le Dong." Shi Yinan said, his voice was hoarse, almost not like his original voice, "I am Shi Yinan."

And Le Dong was also stunned for a while, then sneered suddenly, and said in a tone that seemed to be mocking and disdainful: "Shi Yinan?"

"……Um."

Le Dong sneered and said, "What's the matter with President Shida calling me? Is it because you and I had dinner with your boyfriend at noon to ask the teacher?"

"Not for that, I know you're just having a meal—"

"Oh? So it's not just about eating, you're going to get angry, right?" Le Dong hates Shi Yinan so much, he doesn't want to say anything nice to him, he just wants to argue with Shi Yinan, wishing he could curse him with the worst words die.

Shi Yinan listened silently to Le Dong's sarcasm at him, without any anger in his heart, because he felt that he was on the verge of collapse, he stood on the edge of the cliff, Bai Yichen smiled at him at the bottom of the cliff, Beckoning him to jump down together is an extremely real illusion, and it would be best if someone could scold him at this time.

Le Dong scolded for a while, seeing that Shi Yi Nan didn't respond, he might feel that it's boring to sing a one-man show, so he asked: "What are you going to do?"

"I..." Shi Yinan paused for a while, then continued with difficulty, "I want to know how Yichen... survived during the four years I left."

After he finished speaking, there was no response from the other side of the phone for a long while, Yi Nan felt that Le Dong had even hung up the phone when it was quiet.

But Le Dong didn't hang up, and he was silent for a long time, then he suddenly laughed, hahaha, just like Shi Yinan just told him a century-old joke: "You are so awesome Shi Yinan, it turns out You have been back for so long, but you still don’t know anything; it turns out that you don’t know anything, and you can still be with him with peace of mind; it turns out that you still know that he’s survived! Fuck it, he’s about to die Now, you actually asked me how he survived?!"

When it came to the end, Le Dong almost shouted: "Do you think he has survived? Tell me, Shi Yinan, do you think he has survived it?"

Shi Yinan didn't speak, he knew that Le Dong did it on purpose, he just used these words on purpose, like a setback, cut his flesh and blood into pieces, twisted his flesh and blood, and caused him to die of pain.

"Then what do you know now?" Le Dong asked him instead of answering his question.

Shi Yinan said hoarsely: "I... went to Sheng Rui in the morning, and I saw Yichen went to see a psychiatrist, and he came out of Xia Tian's psychological consultation room."

"Oh, isn't it normal to see a psychiatrist?" Le Dong sneered, "What else?"

No, not normal.

I went to see a psychiatrist, how could it be normal?Why do normal people go to see a psychiatrist?

Shi Yinan said: "I also know that he committed suicide..."

"How many times?" Le Dong interrupted him.

several times?

When Shi Yinan heard Le Dong spit out these two words, he didn't understand at first, but when he understood, he felt that the blood in his whole body was congealed.He thought that Le Dong's words just now were enough to instruct him in pain, and he also expected that there might be more pain in the future, but he didn't expect that these severe pains would come so fast that he could barely react.

So Shi Yinan also asked in a daze: "...how many times?"

"Don't you think it's only one time?" Le Dong slowed down his voice and asked word by word. His voice was cruel and gentle, but it was like an ice blade soaked in salt water, and it hurt when he cut the flesh.

"Okay, you don't know, then let me tell you, he committed suicide three times, swallowed medicine once, and cut his wrist twice."

"Swallowing the medicine was because he couldn't sleep at that time. The doctor prescribed some sleeping pills for him. I felt upset when I saw the medicine, but Yichen couldn't sleep without it. I took the medicine with me every night after work. Going to see Yichen, I gave him the medicine, watched him take the medicine and then took it away. But he actually hid the pills under his tongue, kept them for a long time, and then swallowed them all. If I hadn’t rested the next day If he didn't go to work, his body should have been cold."

"Oh, do you know where he took the medicine? It was in the dilapidated rented house where you lived together. I won't talk about the remaining two suicides, because Yichen didn't think they were suicides. He said he It’s just that waiting for you is a bit tired, and the process is too painful. If there is more pain, the pain of waiting may not be so obvious. Mr. Shi, you must be well-informed to start such a big company, right? Can you tell me if that counts as suicide?"

does it count?

Shi Yinan held the phone, his finger bones turned white, his lips trembled and he couldn't say a word.

Le Dong obviously didn't intend to listen to his answer, so he went on to say: "Bai Yichen is simply farting, so what is it if it's not considered suicide? A normal person would cut such a deep gash on his own hand? He almost He didn't cut off his tendons, and it's a good thing he didn't cut off his right hand, otherwise how would you want him to continue painting?"

"That's all I've told you. You can find all these things. It's meaningless to talk too much, and I don't want to talk to a fool like you." Le Dong's voice was cold and full of malice, "Listen to me What's the point? If you have the guts, ask Yichen and listen to what he has to say, I'm just a bystander, why should I meddle in the two of you?"

"Either you broke up at the beginning, and the separation should be more clean, and tell him clearly what kind of scum you are, so that he can give up, or never come back, don't come back to torture him again."

"Really, Shi Yinan, it's better for you to be dead than to be alive. If you were dead four years ago, in a car accident, or something, as long as you died instead of leaving, Bai Yichen would not commit suicide, and he will not commit suicide today. Go see a psychiatrist."

"He will gradually forget about you, even if he is not with me, he will start a new life with other people."

Le Dong's voice weakened, and he smiled softly: "No matter what, he will live a happier life than he is now."

"Stop asking me these shitty questions, Shi Yinan." Le Dong finally said, "If you were in front of me, I would fucking beat you to death, not because of Bai Yichen, but because of people like you I'm disgusted."

After speaking, Le Dong hung up the phone.

Shi Yinan listened to the busy tone from the other end of the phone, and he let go of his hands after a long time, the phone fell to the corner of the table, making a heavy and heavy sound, the screen might be broken, but he didn't have time to worry about it.

In the morning, he was able to shed a few tears, but now his eyes are sore but very dry, because he thinks his own tears are too ridiculous, just like crocodile tears.

Yes, if he had been more honest when they broke up, he and Bai Yichen would not have been so miserable today.

What Le Dong said was harsh and stinging, but every sentence was correct.

The breakup text message he sent to Bai Yichen at the beginning was so simple, without a single explanation, he even dragged Bai Yichen's mobile phone number into the blacklist, refused to answer his calls, and did not read his text messages, even if Bai Yichen used someone else's When calling him on the mobile phone, as soon as he found out it was him, he would hang up immediately. He did this on purpose.

He was afraid that Bai Yichen would shake his determination to break up.

Bai Yichen's low voice, almost so humble that Chen Chen's begging will soften his heart, but it also makes him a little bored - everyone is a man, you are so humble, worse than a woman, don't you feel that you have no self-esteem, shameless?

But he forgot that he was the one who tore off Bai Yichen's self-esteem and threw it to the ground.

Shi Yinan raised his head in a daze, and looked at the photo on his desk, which was a photo of him and Bai Yichen when they were in college.

The two people in the photo have green eyebrows, but they are already old outside the photo. What can be frozen in a photo is only the past, the past scene, and the past emotions, and those things cannot be frozen forever or a continuation.

During the years when they were separated, he would sometimes take out their group photo at night and caress it. From the looks of others, he might feel nostalgic and infatuated. Isn't that what Bai Weihuan thinks?

But they felt this way because they didn't know what kind of scum he was, and they didn't know what kind of pain Bai Yichen had endured after he left.

Shi Yinan suddenly regretted so much, regretted why he had to leave that day, he gave up everything to pursue power and money, obviously these things can be obtained in a long time, but now he has to spend his whole life chasing after someone he may never be able to find. The one who redeemed again.

In the afternoon, when it was time to get off work, Bai Weihuan finally organized the materials and put them on Shi Yinan's desk.

And when Bai Weihuan came in, what he saw was Shi Yinan crossing his fingers on the table in silence, and he didn't raise his eyes when he heard him coming in. He even suspected that Shi Yinan might not have done anything this afternoon , sat like this all afternoon.

"Mr. Shi?" Bai Weihuan called him cautiously, "All the materials are here."

"En." Shi Yinan finally looked at him, but then his eyes dropped again, and his eyes fell on the stack of moderately thick and thin documents on the table, "Is it all here?"

"Yes."

"Have you seen?"

Bai Weihuan replied honestly, "No."

How could he look at these things involving the privacy of his boss?He just took a quick glance and quickly took it over, but even so, he caught a glimpse of the words "suicide" and "psychiatrist" on it, and his guess in the morning finally became a reality——Bai Yichen really committed suicide However, the reason is probably because of his boss, Shi Yinan.

Bai Weihuan was speechless in his heart, thinking of that gentle and quiet young man, he felt a little sad for him.

But he can't judge the relationship between Shi Yinan and Bai Yichen. In his opinion, Shi Yinan has no one around these years, and he doesn't flirt with others on weekdays. He is obviously still in love with Bai Yichen, his old lover. Yes, a high-ranking person like Shi Yinan has many Yingyingyanyan around him, but he has no other thoughts, as long as he doesn't cheat, he and Bai Yichen should still be able to live well.

Should be like this?