when you look at me

Yuan Yiping called Chen Shuo, but Chen Shuo picked it up quickly.

"Where are you?!"

"Just passed the ticket gate," Chen Shuo said in a noisy voice, "I'll be on the bus soon."

"Chen Shuo—" Yuan Yiping ignored the surprised gaze of the taxi driver: "Don't go!"

"I thought I made it clear in the text message," Chen Shuo said softly, "Yiping, I know, you don't really need me these days, you just need someone to accompany you. Because Tang Qingyu... reminded you Yizhi, isn't it? It's all over now, Yiping, you may just not recover, it will be fine after a while."

Yuan Yiping almost broke his voice: "No! That's not what I meant! Come back, Chen Shuo, I have something to tell you!"

"Calm down, Yiping, if..."

The loud roar overwhelmed Chen Shuo's voice, and after a few seconds, Chen Shuo hung up the phone.

A few minutes later, he sent a text message: "Don't contact me for now, Yiping, I wish you all the best in the future."

Yuan Yiping pinched the phone, feeling as if something had been stripped from his body.There had never been a moment as clear as this moment, he realized that he had lost Chen Shuo.

From then on, they are really just old acquaintances to each other. It may take many years to meet each other, and maybe they will not see each other again for many, many years.In the remotest corners of the world, after many years, Chen Shuo returned to Gancheng, and he and that city became Yuan Yiping's distant memories.

"Brother," the driver looked in the rearview mirror: "Are you... all right?"

"...I'm fine," Yuan Yiping reluctantly said, "Master, if you don't want to go, just put me here."

"Huh? Where are we going? This is not even the starting price!"

"I'm sorry, the person I'm looking for...has left."

Yuan Yiping paid the money and got off the car, standing on the sidewalk next to the road with people coming and going, a moment of panic rose in his chest.Before, he never felt that his hometown and Chen Shuo were far away from him, because Gancheng was there, and Chen Shuo was in Gancheng.Fang Wenshan wrote "The name that can't go back is hometown". In fact, he never felt that his hometown couldn't go back, but he didn't want to go back.His hometown is just a small city in the North China Plain, hot and dry in summer, heavy smog in winter, and fine dust in the wind.Such a hometown is naturally inferior to Shenzhen, and inferior to every foreign country he has been to.And Chen Shuo was the same as his hometown, silent and humble, allowing him to hate and neglect him, in the final analysis, it was because he was confident, he knew that Chen Shuo was always there, and he would definitely be there.

But Chen Shuo was about to give up—Yuan Yizhi passed away, and in the past years, only he and Chen Shuo knew each other and witnessed each other, but Chen Shuo was about to give up, and only Yuan Yiping was left.

Thinking of this, Yuan Yiping almost wanted to bend down, he felt his heart was so empty that he was about to let in the wind.In the past, he felt that Chen Shuo was a thorn buried in his heart, buried very deep, which made him feel uncomfortable when he thought about it.Now that the thorn has been pulled out, the heart is empty, like a plastic bag with a hole in it.

Yuan Yiping called Liang Yuyi: "I have to go for a few days—I don't know the exact number of days."

"what happened?"

"I want to go back to Gancheng and find Chen Shuo."

A few seconds later, Liang Yuyi said "Oh" slowly, and then said: "I don't know what happened between you two, but when Chen Shuo gave me the bank card that night, he said, He has done things that you can't forgive, alas... if you can forgive, forgive, no one is a saint, right?"

"Yes," Yuan Yiping replied in a low voice: "The company will trouble you during this time."

"Don't worry," Liang Yuyi smiled, "I thought you were going to break up with me, you scared me to death."

Yuan Yiping returned to his residence, packed several pieces of clothes and put them into suitcases. He didn't know how long he would stay in Gancheng this time.Then he booked the earliest flight, which will take off at [-]:[-] tomorrow morning and land at Gancheng Airport at [-]:[-].Now the only thing Yuan Yiping begged for was not to delay the flight.

During the phone call with Chen Shuo in the afternoon, Chen Shuo said, calm down and calm down, if...

what if?

If I finally overcome the fear of death and come to you, if I am willing to surrender myself to fate because of loving you, if I am willing to live in fear of losing you all day long for you.

If I understand you as well as I can, if I am willing to bear the betrayal of my loved ones, if I confess my guilty selfish love.

Can you, use your moon-like eyes.

Take another look at me.