Ask your heart and soul

Fu Ye opened his eyes and found that he was in a familiar Mercedes. This was Su Xu's car, but the driver was Liu Kong.

Su Xu sat beside Fu Ye, and when he saw him awake, he immediately helped him up: "Brother Fu, are you alright?"

Fu Ye touched his chest, and his heartbeat had returned to normal, beating forcefully on his chest wall, the previous pain seemed like a hallucination.He took a deep breath, leaned back, and closed his eyes slightly.During this period of time, he was too tired, his cheeks had visibly thinned to the naked eye, his originally profound facial features were sunken in the half-bright light, making him look sharper, but his imposing manner was far from what it used to be.

"Brother Fu," Su Xu carefully observed his expression, and asked hesitantly, "You, you and Bai Wan..." He had long felt that Fu Ye and Bai Wan were a little weird, but he couldn't be sure because he I always thought that Fu Ye had an obsession with Jiang Zhiming.God knows how many [-] o'clock secret love stories Su Xu had filled his mind in his mind over the years, but he just didn't think about the two people who had already been secretly in the dark.This time Jiang Zhiming was injured, no one wanted only Fu Ye, and Fu Ye was taking care of him in his clothes, so he figured out a clue, this is not something you can ask for, it is clearly a resurgence of old feelings!But at this time, Bai Wan stepped in again, and Su Xu's head, which had always turned very smoothly, was a little rusty.

Fu Ye knew what Su Xu wanted to ask, but he was not in the mood to explain, and asked instead, "Why are you with Liu Kong?"

Liu Kong, who was driving in front, quickly said: "I called Mr. Su. You were so anxious on the phone. I was afraid that something might happen, so I asked Mr. Su to come over and have a look."

Liu Kong doesn't have any great skills, but he thinks a lot. Ever since Bai Wan brought him to sign with WW Company, he has seen through the tricks of his own artist and Boss Fu. This time, just as Bai Wan left, Fu Ye became furious. Asked him, in order to avoid getting hurt, he had the foresight to call Su Xu up.

Fu Ye snorted coldly, didn't bother to expose him, and said directly: "Check the nearest flight to San Francisco for me, I want to fly to the United States as soon as possible!"

"You're crazy!" Before Liu Kong could reply, Su Xu yelled first, "Zhiming is about to undergo surgery, what are you doing in the US at this time? Looking for Bai Wan?"

Seeing that Fu Ye didn't say a word, it seemed that he had acquiesced, Su Xu was really anxious.

"Brother Fu!" He unconsciously raised his voice, "I don't know what's going on with you and Bai Wan, but since he's gone, he must have his own reasons. What's the use of chasing him now?"

Fu Ye's voice was low and tired, but there was a faint determination to not give up until he reached his goal: "Whether it is useful or not is not up to you. I can't just watch him go further and further away."

"What about Na Zhiming?" Su Xu asked the most important question.Regardless of whether Jiang Zhiming is an artist of Zhonghai now, he is also on Jiang Zhiming's side based on the relationship and relationship between the three of them along the way.

"Are you going to abandon him now? When he needs you most?" Su Xu's tone was aggressive, full of doubt and disapproval.He himself is a cynical playboy, but no matter how much fun he has, no matter how infiltrated in this circle, the "revolutionary friendship" established when he was young is always irreplaceable.

Silence, bottomless silence extended infinitely, Fu Ye's cold side face became dazed and dazed in the flashing light outside the car window, he remembered what he said to Bai Wan, this was never a multiple-choice question , but now, he was forced into a dilemma and had to make a choice.

At this time, Liu Kong in the front row said anxiously: "Fu, Mr. Fu, Bai Wan told me that he won't be going for a long time. He just wants to calm down. Why don't you give him some time?" , it's good for him and good for you."

Give him time?

Fu Ye suddenly felt very funny, he asked Bai Wan to give him time to deal with Jiang Zhiming's matter, and Bai Wan also asked to give himself time to calm down.Time, they all need time, but who can tell whether this is a kind of escape?He who has always been rational and self-sufficient, actually didn't want to wait for a second at this time, he was afraid that once Bai Wan escaped, he would not come back.When he thought of Bai Wan getting farther and farther away from him, he felt a kind of panic that he had never felt before, and his heart seemed to be tormented repeatedly in boiling water.Thinking back when Jiang Zhiming left, although he was also sad, he was far from feeling this way. It may be because Jiang Zhiming himself is like the wind, which cannot be caught by the wind, and he never thought of catching him.But Bai Wan is different, Bai Wan is a little snail, he met him on the road, pried open his hard shell bit by bit, touched his heart bit by bit, and never wanted to let go.He never thought that the snail would leave him one day.Even though he was taking care of Jiang Zhiming during this time, he knew that Bai Wan would definitely be waiting at home. As long as he went back, a light would always be on in the living room and never go out.For the first time, he felt a warm and happy home, and this sense of belonging was given to him by Bai Wan.

Is it that once you have it, you can no longer bear to lose it?

Fu Ye shook his head in a self-deprecating manner. He bound himself in a cocoon, painted the ground as a prison, and trapped himself firmly.But in fact, he knew very well in his heart that what Su Xu and Liu Kong said was right, Jiang Zhiming was going to have an operation soon, he could not leave at this time, and Bai Wan repeatedly emphasized in the letter not to look for him, if he risked Then run to the United States, press every step of the way, it is likely to have the opposite effect.

In many cases, the answer is actually right in front of your eyes. As long as you don't be blinded by emotions, but think about the problem rationally, you will always get the option with the most benefits.

Don't be emotional, solve the problem.Fu Ye said to himself.

"Brother Fu..." Su Xu looked at him anxiously, "You should at least wait for Zhiming to finish the operation before leaving, right?"

Fu Ye finally nodded: "Yes." He clenched his fist, then let go, and said, "Of course, I was impulsive just now."

The vocal cord repair operation is scheduled for next Saturday. Professor Smith from the United States will perform the operation himself. He is very good at this kind of precise repair surgery and has many successful cases before. After checking Jiang Zhiming's condition, Professor Smith said, He is 80.00% sure that Jiang Zhiming can speak the same as before. If he is lucky, he can even continue singing, but the tone may change.

After hearing his assurance, most of the hearts of everyone, especially Fu Ye, were relieved.

In the past, Jiang Zhiming's calm and breezy way of leaving without nostalgia deceived him. Fu Ye thought that singing to Jiang Zhiming was just another three-minute hot ticket, but this time his voice After being injured, he saw Jiang Zhiming's painful and desperate eyes, and saw him secretly asking the doctor's text message, and realized that singing is one of the few things Jiang Zhiming values ​​in his life.

It may not be accurate to say that Jiang Zhiming returned to China entirely for him, at least for a certain reason, he came back to sing.

Thinking about it now, he and Jiang Zhiming have been together for seven years, which seems to be a long time, but there are too many misunderstandings in it.

He didn't really know Jiang Zhiming.He was too arrogant at that time, even to Jiang Zhiming, he was very self righteous.They are like a pair of people inside and outside the mirror, loving each other through the glass, no matter how much the same posture, reaching out to touch each other, there is always a thin barrier between them.On the contrary, when he met Bai Wan later, he pried open Bai Wan's shell, and Bai Wan also broke his stereotype and melted his coldness.He learned to stand on an equal footing, to really put himself in the shoes of the other person, even if it wasn't good enough, at least he learned to do it.

After sorting out these thoughts, Fu Ye sent a long WeChat message to Bai Wan.Bai Wan's mobile phone in China was shut down, so these messages might not be delivered, but his desire to express was so overwhelming that it was almost unstoppable.He finally knew why Bai Wan carried a notepad with him to record those emotions.Bai Wan needs an exit, and so does he.For the first time, Fu Ye felt that he had become a real person, not a perfect machine.

Fu Ye sent Bai Wan a WeChat message every day, sometimes it was a long one, sometimes it was a few short ones.One night, Jiang Zhiming took a new medicine and it was very painful. Jiang Yan was afraid that he would feel uncomfortable and make trouble, so he asked Fu Ye to stay with him at night.Jiang Zhiming tossed about for a while, and fell asleep holding his hand.Seeing that he was sleeping very peacefully, Fu Ye quietly pulled out his hand, turned on the phone, and began clicking WeChat.

In the dark ward, the blue light of the mobile phone screen reflected Fu Ye's sharp-edged face. His expression was so serious, focused, and even devout. He didn't notice that Jiang Zhiming secretly opened his eyes. .

Jiang Zhiming looked at him quietly, without making any movement, even his breathing faded almost inaudibly.He is like a lifeless statue, quietly looking at the one he loves, pressing his phone endlessly.That must have been a long, long text.Jiang Zhiming thought, is he writing a diary?Still texting someone?He and Fu Ye have been together for seven years and separated for six years. There has been a long time between them. He no longer knows that Fu Ye, who has always been reticent and uncompromising, will also make such a long speech.

After Fu Ye finished typing the last word, he tilted his head slightly.Jiang Zhiming's eyes flashed, and the diamond-like light on Fu Ye's earlobe cut a slash in his heart like an ice blade.Jiang Zhiming felt the pain and numbness of the wound on his arm, and his neck and cheeks were also burning. The carotid artery was throbbing, pulling his nerves.But he didn't want to be called Fu Ye again, so he gritted his teeth and closed his eyes.

In the next few days, Fu Ye obviously felt that Jiang Zhiming was much quieter.He was very cooperative in all the inspections, and he no longer asked Fu Ye to accompany him when changing the dressing.However, the night before the operation day, he left Fu Ye behind, expressing that he had something to say to him.

Jiang Yan pulled Jiang's mother away to sign the pre-operative agreement, and then Su Xu also left. When he left, he gave Fu Ye a meaningful look, as if to remind him of something.

Soon, there were only the two of them left in the ward.

After more than two months of treatment and recuperation, Jiang Zhiming's complexion has recovered very well. The most fortunate thing is that he has not been disfigured. At this moment, he is sitting on the bedside, being hit by the strong light of the incandescent lamp above his head. The face is like jade, delicate and smooth.If you don't look at the pitted scars on the right arm and the side of the neck, it is almost the same as before.

And these scars can also be repaired through skin grafting. Fu Ye is very confident about this, and even looks a lot lighter.

Jiang Zhiming seemed to see what he was thinking, smiled faintly, and pointed to the iPad on the bedside.

The iPad was for Jiang Zhiming to type, and the doctor told him not to use his voice, and he would type everything he needed on the iPad.

Fu Ye handed him the iPad, and asked softly, "What's the matter? Worried about tomorrow's operation?"

Jiang Zhiming's slender and fair fingers danced quickly, and a line of words gradually appeared on the screen. He turned the iPad to show Fu Ye, and Fu Ye's expression froze suddenly.

Jiang Zhiming asked: "I have an operation tomorrow, and after I recover, are you going to leave me?"

Fu Ye stared at the line of words, without making a sound for a long time, as if he was thinking about how to answer.And Jiang Zhiming didn't back down, he looked at him stubbornly and piercingly, as if he wanted an answer.

After a long time, Fu Ye raised his head and said to Jiang Zhiming, "Zhiming, I know it's cruel to say this, but for us, it's really impossible."

After Jiang Zhiming came back for so long, he invited him to dinner and wanted to invest in him. When he was injured, he only needed his comfort.But now, the last layer of veil separating them has been pierced, and the bloody facts are in front of them——

Love really can't come back.

Jiang Zhiming's face turned pale, and he grabbed the iPad and typed another sentence.

"Is it because of Bai Wan? Do you really love him that much?"

This time, Fu Ye quickly answered him: "No, it has nothing to do with him. Rather, once some things die, they can never come back to life."

People cannot be resurrected after death, and so is love.When it exists, it is so lively and lively that countless people flock to it, unable to extricate themselves, just like the first ray of sunshine in spring, the first drop of dew in the morning, just like it really has life and soul, but once it dies, the light and The flame was extinguished, and even if it ignited again, it was just lingering, meaningless.

Jiang Zhiming buried his head deeply, put his hands on the iPad, but couldn't type for a long time, as if a slight tremor was controlling him, and then the tremor expanded like a spider web, and Jiang Zhiming's whole body trembled stand up.

"Zhiming!" Fu Ye quickly stepped forward and held him down, "Don't get excited, don't get excited."

Jiang Zhiming pushed his hand away, and let out a hoarse guttural voice: "What if my operation fails? Are you not afraid that I won't cooperate tomorrow?"

A sentence was spoken intermittently, and it took Fu Ye a long time to recognize what he meant. He quickly shook his head to meet Jiang Zhiming's gaze.

"you will not!"

"?" Jiang Zhiming sneered, and typed a line, "Are you so sure?"

"I'm sure."

"why?"

"Because I know you." Fu Ye said word by word, "I know you better than before. You are more proud than anyone else, and you don't bother to do this kind of thing. When we were together, you didn't tell me about your pressure , You didn't say what you gave up when you came back this time. From the day we met, Jiang Zhiming has stood on the cloud. He will not prove love by selling misery, and he will not exchange his most cherished voice. My sympathy, right?"

Jiang Zhiming stared at him blankly, and after a while, he smiled erratically, this windy smile seemed to blow away all the entanglements of love and hate.With a pale face, he slowly typed the last sentence——

"You're right. Compassion is not love. I don't care for your charity. When I finish the operation tomorrow, you can go away!"

Bai Wan was scrolling through Weibo, and when she saw the message, she fell silent all of a sudden.

Ye Chengen was driving the car, but he was always paying attention to him in the passenger seat: "What's wrong? What happened."

"It's nothing." Bai Wan marked the message up and stopped paying attention.

Ye Chengen shook his head: "Has anyone told you that you are not good at lying." He tapped his finger on the steering wheel and said, "Let me guess, is Jiang Zhiming going to have an operation?"

Bai Wan was surprised: "You know?"

"I also saw the news this morning." Ye Chengen glanced at him, "Are you thinking that if Jiang Zhiming's operation is successful, Fu Ye will come to the United States to look for you?"

"No." Bai Wan immediately denied, "I never thought about it that way."

Ye Chengen smiled, looked away, and said nothing more.

Bai Wan's heart was in a mess, although Ye Chengen didn't ask further, but he did touch his secret mind.He couldn't deny that deep down in his heart, he was really looking forward to it.But, will Fu Ye come?

During this week in the United States, Bai Wan adapted quickly, and he felt that the environment here was more suitable for him than in China.Because here, the relationship between people is hot on the outside and cold on the inside, and communication is maintained at a very moderate distance.Bai Wan doesn't need to deliberately pretend or open his heart, he just needs to focus on the professional field.This week's visit and study at Wagner gave him a lot of inspiration. It turns out that pop music can still do this and develop in this way.Some of Wagner's concepts actually coincide with those of WW, but they are obviously more mature, professional and promising.Ye Chengen hinted several times to let him come and help him develop the Chinese market, but Bai Wan was still hesitant.

"Actually, you don't need to give me an answer in such a hurry." Ye Chengen opened the door for Bai Wan and asked him to get out of the car.They faced a rather post-modern building, the whole shape is a treble clef.This is a classical music museum highly recommended by Ye Chengen. He happened to have nothing to do today, so he brought Bai Wan to visit.

The two passed through the bustling tourists and walked in side by side.

Bai Wan was shocked by the rich collection in it.

Ye Chengen was very satisfied with his reaction, and said with a smile: "The world is so big, you have to see more to know what is the best and what is most suitable for you, isn't it?"