Gan Lin

Trapped in deep disappointment, I sat there for an unknown amount of time, sniffing, sorting out my emotions, took out my phone, looked out the window at the sky that was as dark as my mood, and clicked on the address book.

--have time?Please eat.

Half an hour later, in the back street of the school, Ye Luoyu opened the menu uneasily.

"This store is quite expensive, is it okay?"

I said: "It's okay, you can eat boldly."

"Yes!"

Ye Luoyu is big, eats a lot, and tastes so delicious that everyone at the same table can have an appetite. The restaurant owner will definitely like such a guest, but unfortunately I am not in the mood to eat with him today.

It was almost time to eat, I asked him: "Do you like me?"

He replied without thinking, "I like it."

"Where's Ru Yuze?"

"I like it too."

"really……"

He stopped the knife and fork: "What?"

I shook my head and pushed the plate forward: "Eat more."

Sure enough, I can't count the likes I blurted out. Ru Yuze is actually angry with me.

——Understanding so clearly, do you have a crush on me?

--Yes.

——Answering so quickly is too fake.

In fact, it wasn't him who was fake, it was me, and it was me who perfunctorily played off his sincerity.

Ye Luoyu put down his chopsticks, looked at me and asked, "Are you in a bad mood?"

I pushed my cheek: "Is it obvious?"

He nodded again and again.

"Hey," I said, "why did you write to me in a pink envelope?"

Ye Luoyu wiped the corner of his mouth, his face full of bewilderment: "I didn't use pink."

I trembled with my fingertips and took a sip of water to cover up.

"Oh, that's my mistake."

Ye Luoyu asked: "Don't tell me, why are you in a bad mood?"

I rolled my eyes: "Nothing."

Ye Luoyu asked suspiciously: "Didn't you ask me out just to talk to me?"

"I think too much about you," I smiled, "I asked you out because sometimes the authorities are in the dark, but the bystanders are clear."

He pretended to be suddenly enlightened, and then asked, "Then what am I going to watch?"

Silly boy.

Ye Luoyu asked me to go for a walk after dinner, but I refused.

After saying goodbye, I walked alone under the street lights and circled the playground. At this time, all the men and women who were struggling to lose weight came out to sweat, and I looked particularly snorted—a fool.

After walking slowly for two laps, someone chased me from behind and patted me on the shoulder.

When I turned my head, I didn't expect it to be a counselor.

When I met the counselor, I knew in my heart that he was going to talk about changing the dormitory. Despite all kinds of reluctance, I still walked over slowly.

"Hello teacher."

"Ah hello."

The counselor took my shoulders affectionately.

"I know you and Ru Yuze are both good boys. It's inevitable for boys to have some conflicts. It's not a big deal to communicate well, don't you think?"

"We'll make up."

I said it to him, and I said it to myself.

The counselor nodded his head in satisfaction: "You have the best relationship with Ru Yuze, and our teacher feels sorry for the quarrel. I met your head teacher a few days ago and wanted you to do ideological work for him. The one in your school The exchange student quota to Switzerland is going to Ru Yuze."

I heard this and looked at him in shock.

I know that there are two places for exchange students in the college this year, but I always feel that I can't compete with myself, and I never thought that it will be allocated to Ru Yuze.

The counselor said to me with a headache: "He felt that he could not adapt to life abroad, so he declined, what a great opportunity."

It turned out to be rejected, that's okay...

"Forest drought."

"exist!"

The counselor smiled: "Don't be nervous, you go back and talk to Ru Yuze, the school will arrange it, and tell him not to worry, but it's a rare opportunity in a year, and it's too late to regret it now before reporting it."

"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh."

The counselor patted the back of my head: "Okay, let's go, the teacher believes that you can handle it well."

"Thank you, teacher."

I went back to the dormitory in a confused state of mind, and when I saw the empty bed opposite, I suddenly shook, and hurriedly took out my mobile phone.

"Ru Yuze, have you moved away?"

"Ah."

"Are you trying to avoid me?" I asked hurtfully.

"No," he said slowly, as if he was choosing his words carefully, "I've been waiting for a while, but you're not here."

"I knew I would invite Ye Luoyu to dinner another day." I said regretfully.

There was silence on the phone for a while: "You were with Ye Luoyu just now?"

"Yeah," I said. "When I came back, I met the counselor. He said you were going to Switzerland for a year."

"Nothing." Ru Yuze said.

"What a great opportunity, don't you really want to go?" I tested him.

He asked me back, "You really want me to go?"

"Of course not." I almost blurted out.

There was a faint smile in his voice: "Then I won't go."

I took the phone away and touched the base of my ear that was hot. It must be caused by electromagnetic radiation, otherwise why would it be so hot.

"Forest drought?"

"I'm here."

He restrained his smile: "I'll hang up if it's okay."

"Wait," I asked him, "can I sit next to you in class tomorrow?"

It seemed like a century of waiting before I heard his answer.

"can."

This night I was tossing and turning in bed alone, and I could keep my eyes open until dawn without drinking coffee. Maybe I should listen to Ru Yuze and bring Song Lan over to stay with me for a night.

I'm not afraid of the dark or ghosts, but living alone...it's really lonely.

There is no Ru Yuze to help me turn off the lights when I go to bed at night, and no Ru Yuze to bring me breakfast when I open my eyes in the morning.

The moment I walked into the teaching building, I realized even more sadly that without Ru Yuze by my side, I didn't know which classroom I should go to.

I had no choice but to ask Song Lan for help, and he laughed wildly. It took me two lunches to barely seal his mouth.

Song Lan said, "It's fortunate that Ru Yuze moved out, otherwise you would have been taken care of by him."

I retorted angrily: "Stop slandering him."

Song Lan pinched my face: "You're finished, you actually helped him speak up in the first place instead of protecting yourself, young man, the roots of love are so deep that you don't know it."

I slapped his hand away: "Send me Song Ning's contact number later."

Song Lan pulled my face vigorously: "Did you hit me too hard? Your brain is so aroused that you can't think about it. You want to seek comfort from Song Ning."

"What are you thinking?" I struggled to break away from him, "Isn't your sister falling in love with others every day? I want to ask her how to fall in love with someone who likes me."

Didn't Ru Yuze say that he likes me so he can't be friends? Then I like him too. If everyone is equal, we can continue to communicate.

Here's what I came up with after thinking about it all night:

What if my best friend likes me?

I like him too.

Yes, it must be possible.

Anyway, I don't have anyone I like now, and Ru Yuze is perfect as a spouse. The only fly in the ointment is that the "lordosis and back warping" lordosis position is relatively downward.

But no one is perfect, I can't ask too much, and as a good young man in the new century, I can't be too greedy for physical harmony, it's almost enough.

I thought about it all night and could only come up with one idea.Knowing that Ru Yuze's mind is not pure, but still keeping him by his side, just taking advantage of it without paying anything in the name of "friend", that would be too hooligan.

I firmly said to Song Lan: "Your sister will definitely teach me to like others quickly,"

Song Lan said, "You're talking about tongue twisters."

I said: "Don't worry about it, just send me the practice method of Song Ning."

"Tsk tsk tsk, don't worry about it." Song Lan said, "Anyway, you always feel good about yourself. When the time comes, you will find out that it's an illusion. Don't cry if you touch your nose."

"It's not an illusion."

I thought to myself, if it is, it is not my own illusion.

Song Lan raised her chin and looked me up and down.

"Ru Yuze confessed to you?"

I was stunned for a moment, and stammered: "You, how do you know."

"Otherwise, do you think normal men would raise you like a little princess?" Song Lan sighed, "If you're a GAY who fell in love with Ru Yuze every minute, it's a pity that you're a narcissus and your brain is not clear."

"Get out!" I kicked his shin.

Song Lan quickly jumped away and shouted behind me: "Good morning, Ru Yuze."

I quickly put my legs away and turned my head back suddenly. Because of the excessive force, I clearly heard a "creak" from my neck.

"hiss--"

Before feeling the pain, I let out a horrified expression.

Ru Yuze stood at the top of the stairs, against the light, and asked me, "Is it twisted?"

"No, no." I covered my neck and smiled guiltyly.

He wanted to reach out and touch it, but he lifted it halfway and put it down in embarrassment.

"Don't fight on the stairs in the future."

I smirked: "Got it."

In the past, I was most annoyed by his long-winded words, and the fear of being read over the wall and running out is still vivid in my memory, but now when I hear him scold me, I feel a sense of warmth from the bottom of my heart.Perhaps this is what people say that you only know how to cherish when you lose it.

Song Lan leaned into my ear and whispered, "Look, you're useless."

I was so angry that I wanted to kick him again, but since Ru Yuze was present, I just gave him a sideways glance.

We walked into the classroom together, found familiar seats and sat down.

Ru Yuze is a good student, she must sit in the front three rows in class, and she has to hold me down every time, otherwise I will slip into the back row and fall asleep with Song Lan.

I raised my eyes and looked at the clock. There were still 10 minutes before class began. The teacher was not there, and there were not many students in the classroom.

Ru Yuze said beside me: "I want to find Song Lan, I won't stop you."

I immediately stated: "No, no."

He gave a soft "huh".

I propped my head up to look at his profile, very clean and neat lines, if I am the most handsome in the academy, then he must be the second most handsome.

Such an excellent person, I have no reason not to like it.

He turned his head slightly: "What are you looking at?"

"Look at you." I said honestly.

A blush appeared on Ru Yuze's fair skin, which was really pretty.

"Don't look at it, there's nothing to see."

I poked his arm with my fingertips: "Hey, Ru Yuze, please move back, I like you too, really."

His body trembled for a moment, and the blushes that had appeared at first faded away.

"Forest drought."

Ru Yuze rubbed his forehead, with endless bitterness in his tone.

"You don't like me, you just... get used to me."

The author has something to say:

*Snorting is a homonym in Japanese——loneliness.