Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

You have a good rest, I'm going back to my room.As I said that, I went down to the bed, and just as I walked to the door, I suddenly heard her utter a word in a hoarse voice:

I hate myself, I'm too cowardly, I dare not kill him, but I don't even dare to commit suicide.

I don't know if she said this to me, but it was the first time she had confide in me since I reunited with her.I froze in place, not knowing what to say for a moment.

She ignored my reaction and continued:

Why is this? I dare not kill him, and I cannot kill myself.Every time I close my eyes, my mind is full of those pictures, I can't forget them, no matter how hard I try, I can't forget them.I can't bear it, how should this end, can you teach me?

I turned around, looked at her back, and whispered:

You can forget all of this, depending on whether you want to or not.

How could I forget all this? You are not me, do you understand that feeling? She said slowly.

That's because you are always stuck in it and never think about pulling away from yourself.You intend to end all this in the most extreme way, by dying.But Lin Yi, you are an adult, you should understand that our fate is not just your own, there are many people who worry about it.You're done, and they are the ones who are tortured after death.The family is unlucky, do you still want to stab your parents? Do you know that when your mother saw you cutting your wrist, she was frightened and had a heart attack.

She was silent, and I said slowly:

Lin Yi, do you still remember when you were young, your mother took you downstairs to learn to walk every day, and you fell and knocked, and she felt so distressed, she hugged you in her arms and kissed away the tears on your face.When you grow up and start to go to school, no matter how busy your father is at work, he will pick you up at the school gate on time every day, take you with him on an old-fashioned bicycle, and always buy you fried buns from the shop in the alley on the way back.When you get older, you start commuting to and from school by yourself, and you want a new and beautiful bicycle, and they will buy it for you without hesitation.Later, the car was stolen by accident, and you cried sadly, but they pretended to be indifferent to comfort you, and saved money, and bought you another one.

On a rainy day, you forgot to bring an umbrella, and your father came all the way from the workplace to give you an umbrella. Under a rain poncho, his face was covered with rain, and his glasses were covered with mist, which was washed black and bright Bicycles and drenched trousers rolled up.It's your birthday, and you want to invite everyone to eat out like your classmates did. That night you were having fun with your classmates outside, but your parents were at home, guarding a pot of noodles, and simply celebrated your birthday for you.

I'm in high school, and I'm a big girl. For your studies, the family has exchanged a small deposit for a house, just to make it easier for you to go to and from school.You have good grades, they are happy, and they always love to show off in front of others.After returning home, I couldn't help telling you to study hard, which annoyed you and talked back to them.Every time you talk back, they keep quiet and tolerate you like this.When you grow up and have a mind of your own, they know it's time to let it go too.

You have been admitted to a university and are going to study abroad.They hated you and sent you to the school gate, but they refused to go back for a long time.Turning around pretending to be free and easy, but crying secretly at night.You don't think about it when you are away, but they are always concerned about it when they are at home. They call you every day to inquire about the situation. It's not for anything else, just to hear the voice of their daughter.But you always hang up the phone impatiently, do you know how sad they are?

If you are promising and can study abroad, they are even more worried about the far side of the ocean.But I want to send you out even if I grit my teeth, and all the money I save on food and expenses will be spent abroad for you.Even if you are sensible, working outside reduces their burden, but do you know how hard it is for them?

Lin Yi, for the sake of Zhang Yucheng, can you really abandon your parents like this, and belittle the precious life they gave you? How far do you want to push them to be satisfied? Is it you who are suffering, or are they suffering more? ?Do you understand that everything about you is a supreme treasure to them, your preciousness and value cannot be measured in their hearts! You really have the heart to stab your parents in the heart like this, one knife at a time , bloody, bloody, don't you hurt?

In the middle of my speech, she had already started sobbing, causing my emotions to twitch and my throat to choke, and then the speech was broken, and I was crying myself.But she had already cried until the sky was dark and the earth was dark, and she was extremely sad.I know I shouldn't provoke her like this, but in order to stop her suicidal thoughts, I must make her realize the value of her existence in this world.Let her realize her responsibility, realize that without Zhang Yucheng, the sky has not collapsed, and people like Zhang Yucheng cannot ruin her life.

I don't speak any more, she is filled with grief at this moment, all kinds of feelings are in her heart, she can't stop crying, and she is still murmuring her father and mother, I think, if what I said today, it can really make her cry. Realizing the value of one's own existence is more useful than patiently taking care of her for a few days.

But in fact, I only said these things for the sake of treatment. What I said just now has been held in my heart for a long time, and I finally said it today.Everything I said was something that happened to her personally, some was what she told me before, some was what I saw in her composition, and some was what her mother said, I remember everything clearly, I Think if she forgets, I have to remember it for her.