Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

But her suicidal thoughts are difficult to stop. Her suicidal thoughts are much stronger than the thoughts of hurting others, and they are also much deeper-rooted. Once they surface, they will spread for a long time.During this period, it was very difficult for her to stop thinking by herself. When the obsessive-compulsive disorder came to an end, she just tried to kill herself by all means.During this period of time, you must watch her all the time, stick to him, and keep her hands from touching any dangerous objects that could endanger her life.If it doesn't work, tie her to a chair and carry her over.But try to be gentle and don't hurt her, otherwise she will leave a new shadow.

OK, I see.I hastily hung up the phone.

As soon as I put the phone back on the coffee table, I saw her hands dripping with water, the faucet was not turned off, and she walked out of the bathroom in a daze, still muttering: I can’t wash it clean, what should I do, I can’t wash it clean, it’s so dirty, so dirty

I thought it was bad, and hurried to her.I wanted to grab her immediately and restrain her, but on a whim, I walked into the bathroom and turned off the faucet first.Then I immediately looked out, and saw that she was really standing there, as if she was looking for the sound of the water that had disappeared.I approached her quietly, and first tried to call her name:

Lin Yi?

She shrugged her shoulders, as if taken aback.Then she suddenly trembled all over, and burst into tears, tears pouring down like rain.Crying and crying, she squatted on the ground aggrievedly, hugged her knees, and shrunk herself into a ball, her emaciated figure looked particularly bitter.I was at a loss by her reaction, why did I start crying all of a sudden? Didn’t she mean that she would try various methods to commit suicide? Why is she crying so sadly now? Could it be because I turned off the tap?

But she was crying so pitifully that I was so heartbroken that I couldn't help but squat down and hug her into my arms, comforting her in a low voice beside her ear sadly:

Don't cry, it's okay, I will be with you.I'm always by your side, don't cry

After a long time, she began to sob and speak intermittently.After carefully distinguishing for a moment, I realized what she was saying:

don't hug me i'm dirty

silly woman

My tears could no longer be held back and fell down.

☆、Chapter 9

She cried for a long time before she gradually calmed down and regained that numb state.I helped her back to the dining table and ate something briefly. This dinner was boring.After eating, I let her take a bath and go to bed early, and cleaned up the dishes by myself.

When I came out of the kitchen, she was already in the bathroom.I pretended to watch TV, but my nerves were tense, and I always paid attention to her movements, for fear that she would cut her wrists once at my house.Fortunately, there are no sharp things in my bathroom that can be used to commit suicide, but there are many ways to commit suicide. Maybe she will drink the detergent directly. I can't relax.

Originally, this has entered December, and the season has entered the depths of winter, so bathing should not be too frequent.But because of her obsession with cleanliness, she is really very clean, even taking a bath every day.Every time I take a bath, it takes a very long time, and I can't come out to the left or right, so I am anxious to wait.My family's water bill has more than doubled this month, which really makes me dumbfounded.

What made me breathe a sigh of relief was that she took a shower today as if she was avoiding something, and she quickly finished washing, her hair was wet and she didn't chuīgān, she plunged into her room, and she didn't know that she thought there was something in the bathroom Something was hunting her down.

I stood at her door and hesitated for a moment, but in the end I didn't knock on the door and went in.I turned around and went back to the living room, watched TV for a while, and then I also went into the bathroom to wash up, preparing to go to bed early.Recently, I have been sleeping very late every night, and I can't sleep late in the morning, and I have a serious lack of sleep.Coupled with the hard work, and being tossed about by her again today, I am really tired, and I really want to go to bed early.

That night, I almost fell asleep as soon as I touched my pillow. It was a good dream, but in the middle of it, I was suddenly awakened by a roar and the sound of something being thrown violently.I jumped up from the bed, not caring that my mind was still confused, I stumbled out of bed, opened the door and went straight to her room.I didn't knock on the door anymore, I just turned the handle and rushed in, only to see her roaring and tearing the sheets, as if she was venting her anger.The desk lamp on the side had been smashed to the ground by her, looking miserable.The quilt was fairly solid, but it was also torn out of shape by her.

I rushed forward in a hurry, hugged her, bound her hands, and pressed her firmly on the bed.she cried:

I hate! I hate it, why! Why!

She struggled, trying to shake off my restraints.

Lin Yi! Lin Yi! Calm down! He is not here, only I am here, and I am here! I tried my best to suppress her hoarse roar, and passed my voice into her ear.

I don't know if she heard my voice. She struggled, but her screaming became intermittent, and finally turned into crying.My hands were numb and I lost all strength, so I gradually let go.She didn't make any more fuss, and knelt down on the bed, weeping quietly.I knelt behind her, a palm away from her, with trembling hands, but didn't touch her again.

After some time, I saw her with her back turned to me and raised her hand to wipe the tears off her face, thinking to herself that she had probably recovered her composure.Exhausted, I realized that my back was covered with cold sweat, all from being frightened.