Life With You

Lu Fangqi had known Xu Shunping before she married Song Yuanqing. Xu Shunping was also a teacher at the University of Political Science and Law and from the School of Foreign Languages. The two were colleagues and good friends. In addition, Xu Shunping was also a party member, so the relationship between the three was even closer.

Xu Shunping was different from Song Yuanqing. He had no ambitions and no courage. He had a crush on Lu Fangqi for many years but did not dare to confess. He watched her get married and have children. He thought that this would be a good life, but unexpectedly, Lu Fangqi and Song Yuanqing ended up not being together. We can grow old together.

Xu Shunping knew Lu Fangqi had a brain tumor accidentally. At that time, he had no selfish motives and just wanted to try his best to help her find the best doctor to cure the disease. Knowing that the United States was the authority, he discussed with Lu Fangqi to go together. In the United States, he was afraid that she would think too much, and he had even thought of a way out - taking the initiative to apply for external transfer.

Those times were no different than now. Leaving Night City meant being far away from the political center, and it was a choice without development. If Xu Shunping stayed, he would have a better position, but he still decided to go to the United States.

Lu Fangqi hesitated for a long time. She didn't know if she could come back after leaving, so before leaving, she wanted to see Song Xi twice more. Song Xi's immature face was filled with silent rebellion, and she chose to leave in naked defiance. the behavior of.

Lu Fangqi was speechless. If one person was destined to bear the consequences of such a choice, then that person could only be her. She couldn't make the hero in Song Xi's heart no longer perfect, and the emotional problems of adults, There is no reason to ask a child to experience things in advance.

In Lu Fangqi's heart, sooner or later, Song Xi will grow up and she will understand him.

I left Night City and went to the United States. After the examination, the doctor said a lot. Lu Fangqi didn't pay much attention to it. The only thing he said was that the brain tumor was located right on the memory nerve, and memory loss would definitely occur after the operation. Phenomenon.

Lu Fangqi asked: To what extent has it declined?

The doctor said: You will gradually forget many things, many people, even your own relatives, even people who appear in front of you every day, if you haven't seen them for a long time, you will not remember them.

To put it bluntly, after the operation, it will be like Alzheimer's. Lu Fangqi didn't even think about it and refused directly. She didn't want to forget. How could she choose to forget?

When Xu Shunping saw her resolute attitude, he lost his temper for the first time and said to her: You will die if you don't do the operation!

Lu Fangqi said with red eyes: If you live and forget everyone, forget Xiao Xi, then what am I still doing?

Xu Shunping said: If you're afraid that you won't be able to remember, just write it down in advance. If you can't remember that you still have me, I will always be by your side to remind you who you are, who you were, and what you have had... Fang Qi , don’t be afraid, it’s yours and will never change. You have to live to see Xiaoxi grow up.”

The last sentence made Lu Fangqi cry in the corridor of the foreign hospital. It was Song Xi who made her weak, and it was Song Xi who made her strong. She didn't want Song Xi to be without a mother at a young age. She wanted to live and go back alive to tell Song Xi Hi, she can not love anyone in this world, and she can let go of anyone, except her daughter, she will not change even after she dies.

Before undergoing the operation, Lu Fangqi almost wrote a diary by hand, recording everything she had with Song Xi. Fearing that the diary was not safe, she also recorded a lot of voice and video tapes. Before entering the operating room, she also told Xu Shunping, When I wake up, you must ask me if I still remember Xiao Xi. If I forget, you can show me the video and my diary.

Xu Shunping nodded, Don't worry, I'm ready.

The operation went smoothly. After Lu Fangqi woke up, Xu Shunping followed her instructions and asked, Fang Qi, who is Xiaoxi?

Lu Fangqi was very weak, but replied firmly: My daughter...

At that moment Xu Shunping smiled and nodded, but tears fell down.

At that time, both Lu Fangqi and Xu Shunping thought that the so-called memory loss was just the doctor's exaggeration of the effects of surgery. After all, Lu Fangqi remembered everything at the beginning, except Song Xi. She also remembered Song Yuanqing and every bit of the past.

However, Xu Shunping soon discovered that Lu Fangqi's memory was declining at a speed visible to the naked eye. At first, she was afraid of forgetting, so she would talk to him about the past a lot, and then she would repeat the things she said in the morning, in the afternoon or evening, Xu Shunping heard it but couldn't bear to expose it.

Gradually, Lu Fangqi would forget that the diary was on the bedside table. Whenever he reminded her, she would feel extremely depressed or even irritable. She was afraid of forgetting and losing her memory.

The doctor found Xu Shunping privately and told him that Lu Fangqi couldn't bear such stimulation after surgery, and it would be harmful to her recovery. Many things should be allowed to take their course, and forcing her to remember would only make her feel more stressed.

So Xu Shunping took Lu Fangqi's diary away from the bedside table. He was testing whether she would remember it. At first, she remembered to look for it, because there must be something recorded in it that she couldn't remember. Gradually, she couldn't even look for the notebook. Actions will also be forgotten.

Forgetting is a very scary thing, especially from the perspective of a bystander. However, Lu Fangqi can't remember the past, and there is no longer a burden in her heart, and her body is slowly getting better.

Xu Shunping is very conflicted. He doesn't know which is more important between forgetting the pain and remembering the happiness. He spends time with Lu Fangqi every day. He is also a human being and has selfish motives. He wonders if she forgets the past, will he have a chance to start a new life with her? Pass?

Once such thoughts appear, they are like greedy beasts, gradually eating away all the pretense of kindness and morality. Life is short, and he has missed a lot of time, so why can't he fight for a little bit of it for himself?

Xu Shunping weaved a past for Lu Fangqi, a past with Song Yuanqing but without Song Xi. Therefore, in Lu Fangqi's 'memory', she had an unhappy marriage, and Song Yuanqing was just a vague impression in her mind. She thought As long as everyone breaks up peacefully, there is no need to owe anything, as long as everyone is well.

She married Xu Shunping and had children. Because of her poor memory, he needed to be with her all the time. For her and the children, she even planned to give up her job. He gave her the life she longed for but was out of reach, and truly pampered her into a carefree one. People, forgetting is not terrible, as long as he is around, he will always remind her.

Xu Shunping worked in the United States and would send emails to Song Yuanqing as Lu Fangqi every year, asking about Song Xi's current situation. Song Yuanqing remarried and was already relieved about Lu Fangqi's departure. He only said that everything was fine and he could come back to see her when he had time.

As he grew older, every time Xu Le called Lu Fangqi's mother, Song Xi's face would appear in Xu Shunping's mind. Lele's mother should also be her mother. He wanted to find a time to have a showdown with Lu Fangqi, until Something happened to Song Yuanqing in China...