Life With You

When Song Yuanqing was still a minor official, Lu Fangqi was already very famous. She was a teacher at the School of Humanities of the University of Political Science and Law. Because of her excellent conditions, her pursuers were really lined up from the second ring road to the outside of the fifth ring road. However, she still chose to The best time to marry Song Yuanqing.

From the moment she became pregnant with Song Xi, she suffered from severe morning sickness and was completely unable to work. At that time, the University of Political Science and Law only had a maximum of three months of pregnancy leave, so Lu Fangqi had no choice but to resign and work as a full-time housewife.

Song Yuanqing went to and from the government house every day, and sometimes he had to go back to see her when he passed by the house, so Lu Fangqi thought it was worth it to be sad. Before Song Xi was born, she said: If it's a boy, let's call it Le, if it's a girl Just call it joy, peace and joy, and happiness for the rest of your life.”

Before Song Xi was five years old, the whole family atmosphere was very harmonious and warm. At that time, Song Yuanqing had a low official position. In addition to his normal work, he could spend the rest of the day with his wife and children. Therefore, Song Xi still had friends with Song Yuanqing and Lu Fangqi during his childhood. Pictures of playing together.

Song Yuanqing was very professional and ambitious. He was destined to be unwilling to just make small fuss in his life. So as his career started, Lu Fangqi was happy for him, but she also gradually felt that she spent less and less time with Song Yuanqing. Sometimes he was on a business trip for more than a week and was so busy that he didn't even have time to make phone calls. She missed him, and she could only tell it from the TV news.

She couldn't complain like an ordinary woman, because she knew that her husband was not an ordinary person. He had his career and his revenge. So for a long time, Lu Fangqi had been trying to suppress herself, trying to adjust her mood, and let herself Can adapt to today's life.

But instead of making her feel better, this approach made her even more confused. Why should she get married? Is marriage just for the official wife who is envied in the eyes of outsiders? Song Yuanqing's official position has been rising over the years, but her happiness has been getting worse every day.

She began to get used to him leaving early and coming back late. She was used to him getting home and starting to work as soon as he entered the study. Sometimes he didn't even bother to eat. She was used to the two of them lying on the same bed without talking, and she was used to all the differences. Happy, yes, she was used to it, but it was also true that she was unhappy.

Lu Fangqi began to feel panic. The panic was not for anything else, but because she gradually couldn't feel the love between her and Song Yuanqing. She got married because of love in the first place. The rest of her life was long. She couldn't imagine repeating it day after day. She would go crazy living this kind of life.

She tried to talk to Song Yuanqing to see if he could spare some time for the family. She didn't need to be the wife of a high-ranking official. She hoped to be a happy family of three as before.

But the result was obvious. Even if Song Yuanqing promised, in reality he was not satisfied at all. Lu Fangqi lived such a depressing life for seven full years.

For seven years, she fantasized about enduring it, and maybe things would get better soon, but it didn't work out. Song Yuanqing's position could only get bigger and bigger, and the time he could allocate to her could only become less and less. She had thought about divorce more than once, but looking at Song Xi, Song Xi was still very happy. She just needed to see her father occasionally and know that he loved her. That was enough.

Maybe this is what makes love different from other relationships. Lu Fangqi knows that Song Yuanqing has not cheated on her, nor does she not love this family. However, she can't feel that he loves her, and he takes time to look at her like before.

Lu Fangqi has been suffering from depression for more than two years and has been secretly adjusting. For a while, she felt particularly uncomfortable. She went to the hospital for a check-up. It turned out that there was a tumor in her head. The location was not good. Surgery was risky. She heard He was very calm in the end, it could be said that there was no fluctuation at all and he didn't cry.

Everything went as usual when she got home that day. She called Song Yuanqing and asked him if he would be back tonight. After dinner, Song Yuanqing had an appointment, so she and Song Xi ate together. During the dinner, she suddenly asked: Xiao Xi, do you love daddy? Do you love your mother more or do you love her more?

Song Xi was eating and replied casually: Do you want to hear the truth or a lie?

Lu Fangqi said: The truth.

Song Xi said: Love my dad more.

Why?

My dad is so busy, and even he didn't forget to bring me a gift when he was on a business trip. Aren't the key men supposed to stand up and support the whole family? My dad is the backbone of our family, and he is on the same level as Superman in my heart.

The first person Song Xi admired was Song Yuanqing. This was also related to Lu Fangqi's education in her early years. She felt that all emotions should have a sense of ritual, and both his wife and children should worship Song Yuanqing.

She taught her well. In Song Xi's heart, Song Yuanqing is perfect. Because he is so busy, as long as he squeezes out a little time to accompany him, it is very precious to Song Xi. On the contrary, Lu Fangqi is there every day, and Song Xi takes it for granted. .

In Song Xi's mind when she was young, Song Yuanqing worked hard to support the whole family so that she and her mother could live a life without worries about food and clothing. If he wasn't a hero, who was?

There were many final straws. Lu Fangqi's decision to divorce Song Yuanqing was not impulsive. She couldn't explain what love was to Song Xi at that age. What's more, everyone's definition of love is different. Lu Fangqi just wanted to When Song Xi grows up, you can tell her face to face: Mom wants to be a good example for you. Life is your own. Only you know whether you are happy or not. Never make things difficult for yourself.

But Lu Fangqi didn't expect that she wanted to be a good role model, but she ended up disappointing Song Xi.

She and Song Yuanqing dragged on for two or three months from filing for divorce to going through the formalities. During this period, Song Yuanqing tried to recover, but Lu Fangqi had already made up her mind. Song Xi was the last person in the family to know the outcome, and she had no right to say anything. Knowing is a foregone conclusion.

At the age of eleven or twelve, Song Xi was ignorant and half-knowledge, and Song Xi somehow defined Lu Fangqi as a man who abandoned his husband and daughter. Maybe Lu Fangqi didn't tell him the reason, maybe it was because Song Yuanqing didn't sleep in the middle of the night. Silently smoking, she had seen Song Yuanqing shed tears, so she asked with red eyes: Why did mom leave?

Song Yuanqing said: Your mother is not happy here.

Maybe it was this sentence that made Song Xi realize when he was young that Lu Fangqi was such an irresponsible person. What did it mean to be unhappy? Where are you not happy? If she left unhappy, would the remaining people be happy?

Song Yuanqing rarely mentioned Lu Fangqi to Song Xi because she felt that she was still young and could not understand what he said. Later, I don’t know how long it took, maybe half a year, she accidentally learned that Lu Fangqi had a new boyfriend. At this moment, she Completely exploded, all the causes and consequences were revealed. She nailed Lu Fangqi to the moral frame of disloyalty and injustice. She resisted with indifference. Every time she saw Lu Fangqi's sad eyes, she felt happy, but the happiness was temporary. The pain is lifelong.

From then on, Song Xi isolated the word mother from her life. She said she didn't miss her mother. She said that she and Song Yuanqing had only been dependent on each other these years. When she knew that Song Yuanqing had found Dong Lijun, for a moment, she felt that the whole world All alone, she was alone.