Mecha Star Wars.

Chapter 437 Psychological Struggle

Lin Fan was confused and didn't know how he got out of Zhu Cunjun's office.

When she woke up, she realized that she had returned to her office and was sitting at her desk, staring blankly at the medal of valor in the box.

After she got this shining medal, she kept it in the deepest part of her desk.

I'm afraid that when I see it, I will think that the old man's motives are not pure.

I am also afraid that I will think of my unproductive actions and am not worthy of this medal.

Lin Fan swallowed hard, feeling like his throat was stuck.

In peacetime, it is not easy to make achievements.

She once thought about doing more, accumulating enough merit to match this medal as soon as possible, and then showing it off in the most eye-catching place in the office.

Now, such a good opportunity is placed in front of me, but I hesitate.

Think about the astronauts who are about to fly with the space shuttle. They are much more dangerous than having the stars themselves.

Can I only accept tasks in an absolutely safe environment?

The more Lin Fan thought about it, the more he felt cowardly. He closed the medal box hard and threw it back into the drawer.

I rushed to the bathroom in the suite and turned on the shower head.

The cold water covered her head and face, making her shiver from the cold, and goosebumps immediately appeared on her skin.

Specially all central air conditioning, the temperature is comfortable and pleasant. The water is extracted from groundwater, which is warm in winter and cool in summer.

Taking a sudden cold shower would not only cool down her overthinking and overheated brain, but her body would not feel comfortable, but would instead feel cold.

Lin Fan was like this, shivering while forcibly cooling down. After a while, he gradually adapted to the water temperature.

My head was also stimulated by this and calmed down.

She simply took off her wet clothes and took a shower with cold water.

In fact, there is nothing to hesitate about.

If John Woo hadn't come to find her, how could she be where she is now?

With no money and illness, he might not be able to survive today.

To put it bluntly, this life is equivalent to being saved by special affairs, that is, saved by the G family.

Lin Fan brushed his hair down with both hands, as if sorting out his thoughts.

It is reasonable and logical to use this saved life to serve the G family.

But she understood the truth, but she always felt that it was just a little bit wrong, which made her unable to make up her mind.

Lin Fan dried his body, threw the wet clothes into the washing machine, set the washing and drying program, and walked out of the bathroom.

His body was cold, but Lin Fan didn't want to warm it up. He was afraid that once his body temperature warmed up, his mind would start to relapse.

She opened the closet and pulled out a small suspender belt printed with colorful flowers from her student days, and a denim miniskirt to wear.

Clothes from decades ago are effortless to put on, and they also look bulging forward and backward, making them look much better than the flat figure of the student days.

Then she put on a pair of lace white cotton socks and white shoes, and her wet hair was spread casually on her shoulders.

Putting the pink acrylic heart-shaped headband on his wrist, Lin Fan walked outside and put his ID card, work ID and mobile phone into a nylon cross-body bag with a cartoon white rabbit pattern.

As soon as the door opened, John Woo was standing at the door, raising his hand and preparing to knock on the door.

When he saw Lin Fan dressed as a young girl, he couldn't help but whistle. "where to have fun?"

Lin Fan didn't expect to see John Woo, his heart suddenly twitched, and his eyes were a little evasive. "If you don't want to play, go home."

"What's going on at home?" John Woo hurriedly asked seriously. Seeing Lin Fan lowering his eyes and not looking at him, he felt that something might not be good, but it was inconvenient to say.

"Do you want me to go back with you?" he asked worriedly.

In John Woo's heart, Lin is an invisible daughter.

Lin Fan shook her head. She wished she could stay away from John Woo now. How could she let him accompany her?

He lowered his head and lied, "No, I've bought the high-speed rail ticket."

Thinking of the situation at Lin Fan's house, John Woo made his own guess and didn't ask any more questions, "Okay, I'll take you to the station. Hurry up."

Lin Fan wanted to refuse. She was afraid that if she stayed with John Woo for too long, she would be unable to help but ask him for help.

But in this case, the rejection is even more obvious...

Seeing that she was stunned and without raising her head, John Woo directly took her arm and closed the office door for her. "Let's go, why are you being polite to me?"

Lin Fan could only keep his head down and not look at him, resisting the thought of confiding in him, and he put him in the passenger seat.

Wu Yusen only thought that her family affairs were more troublesome, and he didn't talk about it to outsiders, and didn't care much about it.

He helped her fasten her seat belt, asked which station she was at, and then drove out.

Lin Fan endured extremely hard work along the way, either lowering his head or looking out the window.

She knows how John Woo adjusts the temperature of the air conditioner and the soft music for her.

The better he treats her, the more guilty she feels. Her nose is sore and she can only pretend to be absent-minded.

What are you afraid of?

Afraid of putting more burden on John Woo. Also afraid of getting advice from John Woo.

Let others give advice on your own life and death. Thinking about the pressure is suffocating.

If John Woo gives advice, will she listen or not?

If she followed his advice and ended up with bad consequences, would it leave a psychological burden on John Woo?

This is why she asked Zhu Cunjun not to tell anyone else.

On the one hand, she was afraid that if everyone knew about it, they would give her advice in good faith.

When there were more people, there were more voices, and she was afraid of losing herself among the voices.

On the other hand, they are also afraid of causing bad consequences and causing psychological burden to these friends.

If they don't know anything, they may only feel temporary sadness when receiving bad news, instead of having to bear long-term psychological guilt.

Thinking, if only I had stopped her...

Lin Fan was in a bad mood along the way, and John Woo felt it.

But he only thought that Lin Fan was worried about family matters, and he would not think of anything else.

Finally arriving at the high-speed rail station, Lin Fan immediately unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car, then rushed in.

John Woo didn't have time to get out of the car to see her off, so he could only call her from the driver's seat.

"Lin Fan!"

Lin Fan couldn't help but turn around and saw John Woo smiling at her, with a familiar face that was warm and reliable.

"Don't think too much. No matter how troublesome you are, everything will pass smoothly. If you can't hold it any longer, call me. I'll be on standby 24 hours a day."

Lin Fan wanted to rush back for a moment, hold the door open and tell him everything.

As a result, he was awakened by the urging trumpet sound from behind. He swallowed back all the words and forced a smile. "good."

Wu Yusen was worried about the urging from behind and couldn't say more. Seeing her smile, he felt relieved. "Call me when you get back and I'll pick you up."

"Okay." Lin Fan's lips trembled slightly and his eyes began to sore.

But after all, there was a certain distance between him and John Woo, and he didn't notice it.

The car behind me started honking its horn again, as if to remind me.

John Woo waved helplessly and drove away.

Lin Fan looked at Ba Dao's retreating figure.

look! Always be alone!

After gathering her emotions, she turned on her phone and started buying tickets.

I originally planned to buy tickets on the way, but was interrupted by John Woo, so I had to buy them now.

Fortunately, high-speed rail is now developed, and the train to Gaocheng will leave in an hour.

Lin Fan directly booked business class, tied his almost dry hair into a big bun, and strode into the waiting hall.

Have you ever had such a time?

You want to talk to someone, but you are afraid of hearing an answer that is not in line with your psychological expectations or causing trouble to others, so you simply hold back?