Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, I fainted and went to the hospital, and the first thing I heard when I woke up was that I was pregnant.

I sat up in a daze. The whole family was there, even my aunt was woken up and taken away. I held the sleeping Zelu in my arms. Shuyi and Shutong were huddled in the corner. They rushed over to touch my belly when they saw me wake up.

"Sister, are you pregnant? Sister, I want a younger brother." Shu Tong said in a baby voice.

The second uncle pulled him away, held him on his knees and said with a smile: "Sister gave birth to a nephew, not a brother. The baby must call you uncle."

Shutong is the youngest boy in my family besides Yangyang. Yangyang doesn't have much contact with him. It's understandable that I want a younger brother or nephew now that I have a younger sister. It's just strange that if I was really pregnant, why did I stay in the hospital for the past two days? Why did Aunt Wensu and the others lie to me and say it was endometriosis? My younger uncle heard all this on the spot. My second uncle sent someone to guard outside the ward, so I guess the news must have been reported to him a long time ago.

I looked back at Uncle Hou, and he gave me a rare, covert look, and then immediately returned to normal.

It seems that it is just what I thought before. He guessed that my child must be Gao Xinci's, and he kept it a secret for me because he didn't want my family to harm me during my pregnancy. But now it has come to this, he has to tell me. Otherwise, I will have no idea and might commit suicide with the child one day.

But why now... why now...

Does my own child have to drag me along and survive with all the sadness?

I covered my belly, feeling heartbroken for a moment. I felt so sorry for An An in my previous life, so I had to give birth to him no matter what. But before that, I had to make some plans for him. I thought that my second uncle was afraid of the Gao family, and he would never let me get pregnant with Gao Xinci's child. In the future, I could use the Gao family to escape from his control.

I pretended to be heartbroken and weak and fell back onto the hospital bed. My uncle quickly supported me to prevent me from hitting my head, but I continued to bite my lips and sob.

"We have a child? We have a child... but he's dead. He never even got to see the child. He doesn't even know about this..."

"Shishi, don't be too sad. You're not in good health. Think about the child. It won't be good for the child if you keep crying..." My brother sat on the other side of the bed and just hugged me and cried.

So that night, everyone treated their children as their lifeline. Every mother felt sorry for their children because they knew I would not die.

I don't know if anyone would believe whether the child is Jiang Yinan's. No one cared about this issue at that time. But what Uncle Hou concealed was really revealed. My family and several other so-called aristocratic families had to look up the family tree for several generations before they could barely get a status. The Hou family is a truly prestigious family with close ties with the government. No one would be so desperate as to break up with him easily. My family is the same. But it is still good for me. At least it proves that in some future disputes, Uncle Hou will definitely be on my side.

But I was pregnant, and after Jiang Yinan passed away, I fell ill again. It seemed like I had lost all my strength, so I had to leave everything to Zhizhi. I stayed in the hospital for half a month to receive fetal preservation treatment and recuperation. The first thing I did after I was discharged from the hospital was to bury Jiang Yinan. Our wedding was changed to a funeral. After that, there were some things and some people that I had to take care of myself.

Chengcheng just came back from Linjiang.

He hasn't come back to see me these days. I've asked around and nothing serious happened in Linjiang, so I'm 100% sure that he was deliberately avoiding me. Until the night after the funeral, when I was sitting in the yard waiting, he quietly walked out from the darkness, but he still looked timid.

"Sister..." he called softly, lowering his head and not daring to look at me.

"My second uncle told me that Jiang Yinan's matter was not his doing. He had no need to lie to me. He would not take the initiative unless it was absolutely necessary, so..." I looked up at him and reached out to touch the place where I hit him a few days ago: "Is it you?"

Cheng Cheng finally recovered and looked at me in astonishment: "No! I just hope he understands your situation and stays away from you. I won't kill him! Besides, why should I be so cruel? Even if Wen Ke is one of us, there must be outsiders in the team she leads. If she wants to secretly deal with Jiang Yinan, she can poison him or find someone at home to suffocate him to death. It's all fine. Why should I run into the public!"

"Not you?"

"It's really not me!"

"What about these?" I handed over Jiang Yinan's suicide note. Cheng Cheng didn't understand it at first, but after reading it, she couldn't say a word.

The process of waking him up was also painful for me. Now I couldn't touch anything Jiang Yinan left behind. Whenever I saw a place where he had existed, I would want to cry, so I turned around and wiped away my tears secretly.

"Why did you tell him? He had promised me that he would go with me, but he is gone..."

"I didn't kill him..."

"What's the difference between what you did and killing him yourself!"

I turned around and knocked the suicide note away. I took it back and it was as hot as charcoal. It was torn into pieces in an instant. I patted my chest and looked at Chengcheng with a broken heart and helplessness.

"If I die with him, you won't have to come to see me, right? Just like when Old Fu passed away, you treated him as a father and loved him, but you were just glad that his death gave you freedom and the power to completely control the Fu family. Fu Shuyu, in the past three years, has your attitude towards me slowly changed to what you did to Old Fu? I care too much about you, I gradually became so strict that I have no life of my own. I just selfishly want to live for myself and love someone generously, but this hurts your useless self-esteem, right?"

"Yes! So what? Compared to him, you and I are the closest. I said I could give you everything I have, but you didn't want it! The position of head of the family was originally yours, but you pushed it to me! Do you think I really like this thing so much? I am greedy and vain, but I have nothing to lack. I can prove myself in many ways, but I was just a teenager and I could only live with my mother. I wanted to have a sense of existence in this family. I didn't want to be like air. I could only run upwards. What could I do?"

"Jiang Yinan, just because he relies on you a little, do you really think he is a good person? If I tell him the truth, I will be a bad person? Sister, do you want to go to Ma Da to find out how many people he has killed? Not to mention that I didn't do anything to him, even if I did, doesn't he deserve it? Go and ask those people whose families were destroyed by him how much they hope he will not die a good death. How come William is a bad person, but he is not? Was he forced to do it all? But William has adopted him for many years, doesn't he have the idea that bad people will become bad people if they are around bad people? Do you really think he is such a noble lotus? It is his fate to die a bad death, he deserves it!"

"Also, and dad, what's wrong with me not liking him? Love him? Fu Xishi, you should be conscientious. Why should I love someone who treats me as a whetstone, a toy, and a gift? Didn't you hate him in your last life? Why, he treated you better this time, so you want to drag me in to repay our parents' kindness? How many times has he been nice to you?"

"Do you know that before he left, he told me to be a little selfish and to push you out to take the blame if there was any trouble in the eldest house? Why? Because you are indecisive and too sentimental. You are cut from the same mold as him and you will not survive! But I can, because I am also an illegitimate child like my second uncle. My second uncle looks down on me, but I am also his comfort. We have no pressure to restrain each other. He has two children, and one of them must survive. Yangyang is not even counted on this list."

"He has always looked down on Grandpa. He gave birth to three children from different mothers, and they are all partial, romantic, and scheming. But what about him? He didn't do one thing less? You, me, and Yangyang, are we born from the same mother? In the last life, did you have a better life at home or did I? Regardless of my mother's affairs, isn't Cheng Ling his concubine? Cheng Ling even went to college with the financial support of Madam Zheng, but she ended up climbing into Dad's bed after graduation. Dad complained about it all his life, but in fact, he always protected his second uncle and younger uncle. Doesn't he subconsciously agree with this?"

"He even forced you to do this. Dad has always known that I like you, but he just didn't tell me that you are my biological sister. He self-righteously wants to use this abnormal emotion to restrain me and not hurt you, but has he ever considered me? Sister, do you know that since that night, I have lived in pain every day. I can only rely on sleeping pills to fall asleep, and when I fall asleep, I have nightmares. I often ask myself, why are you my sister? Why are you my sister! But I will never have answers to these questions. I can only divert my attention and think about other things to forget about you. But I can't do it!"

Chengcheng suddenly rushed over, clamped his hands on my shoulders, and shouted with red eyes.

"He abandoned Madam Zheng and wanted to keep you. He didn't like my mother and me, but he used the most despicable means to snatch me away and let me build his empire. He didn't care about Cheng Ling and Yangyang, and he insisted on marrying a concubine and having a wild child. He wanted you to follow his old path and drag down your life. Who can he be worthy of! He is not as good as Grandpa!"

"My mother was wrong. She gave birth to me through him. Has she been punished? Ji Bing still goes to prison every few days, scaring her and making her unable to sleep every day. Am I blind as a son? Don't I know what he is up to? But did I say a word that she deserved it? What about my father? Why did he have a good ending?"

"If you really love me, really feel the same way and really have a kind heart, you should have helped me when he gave me the name 'Fu Shuyu'. Why should he make fun of my lifelong name just to please you? Who wants to be called a subordinate? Don't tell me you haven't heard it at all in all these years! He wanted to train you and used me as a stepping stone. It was an insult to my name and hurt my body. You were very lucky at that time, right? Who cared about me?"

"He loves you but wants to abandon you, he doesn't like me but wants to choose me. In fact, he is the most selfish and hypocritical person in the world! I just hate him! I just hate Jiang Yinan and Gao Xinci. I hate everyone who hurts you under the banner of doing good for you! You have also said all kinds of bad things about them, cried and complained, but why are you betraying me now! You clearly said that we are the only two sincere people in this family!"

I didn't just know about Chengcheng's resentment today, but I didn't expect that it would be distorted and magnified three years later. When he mentioned that he liked me, I understood even more that he didn't necessarily hate anyone that much, although the hatred was real, but the most important thing was that he was unwilling to let me go. A child who has been deprived of care for a long time will do everything he can to keep him if he grabs the so-called life-saving straw.

"You can hate Lao Fu, I understand. I have never said a word to you. Lao Fu has never abandoned me in this life. That is the path I chose. Do you think he has never told me what he said to you in private? Besides, did Jiang Yinan provoke you? What does his grudge with others have to do with you! I don't even know when you became a saint. You must be entangled in his past. Why don't you go to Ma Da's place and take a look? You don't hurt others, but others hurt you. He escaped! I don't ask you to get along with him, but at least you don't have the intention to hurt others, right? Isn't it good that you have been ignoring him for the past three years?"

"But he wants to take you away... Second Uncle will not let you go. The only thing he is jealous of is your identity! He will not let you live too well or too badly, especially he will not let you leave his control. Doesn't Jiang Yinan know? He also knows that he should have died a long time ago, so why did he selfishly agree to leave with you? He is harming you..."

Chengcheng grabbed my arm again, and this time her tone softened, and she gradually choked up.

"Sister, actually he just needs a reason. He has already made up his mind and has been taking medicine! You can't give him the sense of security he wants. He is also suffering when he lives. He just needs a reason to be cruel. I will give it to him! Isn't it good for me to give it to him? He will be truly free only when he dies, and so should you. You and him really can't drag it on any longer. It is better to suffer a short pain than a long one. It is better to break up now than to lose your lover after both you and Second Uncle are injured, right? So I am not the only one who killed him, you can't just blame me..."

After Cheng Cheng said this, he could no longer restrain himself and hugged me in his arms. I didn't want him to have such thoughts forever, but I had no choice. Maybe Old Fu really hurt him, and it was also my fault for not realizing it earlier.

So I felt helpless, sad and resentful.

"He died under William's long-term abuse, died in the jealousy of his second uncle, died in the internal strife of the Fu family, died because of your powerlessness, died in his own retribution, and it was also related to me, but I just didn't want him to drag you down... You can't just blame me..."

Cheng Cheng was in tears while speaking. If you think about it carefully, what was wrong with what he said?

Jiang Yinan's fate had already been determined. It had already happened once in his previous life. I had seen it, but I ignorantly thought that I could still save him.

Or maybe rebirth is just a dream? Death just brings us back to reality.

At night, Chengcheng insisted on sleeping on my lap, and he was still crying while sleeping. I couldn't be angry with him, and I didn't dare to be angry. The friendship in the family is gained through endless demands and tolerance. Not only him, but even in the future when facing my second uncle, I have to act normal, because I have to consider my children. I have no ability to resist, maybe I did in the past, but now all that is pressing on the lifeblood of the eldest house.

But deep down in my heart I was still thinking about Jiang Yinan’s previous appearance, and it took me a long time before I finally cried for him sincerely.

The light in the room was dim, and the floor-to-ceiling windows cast cold moonlight in. The stars in the sky twinkled, and suddenly he became superstitious. When Yun Jin was coaxing Yun Yan, he told her that after death, people will go to the sky and become stars, and will forever accompany their loved ones in this world.

The person I love has also become a star.

It's not that the Hou family didn't think of a way for me. I just hate that I didn't listen to them earlier and resisted earlier. Uncle Hou told me clearly that family struggles are never noble or despicable. Anyway, the ultimate goal is to harm people. Who cares about the method or process? Winning or losing depends on your own ability.

I looked away from the window, gently removed Cheng Cheng's hand on my leg, and tiptoed out of bed. There were various small pills on the table. The smell was very familiar, but I felt uneasy when I picked them up. Maybe this kind of family affection, which can be said to be love or hate, should also be gradual? I should retaliate in the same way.

So I went out and tentatively dropped a pill into the pond in the yard. The blue foam quickly dispersed, bubbles rose, and then returned to calm in an instant, submerged in the surging waves...