Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, when I woke up, my arm was numb from being pressed down by someone.

Before I woke up, I was still hoping that everything was just a dream. Jiang Yinan didn't leave. He always slept quietly next to me like this. But when I hurriedly turned my head, I saw Chengcheng hiding under the creepy white quilt, with his head shrunk, and he couldn't sleep well.

I sighed and wanted to pull my hand back but couldn't, so I had to tuck the corner of the quilt for him with my other hand. I soon realized that my effort was in vain. I looked up at the clock hanging on the wall. It was already past five o'clock. The end of September was my grandmother's memorial day, and the whole family had to go to worship their ancestors. Especially since Chengcheng was the head of the family, he had to show up, so I gently pushed his shoulder.

"Chengcheng? Wake up, change your clothes, and go up the mountain." I felt so tired even when I spoke, so I covered my throat and coughed twice. Chengcheng woke up, his eyes were red, and he glanced at me secretly. He even hugged my waist and refused to let go. I smoothed his hair and said, "Hurry up, there are only two or three times a year to worship the ancestors. You just became the head of the family, don't give people a chance to talk about you."

"Are you going?" Cheng Cheng let go of one hand pitifully, then held my hand again.

I smiled bitterly and touched my belly. "It's not convenient for me. Just go to the ancestral hall and burn incense according to the rules. You will be back in two hours at most. Okay, don't be angry. I won't run away."

"Sister, have you forgiven me?" he asked again.

I froze.

It is really ridiculous to worry and fear about my younger brother for the sake of a child. I was already at a disadvantage, and it would be inconvenient to be pregnant at this time. So even if he harmed Jiang Yinan, he accounted for a large proportion of the cause of Jiang Yinan's death. It is not a wise choice to push Cheng Cheng away at this time.

So I laughed again: "Why should I blame you?"

Cheng Cheng huddled into my arms with tears in her eyes, her ear pressed tightly against my belly: "Is it for the child or for me..."

"Is this still important?"

"important."

"Then let's have a little bit of both."

I still hugged him with a smile and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes. It felt really ironic at the moment. He probably thought the same thing, so he got up in a huff and went to the cloakroom to change clothes.

"After this, I will stay in Jinhai to take care of my baby, and I won't go back to Linjiang. You take care of yourself." I added softly, and Chengcheng just stopped. He thought there would be a turn for the better, but these words were even more cruel, and his steps suddenly became heavier.

I couldn't do any better, so I just let him go.

Pregnancy brought me feelings of dizziness and nausea. After Chengcheng left, I changed my clothes and went out. However, before Feng Shizhi caught me, I had already vomited and fell to the ground, feeling dizzy.

Feng Shizhi came over to help me, and finally dragged me up from the ground. He took me back to the room and got the medicine box for me, then turned around to pour some water. I was left looking at the medicine in my hand quietly. These were all for relieving discomfort in early pregnancy, so that I could see Gao Xinci for perhaps the last time before giving birth, and look better and not so embarrassed.

Feng Shizhi brought the water. I stopped staring at the medicine and swallowed it in one gulp. When I felt a little better, I put on my coat and went out. I just happened to catch the last group of people going up the mountain to worship their ancestors. They were waiting in the corner for the cars to set off one after another. Lin Song, as the housekeeper, stayed at the house. He looked at the door and signaled to me that all the clan members had left, and no one would say anything about the housekeeping.

I went out with peace of mind. Feng Shizhi drove me all the way to the small manor halfway up the mountain where we met last time. He didn't go in again, but just told me to call him if I had any problems. He even brought his weapon with him - a baseball bat that could kill someone just by looking at it.

I shrugged and smiled helplessly: "Don't worry, it's nothing serious, and I haven't made up my mind yet. Maybe I will get excited and make peace with him. The child will have a great backer. I will take you to the Gao family and stay away from these hypocrites who bully the weak and fear the strong."

Feng Shizhi was as helpless as I was: "You won't."

"Are you so sure that I will abandon the father of my child?"

"I also think you're stupid, but you're just soft-hearted. What can I do?" Feng Shizhi waved his hand. "Gao Xinci is such a loser. He thinks he's so great when he brags, but what's the truth? He hasn't established himself in the Gao family yet, so he may not have the ability to protect you. And yet you're still talking about Jiang Yinan. You're even more of a saint. You're pregnant with a baby, so you're probably thinking about not dragging him down."

"Could you please not be so direct when speaking..." I immediately felt embarrassed and pouted, speechless.

Mr. Feng, who is known for his sharp tongue, said: “Could you please not be so stupid in your opinions?”

"I also want to make up my mind to join him, but then I thought, our family can't be wiped out all at once, right? If we wait a few years, until he settles down, and if something happens to me, you can pack up the child and send him to find his father." I sneered.

There's no point in talking too much nonsense. I should hurry and set off. Otherwise, I'll be in a panic. I'm afraid that Gao Xinci won't see me again and he will really hang himself at the door of my house like he said in anger. I don't understand what he is thinking. He actually uses this trick to threaten me. He clearly knows that I'm in the construction and real estate business, but he still wants to build a grave for me.

Once we got in, he really seemed to be trying to create a festive atmosphere. I saw him from afar sitting on a bench under an old vine tree. It was cloudy today and not very bright, with dense branches and leaves blocking all the light, so he was drowsy under the tree.

I decided from that moment on that no matter whether he would recognize An An after she was born, or whether he would come back to find me, I could not drag him down for the time being. I could tell the difference between being sad for love and taking risks for the whole family.

What's more, I really can't accept him now. We have broken up. Even if there is still a little so-called affection left, I am determined that he is not my choice when I have no other choice, and he doesn't deserve to accept me.

I felt relieved and walked over and sat down next to him. He was still silent, just looking back at me, looking very tired, reaching into his pocket, and handed me a ring with a few scratches. Just one look at it blocked all the words I was about to say.

I recognized that it was the engagement ring Jiang Yinan and I had. No wonder when we were dealing with the body that day, I searched his whole body but couldn't find our rings. But I'm sure he was wearing them.

"Before the car accident, he threw this out, not far from the truck. He was probably afraid that everything would be damaged, so you threw it out of the window to save it. I have been holding it. I wanted to give it to you that day, but..."

Gao Xinci didn't say anything more, his words stuck in his throat. I felt guilty about him and accepted this, so I took the ring and lowered my head. I choked a little when I spoke again: "I'm sorry, I know Jiang Yinan will die eventually. You mean well, I shouldn't blame you, I was too impulsive that day."

I stroked the ring from the forest stream, which was still stained with some dried blood. My memories overlapped again. I remembered that he also died in a car accident in his previous life, and I also picked up the ring next to him. His body was crushed, and only this ring was still lying next to me.

Only then did I realize that it was not something that fell out, but something that Jiang Yinan had been leaving for me throughout his life. But now that the person is gone, isn't the thought even more cruel?

I couldn't cry anymore. Apart from the sadness in my heart, I thought there was nothing else to prove that I was sad. I tried hard, but no tears came out. So I gave up until I saw Gao Xinci staring at me out of the corner of my eye.

"It seems that you really fell in love with him." Gao Xinci suddenly spoke up, stretched out his hand to brush away the broken hair beside my ear, and gently stroked my face: "Is it possible for us to reconcile? If there were no accidents in the last life, we should not have come to this world. We should have stayed in our small family. A family of three, wouldn't it be great?"

Turning my thoughts back to business, I could no longer give Gao Xinci any hope. Both the fantasy and the reality were laughable: "In fact, even if that accident had not happened, we would have been separated forever, because I have never forgiven you, and I have had enough of a life of deception and compromise. We are divorced..."

"what?"

"When I was pregnant with An An, we had to tell the truth about our relationship and informed both of our elders. When you told me that you wanted to get married, I cut my wrists, but I was rescued. I remember that at that time, Old Fu told me that if I really wanted to die, I should die far away. What's the point of committing suicide at home? I knew someone would save me, so in the end we divorced. I really walked a long, long way to go to a place where I was raised."

"Why?" Gao Xinci burst into tears, but still couldn't figure it out: "We just had a quarrel, why did it get to that point?"

"Because our child is gone." I finally shed a tear for this.

"what?"

I also reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes. Even if the tears never stopped, I would still smile: "In the last life, I was pregnant. Our child was just two months old. He didn't even have the chance to see this world. The day you left me on the ship, the child was gone... I know that for the sake of that child, we will never go back to the way we were before. I can't accept you anymore, and I don't want to go home. I feel that no one in that world will want me anymore, so I want to commit suicide. I want to go as far as possible, to the point where you can't save me. I really can't stand Gao Xinci..."

Gao Xinci was even more incredulous. He tilted his head and stared at me blankly, tears as big as beans falling one by one. He finally came to his senses and kept shaking his head: "No...it's not like that..."

I swallowed and patted his back to help him calm down. "It's not that I didn't want to tell you, it's that I didn't have time. I went to the hospital for a check-up before, and the doctor said that I most likely wouldn't get pregnant. So I thought it was just a cold that caused my menstruation to stop, and I didn't know I was pregnant until I went to the hospital. I wanted to tell you last night because we had another fight. We were both angry. After you left, the company had a power outage, and I went down the stairs and accidentally fell, and I had a miscarriage. I also think that this kind of thing is not your fault, but I can't do it. There is only one thing in my heart, you left me, we are divorced, and we can never go back to the past..."

“It’s not like that!” Gao Xinci interrupted me, put his arm around my shoulders, and his face turned red with anxiety. Noticing that I shrank back as if frightened, he covered his face and cried for a long time: “It’s not like that… I’m sorry, I’m sorry… I didn’t leave that day out of spite or because I wanted a divorce. I went downstairs to buy a ring, and I came back to find you after I bought it. I want to reconcile with you, I really don’t want to leave you…”

Gao Xinci's words were like a bolt from the blue to me. It was only today that the misunderstanding was clarified. What's the point? In the last life, we were separated by life and death. In this life, we are separated by fate. I almost couldn't help choking up. I suppressed my sobs for a long time before they disappeared. I immediately accepted my fate.

"Before you said you wanted me to give you a child. I'm sorry, we can't do that. An An won't be happy with a father and mother like us." I sobbed quietly, not even daring to look up at him: "Xin Ci, I am very grateful for your care and love for me over the years, but considering our current situation, I think we should separate... Let's calm down for a while."

"But I am willing to fall into this for you. I don't care what the situation is. Do we still have a chance to turn back?"

"I care. I have to care." I paused and put my hands on my belly: "Because I'm pregnant. Jiang Yinan is gone, but I will definitely give birth to this child for him..."

Gao Xinci was speechless. He stared at my stomach and choked back every time he tried to speak.

"Work hard and take care of yourself. Let's not meet again." I stood up, afraid that if I said anything more, I would be exposed. I didn't dare to look back and walked away from the small village in a few quick steps.

But as soon as she went out, she was startled again. She forced herself to calm down, holding her stomach and bowed forward: "Second Uncle..."

Second uncle came over anxiously, as if he had just seen it, and supported me: "It's out now. Why did you ask someone to follow you? You know what the Gao family is like and what Gao Xinci's temper is like. You're pregnant, so you should be careful. He won't hurt you, but what if he scares you or something happens?"

The corners of my mouth twitched and I glanced back, seeing Feng Shizhi being pulled by Brother Qingyun beside the car. Brother Qingyun's expression was normal, while Feng Shizhi shook his head secretly, signaling me to wait and see.

Although my brother is not here, Brother Qingyun is no different from my brother to the second house. My brother loves me and he treats me as his own sister. My second uncle would not do anything to me in front of him. After I understood this, I breathed a sigh of relief and took the initiative to hold my second uncle's hand.

"No, Gao Xinci knows his limits." I shook my head and smiled, "We're going to separate soon, so let's leave a good impression on each other."

"You really don't want to get back together with him?"

"Uncle, don't mention this. Jiang Yinan just left, and I don't want my child to suffer with me in another family because of my personal feelings. You are familiar with families like the Gao family." I said without any hesitation.

Second uncle remained calm, but I always felt that he was secretly satisfied. He patted my hands and said, "It's okay, let's go home. I heard you tell Chengcheng that you plan to stay in Jinhai to take care of the baby? I thought about it, and I'm still worried about you staying alone. How about this, Shuchen and I will go back to Huangyang this afternoon, and Qingyun will stay with you before you give birth."

I was stunned and turned to look at my second uncle's eyes which were gradually becoming cloudy due to his old age. I felt blocked in my heart, but ultimately I had no ability to resist, whether he was friendly or cruel.

I bowed and uttered the word "OK" with great difficulty.