My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Recently, I've been called a bastard by others, so I can't help but feel numb inside; but at this moment, I couldn't help but be moved, because "bastard" can actually be combined with "want" to form a sentence. The amount of information in it is undoubtedly worth pondering. It seems very contradictory. At the same time as it is repulsive, there is also a little bit of compatibility.

This may be what women think, at least, I never express it this way.

So, how do I feel at this moment?

I didn't miss anyone very urgently, but I felt extremely lonely. My heart seemed to float away with the "city in the sky", looking down at everything with the wind. I saw thousands of lights, but not a single window was open for me. I also saw the outermost area of ​​the city, where there was a logistics park full of large trucks. The cargo filled the carriages, like a grand rush, but I didn't know where they would eventually go.

Finally, I floated over an island. There were no lights, so I could only watch by the starlight...

There was a woman on the beach who looked even lonelier than me. There was a sailboat parked next to her, but she didn’t know whether to leave or stay, so she just hugged her knees and waited... She seemed to really want someone to pick her up, but the sea was endless, and she was not sure if there was really someone who would ride the wind and waves for her.

I really want to go down and talk to her, but my city in the sky and the lone sail beside her are like two lines that will never intersect. I fly higher and higher, but she is shaken by the waves.

At this moment, I actually felt a little regretful. I couldn't help but light a cigarette. When the cigarette was almost finished, I sent her a message, saying, "Are you thinking about me or the money I have? After all, it's just a signboard, and there will be a lot of money to spend later."

After a moment, Le Yao replied: "You are really a worm in my stomach. I am worried about the money to buy a coffee machine."

"I do have some money, but I will never let you take a penny from me again... Because a smart person won't go bankrupt twice in the same place."

"Then you are really smart!"

I smiled and put out the cigarette in my hand. At this time, Le Yao sent me another message: "Zhaoyang, when this coffee shop called Sky City opens, will you come and have a look?"

This time, I thought about it very seriously, and it took me a long time to reply: "I will go, but you probably won't be able to open it, because your capital chain will be unstable with just a sign."

"As long as you come, we will open it even if we sell everything we have."

"Hahahahaha..."

"What are you laughing at again?"

"I also invested in this store. This is the first time I've invested in my life. When I think about the possibility that this store may not be able to open in the end, I want to laugh... In the future, if I talk to others about my investment experience, I will say this: I invested in a store, and this store only has a sign... Hahahahaha."

"Why do you always make people so speechless?"

"You ruined Robben's funeral business... Besides, you're the only one running this business alone."

Compared with "Castle in the Sky" and "Lone Sail on the Island", our expectations for the same thing seemed to be on different frequencies; therefore, Le Yao lost interest in continuing the conversation with me, and she no longer replied to my message.

……

As expected, I did understand her. A few days later, she returned to Beijing and had fun in a bar with a bunch of Beijing friends. This is what I saw on her Weibo.

It seemed that she had no intention of going to Luoyang again, and she stayed in Beijing for a week; but I could no longer laugh, because the "Castle in the Sky" that I had dreamed of was built because of her magical operation, and in the end only a signboard was left, falling alone on that piece of wasteland.

This doesn't have a good implication.

……

For more than a week, I was the same as usual, hanging out in bars every day, sometimes drunk, sometimes half drunk and half awake; gradually, I felt empty, and my spirit seemed to need stronger stimulation in order to avoid boredom.

But there is no better way than drinking.

So, that day, I didn't go anywhere. I locked myself in the old house and slept day and night.

When I woke up, it was already evening. I had long been accustomed to no one paying attention to me, so I sat on the bed, and after a daze for a while, I picked up my phone, just to order a takeaway.

Unexpectedly, during the time I was unconscious, Chen Qianyu sent me a message; she told me that she was about to leave Suzhou with Chen Bailu and would most likely never come back.

I suddenly felt mixed emotions, and recalled the harsh words I had said to Chen Bailu. I didn't know if he could understand my good intentions, and I didn't know if he was still obsessed with my promise to take him to the bar.

After I came to my senses, I quickly replied to Chen Qianyu: "When are you leaving?"

"The flight is at nine tomorrow morning."

"Is Bailu mentally prepared to go abroad?"

Chen Qianyu seemed very confused, and it took a long time before he replied: "I don't know. He hasn't communicated with me for several days, but he packed his luggage for the United States before me."

"Adaptation takes time. Give him some time."

"Ah."

Our conversation ended here, and then I habitually stared at the gradually darkening sky outside the window; it was a long time before I picked up my phone again and opened my online banking.

There is still a lot of money from winning the lottery.

So, I took the initiative to send a message to Chen Bailu, telling him that I wanted to meet him downstairs of his house.

……

After having a simple bowl of noodles, I walked to the rental house where Chen Bailu and Chen Qianyu lived; while I was waiting for Chen Bailu, I also lit a cigarette for myself.

This is the first time I have waited for someone so patiently, because I know that this may very well be the last time we meet in our lives.

Just like Jian Wei who also went to the United States, a foreign country, for me, is the biggest barrier between two people, not to mention that they are not going there to study, but to settle down permanently.

……

When I was about to light my second cigarette, Chen Bailu finally came out of the corridor. I looked over and saw that he didn't have the phone he used to communicate with me.

"I heard from your sister that you are leaving for America tomorrow."

Chen Bailu just looked at me.

I handed the bag in my hand to him and said, "Maybe I'm overthinking it. You can take this away... If that man is not so good to you... Just think of it as some private money for emergencies."

Chen Bailu didn't reach out to take it, so I forced it into his hand.

Because he didn't bring his cell phone, there was no communication between us, which made me a little unsure of how to respond. I just patted him on the shoulder and then swallowed back the words I was about to say.

At the end, he just said "take care".

……

I just left like that, but I felt a little regretful. I always felt that I should have said a few more words to him. His mind was not fully mature, but I had unreservedly stuffed the helplessness of an adult into his spiritual world.

He must be in great pain and bewildered.

So I turned around again, but this time, he didn't stop for me and I could no longer see him.