My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

At this moment, the rain seemed to have transformed into the suffering in life, splashing and hitting everything in this world; I saw Chen Qianyu's powerlessness and fear, her body, half under the eaves, and half in the rain.

This state is probably an interpretation of her inner thoughts. She wants to escape, but she knows there is no way to escape.

Of course, I felt very uncomfortable too. I wanted to say something, but listening to the sound of raindrops, I was instantly swallowed up by the overwhelming feeling of powerlessness. I just looked palely at Chen Qianyu who was gradually starting to tremble.

Is it because the rain is too cold? Or is it because my heart is already deserted, bleak and desolate?

In short, she was trembling, and she couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain that washed away her makeup, making her look even more dishevelled.

But even so, she still refused to leave and just stared at me.

At this moment, I truly saw the helplessness of an adult, because one has to make a choice. Even if one is torn into pieces by pain, one has to pick up the fragments, piece them together, and heal oneself.

So I lit another cigarette, and my fingers began to tremble.

"Brother..."

I can no longer avoid her gaze, nor her voice, which is full of trauma but also longs to be saved.

I just looked at her...

After a long while, he finally said to her: "I really want to keep you here...but my pain is like swallowing a handful of glass shards, with a mouth full of blood, but I can't spit it out."

"Is this how you feel about loving Senior Sister Jian Wei?"

"No, this is the feeling that I love her, but we can never be together..." After a pause, I said in a deeper voice: "Qianyu, you are not a free fish in the sea, but I am not the rising sun in the sky that can warm everyone... Accept your fate, even if it is a judgment... The road of fate will never be full of flowers, there must be thorns that make people suffer."

As we were talking, the rain had soaked Chen Qianyu's entire body, including the leather jacket she had taken from me...

"Let's go, let's go quickly...Remember to take good care of Bailu."

"So, this is my fate? With pain and endless sacrifice."

"Yes, although it is very cruel and inhumane."

"What about you? Will you always live like this?"

I was confused for a long time before I replied, "I don't know... maybe, deep in my heart, I am also waiting for someone."

“So, you also long to be saved.”

"Well, so, a person who longs to be saved cannot save another person."

Rainwater was already dripping down Chen Qianyu's trouser legs. She finally forced a smile and said, "I understand, Senior Brother...then wish me good luck."

"Well, I wish you good luck, and I wish myself good luck."

After saying that, I finally stood up and walked towards Chen Qianyu, then took out a wad of cash that I had prepared from my bag, handed it to her, and said, "I have to apologize to you for what happened that time... I was probably tricked by a wine-selling scammer, and I thought I could get away, but I didn't expect that he would chase us to our company, and you happened to run into him... I can return the money to you before you leave, which is a relief for me."

Chen Qianyu took the stack of cash from me, but didn't look at it carefully. He just replied, "Actually, I've already made up my mind not to give it up... because Senior Brother Fang Yuan told me that you can't save money... and you don't know how to save money."

"He's telling the truth, but this is different from whether or not to pay back the money... As long as it's money I owe, I won't fail to pay back a single cent." After a brief pause, I smiled and said, "Of course, Fang Yuan is an exception... Because I've borrowed from him so many times, I can't remember how much I owe him... Just think of this as a favor, I'll have a chance to pay it back in the future... Favors are like money, I don't want to owe them."

Chen Qianyu nodded and turned to leave.

"Give me a hug, Junior Sister Qianyu."

Chen Qianyu looked back at me...

I hugged her gently, but even so, the dampness from her body still wet me; then, she hugged me tightly, and my clothes became even wetter.

This is a transmission, not only of rain and humidity, but also of inner loneliness, helplessness and negativity.

She cried so hard that she couldn't stop. At this moment, she must have understood that instead of two people with nothing huddling together for warmth, it would be better to find an umbrella to block the damn rain!

……

I spent a week in a daze, not going to work, and living on the lottery prize every day. I completely lost my sense of crisis, so as soon as night fell, I would always be found in a bar on Bar Street... Sometimes I would drink until 12 o'clock, sometimes until midnight. I simply did not go back to the old house and just found a guesthouse or hotel nearby.

During this week, Fang Yuan and Yan Yan invited me to dinner once, and they scolded me harshly, saying that I was the first weirdo they had ever met in their lives who was capable of carrying out depravity.

In response to this, I only have one thing to say: If you have the ability, you can also win the lottery.

Yan Yan added: If you have the ability, you can live on this lottery ticket for the rest of your life.

I smiled. How could people like them who regard work as their life every day understand the relaxing feeling of getting drunk tonight with wine?

……

Until one evening, when I saw a new post from Le Yao on WeChat, I suddenly came to my senses.

The abandoned factory building she rented in Luoyang Cultural and Creative Park actually had a sign with "Sky City" written on it. When it was powered on, it started to shine.

I was lost in thought staring at this photo. After a long time, I took out the transparent film from the cigarette box and began to look at the lights in the distance.

At first, the lights were sparse, but as soon as it got dark, they all lit up like the wind, so that the world I saw through the film was also entangled in various lights and shadows, like a dream...

There happened to be a bottle of beer next to me that I had just opened but not yet drunk; I tilted my head back and drank half of the bottle in one gulp. While I felt a little short of oxygen, I also felt a very satisfying pleasure.

Is this what a castle in the sky should look like?

In the ruins, there was only that gleam of light, as if it was saying goodbye, or calling for something...

This made me think deeply once again. It was the first time in my life that I tried so hard to think deeply. But even so, it was in vain. In the end, only Le Yao's busy figure was left, frozen in that shining light.

She must be very busy, running a coffee shop in the ruins.

So, I gave this post a like...

……

A moment later, Le Yao sent me a message: "Who asked you to praise it? Is this your Castle in the Sky?"

"This is the place I long for, but you are the one who made it happen." After a brief pause, I sent her another message: "That sign is particularly beautiful."

“Is it really beautiful? …Even if everyone sees the city in the sky, what I feel is a lone sail on an island…There is nothing here, only me, who opened a coffee shop whose fate is unknown.”

"You're quite interesting... You gave this coffee shop the shape of a city in the sky, but secretly hid the core of a lonely sail on an island..."

"What's so interesting about it... The city in the sky is drifting around, unable to take root; the lone sail on the island is imprisoned, and can never leave that sea... These are all the obsessions and sufferings of the world..."

I fell into deep thought again.

At this time, Le Yao sent me another message: "This sign you like was made with the money I swindled from you... I suddenly miss you a little, asshole!"