My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Back then, I was willing to help Chen Qianyu and her brother because I saw how hard they were going through in life. Over the years, Chen Bailu has grown from a teenager to a young man, and then had the pressure of work and survival, so he needs to be accepted by this society even more. But as of now, Chen Bailu does not have the ability to integrate into this society. I can foresee that if I continue on the current trajectory, Chen Qianyu will only become more and more overwhelmed.

Chen Bailu is indeed a burden that Chen Qianyu can never get rid of. I can't help but look at Chen Bailu who is sitting opposite me; under the dim light, I seem to see Chen Qianyu's perennial tears in his eager eyes.

Chen Qianyu is not a fish, what a painful and helpless statement!

But I am just a boat without a sail, which has been drifting on a sea of ​​suffering for many years and has been unable to reach the shore.

Therefore, we cannot redeem each other, and all this is just based on Chen Bailu's wishful thinking...

I watched Chen Bailu's eyes gradually change, and then I slammed my chopsticks on the table, pretending to be very angry, and said, "You are dumb, not deaf... I have patiently told you so much, it's not that you can't hear, you just don't want to understand... Your sister and I are just classmates, not her relatives... Just because I helped you once when I was in college, you regard it as my responsibility... Where do I have so many responsibilities? I'm just a fucking prodigal son... One person's fullness feeds the whole family... If you can understand, get out now and don't bother me anymore."

Chen Bailu had an incredible expression on his face.

"Get out of here!"

I cursed again, and at the same time threw the phone he was using to communicate into his hands, indicating that I didn't want to talk to him anymore.

Chen Bailu finally came to his senses, and then he shed tears in front of me. He looked desperate; but despair is the prerequisite for a new life, so I said to his departing figure: "I have to say something unpleasant so that you can listen... If you really want your sister to live a good life, you should first learn to change your own ideas instead of trying to change others without any care."

……

After Chen Bailu left, I was the only one left in the entire "Huifang Hotel". I drank two more glasses of wine, and then I felt like there was a foreign object in my eyes, and everything I saw was unclean.

This uncleanness made me feel extremely uncomfortable; so I cleared the food off the table, then found a mop in the corner of the kitchen and mopped every corner I could see several times until I felt it was clean...

"Huifang Hotel" has never been so clean, because cleanliness has never been its selling point. It is just a very urgent need for me during this period of time.

Sitting slumped in the last corner that I had cleaned, I finally lit the last cigarette of the night. Then, in the thick smoke, I suddenly thought of the small house where Chen Qianyu and Chen Bailu lived.

It was also very clean, especially Chen Bailu's room, which was not only spotless, but also had everything sorted and arranged neatly. This was probably a reflection of his inner thoughts. Because he couldn't speak, he didn't care about right and wrong, and his heart was much cleaner than that of ordinary people, to the point of being too naive...

I naively thought that as long as Chen Qianyu and I were together, a chemical reaction would occur, but life is much more difficult than we imagined. Because if it is too clean, fish cannot be kept. So sometimes, we have to learn to accept the turbidity of life appropriately.

And this is the first lesson Chen Bailu has to learn when he is about to face society.

……

Two days passed and I never contacted Chen Bailu again. Chen Qianyu didn't take the initiative to find me either. Everything was just like throwing a stone on the water. After a moment's ripples, it returned to calm.

Things were not completely calm because the fight was too serious. On the third day, the company announced the results of its treatment of Chen Bailu. He was fired, and Fang Yuan was also implicated and was said to have been fined 500 yuan.

Compared to Fang Yuan being fined, I made some money. I finally got the lottery winnings. This was a huge sum of money for me, so I felt at ease and became a prodigal son again. Fang Yuan simply gave me a leave of absence without pay, because he still stubbornly thought: I need this job.

I didn't care about work anymore. I just slept during the day and went to the bar to get drunk at night. Until the fourth night, I received a message from Chen Qianyu.

She called me "Senior Brother" as before and said she wanted to invite me out for a chat.

……

It was raining outside. Chen Qianyu and I sat opposite each other in a cafe far away from the bar. This time, she was not wearing professional clothes, but was dressed very thinly, so that when I looked at her, I always had a feeling of being in a precarious situation.

Just like when I was in college, I really wanted to stand behind her and give her a hand, but this thought was replaced by an overwhelming feeling of powerlessness after just a moment.

"Brother, I'm going to get my marriage certificate tomorrow."

Chen Qianyu smiled, then lowered his head again.

My hand holding the coffee cup just hovered in the air, and I finally smiled and exclaimed, "So fast!"

"yes……"

Chen Qianyu responded and fell into silence, but I knew she had something else to say.

"Brother, I'm a little cold, can I borrow your coat?"

I was stunned for a moment, then I took off my leather jacket and handed it to her.

She took it from my hand, and before she put it on, she suddenly choked up: "You know, brother... on the way here, I was thinking that after seeing you, I must cry and make a fuss with you... but from the moment you sat down, I didn't even know what to say to you..." After a slight pause, she continued: "You don't have to be surprised that I will get married so soon... Women are probably like this. After they are sure that they can't be with the person they love the most, they either marry themselves quickly or never marry for the rest of their lives... I don't have the capital to never marry for the rest of my life, so I might as well choose a life that is most beneficial to myself..."

"Ah."

I responded, and then we both fell into silence. I thought hard and finally came up with another question, so I asked her, "Are you going to stay in China or go abroad in the future?"

"Being a full-time wife abroad... I've already planned to quit my job."

"pretty good."

"Um……"

"Ah."

I turned the coffee cup in my hand. The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, and the wind was getting colder and colder. It was obviously not a good time to go out. However, Chen Qianyu put on my coat, stood up and said to me: "I don't know what else to say... Senior brother, you should live a good life and treat yourself well... I still think you are very good, and your future must not be what you imagine now..."

I didn't say anything. I didn't want to lie to her because I never knew how to live a good life.

Chen Qianyu had already walked out the door. I suddenly remembered that I hadn't paid her back the money I owed her last time; just as I wanted to call her, she stopped and turned to look at me, tears welling up in her eyes: "Brother, I've been losing all my life, and... I've never been retained by anyone... Can you... say something to retain me... say something to retain me... and keep me here?"