My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Chen Qianyu and I stood up to greet each other. Chen Bailu stood still and even staggered a little. He just gestured to me, but I couldn't understand the sign language.

Chen Qianyu said for him: "He is calling you Brother Zhaoyang."

"Can names also be expressed in sign language?"

Chen Qianyu smiled, shook his head, and replied: "It's hard to express, so what he gestured to is the sun, and the movement that spreads out in all directions is light."

I also laughed and said, "I thought he was drawing a pie and asked me if I was hungry."

Chen Bailu seemed to be frustrated because I failed to understand; this is actually a manifestation of sensitivity, but he cannot be blamed for anything, because an unhealthy form will definitely cause trauma to a person's psychology, which is difficult to deal with. Being cured can last a lifetime.

Chen Qianyu seemed to feel Chen Bailu's frustration, so she said to him in a softer tone: "Now that I say it, I'm really a little hungry... Bailu, these are the ingredients you bought at the supermarket in Zhaoyang Gothic. , I want to make you a midnight snack, you are in for a treat."

I quickly echoed and said: "I haven't cooked for a long time, but today is different... When I think of us brothers sitting together and having a drink, I really want to make something delicious. Appetizers.”

Chen Bailu was gesticulating again. Although I still couldn't fully understand it, I could feel the changes in his mood. He became very expectant and happy. But Chen Qianyu rolled his eyes at me and replied: "Brother, No matter what, you have to drink a few drinks, right? ... He hasn’t even had a drink yet!”

Chen Bailu made gestures again, as if he wanted to refute, but this time Chen Qianyu did not translate for him. He just grabbed the two of us, one on the left and the other on the right, and walked towards where she parked...

At this moment, the night became darker, but the night for the three of us seemed to have just begun.

Chen Qianyu is right, no matter what, I want to have a few drinks this evening.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Every time I see Chen Bailu, I feel that the loneliness in my heart has been magnified countless times for no reason. Loneliness and wine are the best companions, so I have to drag Chen Bailu to drink a little.

I don’t want to turn him into another person, I just want to tell him that although loneliness is a disease, it is not incurable, and wine is the most effective antidote.

……

Chen Qianyu and Chen Bailu also live in an old community, not far from where I live, about three to five stops away. Compared with high-rise buildings, after seeing Suzhou thoroughly at a glance, I prefer this kind of old house. It is so old that no one cares about it, but it has formed an independent world. Because of its independence, the joys, sorrows and joys have also become extremely Full; so, when I walked into their house and sat down on the sofa, even the emotion of stability, which was not an emotion, became extremely full.

This is what a home should feel like. The house is small, and the items inside, such as the refrigerator, TV, and furniture, are also very small. But when put together, they create a very warm aura. I especially like the one with the anime on it. After staring at the cabinet of posters, I recalled the passion and fantasy of watching anime in my childhood.

……

After working for a while, I fiddled with the configuration of four dishes and one soup. Chen Qianyu ordered another box of beer, and then the three of us gathered around the dining table, drinking and eating.

During this period, we also chatted about some things, mainly during our college days. Perhaps out of consideration for my mood, even though Chen Qianyu and I chatted a lot, they both perfectly avoided Jian Wei; Chen Qianyu told me that I had always I am a popular figure in the school. Everyone thinks that I will achieve success quickly after graduation. No matter what, I will also be a slightly famous musician...

I drank all the beer in the cup, then smiled and said: "As a result, everyone in the school saw it wrong... I neither succeeded nor became a musician, and I also became a drinker." Bad habits."

Chen Qianyu also smiled along with me and replied: "I think it is a very powerful thing to be able to make everyone in the school look away..." After a short pause, Chen Qianyu said seriously: "But, senior brother... do you really want to keep doing this?"

I didn't answer directly, but after a moment of pondering, I said, "Do you already have a definition of who I am now?"

"Well... you are not a person who can be defined casually... I just can't adapt to the contrast shown in you... Once, I thought you were an omnipotent person."

I laughed: "The word omnipotent covers too much... It also includes depravity... Did you know? Depravity can make me let go of the many unwillingnesses in my heart, relieve my pain, and make me not pay attention. Focus on those regrets that cannot be redeemed and redeemed at all... So, for me now, it may not be a wrong choice. "

Chen Qianyu was speechless...

I was probably used to my current state, so I didn't take the subject of depravity too seriously, so the next moment I raised my glass again and clinked it with Chen Bailu.

Chen Bailu actually has a good drinking capacity. He has already drank three bottles of beer with me, but there is no sign of being dizzy. Therefore, this gives me some doubts. Since he has such a drinking capacity, how can he not even drink alcohol as an adult? Have you ever dipped it?

At the very least, I'm happy to hang out with people who drink well.

……

After dinner, while Chen Qianyu was cleaning up the kitchen, I sat on the sofa on the balcony with Chen Bailu and started chatting with such doubts. I said to him: "Bailu, young people are gathering together now. There are almost no people who don’t drink... I see that you are not averse to drinking, so how come you have never drank before?"

Chen Bailu subconsciously looked at Chen Qianyu, and then answered me by typing on his mobile phone: "My sister won't let me go out to drink, saying those people will bully me... Actually, I don't have any friends who can drink... …Everyone feels that it is too difficult to communicate with me…”

I was a little stunned, and suddenly realized that I seemed to have overlooked something; but Chen Bailu didn't take it seriously. He quickly typed another line on his phone: "Actually, I secretly went out for a drink with a few friends... I learn things very quickly... I only learned how to draw after watching for a while..."

I smiled, and Chen Bailu made fist gestures in front of me, and then typed and asked: "Brother Zhaoyang, can you punch?"

"It's too trivial... let's try it?"

Chen Bailu and I just avoided Chen Qianyu's gaze and secretly played a small game of boxing. He couldn't speak, so there was no winner or lose between us, so we just rowed randomly... Gradually, he forgot about it. So much so that there was a "wuwu" movement in his mouth, which attracted Chen Qianyu's attention...

"Senior brother, Bailu, what are you two doing?"

Just when Chen Qianyu was about to turn around, Chen Bailu and I were already arm-in-arm, and then replied: "It's okay, we are discussing our game experience..."

"It's true that you men, your eyes light up when you talk about games."

Chen Bailu and I looked at each other and smiled, and then he handed the phone to me and asked: "Brother Zhaoyang, when will you wait until the next time you have a drink?"

"Your sister is flying to New York tomorrow. After get off work in the evening, I will take you to a bar to have fun."

Chen Bailu secretly rejoiced, and then typed: "Brother Zhaoyang, I think differently from my sister. I don't think you have changed at all...you are still so free and easy in your heart...and not only should a person not be defined, success It shouldn’t be defined... For ordinary people like us, being able to live according to our own ideas is already a kind of success..."

I subconsciously lit a cigarette, and I had some insights in my heart because of Chen Bailu's words, and then said: "You are right. After crossing the dimension of life and death, looking back at life...the so-called fame and fortune are all Floating clouds... Only how many times you have truly lived for yourself is the true width and thickness of life..."

"So Brother Zhaoyang, do the words you said also apply to my sister?... She has never truly lived for herself. I am like a sinner, turned into a shackles, Imprisoning her in my life, she will never be able to escape... Chen Qianyu is not a fish. The fact that she has such an online name proves that she is also very sad. "