My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

This morning, I chose to stay in the company and share some of the work pressure with Fangyuan. When I was sorting out and improving the plan, I could feel that his energy was not enough, so that such a rigorous person was not working. When writing a plan, I made frequent mistakes, and there were even some typos that shouldn't have appeared at all.

After all, he is a human being, not a machine, but the more I live, the more I act like a machine. I gradually lose my sense of responsibility as a human being. I don’t even want to work, and I don’t care whether it will affect my livelihood. Therefore, Fangyuan and I Living like this in two extremes, not understanding each other, yet bound to each other...

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After leaving the company, I did not go back to my old house; I bought a remote-controlled racing car in a toy store, and then used the square near the company as a temporary place to stay, spending the afternoon with the remote-controlled car until All the batteries I bought were exhausted; at the same time, my cigarette case was also empty...

These all reflect my mental state to a certain extent. It is very empty. It seems that my consciousness may disappear at any time, leaving only a numb body, waiting for dusk, waiting for night, and finally being completely swallowed by the night in the lingering lights. .

I am almost used to it. Because I am used to it, even three meals a day are not so important. I have no desire to eat and I don’t feel hungry. This is the real reason why I say that the longer I live, the more I become like a machine. .

It wasn't until someone passed by me and asked what they wanted to eat at night that I suddenly remembered that I wanted to treat Chen Qianyu to dinner.

I quickly took out my cell phone from my pocket and dialed Chen Qianyu's number. But while waiting for her to answer the call, I gradually felt a little nervous; after all these years, I still feel nervous because of my debt. …

After a moment, the call was connected, but Chen Qianyu did not speak. She seemed a little nervous, so that the sound of her breathing seemed a little unsteady.

"Thousand fish..."

"Well, I'm listening..."

I was silent... silent because I had treated her with the attitude of rejecting others thousands of miles away.

Chen Qianyu seemed to force a smile and said, "I'm listening, but you don't know what to say...is that right, senior brother?"

"No...no...I've never been cold-hearted..."

"Ah."

After another period of silence, I said, "I called you because I wanted to treat you to dinner. I wonder if you have time?"

"Brother, when you invite people to dinner, you don't care about the time... I've already had a work meal at the company."

I subconsciously lowered my head and looked at my watch. It was already half past seven in the evening, so I changed my mind and said, "How about I invite you to the bar for a drink?"

"Are you going to the bar?..."

I was a little embarrassed, and out of embarrassment, I took another look at myself. I am indeed a person who is not very good at learning lessons. For me, as long as I can dig out the deep-seated loneliness in my bones in the dead of night and soak it in alcohol, it will not matter whether I have been cheated or not. It doesn't matter.

Chen Qianyu added: "Senior brother Fangyuan told me that you probably met the bartender at the bar."

"We can find a bar without bartenders and have a couple of drinks."

"You really can't learn these four words of stopping losses in time!"

I laughed and said: "This is not about stopping losses in time, this is called giving up eating because of choking... If you don't drink when you encounter a wine dealer, then all the wineries across the country will close down. If the wineries close down, how can the economy develop in a cyclical manner? If the economy does not develop, How can society progress? If society does not progress, where will human civilization go?”

I couldn't see Chen Qianyu's expression, but I could feel her speechless mood. She was so speechless that she remained silent for a long time before she said to me: "You really haven't changed at all? You are obviously the same person." It’s very frustrating that you have to act so generous!”

"It's rare to be confused, and it's rare to be drunk and dreamy."

"Where are you? I'll go find you...senior brother."

"Or do you decide to go to the bar and have a drink with me?"

"Have a drink... let's go to the supermarket to buy some groceries... Bailu doesn't work the night shift today. When he gets off work, make him some midnight snacks."

……

After a while, Chen Qianyu came over. She was standing under the streetlight not far from me, facing the moonlight. Even though she was not wearing the professional uniform of a flight attendant, I still couldn't find a trace of her original appearance in her figure. The feeling she had when she was a junior sister... She has become mature and more dignified. The only thing that remains unchanged is her beauty, which always runs through her, regardless of experience or time.

I put out the cigarette, then walked towards her with the remote control car in my arms. When I stood still, she stared at me.

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"You are such an adult, why are you still playing with this kind of remote control car?"

"Don't underestimate this kind of remote control racing car. If you want to run fast, you have to master a lot of skills and assembly techniques."

"Ok."

"Would you like to give it a try?"

Chen Qianyu looked at me and then at the bright red racing car. It seemed that after weighing it carefully, he replied: "I want to play, but I'm afraid I'll get addicted to it, but I can't spare so much time..." "

"Are you usually tired from work?"

"Well, flight attendants are very tired, and flight attendants on international flights are even more tired...because we often have jet lag, and it's difficult to get a full amount of sleep."

"No wonder he looks more decadent than me!"

"I'm wearing makeup, but you can still see that I'm depressed?"

"I'm talking about a kind of spirit, not appearance..." After a short pause, I said again: "You probably don't usually cook... In fact, you can try food supplements and buy some to nourish your qi and blood. Use the ingredients and make it into porridge, and it will be effective soon.”

"This is not very realistic... Whenever I have a little free time, I want to find a place to catch up on some sleep."

"It's not very realistic for you... So later, I will go to the supermarket to buy some ingredients and make you a pot of health porridge."

Chen Qianyu burst out laughing...

"Why are you laughing?"

"Don't get me wrong, senior brother... I just can't imagine you wearing an apron and cooking seriously."

“You don’t have to wear an apron to cook, and you don’t have to be serious.”

Chen Qianyu is still smiling...

"Don't laugh..."

"I'm really not laughing at you this time..."

"Then what are you laughing at?"

"I'm so happy... Finally, someone is willing to cook for me and Bailu... Ever since my parents passed away, no one has cooked for us anymore."

My heart was full of mixed feelings. Chen Qianyu just looked at me, and gradually lost his smile, and then said softly to me: "Brother... maybe you are the most real person you are now... you It’s not that you don’t know how to live, or that you don’t understand life… you just need alcohol to anesthetize yourself during this period of time… right?”

I was silent at first, and then smiled: "You came to this conclusion... just because I want to cook a meal for you and Bailu?... If so, do you think that I am too simple? "

"If you're afraid that I think you are too simple, you can cook us a second meal, a third meal... until you can return to your true self."

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There is a large supermarket on the first floor below our Baoli Department Store. After buying the ingredients, Chen Qianyu and I sat side by side on the bench in the shopping mall square, waiting for Chen Bailu to get off work.

Inadvertently, I saw Chen Qianyu's heels. Compared to her beautiful appearance, her heels were a disaster area. They were covered with calluses. Without thinking, I knew it was caused by wearing high heels all year round...

This made me feel very uncomfortable, so I subconsciously looked up at the Baoli Department Store standing in front of me, and finally felt a little shaken in my heart. I told myself that I couldn't give up this job for the time being, because I still owed Chen Qianyu money. I don't know how many hours she stood in exchange for this more than 10,000 yuan...

After I figured it out and my mind became clear, I finally faced the cold wind and took a deep breath.

It was at this time that Chen Bailu walked out of the mall wearing a security uniform. After seeing me and Chen Qianyu sitting together, his steps suddenly became brisk...

The wind seemed to have his mood in it, so the cold wind was no longer cold. The next moment, it was blowing towards Chen Qianyu and me with warmth.