Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 779 Nervousness

Yang Zichen continued to speak softly: "Actually, before breaking up with Ji Qiu, I also experienced hesitation and struggle, and I kept many uncertainties. But after going through all this, I finally figured out what kind of boy I like."

"I'm like a person who just woke up from a big dream. After waking up from a dream, I discovered what reality is..."

Listening to Yang Zichen's frank heart journey, Zhao Bai'an was also filled with emotions.She didn't know why she felt this way, she saw Yang Zichen's treatment of Ji Qiu, and she seemed to see Mori Shan's treatment of herself just now.

Especially after Yang Zichen said these words, she seemed to have heard the rambling words that Mori Shan had just said to herself.

Zhao Bai'an couldn't take it anymore, the hidden emotions in her heart burst out at this moment.

She didn't realize it herself, but she responded violently to Yang Zichen: "You are a little cruel, have you ever thought that your long speech is just talking about yourself, but what about others? What should others do?"

Zhao Bai'an sent it out of feeling and had no specific meaning, but Yang Zichen naturally misunderstood it because he didn't know the inside story.

At this moment, she felt a little bit of grievance in her heart, she always felt that Zhao Bai'an was a little biased towards Ji Qiu this time.

Yang Zichen's voice rose slightly: "Xiao'an, I think you are cruel to me like this. You only know whether Ji Qiu will feel uncomfortable. But have you ever asked me if I am in a good mood? Would I Will it be affected?"

Zhao Bai'an was awakened by Yang Zichen's words. At this moment, she realized that her attitude was wrong just now, so she quickly explained: "Zichen, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, I didn't mean it to you, I didn't mean it to Ji Qiu...you two I'm neutral... I... I'm just..."

As Zhao Bai'an spoke, she started to choke up uncontrollably. She wanted to restrain herself, but she couldn't help it anyway.

Yang Zichen obviously heard something wrong on the other end of the phone, and he was full of doubts in his heart, not knowing why this happened.

Yang Zichen asked nervously: "Xiao An, what's wrong with you?"

Zhao Bai'an didn't want to announce her affairs to the public, she didn't like to tell others about her feelings, so she just changed the subject with sobs and said: "Zi Chen, I think what you said is very reasonable, sometimes long-term pain is worse than short-term pain .”

Yang Zichen was taken aback for a moment, then didn't think much about it.After all, she didn't see Zhao Bai'an's appearance, so she didn't pay too much attention, and just continued to talk to Zhao Bai'an.

"Well, Xiaoan, I finally know what kind of boy is most suitable for me. He can't be too strong, he can't want face like Wang Yichuan; but he can't be hesitant and weak like Ji Qiu."

"So I still hold on to the idea just now. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. I think it is good for everyone to stop in time now."

"And, I really feel that only the latter can minimize the pain."

Yang Zichen's additional explanation caused Zhao Bai'an to fall into a state of embarrassment, and then the consciousness in her mind began to dissociate automatically.

She didn't know why she thought of the dream about Yang Zichen and Ji Qiu before she got the handicraft.

Suddenly a trembling feeling hit Zhao Bai'an's brain, she thought of the ending of the dream and the current development, now it seems that it is really confirmed.

But then...a terrifying thought kept flooding into my mind.

She remembered her purpose of making this call, to solve the terrible dream of jumping off a building that had haunted her for many days.

It all seemed unconnected, but it also seemed like there was some omen she had overlooked.

Ripples began to appear in Zhao Bai'an's heart again, and he started to think wildly again uncontrollably.

She thought of the scene in the dream again, and at the same time, the question that had been lingering in her heart suddenly popped up.

She fell into self-examination over and over again.

If that dream wasn't Moriyama, who would it be?Is it the same as before, something that hasn't happened yet?
Zhao Bai'an's thoughts grew wildly in her heart uncontrollably, the more she thought about it, the clearer the dream scene became; the clearer it was, the more scared she felt.Especially the scene of the figure falling from upstairs lying in a pool of blood, even though she has experienced it so many times, it still makes her shudder when she thinks about it now.There was also the feeling that she had been reluctant to admit, which made her feel like she was trapped in a quagmire from which she could not escape.

Zhao Bai'an was about to collapse, his breathing became difficult again, and then he started to break out in cold sweat like before.

The pressure was overwhelming, Zhao Bai'an really didn't have the energy to continue chatting with Yang Zichen, she said goodbye to Yang Zichen on the phone because she was not feeling well, then hung up the phone in a hurry, and then rushed into the bathroom again.

She turned on the cold water tap again, letting herself soak in the cold feeling again.

Zhao Bai'an felt that his whole body was slowly soaked by the coolness, and the restlessness in his heart gradually dissipated.She couldn't help closing her eyes, originally wanting to enjoy the rare tranquility, but that nightmare was a nightmare after all.

As long as she closes her eyes, she will still be trapped in the scene she fears the most, and it will be difficult to get rid of it after all.

Especially the person lying in the pool of blood, every time she thought about it, it seemed that the person's face became more sober.

As a result, her sixth sense will burst out all the time, and then, the inescapable omen will hit every nerve of her, and at the end she can't help but ask herself.

"Could it be that my own dream has a hint of prophecy at some point?"

"Then the jumping incident I dreamed about will also happen in the future?"

"Who is that person? Could it really be Moriyama?"

"No, he just talked to himself."

"But why did Moriyama say he was leaving? Where is he going?"

Zhao Bai'an was like a mentally ill person. She knew that no one would respond to her, but she just couldn't help saying the same few words repeatedly.

She didn't know the meaning of doing so, in fact, she didn't have any thinking rotation now, she was just immersed in her own thoughts and couldn't extricate herself, like a tiny soul that had fallen into reincarnation.

Zhao Bai'an hastily finished his cold shower, and hurried out of the bathroom.

After coming out, she suddenly felt dizzy, but it didn't mean that she stopped worrying about this matter.On the contrary, accompanied by that dizziness, she had a dreamlike feeling, like a dream but not a dream.

Zhao Bai'an was hardly able to walk properly, so he just stumbled and sat on the bed.

(End of this chapter)