Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 776
Moriyama seemed to disappear on purpose, even if he took out his mobile phone and called him in the chat tool, no one answered in the end.

Like before, Zhao Bai'an couldn't contact Mori Shan anymore.

Zhao Bai'an directly slumped on the ground. Although she couldn't feel the external stimuli at the moment, the internal stimuli were surging, as if she was about to die.

Moriyama's murmurs to herself kept echoing in her ears.

I don't have a girlfriend...

This is my roommate's girlfriend...

I will definitely wait for you to come back, let's fly with confidence... boldly rush forward...

All kinds of words and promises like this are now like a kite with a broken string, let it drift away.

How much Zhao Bai'an wants to grasp now, but after all, he has no way to firmly tie the beauty that has passed away to his side.

She is involuntary, and at the same time, she cannot refuse.

Zhao Bai'an was really helpless at this moment, she felt that the air around her was condensed at this moment, and then her whole body began to feel cold, as if she was in a freezer.

She couldn't help wrapping her arms around her shoulders, hugging herself, and her whole body began to curl inwards.

She buried her head in her knees and curled up on the ground motionless.

She trembled, swallowing this sadness alone, and at the same time couldn't stop worrying about Moriyama.

After wasting for a while, because of helplessness, Zhao Bai'an had no choice but to pick up the phone again.

Although she knew that Moriyama might not answer the phone, she still dialed the phone again.

There was still a glimmer of hope in Zhao Bai'an's heart, but this glimmer of hope... After all, it was completely crushed by the cruel reality, and Moriyama did not answer the phone after all.

When the ringtone on the phone automatically cut off and hung up, Zhao Bai'an's thoughts reversed himself and asked himself to answer at this moment.

She didn't do this deliberately, but a sentence floated out of her mind unexpectedly, and then began to repeat itself.

So... is it all a lie?Is it all a lie?
Is all this a lie, Moriyama, are you really lying to me?Is it all a lie?
In these words, she kept vigilant, constantly reflecting on herself, and at the same time sighing with herself.

She still remembers that she hardly trusted anyone, but she had believed in Moriyama unconditionally since she was young, and believed everything he said.

For this, Zhao Bai'an couldn't tell why or what it was for. She didn't know why she did this, let alone where her unreasonable trust came from.

She never explored the deep meaning behind it, but just liked it, acquiesced, and got used to this pattern.

She is used to the feeling towards Moriyama, and she regards this feeling as a kind of destiny, as a kind of inescapable.

Zhao Bai'an had to admit that she hardly relied on others, but she needed Mori Shan so much.

She had thought that Moriyama would really be like what he said, they had looked forward to the future together, and even talked about what kind of house to buy, what decoration to buy and what kind of TV.

She still remembers the sweetness when the two were together, and every word Moriyama said to herself.

She used to think that those words piled up like a mountain meant that the two of them would last forever.

She felt that it was the two people looking forward to a bright future, and it was also the real life after the two people dreamed.

But now she can never imagine that all of this is so illusory, and it can be broken so easily.

She never imagined that these vows of eternal love that she once regarded as treasures, held in the palm of her hand and cherished in her heart, turned out to be so unreal.

How ruthless!
Zhao Bai'an couldn't help thinking.

Now Moriyama only needs a light "forget it" to turn all her longings into powder in an instant.

How ridiculous this is!

Thinking of this, Zhao Bai'an suddenly felt exactly the same emotion as Mori Shan just now, and she couldn't control herself and lay down on the ground.

She was lying upright on the cold ground, laughing like crazy, talking to herself repeatedly, laughing and laughing.

A bitter smile.

She has been in this state for a long time, and Zhao Bai'an feels that the muscles on his face are stiff.

Only then did she slowly come back to her senses, and subconsciously reached out to touch her cheek, but she touched tears on her laughing face.

There seems to be no difference between laughing and crying.

Zhao Bai'an touched the dry tears all over his cheeks, his thoughts gradually settled.

She struggled to get up from the ground with her hands on the ground, feeling like a child just learning to walk.She doesn't know what's wrong with her, it hurts so much, it's as if someone's skin has been peeled off abruptly and her tendons are cramped, dripping with blood.

She was really in pain, at this moment, she no longer had the energy to talk so much, to care about so much, the pain made her tremble, and there was no room to be sad anymore.

She dragged her heavy body and wanted to slowly return to the bed, but when she walked by the closet, a person was reflected in the mirror mounted on the closet door.

Zhao Bai'an looked at himself in the mirror, his eyes were red, his face was as white as paper, he really looked like a dead person.

She suddenly thought of a word, life is like death.

At this moment, she finally understands what it means to be extremely sad, and one has no consciousness.

This is what she looks like now, she has been injured badly, and she is devastated by the injury.

Suddenly, the feeling of being dizzy and about to fall hit violently again, and Zhao Bai'an was forced to close his eyes.

Then, images kept appearing in front of her eyes uncontrollably, and she couldn't restrain them.

In the end, she could only go with the flow, and new images kept flashing. She saw the scene of Moriyama and the girl walking into the building in her dream, and she repeated it over and over again.

Zhao Bai'an was about to collapse, and subconsciously opened his eyes.

She wanted to end it all, but at this moment, there was a rumble in her mind.

Then there was a piercing wind in my ears, and then there was a bang!
The voice seemed to be right behind him, very loud and repeated many times in a row.

"Bang! Bang! Bang!"

Zhao Bai'an was taken aback, she turned her head suddenly, and she started pasting and copying the scene in her dream before her eyes.

Although she was not under that building, even though she was not in that environment, she saw the person falling from the tall building again.

That person was lying behind him in a bloody mess, Zhao Bai'an unconsciously shuddered.

Her sixth sense began to constantly hint to her that it was not a fantasy, it was an omen!
Pieces of fragments began to be connected in series, Zhao Bai'an combined Moriyama's past deeds, and everything Moriyama expressed on the phone just now.

Suddenly, I deeply felt that the person who jumped off the building would really be Moriyama!

(End of this chapter)