Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 775
Zhao Bai'an said this almost in a pleading tone, she had never been so humble before, and today she did something that she could never do before.

The reason is because she really loves Moriyama so much, so much...

In other words, she really didn't want to leave Moriyama just like that.

And Morishan on the other side also began to loosen a bit. Ever since he heard Zhao Bai'an's cry just now, he wanted to end this heart-wrenching game.

He also wanted to be like what Zhao Bai'an said, he also wanted the two of them to start toward a better future and move forward side by side toward their future, but he didn't have the confidence.

In the end, he could only squeeze out two more unwise words of comfort from his throat.

"I'm sorry... I was selfish. I originally wanted to end it sooner, but the time with you is indeed very happy, so happy that I want to continue to indulge in it..."

"I'm greedy, I'm selfish, I'm dragging you, I'm not good, everything is my fault, I'm sorry for you..."

"So, I'm going to correct that mistake now."

Zhao Bai'an's crying paused, and then asked Mori Shan in a daze: "What do you mean? What happened to us? Since you also think that we get along very happily, since you also think that our time together is so It's haunting, why did you end it?"

Sen Shan paused for a moment. After hearing Zhao Bai'an's cry just now, he couldn't help showing all the thoughts in his heart that shouldn't have been revealed, but Zhao Bai'an's clear and clear question immediately awakened him from his dream .

He admitted that he really couldn't bear it, but it's a pity that no matter how he went through these times, he still didn't change his original thoughts.

In fact, he has also worked hard, and he actually wants to live in a different way. He once tried to find the meaning of his life through Zhao Bai'an, to find what was always vacant in his heart, and he also tried to change for Zhao Bai'an.

But in the end, he discovered a cruel fact—that is, Zhao Bai'an is not him, and it is impossible for him to tie the two together, and he has no way to find his own goal and his own through another person. the meaning of being alive.

He had to admit that in the end, he failed.

After he failed, he realized that he seemed to be meaningless in this world and could not find any value in existence. The anxiety in his heart increased day by day, and the helplessness in his heart became violent day by day.

Especially when he saw Zhao Bai'an working hard for his goal, struggling to finally achieve his goal, he knew that he didn't know why.

He didn't even know what he existed for, so after thinking a lot, Morishan said to Zhao Bai'an.

"You know that I am very boring, and I will not please you, and I will not say sweet words."

"So you should be thankful that you don't have to worry about it anymore. The existence of people like me in your world will bring you negative emotions, and you don't have to worry about people like me hindering you anymore. "

"You should be flying without thinking, not being stumbled."

"I wish you all the best in the days to come, and you will always get what you want."

Moriyama said all he wanted to say in one breath, although the distance between his words was not very relevant, and it even sounded a little strange, but this was what he had in mind.

But Zhao Bai'an burst into tears again during the listening process, and the sadness in her heart continued to spread.

At this moment, she really had an urge to rush to the opposite side of Mori Shan, and ask him clearly, what exactly do you want to do?
But she knew it was impossible.

Zhao Bai'an could only use the phone to ask Mori Shan again: "Sen Shan, tell me, what's the matter?"

Mori Shan's attitude was still the same as before, he didn't directly answer what Zhao Bai'an said, but continued his last sentence on his own.

"Without me, your life will be better. Without me, the world will be colorful. As long as I leave, you will be happy, and you will be happy."

"Believe me, I'm actually an ominous person. I shouldn't...get too close to the people around me, I should stay away, I should stay away from everyone around me..."

The more Mori Shan said, the more Zhao Bai'an listened, the more he felt that something was wrong. If it was said that she only cared about being sad before, it was because of a breakup for no reason, but this time it had nothing to do with whether to break up or not. muffled.

She knew Mori Shan well. Although he usually looked indifferent, he was never as abnormal as today.

Zhao Bai'an unconsciously thought of that dream. Although she wasn't sure if the dream was true or not, her mood couldn't help but change.

The anger and sadness at the beginning have turned into sadness and panic now.

She no longer cared about her gains and losses, and subconsciously began to comfort Mori Shan, of course, it was also a disguised form of retention: "Mori Shan, you are wrong. You are a person who can bring joy to others, and you are a person who can bring joy to others. People who point out the way forward for others and help others get out of confusion."

"I don't think your presence will bother me. I need you, and I need you to talk to me from time to time."

"I need you to chat with me when I am confused and don't know how to move forward. I need you to be by my side to encourage me even more. I need you to be by my side to tell me that I have left the country and what is happening in real time."

"Moriyama, I really need you, please, please, don't say those extremely depressing words anymore, let's forget everything about today, let's not think so much, let's not think about those unhappy things, okay?"

"You believe me, I will go back, and I hope to see you as soon as I go back."

"You promise me that you will wait for me well, and then pick me up at the airport, okay?"

Zhao Bai'an kept talking, but Mori Shan couldn't listen anymore.

He suppressed his emotions, and said to Zhao Bai'an in a hoarse voice: "Okay, don't talk nonsense with me anymore, you can't convince me, and my intentions are not just today."

"So for a long time, even I have no way to change myself, shake myself, I have decided."

After finishing speaking, Moriyama hung up the phone directly.

Hearing the sound of "beep", Zhao Bai'an called back immediately, but no matter how she dialed this time, no one answered.

(End of this chapter)