Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 427 The Later Story of the Prince and Princess
That experience was a nightmare in Zhao Bai'an's heart. Zhao Bai'an also thought about giving up his real dream for Mori Shan.

But in the end, under her mother's persuasion, she gave up the idea in her heart.

She used to naively thought that Moriyama's refusal to accept and adapt was only temporary, and she thought that after a period of sorting out and digesting, they would be the same as before.

Zhao Bai'an once thought that even if the two were in different schools, they could still get along very well.

But... She was so tired, so tired that even her breathing felt heavy.

Thinking about it now, she deeply understands what self-righteousness and conceit are all about. She knows a truth, don't take yourself too seriously.

She finally knew that the prince and the princess could only be fairy tales forever, and if it really became a reality, then the prince would no longer be a prince, and the princess could not be a princess either.Fairy tales only say that the prince and princess live happily together, but they will never tell you what their real life is like.

Zhao Bai'an couldn't help but smile wryly.

She often thinks, and often regrets, if she allowed her sports to continue to be so decadent...

If I hadn't practiced running so hard back then...

Everything will be different.

Can she always be by Moriyama's side?

All the emotions and memories are like noodles mixed with sugar. They are not the same things, but they are mixed together again, which makes people feel unavoidable and uncomfortable.

Thinking about it, Zhao Bai'an felt her heart suddenly throbbing. She curled up on the bed like a baby, painful memories kept flashing before her eyes.

She didn't want to think about it anymore, she wanted to escape again.

The pain in her heart was like an indeterminate time bomb that might explode at any time. The feeling of palpitation made it difficult for her to breathe at this moment.

But at this time, the memories seemed to take root in her mind, the more she didn't want to remember, the more the memories followed like a shadow.

All the images related to that memory are like an automatically read disc, constantly rotating, and playing back and forth upside down.

Zhao Bai'an was caught in the middle of the iron wall. It was not the pressure of external force, but the suffocating pressure emanating from the depths of her heart. Like a beast, it kept beating her heart.

Although she may look calm and calm on the surface, there are turbulent waves in the secret.

Zhao Bai'an felt like she was about to collapse. For some reason, today she seemed to have returned to that scene back then. She felt that she had returned to that environment again.

And that memory was playing in her mind unscrupulously like that.

At this moment, she was forced to think of the conversation on the bench again.

Zhao Bai'an remembered that she and Mori Shan had many similar conversations after that.

Especially the last conversation between the two, she was extremely impressed.

That day was still the same as usual, she and Moriyama met again in that familiar scene.

She kept saying words to comfort and comfort Mori Shan, but Mori Shan was still unmoved, he just lowered his head like that, rubbing his wrist.

She was very strange. After quietly watching Moriyama's same movements every time for a long time, she finally couldn't help asking: "What happened to your hand?!"

"I'm fine, nothing at all." And Moriyama's answer was the same as before, saying something innocuous.

Zhao Bai'an remembered that she was not satisfied with such a statement at the time, she thought in her heart that Mori Shan seemed to have uncomfortable wrists, that's why she made such a move.

At that time, an obsession arose in her heart, and this obsession made her impulsive.

Taking advantage of Mori Shan's inattention, Zhao Bai'an rushed forward and instantly pulled his hand covering his wrist away.

As a result, she found the cut marks on Moriyama's wrist, the deep cut marks, and those few tiny red streaks directly filled her eyes.

Zhao Bai'an was dumbfounded at the time.

Then there were all kinds of distress and shock, and the wound was deeply imprinted on Zhao Bai'an's heart.

A feeling of sympathy hit her, and the gloomy emotion condensed in her chest because of Moriyama's intentional or unintentional rejection suddenly seemed insignificant at this moment.

Now there was reluctance and a lot of regret in her heart, she began to blame herself in her heart, why didn't she find out earlier, why didn't she find out about Moriyama's pressure earlier?Why, why is he in such pain and she doesn't know it?
Facing Mori Shan's injured expression, Zhao Bai'an couldn't help but wet his eyes with tears.

Unknowingly, her consciousness in reality suddenly began to dissociate, and she had an illusion, feeling as if she had traveled through space like in a dream, and the scene at that time appeared in front of her eyes again .

There was a hallucination in front of her eyes. Although the time had passed, Mori Shan's melancholy face still appeared inexplicably.

She saw that in that scene, her expression was as depressed and distressed as it is now, with a trace of inexplicable entanglement mixed in.

What she was concerned about was that Moriyama suddenly became so hopeless about life, could it be because of her own fault?Didn't she become a murderer in disguise?And why, why would there be no hope for Moriyama?Haven't you ever given him happiness?Could it be...is standing beside him so meaningless?Or did you say you did something wrong?
Gradually, Zhao Bai'an's consciousness became a little blurred, and she couldn't help but apologize to Mori Shan: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

Mori Shan was slightly taken aback, Zhao Bai'an's apology made him inexplicably slapped.

He raised his head that was lowered, and said seriously to Zhao Bai'an: "You don't need to apologize, it has nothing to do with you."

Zhao Bai'an suddenly heard Mori Shan say this, and her disturbed thoughts turned a little bit. She raised her head and faced Mori Shan face to face, her eyes were equally serious: "Sen Shan, what's wrong with you?"

Moriyama frowned slightly.

He didn't answer, but lowered his eyes again, so as to widen the distance between the two.

However, Zhao Bai'an did not give up. If she hadn't asked just now, maybe she would have admitted it, but now that the conversation has started, it means that there is no turning back when the bow is opened, and it is impossible to stop here.

With an attitude of not giving up without asking, she continued to ask: "Morishan, what's wrong with you? Tell me, tell me! If you don't tell me, I will become like you. Now this There is a feeling of wanting to fall off a cliff in this emotion! Do you know how much pain I have in my heart!"

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