Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 426 The past is like a dream

Zhao Bai'an's choked words made Mori Shan unbearable. Although he was not persuaded, it made him sober up instantly like enlightenment, and took back his words just now.

"Sorry... I didn't know what happened just now, I..."

"Forget it, don't talk about it." Before Mori Shan finished speaking, Zhao Bai'an stopped him first.

She didn't want Moriyama to be so negative, and she also knew that Moriyama was impulsive just now because of emotional shock.

She wanted to dwell on the past again, so she simply ended the old topic, started it again, looked forward to the future, and talked about her ideal life.

"Don't be so sad, many things may not be as bad as you think. Believe me, everything will get better and better." Zhao Bai'an squeezed Morishan's hand hard, as if to comfort him, or It is to give yourself some confidence.

Zhao Bai'an took a deep breath and showed a big smile towards Mori Shan.

"Moriyama, you said that in the future, when we enter university life, will we really be like the TV dramas, and our daily life will be extremely exciting?"

"Or, maybe we will come to a new city in the near future, and we will have an adventure, and we may get to know the CEO of the company we will be employed in advance, so that our future employment path will be much smoother."

"Although everything seems to be far away now, it will always be experienced. Maybe it will be a moment in the future."

Zhao Bai'an said a lot, although it sounds nonsensical, but every sentence is naturally guiding Mori Shan in a good direction.

Although Mori Shan felt that what Zhao Bai'an said was not close to life, but Zhao Bai'an's deepest purpose of breaking the topic can be said to have been achieved.

Moriyama once again imagined the college life in his eyes.

"I think when we go to university, we should first free ourselves from ourselves, because the university courses must not be so strict, and then we will meet new friends and live in the dormitory. Of course there will be some stories in the dormitory, but we should It's all trivial things."

Zhao Bai'an agreed. Obviously, the life described by Moriyama is closer to the university, and also closer to his expectations in his 20s. Of course, it is also very beautiful.

But Zhao Bai'an always felt that something was missing, so she revealed her thoughts to Mori Shan.

After Moriyama finished listening, he continued to imagine the future.

He told Zhao Bai'an that he would go out with Zhao Bai'an every year on vacation, and go to Japan once after graduating from university and working, to have fun...

Speaking of this, another scene suddenly appeared in Mori Shan's mind. He has an impulse at the moment. If there is a day, he wants to propose to Zhao Bai'an under the Skytree...

In such a romantic environment, he wanted to say some love words that were rarely seen from his mouth, to express his feelings for Zhao Bai'an.

But he is not sure about these, should he say it at this time.

No, it should be OK, it's not appropriate to say it at this time.

Mori Shan paused, but Zhao Bai'an became anxious. She urged Mori Shan: "What's wrong? Why don't you say anything? I'm still imagining the environment you mentioned."

Hearing this, Moriyama paused, no longer hesitated, and on the basis of deliberately packaging his own language, he slowly described the beauty in his imagination and the future he expected between the two of them.

Gradually, even he himself was intoxicated by it.

Scenes of beautiful scenes were concretized, like slides, flashing in front of Zhao Bai'an's eyes non-stop.

Moriyama himself gradually fell into the beautiful dream he wove, the anxiety and thoughts of suicide in his heart were suppressed at this time, and it was more of a longing for a possible future, and a little bit of a beautiful dream. look forward to.If everything will really happen...although it's unlikely, but...just let yourself believe it for a second.

And Zhao Bai'an couldn't help closing her eyes through Moriyama's description, and began to imagine in the chair. At this moment, she felt that she was in a world of fairy tales, and beside her was an untouchable magical love.

What Mori Shan said was still going on, Zhao Bai'an was immersed in that happiness and sweetness.

It's just that today's happiness and sweetness seem to be somewhat unsatisfactory.

Inexplicably, another person's voice appeared in Zhao Bai'an's ear.

"Xiaobai...Xiaobai...Xiaobai!"

And the voice kept getting louder, but for some reason, Moriyama's voice gradually began to fade away.

Zhao Bai'an frowned slightly, tilted her head and slowly opened her eyes from happiness. She thought she was still on the bench, but the scene in front of her brought her back to reality - she was in a hotel in Japan.

She has entered university.

She lost her happiness.

Memories in reality flooded into her brain irrefutably like a flood of beasts. All of a sudden, Zhao Bai'an's originally calm heart was like being inserted into countless silver needles. It hurts all the time.

This is an indescribable feeling, between imagination and reality, with a little hope, a little loss, a sense of gap beyond reality, and at the same time, a sense of helplessness towards reality.

Afterwards, all the developments seemed to be as Moriyama said, completely irreversible, and it just happened so undeniably.

For a moment, Zhao Bai'an's heart ached so much that he even had some difficulty breathing.

She was irresistibly drawn into the memories of the past. She clearly remembered that she went to the city's key high school because of an extra point in the exam, and she became more and more separated from Morishan.

It is ridiculous to believe that they can be meaningless. The ruthlessness of life coupled with the impact of emotions, even if you think you can hold them firmly, what is the use?
After that, until now, the two have not spoken for almost five years.

Zhao Bai'an still remembered that she didn't know that Moriyama did not pass the exam. At that time, she was ecstatic when she just learned that she was admitted to the high school she was satisfied with.

But I don't know that it is not luck, but misfortune.

For a while, it was a nightmare within a nightmare for her. Zhao Bai'an didn't even know how she got through it. She only remembered that she was constantly entangled between happiness and pain.

She couldn't eat well, and she couldn't sleep well. It was obviously a relaxed day after the exam, but she lived a more tormented life than ever before, and she lost a lot of weight in just a few days.

During that period of time, she laughed at herself. She had never completed her great career of losing weight, but she achieved her wish after the exam, and everything backfired.

(End of this chapter)