Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 425 The Covered Left Wrist

Zhao Bai'an observed Mori Shan's state while talking, but found that Mori Shan's state had not improved, and his face was still extremely ugly.

Fortunately, he still responded to what Zhao Bai'an said, although he didn't agree with it.

"No, you're not right. Although the mock exam is over, you have to admit that it's true that I didn't do well in the exam. And there's a lot of difference between me and you. If this continues..."

Moriyama suddenly didn't want to say anything about the latter.

He didn't want Zhao Bai'an to feel cowardly, he didn't want to bow to fate, and he didn't want to put more pressure on Zhao Bai'an.

However, the more this happened, the more curious Zhao Bai'an became, and she asked: "If this continues, what will happen?"

"Nothing." Moriyama shook his head.

"Say it, tell me quickly!" Zhao Bai'an persisted.

Looking at Zhao Bai'an's bright eyes, feeling his arm being shaken, Mori Shan felt a little helpless, and finally had no choice but to speak out.

"If we go on like this, I might not be able to pass your high school, so our high school will be separated, and it will be difficult for us to be admitted to the university once we separate in high school. The two of us will eventually take two different paths. Farther……"

As Moriyama spoke, he couldn't help but frowned, and his voice gradually dropped.

He is in pain!

Zhao Bai'an had actually thought about this matter, but she was not as worried as Mori Shan.

"No, you're overthinking it. How could we be separated? We will be together forever, and one result doesn't mean forever. There's no need to be so serious."

"If we really got into different schools after the senior high school entrance examination, don't you believe us? I still won't change for you."

After Zhao Bai'an finished speaking, he looked at Morishan with his head down, paused again, and then emphasized again.

"Moriyama, if you're really worried, then if we really can't get into a school, then I'll stop and wait for you."

Her words were nothing more than trying to give Moriyama a reassurance, and of course she hoped to make Moriyama happy, but she never thought that she would also put pressure on Moriyama invisibly.

"I'm not as naive as you." Moriyama responded hoarsely.

He closed his eyes tightly, his temples throbbed, the sun shone on his body, but he only felt cold.

He couldn't escape, couldn't escape, and at the same time, his mother's words appeared in his ears.

He unconsciously clenched the left wrist wearing the watch, rubbing it back and forth, immersed in his own thoughts.

Until he was called back by Zhao Bai'an's shout.

"Moriyama, Moriyama, Moriyama!"

"What's wrong?" Moriyama finally raised his head to respond.

"What's wrong? You were completely out of shape just now!" Zhao Bai'an was a little anxious.

"It's okay." Moriyama shook his head slightly.

"Then what's wrong with your wrist?" Zhao Bai'an asked back, she decided to change to a more specific topic.

Mori Shan was taken aback for a moment, he didn't expect Zhao Bai'an to ask such a question.

He didn't want to answer, so he pushed the question back with a question: "Why do you ask me that?"

"Oh, I just saw you rubbing your left wrist all the time, so I wonder if there's something wrong, what's wrong with you?"

Facing Zhao Bai'an's questioning, Mori Shan's eyes were slightly erratic.

He didn't want Zhao Bai'an to know the secret he was hiding under the strap.

"Nothing, just a little cramp."

Moriyama couldn't help tightening the strap again, then ignored Zhao Bai'an's question, and didn't continue to say anything.

He just lowered his head again, exuding an extremely negative aura around him.

Regarding this, Zhao Bai'an couldn't let it go, she continued to ask: "Sen Shan, what's wrong with you?"

Instinctively, Moriyama didn't want to get entangled in this topic, so he responded impatiently: "Okay, don't ask me any more, I'm already bored."

His voice was also involuntarily higher.

He squatted on the ground, and the whole person fell into silence.

His emotions were the same as before, with pain mixed with helplessness, and helplessness mixed with collapse.

Sour, sweet, bitter, spicy, at this moment, only the sweet taste is missing, and the rest of the flavors are like overwhelming, sweeping towards him.

This kind of emotion is like a contagious disease. Moriyama suddenly felt that his breathing became difficult, his blood pressure gradually increased, and his eyes were almost blind.

want to end.

Want to be detached.

In fact, he has tried many times, but the reality will play a big joke with him every time.

Every time he plucked up the courage to try and carry this matter through to the end, he would be inexplicably destroyed.

For example, he has tried to cut his wrist several times in private, and even now there are traces of scar condensation on his left wrist.

But every time he couldn't go to the end, he had no way to let go of everything, no way to just let go.

It was a great tragedy that he wanted to die and yet lived.

It's just that he left a lot of marks on his arms, but he felt that there was no need to let Zhao Bai'an know about this.

This will only increase her worry, it's unnecessary, it's really unnecessary.

That's why, when Zhao Bai'an asked himself just now, he avoided it.

Moriyama shook his head in pain, he didn't have confidence, maybe what his mother said was right, maybe he really didn't get along with Zhao Bai'an, maybe he really delayed her, maybe his original decision was really wrong...

He slowly let go of the hands holding his head, and raised his head abruptly.

Although it was extremely difficult, even though it was not out of his heart, he still said to Zhao Bai'an what he should say.

"Maybe it's time for me to let you go..."

"What?" Zhao Bai'an exclaimed without thinking.

She couldn't react a little bit, and felt that she had heard it wrong.

But Moriyama repeated the words cruelly: "Maybe I really shouldn't delay you!"

Zhao Bai'an frowned, she couldn't understand what Mori Shan said.

What's wrong with Moriyama?
Moriyama... Moriyama doesn't want her anymore?

Zhao Bai'an's brain fell into a blank, thinking randomly, and his consciousness was not very clear.

Before she knew it, tears were streaming down her face.

"Moriyama, what are you doing? It's just a mock exam, why did you fail? Look at the birds in the sky, the fish in the river, and even the trees around you... This world is not that bad; There is still some beauty in this world..."

"It is impossible for the great men in the world to succeed without failing. They will regard failure as their own experience and lessons, and use it as a warning next time."

"What are you? You're so depressed, and then you tell me some inexplicable things. Have you considered my feelings?"

(End of this chapter)