Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 428

Mori Shan didn't think much at first, but suddenly Zhao Bai'an trembled again.

His deliberate estrangement and avoidance during this period were entirely due to confusion, panic, helplessness, anger and his own powerlessness, not because he didn't like Zhao Bai'an anymore.

On the contrary, it is the unspoken love that he feels is the most difficult to part with.

He originally planned to keep this feeling in his heart forever, and he was willing to bear everything like this.

But right now, Zhao Bai'an suddenly showed such an injured look in front of him, like a flower damaged by a storm, if it suffers another blow, all the petals will fall off, and it will wither like this.

In comparison, he didn't want this even more.

Although Zhao Bai'an's question was awkward and he refused to talk about it at the beginning, but now he not only feels overwhelmed, but also can't bear it.

Moriyama chose to compromise.

In a very concise language, he simply told Zhao Bai'an about his depression.

Of course, he also told Zhao Bai'an about his mother's attitude and his own sense of powerlessness.

Although I didn't say it in detail, it's better to say it than not to say it.For Zhao Bai'an, it's good for him to say one more word, as long as Mori Shan is willing to say it, she is willing to listen to it no matter what time it is.

It's just that she really didn't expect the matter to be so serious. She didn't even know that Moriyama had endured so much pain behind his back.

Depression.

This disease, which cannot be faced squarely now, turned pale when it was talked about more than ten years ago, not to mention that for a child who is only a junior high school student, it means more and heavier darkness.

Thousands of words flashed through Zhao Bai'an's mind. She had a lot of things to say and emotions to express, but she didn't seem to know how to say them, and she didn't know how to express the hodgepodge of emotions that burst out of her heart in an instant.

Countless words that wanted to warm Mori Shan flashed through her mind, but she always felt that the words became extremely powerless at this moment.

In the end, she just got closer to Moriyama, hugged him, and murmured in his ear, only saying a thousand words: "It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter.

Zhao Bai'an, who is a head shorter than Senshan, put his head on his shoulder, and gently stroked Senshan's side cheek with the top of his head: "I will not leave you, even if the mountains and rivers fade, even if the sky and the earth are old, I will never, never give up." will leave you alone."

Zhao Baian paused for a moment: "Unless...unless one day I am no longer in this world, then I will, with my heart for you, turn into a star in the sky and illuminate the unknown journey ahead for you."

Zhao Bai'an let go of Mori Shan, her eyes were extremely firm, and she just met her four eyes straight.

But at this moment, her memory was cut off like this.

In reality, her brain is now stuck like a disc, and all the images only stay on the last conversation between her and Moriyama, on the burning eyes, but she can't remember the specific things.

As for what happened later, she naturally didn't remember very clearly, she only knew that she was in pain at the time.

Zhao Bai'an wasn't sure what was going on, and her grief and indignation added another hint of confusion for no reason.

And the memory in her memory has been stagnated like this. As long as she explores, her brain will automatically start to replay everything she has experienced before.

I won't leave you... I won't leave you alone...

Her ear kept echoing the promise she had made, and Zhao Baian was in great pain in the memory. That promise was like a needle point, stabbing her cerebral cortex constantly, and the frequency of stabbing It was getting faster and faster, the tip of the needle was getting thicker and thicker, and Zhao Bai'an's head was hurting more and more, which became more and more unbearable.

Under the excessive stimulation, Zhao Bai'an's behavior gradually lost control. She curled up on the bed and convulsed endlessly, accompanied by indistinct shouts, the volume fluctuating up and down.

Her unconscious release caught Ou Sijia's attention. Ou Sijia woke up from her sleep with a dazed face, and ran out of bed in panic when she saw Zhao Bai'an like that.

"Xiao Bai! Xiao Bai!" Ou Sijia called out loudly while patting Zhao Bai'an's face in front of Zhao Bai'an.

Just when Ou Sijia began to think about whether to hit Zhao Bai'an hard and give her a few slaps to see if she could wake up, Zhao Bai'an finally recovered.

She first glanced here and there twice with slack eyes, and then saw Oska's terrified eyes.

Zhao Bai'an slowly woke up from the memory, it was Ou Sijia who pulled her out of that pain.

She stared blankly at Oscar, who frowned and asked with concern: "What's the matter with you? What's wrong with you?"

Zhao Bai'an didn't say anything. She didn't want to explain too much about what happened just now. Although she slept, she now felt an indescribable tiredness, not physically tired, but mentally tired. She didn't know what to do. Dispel exhaustion.

Without any explanation, Zhao Bai'an threw himself into Ou Sijia's arms, just hoping for a moment of peace and peace of mind.

But Oska didn't get what she wanted.

Although Ou Sijia didn't speak at this time, she just patted Zhao Bai'an's back lightly to comfort her, but she was really curious in her heart, of course, this was out of concern from a friend.

In her impression, Zhao Bai'an has never been a person who easily leaks emotions, or is not a person who easily reveals negative emotions. She instinctively feels that Zhao Bai'an is too abnormal today.

This abnormality made her feel that something serious must have happened to Zhao Bai'an. At first she thought it was because of Zhao Bai'an's sudden physical discomfort, but after seeing that she had recovered to a very normal state, she thought it was not.

Ou Sijia pondered in her heart for a while, but found that Zhao Bai'an had never left her sight.

So she really couldn't understand, what happened to Zhao Bai'an? !

From the day they came to Japan, they were almost inseparable, and nothing terrible or hateful happened during this period.

So since this is the case, where does Zhao Bai'an's emotion come from?
At this moment, all the questions seemed to grow wings and swept toward Oska non-stop, flapping in her ears.

After thinking about it, she really couldn't restrain this feeling, and if she didn't ask again, she really couldn't worry about Zhao Bai'an.

"Xiao Bai, what's the matter with you? Tell me quickly, you really worry me to death!" Seeing that Zhao Bai'an's breathing gradually stabilized, Ou Sijia finally couldn't hold back.

(End of this chapter)