Double daughter: double-faced president stay away from me

Chapter 38 The Pain of Love

I bit my lower lip hard, I already knew my answer, and finally understood Xiwen's thoughts.

I mustered up the last courage and said softly: "Xiwen, I can't listen to you forever, I... I am not your doll!" Although I love him, I am Shu Rou, and I will never be like Yu Like Yan, she always only listens to someone.

My words extinguished the fire in Xiwen's eyes like water, his face became calm, without any emotion at all, and he murmured: "The you in the past have always been very important in my heart, what a pity, why don't you stay the same?" How about going back to the old you, when there were only the two of us, how nice."

I clenched my fists, and I understood that what he said in the past, there would be no me, only his beloved Yu Yan.

"Okay, you go back." He gave me an order, but I still couldn't move my feet, my ankles stopped in place as if they had taken root, and I didn't want to leave at all.

Xiwen sighed, turned his back on me, and walked towards the building: "Since you won't leave, then I will."

This time he is coming for real, he is really going to leave me, when this thought came to my mind, my hand uncontrollably tugged at the corner of his clothes: "Xiwen..."

He still turned his back to me, and said lightly: "Since you don't want to listen to me, then I'll be with the person who is willing to listen to me. The one just now is my fiancee. We will get married in half a year. I won't be with you again." You have something to do with it." Without even looking back, he shook off my hand.

"Goodbye, Yuyan." His last words drifted away in the wind, and his back figure slowly disappeared in front of me. I stared blankly at his disappearing figure, and uncontrollable tears fell from my face.

I quickly wiped away my tears, not wanting them to continue to flow.

Shu Rou, don't cry!My heart just hurts a little, it will be fine soon, don't cry!Don't be cowardly for others to see!
I encouraged myself with the words I used to say, but despite the cries of my heart, I slowly sobbed until Chen's voice appeared behind me again.

"Miss, Master Xiwen...?"

"He's gone." I tried my best to put on a steady tone: "He's going to marry his fiancée."

"What?" Chen grabbed my shoulders with both hands, forcing me to turn to him: "Master Xiwen has..." He was shocked when he saw my expression, and said at a loss: "Miss, are you crying?" gone?"

"I'm fine. It will be fine in a while." I wiped away the tears that had accumulated in the corners of my eyes.

Chen's face was very ugly, and he finally couldn't help saying: "It's too much!" He let go of me, stared fiercely at the entrance of the building, clenched his fists so hard that even the veins were exposed, and when he calmed down a little, he put the I send it home.

As soon as I went back, I hid in the room in the greenhouse again. Chen was very angry, and after settling me down, he ran out again. I don't know where he went, but it doesn't matter, anyway, I have already hid here.

I picked up the diary 2 and wrote down my feelings word by word. The handwriting was so chaotic that even I couldn’t read it. I thought that writing it would improve my mood, but my heart collapsed like it couldn’t heal anymore. Appeared, the pain in my heart was still so painful that I couldn't let it go.

Does loving someone really have to be so painful?If so, then I don’t want peace, can you give me back the happiness?

Painful feelings are written in the diary, but the hollowness in my heart still exists, and the emptiness pierces my whole heart. Suddenly, I have the idea of ​​wanting to leave here quickly, and I want to return to the freedom and happiness of the past. Life, I don't want to be like this anymore, not only the body is trapped, but even the heart can't be independent.

Finally, under my begging, Uncle Ming was finally willing to take me out for a walk. Under the starry sky, I watched the road back and forth eagerly and longingly, as if I could also take the burden off my back. abandon.

"Miss." Of course Uncle Ming didn't know about my situation, but I also guessed that he should have noticed my sadness, because his voice was full of worry: "I'll go back when I feel better, you know?"

I opened the car door and stepped on the street with both feet. Suddenly, the cool wind blew by, the moonlight sprinkled on the sparsely populated street, and the dim yellow street embers illuminated my frail and helpless figure.

"Uncle Ming, don't worry, I just want to relax." I explained briefly, and when I was about to walk forward, Uncle Ming's voice sounded again: "Although I don't know what happened, I hope that the lady can reply quickly. look."

I turned around and looked straight at Ming Bo who was full of worry. His words caused strong ripples in my heart.

"Reply to before..." I shook my head and muttered to myself: "The me before... yes, everything here doesn't belong to me, including Xiwen."

I can't tell Uncle Ming about my troubles, no, I can't tell anyone, no one will understand my helplessness, understand the pain I am forced to stay in this body.

In front of Xiwen, I always compare myself with Yuyan in secret. In the end, I lost, and I lost so badly. It’s ridiculous. Obviously I’m wearing Yuyan’s body now, but Xiwen still leaves me. If it’s true The real Yuyan... If it was the real Yuyan... Xiwen would stay, right?
Tears wanted to fall again, I quickly turned around, wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and moved forward aimlessly.

I don’t know how long I’ve been walking, although I’m already on the street outside, but I always feel that I can’t escape the cage left by Yuyan and this family. I look at the figure reflected in the mirror on the street, the beautiful girl and I are two Looking at each other, the melancholy makes me feel pitiful, but this person is not me, where am I going to escape from all this?

The body felt the biting cold, the wind was blowing indifferently, and the hem of the skirt was drifting helplessly with the wind. Just like my situation, my steps forward became more and more difficult. Stopping and looking at the dark road ahead, I thought carefully about picking up my steps again.

I put my arms around my lonely body, even if one or two passers-by pass by, I feel like I am the only one on the street.

Suddenly, in an instant, a slight warmth seeped in, and a black suit jacket suddenly covered my shoulders, blocking the whirring cold wind. The remaining body temperature on the clothes wrapped me, and my body No longer trembling, I was taken aback, and then looked back.

"It seems that you don't care about your body at all." Xia Yujun's face appeared in front of me, with a familiar smile on his face. Now I can't tell whether his smile is real or not, and I'm not in the mood to tell.

I frowned, and said: "The person I want to see doesn't show up, but the person I don't want to pay attention to just stays in front of me."

I reached out to take off the suit jacket on my shoulders, but Xia Yujun put his hands on his shoulders before me, and stopped me forcefully: "You also know how weak your body is, put it on, anyway, look at your appearance, you I don’t intend to go home so soon.”

I was so disgusted that I didn't have much energy to argue with him, so I casually put down my hands, turned around and continued walking forward, saying, "I don't want to go back at all."

"Then I'll stay with you." He chased after me from behind.

"No."

"Usually either Ding Xiwen or I accompany you to go out, now that Ding Xiwen has left, where can you go by yourself?"

The ear-piercing voice pierced into my ears, nakedly uncovering the scars in my heart, and completely sprinkled salt in my heart. I stopped, couldn't help the anger on my face, and stared at him fiercely: "Why do you know?"

He didn't seem to think there was any problem, and replied naturally: "I went to find you just now, and I heard what your servant said, but Ding Xiwen's actions are normal, unless you restore the memory..."

Hearing his relaxed tone, my heart was filled with anger, I picked up the coat on my shoulder with one hand, threw it at Xia Yujun as hard as I could, and stared at him without hesitation.