my naughty female president

It was already night when I woke up again, and I fell asleep for several hours. It may be that I was really tired from the emotional tension in the past few days. I didn’t even have a dream during this sleep.

When I woke up, I only felt a gurgling in my stomach, and the strong hunger made me feel weak for a while.Thinking about it, I didn't even eat a bite of food this day, if I didn't wake up from hunger, I would probably be able to continue to sleep.

I went out and ate a bowl of beef offal vermicelli at a roadside stall. It tasted so delicious that I poured it all into my stomach without even a drop of soup left.Only then did I feel more strength in my body.

I see it's still early, and I probably won't be able to sleep when I go back now.When I was walking on the street with a distracted mind, I somehow thought of the bar called Lover's Tears, and the woman who was like green tea, and suddenly I felt like I was going to sit and listen to her playing piano music again. Chu's footsteps have already unconsciously walked towards the bar street.

When I came to this bar called Lover's Tears, I couldn't help feeling sad when I saw the eye-catching signboard.

Thinking of when I left here, I still thought that I would never come back here again, because in my heart this is a harbor for temporary refuge, and I will leave after the wind and rain pass, not a place to live for a long time.

Originally, I wanted to sincerely admit my mistakes to Mu Xichun after I got out of here, face life bravely, and start a new life...

Unexpectedly, I came back here in a blink of an eye. The so-called God's will tricks people is nothing more than that.

However, to my disappointment, Sister Hong was not at the bar and did not come until midnight. It seemed that my wish to hear her play one more song was about to come to naught.

However, just as I was leaving disappointed, I almost ran into her at the door of the bar.

When she saw it, I couldn't help laughing and said: "I knew you would come back!"

"Why...why?" I was a little stunned.

"I saw what happened the night before yesterday. It seems that you haven't figured out how to deal with your affairs! So I guess you will come back!"

"Did you...see all of them?" I asked in surprise.

"Of course! I was in the crowd, but you didn't see me!"

I was silent.

Sister Hong sat down on the steps at the entrance of the bar, and made a gesture to me to sit down, and I sat down next to her one meter away from her as promised.

"That girl must not be an ordinary person. I have already guessed a general idea of ​​your troubles. The so-called bystander knows, what? Do you want to hear my opinion?" she asked.

I nodded silently. As an outsider, I think her views must be objective. She has always given me the impression that she is elegant and refined, with a kind of Zen-like detachment and wisdom that sees through everything.I'd really like to hear her opinion.

"I didn't intend to find out the identity of that girl, but seeing her extraordinary temperament, I'm really curious about her identity!"

"She is the president of Hongji Real Estate's branch in this city, and also my boss!"

"Oh!" She made a dazed expression.

"I see, it seems that your pressure is really not ordinary!"

"What? Do you also think it's impossible for me and her to be together?" Her words made my heartbeat a little disordered, and I asked out of the mouth.

"No! Whether you can be with her is entirely up to you!"

"What do you mean?" I couldn't help but move in my heart.

"I don't know what you think, but I can see that girl has a deep affection for you. I'm afraid you really made her sad this time!"

I sighed and said faintly: "I know that! I already told her we broke up that night..."

"So have you made up your mind? Do you really want to break up with her from the bottom of your heart?" Sister Hong turned her head and looked at me and asked.

"..." I was speechless again.

"Looking at you, I'm afraid you haven't figured it out!"

"...No one is optimistic about our relationship, and her family is even more strongly opposed, and you must have seen my competitor, I really... can't stand it..." My heart began to ache again.

"Hey!" She sighed and continued, "That's why I said whether you can be together depends entirely on you. In your situation, her pressure is far greater than yours. If she hasn't given up, you can't stand it! So you gave up before her, do you really want to know the reason?"

I didn't understand what she meant, so I nodded for her to continue.

"The reason is actually very simple. It's just that you feel that your status is low and you don't even think that you are worthy of her. To put it bluntly, it's just that you are too inferior, so that you add too many conditions to the original pure relationship, so that your relationship Become overwhelmed!"

"I know I have low self-esteem, but aren't all feelings in the world like this? Can there really be pure feelings?"

"The pureness of the relationship depends entirely on whether you can see it or not. If she loves you, she can be desperate. Why can't you make a little sacrifice for her? Don't take the so-called dignity so seriously? It is because of your inferiority complex. It makes you sensitive, and your sensitivity is precisely the sharp edge that hurts the other party! If you were able to confidently face your own identity from the beginning, how could you create the situation today?"

"As for your so-called competitor, why do you think he is your competitor? Do you think he will take away her love for you? Or do you think she will fall in love with two people at the same time? Isn't your behavior like this? Distrust of her? Isn't it an insult to her feelings? "

My heart sank slowly, and her series of rhetorical questions left me speechless.Now that I think about it, I was really selfish. When I vented my emotions unscrupulously, I didn't think about the harm my behavior would do to her!Maybe I have thought about it, but I probably only regard this behavior as a punishment for her. I have never put myself in her shoes and thought about it.

I also thought of the message Annie left to me before she left. She once warned me to learn to put my heart in perspective when encountering emotional difficulties. She was as smart as she probably expected at that time that I would have today’s predicament, and she had treated me for a long time. I have been advised, but I have not understood at all...

As for Ah Wei, what Sister Hong said is reasonable. I shouldn’t regard him as a competitor at all. I misunderstood the concept of a competitor from the very beginning. He is a competitor, but in this contest, obviously I won before he even started, because Mu Xichun loves me, isn't that enough?
The reason why I regard him as a competitor is because of my inferiority complex. I feel that I have nothing to compare with Ah Wei, so I regard him as a threat.Now that I think about it, what do the conditions I used to compare with Ah Wei have to do with love?Perhaps for some women, these things are indeed additional conditions of love, but I know very well that Mu Xichun is definitely not that kind of woman.

As for what Mu Zhongren said, why should I take it to heart, the person I love also loves me, shouldn't this be the most beautiful thing in the world?Why did I make it so complicated?

I finally understand that the question of whether I love her enough that I wanted to calm down and think about now seems to have the answer.

Of course I love her, of course I love her enough, the reason why I do things that hurt her repeatedly is because of myself, it is because I think about love too complicated, it is because I attach those self-righteous conditions to myself To love her on my body, I am like a traveler with a heavy burden, how can I experience the happiness of a naked runner?

"If you really decide to break up with her, pretend I didn't say these words! If you are just impulsive, I advise you to think about it now!"

"..." I still couldn't answer.

"I think if you change your mind and go back to ask her for forgiveness at this moment, she will accept you again without hesitation! But I think as a mature man, you should not draw conclusions blindly, you should think about your future, even if she will never I forgive your impulsiveness without any grievances, but what you will face in the future is what you should consider most!"

"You have to think about whether you have enough courage and determination to face difficulties! As someone who has experienced it, I might as well give you a piece of advice. If you are not prepared enough, breaking up with her is not a cowardly choice, after all If it is destined to be hurt, then it is better to end this relationship when the hurt is not too great. But even if it is a breakup, you must have a firm stand and ask her to stop thinking completely. If it is inevitable to be sad, then As soon as possible! If you can really do this, you are still a man!"

Sister Hong patted me on the shoulder and said: "Think about it! Think about what you want! The answer is in your heart, isn't it? All you have to make is a choice. No. Is it?" After speaking, he stood up and entered the bar.

I was still sitting on the steps in a daze, motionless.

The problem seems to be on the verge of coming out, but so what if I understand it!I have already said the word of breaking up with her, and it seems that it is too late to wake up now.

Sister Hong is right, even if I go back and beg her to forgive me now, and love her desperately, the problem is still the same old problem, except that I have confirmed my love for her, nothing has changed.

But the pressure she has to face is still on her, and it will not change because of my attitude. If I say that the change is only because of me, I will no longer be hurt.But isn't this another kind of shackles imposed on her?
It is impossible for her to betray all relatives and leave me because of love for me, and it is impossible for her parents and family to accept me now that I think about it.Such an extreme dilemma will probably make her more painful.

If the saying that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain is true, I think breaking up is my last care for her...

It will always be better to make her suffer for a while. In the end, she has to make a separation between family and love like a severed arm. I take the initiative to give up our love?

If the latter, how is it different from my current choice?If there is really a difference, then maybe she will only suffer more...

So I still agreed to my immature decision in my heart, and I decided to break up with her...

Richard Clayderman's autumn whispers came from the bar. The soft melody made me feel like a traveler who came from the ancient prehistoric world and crossed the long tunnel of time and space. Musical notes not only purify rivers and lakes, five mountains and three mountains.Even the modern people who live in a materialistic world show a great emotion and foreshadow a deep wish.

I looked up at the crooked moon that was faintly visible in the sky, and thought that this piece of music was very suitable for the occasion, but I was no longer in the mood to listen to it.

I stood up and looked through the glass door at the back of Sister Hong who was sitting at the piano. I was grateful and at the same time felt unrequited. I bowed deeply to the Lover’s Tears Bar. , is my humblest thanks to her.

Then I turned around and walked towards Dong’s bar, no matter what, I had to apologize to Xiang Dong, thinking of all the things he had done for me, I couldn’t help feeling ashamed, I’m afraid this friend was really heartbroken by me.