my naughty female president

I thought about what happened yesterday again. I originally felt guilty and wanted to apologize to Mu Xichun, but I didn't expect things to turn out like this.

Now calm down and think about it carefully, it seems that there are too many factors that caused the ending that ran counter to my idea.

First of all, Ah Wei appeared. I guess they should have come together. The reason why Ah Wei appeared before Mu Xichun was probably because Mu Xichun was looking for a place to park. The car keys that I have been holding in my hand can tell.

It's a coincidence that things happen here, if she comes alone or with Ah Wei, even if Ah Wei annoys me again, she won't make a move on me.

In fact, I can completely understand Ah Wei's anger towards me. If the position is reversed, and my beloved woman is so hurt because of another man, I'm afraid I will be more impulsive than him.

I didn't have a good impression of Awei at first, and I was really disgusted by his hypocritical behavior on TV shows before. Under such circumstances, if I can hold back his cynicism and fisting at me, that would be really called strangeness.

The second unfortunate thing is that when Mu Xichun arrived, he happened to see me riding on Ah Wei not only defenseless, but also covered in blood.

Although she didn't know what happened before he came, but judging from the scene, I already had the absolute upper hand, and my behavior was undoubtedly a little too much.

Combined with my impulsive behavior of disregarding my own safety a few days ago, seeing this scene again, it is only natural that I feel discouraged and disappointed in my heart.

She probably didn't know that her father had found me before her, and she didn't know what her father said to me. That's why she said those words that couldn't be glued to the wall in a sad and desperate situation.

It was this sentence that made my heart fall into the ice cave in an instant, so that I completely forgot my original intention.

She doesn't know that my emotions have been tense at an extremely dangerous intensity for the past few days, and Mu Zhongren's words have made this tense string even stronger. Her words just overwhelmed the camel The last straw broke the string, which was simply overwhelmed, in an instant.

You can say that I am fragile, you can say that my mental capacity is too weak, but what I want to say is that most men in this world are probably the same as me when they encounter this kind of thing. No one can be complacent.

Some people may be uncomfortable seeing this, but I think you just haven't encountered this situation.If you say that you are different from me, it is probably just that my heart is a little more fragile. I have always admitted this.

That's why when I heard Mu Xichun's words, my emotions instantly collapsed.For a long time, her attitude towards me has always been the only motivation for me to persevere, making me understand in my heart that although the reality is difficult, she will always stand by me.

My collapse was only because I could clearly hear her frustration and disappointment towards me from her words, so the only motivation that supported me collapsed after hearing her words.

Although I think of her words now as impulsive words without thinking through her brain in her desperation, for me at that time, it was a sharp knife that cut off my only source of hope, and made me despair instantly. It will lead to my wrong words and deeds in the future.

Although things didn't go according to my original idea, leading to an irreversible ending, I don't regret it too much.

Although I know that what I said to her last night will definitely cause her pain, and I don't even know when this pain will disappear.Although I don't feel better than her, or even worse.Because in addition to the pain of losing her, I also suffered from the torment of my conscience and the torture of my soul, because I caused all of this.I know this kind of torture and torture will be with me for the rest of my life.

But I don't regret it, because the reality is right in front of me. I originally thought that as long as I was firm enough, I would be able to overcome those hurdles.But I gradually discovered that what stood between her and me were not just ditches, but a chasm.This kind of natural barrier cannot be crossed by manpower, and I am already tired...

Although I didn't take Mu Zhongren's warnings to me before, I felt that he was just a pedantic layman who couldn't get out of the box and was easily swayed by some worldly concepts.

Even when he found me yesterday morning, I still felt contemptuous of him.Holding him with the mentality that he has nothing to do with me, this dead pig is not afraid of boiling water, thinking, as long as he dares to speak out against me, I will dare to give him back.

It's just that I didn't expect that what he said actually left me speechless, and I couldn't even find a reason to refute. I had to admit that everything he said was true.

I don't have Ahwei's quick-witted mind, and I can't think out of my mind to break her predicament when she encounters difficulties.

I am not mature enough, but impulsive and naive, and I don't care about the consequences when I am reckless.

Even my feelings for Mu Xichun are not as firm and persistent as Ah Wei.

He said that the performance of loving someone does not depend on how much love you can exchange for the other person, but how much you can give for the other person.I agree with this sentence, but when I ask myself, I have not done this. I even hide myself selfishly after encountering setbacks. Although I did not deliberately make her anxious, do I really have no thought Do you mean to prove something?

Maybe it's true what Mu Zhongren said, I don't love her as much as I imagined.Or maybe I do love her, but in comparison, I love myself more.

So I guess I have to figure this out, I want to know how much I love her!Before I figured this out, I was determined not to do anything to hurt her, so I didn't regret breaking up with her.

Although this double-edged sword hurt both me and her, it's better than me loving her and hurting her in a muddle.

So I think, I should really calm down and think about this issue.

I did not follow the doctor's instructions and was hospitalized for observation.The next day I forcibly went through the discharge procedures, although the doctors and nurses tried their best to dissuade me and told me seriously the seriousness of my current physical condition.But I still got discharged.

I acted like this not because I really didn't know the seriousness of the problem, but I was more afraid of the possibility of being kicked out of the hospital because I couldn't pay the bills.

Doctors and nurses naturally don't understand the reason why I insist on leaving. From their perspective, they probably can't understand that a young man like me can't afford the hospital bill. If they know that my current net worth is less than 1000 Will they still persuade me to stay in the hospital for observation?
Therefore, compared to my wealth and life, I chose dignity without hesitation. Although I am already alive and have lost my human appearance, I still hide my ears and cling to the last trace of arrogance.

I even feel that sooner or later I will die in the cage I woven...

Coming out of the hospital, I stood in front of the gate of the hospital, carrying a backpack that was not completely dry.The afternoon sun shone on my body, which made my eyes feel a little uncomfortable after living indoors for a long time. People came in and out around me.
Mu Xichun and I have already said the word to break up, whether it is sincere or not, it seems to have become a fact.With this matter in mind, as for the work of the company, I will naturally not go to work again.

Although I didn't resign from her without further ado, she must not be so stupid as to think that I will go back to work!

I thought she would inform the accountant to settle my salary, but two days later, my mobile phone still did not receive the account information from the bank.Thinking about it, she didn't have the idea of ​​paying me my wages.

Is she really still expecting me to go back to work?I couldn't help thinking, but what followed was a dull pain in my heart.Unconsciously, I secretly said in the direction of the company: I'm sorry.

I found a hotel to settle down for the time being. This hotel is probably the cheapest in the city, so I only dared to live in the cheapest single room.

Although the room is like a pigeon cage, a bed occupies almost half of the room, and the wall skin is mottled and upturned. I can't help but worry that I will let them fall off when I sneeze. A natural sense of oppression, but obviously I am no longer qualified to choose.

I calculated in my mind that with the money I have on me, apart from food, I can probably live here for a week.For a week, I don't have to worry about being homeless. Although this is not a home, it is at least a place to stay.

But during this week, I must find a way to make money, otherwise I will really live on the streets and compete with beggars for land after a week.

However, when I finally figured out my condition, I couldn't help but feel a little depressed. My current mental state is too bad. Not only has the dysfunction that the doctor said has not recovered, but the injuries on my body are still painful, and my face is still intact. There are two conspicuous bruises.

With my appearance, let alone looking for a job, even the proprietress of the inn just now interrogated me for a long time, and put my ID card next to my face to look at it again and again, which made me suspicious Gave me the room card.

I stood in front of the mirror and looked at my barely human face, and couldn't help but sighed a long time.It seems that the matter of finding a job has to be put aside for the time being. The most important thing at present is to let the body recover as soon as possible.

I opened the door that is both a toilet and a bathroom, and it also has the function of a toilet. This toilet is a perfect interpretation of the two words of every inch of land and the best use of everything.

I turned on the shower mounted on the wall, and I was really touched by the fact that there was still hot water.

I haven't showered for a few days, and the water that washes down after washing my body with soap is as muddy as a fermented septic tank, making people sick to watch.

After taking a bath, I felt a lot more relaxed, and fell asleep in this pigeon cage with nothing to do.