With Love and Time

I hate that I feel emotionally a lot, and I can't say a word of what I should say. I can only use tears instead. But this is me. A Liang Zijin who can't live without any longer.

The only thing I can do now is to reach out and wipe my tears. Then try to keep yourself from crying.

In the blur, I saw Ji Guanxin's familiar and handsome face, sitting on the bed. Looked at me and said, "You made a special trip to me to cry? I'm not dead yet."

The word death is too heavy. I was stunned, choked up and said, "What are you talking nonsense?"

Because there was basically no speech along the way. I didn't open my voice, so it was accompanied by crying at this time. This sentence is husky.

Ji Guanxin took a box of tissues and threw it at me. I reached out to catch it. Then he took out a tissue and wiped his eyes.

He said: "Don't cry as soon as you meet. Not dejected? Find a place to sit. I haven't seen you for so long. Do you want me?"

When he spoke, he was familiar cynical. But from the bottom of my heart, I couldn't tell whether it was relieved or more sour.

Holding the tissue box, walked to Ji Guanxin. Wipe away tears. I tried to stare at him.

Ji Guanxin's upper body is a white casual shirt, and his lower body is light brown casual pants. In the hospital, I don’t wear gowns, and I’m dressed as if I’m going shopping.

The most excessive is. It was the first time I saw a patient wearing a watch in hospital. When I was about to talk about him, I took a closer look. Why is this watch so familiar?

Seeing me staring at his left wrist, Ji Guanxin rolled down his sleeves without a trace, then pretended to be playing cards on the table, and said casually to me: "Why are you here?"

Upon hearing what he said, I guessed that Ji Guanning's call must not have been made by Ji Guanxin.

Sniffing my nose, I called him back: "I just learned about your hospitalization here."

Ji Guanxin said: "Really, then your news is really blocked."

From the moment I entered the door, Ji Guanxin's conversation with me was like an ordinary friend, but it felt more inexplicable than ordinary friends.

I also feel uncomfortable in my heart, but it is better than the appearance of him lying sick in bed, then I really can't stand it.

Tears have stopped, I asked Ji Guanxin: "How is your health?"

Ji Guanxin didn't look at me either. He sat on the side of the bed and lowered his head to play the cards in his hand. He said casually, "It's okay, I can't die for a while."

I frowned, and said aloud: "Can you stop dying? Annoying?"

Ji Guanxin looked up at me, curled the corners of his lips, jokingly and provocatively saying, "Unhappy?"

I didn't speak, but Ji Guanxin raised his brows and said: "You came all the way, isn't it just to play with me?"

Facing Ji Guanxin's disregard, I couldn't get angry at all.

Secretly sighed, I said helplessly: "I heard that you had surgery today, why are you still playing cards with them?"

Ji Guanxin said: "Otherwise? Find someone to come over and recite Buddhist scriptures for me. Will my operation go smoothly?"

I:"……"

I didn't answer, Ji Guanxin lowered his eyes at first, and after waiting for a while, he raised his eyes to look at me. Seeing my red lips and eyes, he said: "Don't cry, I haven't seen others cry in front of me lately, it always feels like I won't live long."

He told me not to cry, and at the same time poked a knife into my heart. I really clenched my fists and gritted my teeth, so that I could not let the tears fall.

Taking a deep breath, I just opened my mouth and took a deep breath in front of Ji Guanxin.

After a few times, my tears were forced back. Ji Guanxin smiled, and then said: "I haven't seen you for so long, but you haven't changed at all, funny."

While trying to suppress the sourness in my heart, I had to behave like a normal person, watching Ji Guanxin replied: "You are so funny, dressed like this in the hospital, is it to seduce + lure a young nurse?"

Ji Guanxin laughed, and he replied aloud: "I have become better in Japanese now, and I am all mixed up with those little nurses."

I glanced at him and said, "It really doesn't stop anywhere."

Ji Guanxin said: "People are not in vain, let alone life is short, who knows which one will come first tomorrow or accident?"

I was in my throat all of a sudden.

After blinking, I said after a few seconds: "Don't be afraid, the evil will be left for a thousand years."

Ji Guanxin frowned and looked at me: "Is this comforting me?"

I ‘pushed’ a laugh, and replied: "As long as I live long, it doesn’t matter to be a bastard."

Ji Guanxin raised his eyebrows and said: "It doesn't matter if a woman is the bachelor, of course a man can't. Can you bear the green on your head?"

I nodded earnestly: "Yes, when I was a child, I wished to live as long as a tortoise on my birthday."

Ji Guanxin glanced at me disdainfully: "Not promising."

The chattering of a few words, it seems that time has returned to the first we just met.

auzw.com I stood in front of Ji Guanxin. Because the room was well lit, the winter sun outside poured in and covered me and Ji Guanxin. He is already white, and he likes to wear light-colored clothes. Now he is even more dazzling.

From the bottom of my heart, I sighed, if life is really just + first sight, then how good it would be.

I would rather Ji Guanxin always be scornful, and I would rather him always be cynical.

Ji Guanxin looked to me again with my stunner skills. He said aloud: "Right, is your birthday today?"

His tone was very ordinary, so I had to nod.

Ji Guanxin lifted his chin and said, "Go to the first drawer over there. There is a black box in it. Take it out."

Following Ji Guanxin's words, I bypassed the hospital bed and took out a black jewelry box from the drawer of the bedside table. The logo on the box was Patek Philippe.

Back in front of Ji Guanxin, I handed him the box, but Ji Guanxin didn't answer it. Instead, he said to me, "I'll give it to you."

I was stunned for a moment and looked straight at him.

Ji Guanxin looked at me calmly and said, "What are you doing? Friends, isn't it right to give you a birthday present?"

I'm sure, Ji Guanxin doesn't know that I will come today. But this gift...he kept it in the drawer.

Perhaps it was the look in my eyes that revealed what I was thinking in my heart, and Ji Guanxin looked away a little hurriedly. Taking the box in my hand, he opened the lid and took out a pure black ladies watch from the inside.

Without saying hello to me, he stretched out his hand and pulled my left wrist. He wanted to put on the watch for me, but his eyes fell on the diamond ring of my left ring finger.

I also stiffened inexplicably in my arm. I didn't have time to think about it. I already pulled my wrist from Ji Guanxin's hand.

Ji Guanxin curled the corners of his lips and said with a smile: "I wear the rings, so soon? When will the wedding be held?"

I swallowed, but didn't respond immediately.

Ji Guanxin pulled up my left wrist again and put the watch on my wrist. When he buttoned the button, he lowered his head and said: "Zijin, seeing you are doing well now, I am relieved."

I finally calmed down, and finally held back the tears. Finally, because of Ji Guanxin's words, the high wall he built collapsed.

Tears instantly blurred my vision, and I couldn't even see the figure of Ji Guanxin in front of me.

In a daze, Ji Guanxin's voice came: "I don't want you to know, but you are really here, and I feel happy again. At least I can give you a gift by myself before entering the operating room."

Tears slid down his cheeks, extremely itchy. I stretched out my hand to wipe away the tears on my face, and then said in a choked voice: "Guan Xin, you will be fine..."

I vaguely saw Ji Guanxin's lips curled up. He smiled and said: "Everyone told me that there will be nothing wrong, but you are the only one who dares to cry in front of me."

I trembled and said, "Nothing will happen. If I say there will be nothing, there will be nothing."

Ji Guanxin said: "Who do you think you are?"

I said: "I am willing to trade my ten years of life for your successful operation..."

Swear to the sky, I am a person afraid of death, but at this moment I say this willingly. If my loved ones are facing a life or death decision, I will make the same oath.

But when my voice fell, Ji Guanxin was furious. He swept away the poker on the table with excitement and said angrily: "Shut up, you!"

I cried and said, "Ji Guanxin, don't worry about it..."

In the next second, Ji Guanxin had stood up from the bedside, and he held me fiercely in his arms. I can feel the strength of his arms, and my bones are about to fall apart.

I reached out and grabbed his clothes, crying and said, "Ji Guanxin, you promise me that you must get out of it well. I'm waiting for you to come out."

Ji Guanxin hugged me, his fingers hooked my hair, and my scalp hurt. I heard him say with a trembling voice: "Zi Jin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what I said to you in the night city..."

I shook my head vigorously.

Ji Guanxin said again: "I really envy Luo Xiangdong, I envy the person you fall in love with is he not me."

I said: "I'm sorry..."

"I'm so afraid that when I enter the operating room, I won't be able to get out again, so I can't even give you the last birthday present."

I was so sad that I couldn't even cry.

"Zijin, thank you for coming to see me. I will shed tears for me when I see you. I know the value of my love."

I closed my eyes, my nose was not ventilated, and I breathed through my mouth, but my lips kept shaking.

I knew that what Ji Guanxin once told me would not be false.

It turned out that it was not that he gave me an empty joy, but I gave him an empty joy.

"I'm sorry..." Apart from these three words, I don't know what else to give Ji Guanxin.

Ji Guanxin gradually loosened my arm, he handed me a tissue, and then looked down and said to me: "Zi Jin, don't say sorry to me, we are free to love and break up peacefully. No one owes anyone a word. The emotional thing is barely coming, so I have long since looked away. You and Luo Xiangdong can be together, and I wish you happiness. I also told myself, if I can survive this barrier, the moment I get out of the operating room , I won’t love you again, because you said, I’m a prudent person, you don’t love me, why should I love you?"

"Zi Jin, you and Luo Xiangdong must be happy, otherwise you will regret missing me in the future, and I will never love you again at that time."