With Love and Time

I have never thought of meeting Ji Guanxin in my life, but from the moment he saw me sitting in Luo Xiangdong's car, he kept honking at me. We have each other in our destiny.

From acquaintance. Familiarity, knowing each other, falling in love and then forgetting each other. Our beginning is different from ordinary people. So that our separation is so sad and at a loss.

Even one second before receiving this call. I'm not sure why Ji Guanxin chose to break up with me in the first place. He didn't even want to see me on the extra side.

I'm not stupid. But not a smart person, so I have been avoiding this problem. Now that the result is there. Then I won't pursue the cause anymore.

It's just that I often think of Ji Guanxin. Think of the scenes we have happened before. He cried me in the street and forced me to get in his car; he died in a public fundraiser, and was so scared that my legs were weak and Zhang Danqing helped me to the mourning hall; he suddenly appeared in Liangcheng. Never asked why I went home. But he used his own way to protect me from peace; we agreed to two chapters. The second rule is that he can never lie to me, otherwise everyone will go to their own houses. Find each mother.

He also told me, as long as you don't dump me. I will never want you.

But later, he chose to let go first, without saying any reason, until I met him again in the imperial court, he made me totally hurt.

I don't hate Ji Guanxin, I have never hated it, even if he hurt me in front of so many people.

It is really strange that a stingy person like me does not blame him at all.

Now things have passed for a long time, and I have been with Luo Xiangdong for a long time. When I lose my temper with Luo Xiangdong every time because of a little thing, I know that...I might really not love Ji Guanxin.

A woman can only be stingy to the person she loves to her bones, and she can't tolerate the slightest mistake made by him. This is why we can forgive friends and family, but we can't forgive lovers.

Because love is one-on-one, I can do the best for love, so it is not single-minded to tolerate each other.

I remember Ji Guanxin's kindness to me. He also moved me to my heart. For example, he ran to my house in a hospital gown to help me run away bad guys.

I once thought very selfishly, if, if there is no Luo Xiangdong in my life, then I will fall in love with Ji Guanxin. This is not a comparison of second best, but love does not come first, but one person is in another person’s life. The order of appearance is very important.

This is like someone who gets drunk first and can't send you home. It's a truth.

My heart has been given to Luo Xiangdong first, so no matter how good Ji Guanxin is to me, I still can't do it wholeheartedly.

I feel guilty about Ji Guanxin, so when he hurt me, I just felt a lot more psychologically balanced. I owe him, he hurts me, and then neither of us owes each other.

God knows how much I worked hard to put down Ji Guanxin, he hasn't appeared in front of me for almost a year, and there is almost no news. I also paralyzed myself in a way that I didn't want to see, and we could all start again.

But now...a phone call from Ji Guanning completely lost all my defenses.

Holding the phone, I seemed to be silent for just a few seconds, but the past was used like a tide, and all the past pictures appeared. It turns out that if I don't mention it, it doesn't mean that I have forgotten.

Luo Xiangdong also saw my shocked and hollow eyes. He turned over and sat up, looked at me and said, "What's wrong?"

There was a drowning noise in my ear for a short time. I didn't return to Luo Xiangdong. I just held the phone, and my voice trembled with a trembling that I couldn't notice.

What happened to Ji Guanxin? Why does Ji Guanning use the terrifying description of "I don't know if I can come out alive".

Ji Guanning replied calmly: "If you want to come over, you can ask Luo Xiangdong and he will bring you here."

I can even imagine the expression on Ji Guanning's face at this moment, that is the indifference that never blinked his eyelashes.

After speaking, she just hung up the phone.

I was still holding the phone, maintaining the posture of answering the phone. Xu Shi Luo Xiangdong saw that the screen was black, and he reached for the phone, only to find that I was shocked.

Reaching out and touching my face, Luo Xiangdong's eyes were tentative and vigilant, and he asked aloud: "Zi Jin, what's the matter? What's wrong?"

I was looking at the quilt in front of me, and after hearing the words, I slowly raised my head and met Luo Xiangdong's eyes.

I asked him, "Xiang Dong, what happened to Ji Guanxin?"

Luo Xiangdong: "..."

Luo Xiangdong did not show surprise or dodge on his face, but he was silent.

His silence made my heart twitch inexplicably, I was so scared, I felt like I was missing something.

Staring at Luo Xiangdong's face without blinking, I was not so scared that I wanted to cry. In fact, my eyes were very dry, because it was so sudden that I didn't even have time to brew emotions.

I asked him, "What happened to Ji Guanxin? Why did Ji Guanning say he was going into the operating room? Why did she ask me to ask you?"

Luo Xiangdong was sitting next to me, and we were all covered with red silk quilts. It seemed that the newlyweds were very happy.

He was silent for a long while, and then said calmly: "Ji Guanxin has a heart attack."

My brows suddenly burst...heart attack?

Luo Xiangdong's thin lips opened, and his voice was low: "I heard that it is congenital tetralogy of Fallot, and the chance of successful operation is less than 20%."

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This time, I clearly felt the taste of a great drink.

Why did Ji Guanxin appear at my house late at night wearing a medical gown? He said it was pneumonia caused by a cold; he fainted at the airport with his nosebleeds from time to time, Zhang Danqing and the others said it was congenital hypotension.

I also went to the Internet to check it out. Congenital hypotension is especially serious, and it can cause nosebleeds.

It turns out that either I was too stupid, or Ji Guanxin deceived me too deeply.

I have known him for a year and separated for a year. It is only now that I have not figured out what his illness is.

Frowning, I didn't dare to think about the previous scenes. I just reached out and lifted the quilt before the tears fell.

When Luo Xiangdong saw this, he followed me down.

He called my name behind me: "Zi Jin..."

I knew what he wanted to say, so I resisted the emotion of Ru Kun in his throat, and said in a low voice: "Xiang Dong, Ji Guanning said he is going to the operating room today and I am going to Japan."

Luo Xiangdong said quickly: "Okay, I will accompany you."

When I was in the bathroom to clean up, I heard Luo Xiangdong call Guan Yue and asked her to book two tickets to Japan at the earliest. We will be at the airport in one hour at the latest.

I bent over to wash my face at the sink, raised my hands with a cup of water, and pounced on my face, time after time, time after time. Luo Xiangdong didn't know when he came in. He adjusted the tap to the left. When the warm water came down, I realized that I had been washing my face with cold water for so long.

I kept bend over, closed my eyes, and washed my face with water. Luo Xiangdong was standing next to me, I could feel it.

About a few minutes later, he couldn't help but grab my arm to make me raise my head. My face was full of water droplets, my eyes closed, hot tears just gushing from under my eyelashes.

Luo Xiangdong said: “I knew Ji Guanxin had a heart attack early in the morning. Later, he went to Japan for treatment. The news came back to China and I let the media suppress it.”

After a pause, he said again: "Do you blame me?"

Blame it? Who is to blame? Why blame?

I shook my head and tried to open my eyes, because I was already holding back tears, so my eyes were all red.

Pulling the tissue on the side and blowing my nose, I whispered: "Don't talk about it now, let's pack up and go to the airport."

Luo Xiangdong didn't say anything else, and we quickly packed up and drove to the airport.

Along the way, on the major shopping malls and roadside LED screens that passed by, all the pictures and passages of Luo Xiangdong's proposal to me last night were shown.

I put my left hand with a diamond ring on my knee, because I didn't have the habit of wearing a ring before, so I always wanted to touch the inner ring with my thumb.

At this moment, I no longer think about why Ji Guanxin broke up with me. No matter who is right or wrong in love, it seems so insignificant in front of life.

I just hope everything is well now.

When Luo Xiangdong and I arrived at the airport, they directly picked up the tickets with their ID cards and then boarded the plane through the VIP channel. During the period, Wei Zheng called Luo Xiangdong, and he may not have found us in the hotel.

Luo Xiangdong took the cellphone and said faintly: "We are on the plane, are we going to Japan?"

"Why suddenly want to go to Japan?"

"...Ji Guanxin has surgery today, Zijin wants to take a look."

Afterwards, Wei Zheng didn't ask any more questions. I guess this group of people knew it, but they just kept it from me.

It takes almost four hours to fly from Night City to Tokyo. There were only two of us in the first two rows of the first-class cabin. Presumably Luo Xiangdong had been holding back for a long time, and finally couldn't help asking: "Are you angry with me?"

I turned my head to look out of the window, the plane had flown to an altitude of 10,000 meters, and all the white clouds floated under me, giving the illusion of being in heaven.

Hearing this, I said after a while: "Don't be angry."

Luo Xiangdong said: "If you say you don't get angry, then you are angry."

I did not respond.

It took a while for Luo Xiangdong to say: "That person Ji Guanxin wants face, he doesn't want you to be with him because you are pitying him."

Hearing the word pity, my heart throbbed.

I am distressed for Ji Guanxin, distressed that he has a nosebleed, distressed that he faints, distressed that he often has no blood on his face, distressed that he fights, distressed that his weather is so cold and thin.

I think distress is also one of my favorites. After all, I don’t feel distressed when I just see someone on the street. But in Cai Guanxin's eyes, is he pitying him?

I turned my head and looked out of the airplane window. Luo Xiangdong looked ahead alone, and whispered: "I deliberately concealed it from you because I dare not bet. What if you don't want me because of his illness?"