The Pentium Era - South to North

Gu Shufang stood there with a look of astonishment on her face. When she woke up and walked to the stairs, she saw that the lights in Zhang Chen's room were dark, while the lights in Xiao Lin and Caizhen's rooms were both on. Gu Shufang tried her best to control I didn't go downstairs because of myself, I knocked on Zhang Chen's door and asked what happened.

The next day, Gu Shufang was distracted. When cooking at noon, she actually put sugar into the dishes instead of salt. This was something she had never done before.

Gu Shufang is very confident in her cooking skills. When cooking, she never uses a horse spoon to get a little bit of vegetables or soup from the pot like most chefs do, and tastes it. She knows that she has put it in Whatever tastes like it should taste in the end, there will never be any deviation.

But when the chopsticks of green vegetables were put into her mouth, there was no salty taste at all, and instead it tasted sweet, Gu Shufang was shocked again.

Suzhou people like to add sugar when cooking. Gu Shufang would also add a little bit of sugar when frying vegetables, but it was so sweet that she must have added sugar twice.

Gu Shufang sat there and found it funny to herself. How could she still look like a girl even though she was several decades old? She was so concerned and worried about her first love, which made her toss and turn. Even when she first fell in love, she didn't seem to care about the other person in this way. , thinking of this, Gu Shufang felt a little aggrieved.

Why?

Gu Shufang is an aloof person by nature, and she treats others, her parents, and herself like this. When she went her own way, she came to this island because almost everyone around her was opposed to her union with him. It was because of everyone's opposition. , only then did Gu Shufang develop an attitude of "Why should I listen to you?"

She felt that her parents were too pedantic and the people around her were too snobbish. Only she knew what love was and what the union of love was.

I love you so much, weren't you defeated like a drowned dog in the end?

Gu Shufang wiped the corners of her eyes with her hands, and they were actually moist. Gu Shufang smiled bitterly and shook her head.

She stood up, walked out of the restaurant, stood at the stairs and looked down. The door to Zhang Chen's room was closed tightly. The sun shone on the light blue door, shining brightly. Looking at the door, she didn't know why. Gu Shufang I felt some comfort in my heart. The person in this door was not here now, but he would come back and sit in her living room, talking and laughing gently.

She likes to look at his eyes. These eyes are so focused that she can ignore everything except what is in his eyes. She prefers that when these eyes look at her, she feels that she is... In his eyes, walk in, walk in... She can only belong to him, and these eyes, at this moment, also belong to her.

Gu Shufang stood in a daze for a while. The sun above her head would shine directly for a moment at noon every day and fall into the well in the patio on the first floor. In such a deep place, there would also be a moment of sparkling light. Just like he didn't know when, he illuminated his already silent heart. It turns out that stagnant water really has slight waves, and it's more than just slight waves.

After the sun climbs out of the well, it will quickly climb to the first floor, then the second floor, and stay on the third floor throughout the afternoon. The shadow where Gu Shufang is standing will soon be brightened by the sunlight.

Gu Shufang simply stopped eating and didn't even clean up the kitchen. This was something she had never done before. Even if she was alone with her daughter, Gu Shufang would always hold her daughter in one hand during such difficult times. , tidied the kitchen with one hand, and then left the kitchen.

Gu Shufang came to the living room and stared at the painting on the easel. The painting was almost completed. She stared at herself in the painting and asked in her heart, he painted you one stroke at a time. Do you know him? If you understand, can you tell me what he is thinking?

Gu Shufang thought about how he praised her so directly. No man had ever praised her like this. Although the man named Fu was said to be a smiling tiger, he was not like this when he was young. When he was young, he was serious in speech and speech. , and even a little dull, not even uttering a word of love.

She thought it was the sincerity and shyness of local people, and he was much more reliable than those A Fei who could only talk sweet words. But later she found out that it was not the sincerity and shyness, but that in his heart, he felt that women did not need more. Language, women are not used for love. The greatest use of women is either in the fields or in bed.

After arriving on the island, she felt that almost all the men on the island thought so. Even the women who became mother-in-law or mothers seemed to think so too. The status of women here frightened her.

Gu Shufang sighed. What kept popping up in her mind was Zhang Chen's focused look when he was painting, and his sincere and naked smile when he praised his youth and good skin.

will you like me?

If you don't like someone, don't praise them.

Gu Shufang picked up the painting, went to the bedroom, and sat on the bed, facing the full-length mirror, looking at herself in the mirror and in the painting. For a moment, she was in a trance. She didn't know that these two pictures in the mirror Which face is more real?

She remembered that he said that what the painter painted was the reality in his eyes. So, in his eyes, she was so terrible, indifferent and disdainful? But in this indifference, there is a little bit of affection, whether it is her affection for him, or his affection for her, or maybe both, we are like a pitiful couple.

Gu Shufang likes the word pity Chu Chu very much. She feels that there is a kind of awe-inspiring and inviolable in Chu Chu, rather than pitiful. Xi Xi is the one who can be stepped on in the mud. I, Gu Shufang, cannot be stepped on in the mud by anyone.

Looking at the painting in the mirror, Gu Shufang saw the eyes that were stuck on the painting. She thought of praising herself again. If you want to praise, then take it. I am willing to give it, and you should take it without hesitation. We are a lovely couple, there is no pity.

Gu Shufang has decided that tonight, she will tell him everything. She wants to tell him that if they like each other, they should not torture each other, but should own each other. If you can cherish my moment, I will give it. All of me.

Age is nothing!

It was a long afternoon. Gu Shufang was sitting in the living room reading, but could not read a word. She looked up at the wall clock from time to time. Every time she looked at it, she smiled bitterly. Why was she so childish?

This self-sorrow and self-pity is a little sweet, a little bitter, and a little aggrieved and sour.

She stood up from time to time, looked in the mirror, looked at the person in the mirror, and sighed. After all, she is still old. No matter how you take care of yourself or how good your skin is, you will look young at most, but not really young.

Age is nothing, age is an unbridgeable gap between them. If I were twenty years younger, who would I, Gu Shufang, be afraid of?

Gu Shufang retreated little by little. She thought of Jin Lili, that was his girlfriend, that was the real youth, the vitality radiated from the inside, even if she was still beautiful, she was a bit late. , Jin Lili's beauty is the kind that requires little modification. She is a bit like herself when she was young, that is, because of her beauty, she is a little unscrupulous and arrogant.

Beautiful and confident women are always like this. Too many admiring glances, and compliments washed over their ears over and over again, will bring them an illusion, an illusion that I will kill all the flowers after they bloom. Why do beauties have such a bad fate? It's because beauties always think highly of themselves and don't accept their fate.

The wall clock passed five o'clock, then six o'clock, and it would be seven o'clock soon. Gu Shufang knew that he would not come back early today, let alone come to eat. Gu Shufang entered the kitchen and took a look. At noon The remnants of the meal are still there, and the three leftovers still exist unexpectedly on the table.

Gu Shufang warmed the three leftovers hastily, but found that heating these three leftovers was more difficult than cooking a table of dishes.

I picked up my rice bowl and ate hastily. While eating, I raised my ears and listened carefully to the sounds below. At this time, the sounds in this old residential area were the most complex and chaotic, because everyone came from all around the city. As we gathered together to go home, the active population around us suddenly increased. Aren’t all the sounds around us made by humans?

But among so many sounds, there was no one she was waiting for, the sound of the door opening downstairs.

Gu Shufang took two bites of rice, and suddenly thought about how long it had been since she had spent time so casually. In the past, she would write down her recipes for the next day one day in advance, and then go to the market early in the morning to carefully select them. She always chooses the freshest ones, goes home, cooks them carefully by herself, and enjoys them slowly.

Thinking that she had such a casual day today, Gu Shufang's nose felt sore, and she felt aggrieved again. She put down the bowl and sat there blankly.