Love in the Dreamland of iPartment

At that moment, I felt that I was so humble, and I still couldn't face the reality sincerely, let alone express my heart.

For ten years, I have been immersed in how to enter the university, what university to take, what major to choose, whether to take the postgraduate entrance examination, where to work, whether to teach new courses, whether to invite parents, etc. I have struggled and hesitated. , but I have never longed for someone to bring a difference to my life as I do now. Every time I attend a class reunion, I occasionally think of Lin Yi’s face, but when I look back, I find that I have already forgotten his details. Forgot all about it.It wasn't because I didn't love him anymore, maybe it was because of time, I had become less in love with him until the day I met Ji Dong.

I tried to let him go, but found that it was not as easy as when we parted, because his face was too clear.

Xie Zhenzhen turned around and left. Just as she took two steps, I stopped her: "Mrs. Lin!"

When I was still hesitating whether to call her by her full name, I changed my name. Xie Zhenzhen looked at me with teary eyes, as if very surprised.

"We are all the same, this matter should be decided by Ji Dong himself."

I didn't dare to stay, and even less dared to pray—I once again gave my life to other people's choices.

After school in the afternoon, I went to the hospital where Lin Yi worked. I ran into him in the hospital lobby, and he was a little surprised to see me coming.

"Baoling?" He waved goodbye to his colleagues and ran towards me, "What are you doing in the hospital?"

Ji Dong was wearing a white coat and wearing a pair of black-rimmed glasses - the first time I saw him wearing glasses, maybe I didn't notice it usually.

"Xie Zhenzhen came to look for me today." My tone was as calm as possible.

"Her?" Ji Dong was surprised at first, and then became anxious, "She didn't do anything too much, did she? She... how did she know about me and you?" He looked very nervous, in my eyes it was so ridiculous.

"You don't want to divorce her—I know how hard it is for her, I know how it feels," I said.

Ji Dong looked at me strangely and remained silent.

"I'm serious this time, goodbye." I turned my head and left, but Ji Dong didn't catch up, so I quickened my pace.

I actually don't want to leave Ji Dong, but I don't want to live under the title of "little three" anymore. I don't want Xie Zhenzhen to bear the pain that I have long been numb to, which is more indescribable pain than losing my marriage.Of course, many people think that marriage is the ultimate result of love, but I don't think so-marriage is a responsibility, and love does not need to be responsible, it only needs trust.

If you give your whole youth to love, it means you believe in love, but what if love doesn't believe in you?

Nothing.

Is it just a trick of love?For me now, it really is a trick, because I can no longer believe in love with my youth.When I came out of the hospital, I felt like a seriously ill patient. I didn’t want to stay in the hospital for weak treatment, and I didn’t want to waste time outside—in short, I’m going to die. I’m only 27 years old, and I still have at least [-] years left. ?

"Excuse me, is this Miss Cheng?"

I received a call from a stranger, it turned out to be Xie Zhenzhen, her voice was a little tired.

"Mama Baoling, what's the matter?" I tried my best to find a reasonable address.

"It's not too late to disturb you now..." she asked softly, "I want to see you."

"This..." I was afraid that this woman would slap me again, so I hesitated.

"I just wanted to talk to you and forgive my faux pas this morning." Her tone was peaceful and pathetic.

At eleven o'clock in the evening, I met her in an all-day cafe. She changed into a long beige windbreaker, and there were tears on her face. She seemed to have lost the madness of this morning. I Also a little more stable.

"Jing Yi is on duty tonight, that's why I came out." She spoke first, "I'm really sorry this morning, and I sincerely apologize to you." I suddenly became very embarrassed: "No, actually, I understand you very well mentality."

"Actually, how did Ms. Cheng and my husband... know each other?" Maybe this is what Xie Zhenzhen wants to know the most?I took a deep breath and told her a story I hadn't told anyone in ten years.

"Ten years ago, Lin Yi and I were classmates in high school..." I spoke very vaguely. I had almost forgotten some things, so I could only dig them out from the depths of my memory. I kept talking. , Tears dripped into the coffee, I suddenly realized that I had lost my composure, but when I looked up at Xie Zhenzhen, I found that her tears had already wet the tablecloth, which surprised me.

"Actually, Ji Dong and I have known each other since we were young."

Xie Zhenzhen wiped away her tears, calmed down a bit, and told me a story——this is a strange story.

"My father and his father are good friends, so I also liked to play with Lin Yi when I was young, and the adults liked to put us together. I went to a private high school. When I went to Lin Yi's house, I heard My father and Lin's father were talking about going to the United States for development, and Lin Yi, who was on the side, strongly objected after hearing it, and they finally discussed that Lin Yi and I should go to the United States after graduating from high school."

"In the end, the plan was advanced. It turned out that it was because Ji Dong was with you—then he and I went to the United States to study and work, and then we married him as a matter of course." When Xie Zhenzhen told this story, the corners of his mouth rose slightly. ,wry smile.

"Then... have you ever loved Ji Dong?" I asked cautiously. I didn't expect that Xie Zhenzhen and Lin Yi were childhood sweethearts. It turned out that the story between them was longer than my acquaintance with Lin Yi.

"I have always liked Ji Dong." She wiped away her tears and said with a smile, "I have liked him since I was very young, and I have always loved him—until now, I love him Doing everything, sometimes he leaves me alone at home, Baoling goes to school again, I don't have any complaints - I don't complain that he rarely takes time out to accompany me..."

"But that morning he asked me for a divorce...I...I thought it was because I didn't love him enough, but I found out that he was no longer in love with me...I spent more than 20 years loving someone and touching him Knowing a person's likes and dislikes, but I still can't compare to one—you." I was embarrassed, and took a sip of cold coffee: "Actually... I have already broken up with Lin Yi today."

"Why?" Xie Zhenzhen seemed to have already planned to lose.

"Is there no reason for the question about love?" I smiled.

When we bid farewell to each other, Xie Zhenzhen hugged me, she whispered in my ear, after listening I froze in place and didn't make a sound.The next day I took a morning off and arrived at a few shows at eight o'clock.