[Net King] Take away my heart

More than five years have passed since that incident.

Due to the serious sequelae of the car accident, Akiyama became dazed after waking up, often forgetting this and that, and even couldn't remember clearly what happened before the car accident.

"Good news...do you still remember Jingshi?"

"Who is that……?"

The Yukimura couple who asked her this question showed a sad expression.But then they said, it's okay if they can't remember, but if they forget those things, they won't be sad anymore.

Akiyama's mind and memory will always stay at the age of 15.Doctors judged that she had no chance of recovery.

People around felt that Liu Lian Er was a bit strange.

Liu Lian-er, who was admitted to the law department of this university with No.1 grades at the time, gave up the judicial examination and her bright future when she was about to graduate, and chose to work as a secretary in an unknown library.

No one could understand the reason why Liu Lian Er did this, even if he asked him, he would not explain anything.

Everyone felt helpless for him.

The library where Liu chose to work was very close to Yukimura's house.Since the death of Yukimura Seiichi due to illness, there are only a pair of parents with vicissitudes of life left in this family, and a girl who sits in a wheelchair and never goes out.

Almost every day, Liu would visit Yukimura's house with a few books.Liu was a good friend of Yukimura during his lifetime. Since Yukimura's death, he has been in and out of Yukimura's house frequently, no matter the weather, there is never a single day.

No one can understand Liu's reason for insisting, including Yukimura and his wife.Although Liu is a good friend of Yukimura, Yukimura has passed away for many years. His teammates have all grown up, and everyone has gone on different paths. overseas development.There is no one who misses old friends and old friends like Liu. Everyone is far away from each other, and it is difficult to reunite.Only Liu is still here.

Police officer Kawai, who was in charge of the case five years ago, is now retired. Once he met Liu by chance on the street.

The two chatted about the incident five years ago, and Liu told Police Officer Kawai about Akiyama's recent situation, and also talked about his own recent situation by the way.

"Really... Such a serious sequelae... I really feel sorry for that child."

When talking about Akiyama, Police Officer Kawai couldn't help sighing again and again.

"You're studying law because you're still obsessed with that incident? If that's the case, you're already close to your goal. Why do you want to give up?"

Facing Officer Hehe's question, Liu chose to remain silent at first.Officer Kawai ate the ramen patiently, and Liu slowly told him the reason after he drank all the soup base.

"I always thought you were a smart guy," he said to Liu. "I didn't realize you were a complete fool. Is it worth it?"

does it worth.Liu himself didn't know.But he knew he had to.

After leaving the ramen shop, the two bid farewell in front of the station.Before leaving, Police Officer Hehe gave Liu a nostalgic look, and said to him:

"You really remind me of a lot of things from the past. It's been so many years, but I still feel like I can't forget them."

Yep, it's the same for Yoo.

Those things are always deep in his heart and cannot be forgotten.

Akiyama likes to sit near the window.Every time Liu went to Yukimura's house, the first thing he did was put down the book, and then pushed Akiyama to a place where he could see the scenery outside the window with the wheelchair.

"Brought a new book today too. Look, this is what you asked me for last time."

He put the books he brought in front of Akiyama one by one, and Akiyama would smile every time.She doesn't remember many people, but she still remembers Liu. When Yukimura passed away five years ago, when she saw Liu who came to the funeral, she softly called out "Renji".

Because of the sequelae of the car accident, Akiyama was unable to move freely, nor could he go back to school to study.She has been staying at home for five years, with her parents taking care of her daily life. Day after day, year after year, Akiyama has grown up, but her mind has not grown up with her body.

"Thank you, Lian Er." She smiled sweetly, "Can you read it to me?"

For Akiyama, who was unable to go out, the most anticipated moment every day was the moment when Liu rang the doorbell.Only when facing Liu, would she show a happy smile from the bottom of her heart.

That smile looks so innocent.Innocent as a little girl.

"Just start reading here..."

Usually, Liu would move a chair and sit opposite Qiushan and read to her, and it would take an hour or two to read.

Unlike Akiyama in the past, Akiyama now has difficulty understanding obscure novels and poems. She often encounters obstacles in reading after not going to school for a long time, so Liu will pay attention to choosing some more understandable storybooks to bring to the audience. She, like a fairy tale or something.

The reason why I chose to work as a secretary in the library is also because it is convenient to find books.

After more than half of the reading, Liu stopped to rest.Akiyama stared at him, and suddenly asked, "Lian Er, why don't you smile? Are you unhappy seeing me?"

Liu was stunned by this sudden question.

"I am very happy when I see Lian Er, Lian Er reads to me, I will be happier, so I always want to laugh." Akiyama said, "But Lian Er is not like this, people don't know when they are happy. Are you smiling? If you don’t smile, is it because you are unhappy?”

"I……"

Liu couldn't answer the question.A bitterness ran down his throat.

"If only I could make Lian Er smile." As he said that, Akiyama made a not-so-funny face at him.

When leaving Yukimura's house, Yukimura and his wife stopped Yanagi from behind.Liu turned around and saw their heavy and embarrassed faces.

"You have taken care of Jiayin for so long without asking for anything in return, we have always been grateful to you..."

five years.Every day for the past five years, Liu has been in and out of Yukimura's house.Yukimura has passed away for a long time, even if he is Akiyama's friend, it is far-fetched. After all, he is not related to him, and Liu does not have a suitable identity and reason to visit Yukimura's house so frequently.

"You have a bright future, but you gave up the judicial examination for good news, and even chose a library that is closest to our home...We are really sorry, and we can't bear your kindness...Your future is bright, but you know it , Jiayin, she has nothing...she can only be a child like this forever..."

Liu understood all of this.

"You treat her well, you take care of her, but can you live like this for the rest of your life?... Have you ever thought that it is impossible for you to marry a disabled person... One day you leave her, and at that time, the good news will come again what can we do about it……"

The faces of the Yukimura couple are full of exhaustion and vicissitudes accumulated over the years due to too much grief.Their prematurely graying hair gave Willow a pain in his chest.

He knew that the Yukimura couple would say these words sooner or later, and he also knew that his "sacrifice" and "care" had never had a convincing reason for everyone.

Maybe what he did was pointless, incomprehensible, even ridiculous, but he just couldn't stop.There was always a voice inside him saying, you have to do this, you have to.

Because this is your redemption.

"Akiyama, remember Genichiro Sanada...he's getting married soon."

"Sanada...?"

Akiyama tilted his head and thought about it.Then she shook her head blankly.

"He used to be your classmate, and he played tennis with Yukimura...he was the first one in our team to get married."

"Did he invite you to the wedding?" Akiyama asked, "Will you go?"

"Yes, I will go."

"Will Lianji get married too?" She smiled innocently, "Same as Sanada?"

Liu was silent for a moment, then replied: "...No."

"Why not? It's written in the book that people will get married when they grow up." Qiushan stared at Liu, "Mom said, there are many people who introduce you to a blind date, but you don't want to meet them. You don't fall in love at school. , and don't go out to play with others, you always just run here..."

"Because those things are not necessary for me... It doesn't matter if I don't do it."

Liu tried to explain to Akiyama in a calm tone.

"Then, what is necessary? Is it necessary to come to my house every day?...Why do you always take care of me by my side like this?"

The calmness and indifference that Liu tried to maintain was broken after this question appeared.He frowned, finding it hard to speak.

"Because... I promised Miyake to take care of you."

After a while, he spoke with difficulty.

"However, they all said that Lianhua was gone." Qiushan's face showed a trace of sadness, "I remember her... I still remember that we formed a poetry club, but they all said that Lianhua had gone far away, So she can't come and see me."

"Whether she's here or not, I'll take care of you for the rest of my life."

After saying this, Liu lowered his head.He could no longer look into Akiyama's eyes, he was used to Akiyama's smile, but once she vaguely recalled those things before and showed a confused expression, Liu would feel uncontrollable pain.

She remembers some things and forgets some things.It seems that someone in the dark is unwilling to let her live in the sad memory, but chooses to make her forget the bad part and remember the best part.

But whether it was the bad part or the best part, everything remained in Liu's mind.It's as if it was deeply carved there with a hard thorn, as long as it is touched a little, the wound will hurt unbearably.

"Lian Er, will you marry me? They say that only married couples will stay together forever, just like my parents. If you take care of me all your life, will we get married?"

What comes out of Akiyama's mouth is always childish words like a child's.

There is no impurity, clean and transparent, but heart-wrenching words.

For Liu, nothing could be crueler.

"Akiyama...you are different from before. You used to be Miyake's best friend. We founded a poetry club together, recited poems together, and wrote poems together...that was the time I cherish the most, and it is the time I will cherish all my life. A time that is impossible to go back...you and Miyake are the most special and irreplaceable existence to me, and will always be so...and your brother, Yukimura...they are not here now, promise them I must do it...but..."

While talking, Liu suddenly felt cold on his cheeks.Tears choked his throat, and he could hardly speak anymore.He realized he was choking up.

"Lian Er...you are crying."

Akiyama stretched out his hand, gently patted Liu's head like soothing a wounded animal.

"It's okay, I know I've forgotten a lot of important things... Those memories are precious to Lianji, but I don't remember them, so Lianji is very sad... But, I feel very lucky because I I haven’t forgotten everything. I still remember Lianji. As long as I can think of Lianji, I feel very happy. What’s wrong with that? I only remember happy things and don’t remember sad things. This kind of life should be I am very happy..."

With that said, Akiyama put his hands on his face and made a not funny face at all.

"Come on, just smile." She shook her head trying to tease Xiaoliu, "Just smile and everything will pass."

The reason why Liu shed tears was not what Akiyama said, it was because she couldn't remember the past.Liu himself can't explain clearly what he has been carrying all these years. In front of memory and Qiu Shan, any data is useless.He has completely lost the ability to use data to analyze and understand a person, because as soon as he sees Qiushan, his heart will soften, so that he can no longer be as rational as before.

This change probably started with the death of Miyake.

After Miyake's death, Liu seemed to suddenly understand something.Some things and some people cannot be judged by common sense.So he gave up tennis and began to concentrate on law, and successfully entered the university of his first choice.

However, he didn't quite know what he was going to do.There are many things in this world that need to be judged by the justice of the law, but even if Liu has the right to judge, he can't change the world or restore what has been lost.

What is lost has been lost.And what is left in front of him is just a person that Liu can't let go of no matter what.

His most precious memories, the things he cherishes the most, and everything he wants to save the most, all belong to this one person.But this man had forgotten the past, forgotten his unsaved, irretrievable regrets.

Therefore, she is happy, but Liu is sad.

However, making the person in front of him happy is not the sin that Liu has always wanted to redeem and atone for?

He turned away and wiped the tears from his eyes with his hands.

When turning around, Liu put on a peculiar twitching expression.His nose was red and his eyes were swollen, but the corners of his mouth were trying to lift up.He tried several times but only lifted one corner of his mouth, the other side was still flat, forming a weird half-smile expression.

"Akiyama, when the time comes, let's go to Genichiro's wedding together." He said in a hoarse voice.

Akiyama nodded, and then she was amused by Liu's strange expression.

Sanada's wedding was held at the shrine and was a traditional Japanese wedding hosted by a priest.

The guests were all dressed in beautiful Japanese-style dresses, and Liu also wore a dark kimono on this day. Akiyama told him that this suit suited him very well.

Among all the guests, only Akiyama sat in a wheelchair and was pushed by Liu.Due to physical inconvenience, Akiyama was unable to put on a kimono, but put a long blanket on his knees to cover his legs.

"Would it be rude for me to do this... Does it look strange?" Because he hadn't gone out for a long time and saw many people at such a large party, Akiyama seemed a little nervous.

"No, it's okay." Liu comforted from behind, "Some people may not look good even if they wear kimonos."

"But Lian Er is very well dressed." Akiyama said while pointing to a place, "It is even better dressed than that person."

In the direction she pointed was today's groom, Genichiro Sanada.

Liu smiled silently, but Qiushan didn't see it.He pushed her to the place where the bride and groom were.

The guests were all greeting the bride and groom. The bride in white was very beautiful. Akiyama stared at her for a long time and couldn't help showing envious eyes.

"Such beautiful clothes must be very expensive..." She said to herself, "I don't know when I will be able to wear them."

"It's a pity that this is a Japanese-style wedding, and the bride doesn't know how to throw bouquets." Liu said, "Otherwise, I'll try my best to grab a bouquet for you, so that you can become the next one sooner."

Akiyama turned around and smiled at him non-stop.

The guests congratulated the bride and groom one after another, and sent well-prepared gifts.Liu also prepared a gift, which was a photo album with many photos of him and Sanada playing tennis together when they were young.

"Xianichiro, congratulations." Liu handed the gift to Sanada.

As the groom, Sanada looked at Liu, and at Akiyama who was being pushed by Liu, showing a complicated expression for some reason.After thanking him, he opened the photo album, and the bride on the side also came over to look at it.

"Wow... is this what Lian Er looked like when she was a child? So cute..."

Akiyama saw a photo inside at a glance. In the photo, Liu looked like a primary school student, with a slightly longer sister's hair style, holding a racket in his hand.

"So cute, so cute, so Lian Er was so cute when she was a child...!"

Akiyama took the photo from Sanada and kept pointing at it and said it was cute. The photo almost stuck to her hand, and she couldn't put it down like a novelty toy.Liu on the side looked a little embarrassed.

"Can you give me this photo, please...? It's so cute, I want to keep it..."

As soon as the words came out, the three people present were all stunned.Not only Sanada and Liu, even the bride was stunned.

"Qiu Shan, this is a wedding gift from me...or don't..."

Liu wanted to speak out to dissuade Qiushan, but was interrupted by the bride.

"I'll give it to you, since you like it so much." The bride said softly, "It's better for you to keep it than us." After she finished speaking, she glanced at Sanada.

In this way, Akiyama got the photo.She carefully clipped the photo into the wedding invitation so it wouldn't get folded.

"Hey, this bride's surname is also Sanada..." When he opened the invitation letter, Akiyama suddenly saw the name of the bride and groom written on it, "Oh, by the way, after marriage, the wife will change to the husband's surname, right..."

"Yes, they are already naturalized." Liu replied.

"Speaking of which, my parents also want to change my surname."

"Changing your surname? Why?" Liu was taken aback suddenly.

"Because I was sent to my grandma's house when I was a child, and my grandma's old surname was used. My parents said that since I have been home for so long, it is better to change back to my family's surname."

"I see……"

Liu didn't speak anymore, he seemed to be thinking about something.

At this time, there were several "bang bang" sounds outside the shrine, and the source of the sound seemed to be nearby.The guests couldn't help looking left and right. Some people said that a fireworks display was being held near the shrine, and it seemed that they could also see it from here.

"Do you want to watch the fireworks?" Liu asked Akiyama.

"Hmm! I want to see it."

So, Liu pushed the wheelchair and Akiyama away from the lively crowd and came outside the shrine.

"Where are the fireworks..."

There was silence outside the shrine, and the grass shone with faint stars, which looked like fireflies.

Akiyama raised his head to look for the traces of fireworks in the sky, and Liu also made the same movements as her.

After a while, with a "bang", a huge firework burst out of the sky, and the gorgeous light quickly spread and fell around, instantly illuminating the faces of the two people looking up.

"Wow... so beautiful..." Although a little frightened by the explosion of fireworks, Akiyama opened his eyes wide.

Before she finished sighing, there was a second "bang", this time the sound was more intense than the previous one, as if it exploded right next to her ear.Akiyama was taken aback, and at the same time, Liu gently covered her ears with both hands from behind.

"It's okay, so I won't be afraid." He said.

However, with her ears covered, Akiyama seemed to be unable to hear what he said. She concentrated on staring at the bright and beautiful night sky, showing a child-like excited smile.

Liu knew that this kind of smile was what he liked to see the most.Only when he saw this kind of smile did he feel saved.

"Qiu Shan..." He looked at Qiu Shan from behind, "No, good news..."

He knew that from now on, Akiyama would never hear what he said.With this barrier in place, Liu took a deep breath and began to speak his mind slowly.

"It's been five years. Miyake, Yukimura, they've all been dead for so long in the blink of an eye...Among all of us, the one who has suffered the most is you. So I want to help you, I want to save you... I chose to go to that library, not because I am not motivated, but because I hope to be closer to you, so that I can find different books to bring to you and read to you..."

"I thought I was fulfilling my promise to them, I took care of you and helped you, as if I would feel better in my heart... But it's not like that, the person who is saved and helped is actually myself... I am Taking comfort from you, as if you are by my side, I have never lost those important people, I have never lost my faith... You are the source of my motivation, the only precious existence I have, if one day Even if you are gone, then everything I do is meaningless... My memory will die with you, my hope and my belief will die with you... So, you live, for me Saying is the most important thing.”

"Why are you so important to me, so important that I can give up my future, give up everything... I can't even find a reasonable explanation for myself, is it because I am too afraid of losing, is it because of the deaths of Miyake and Yukimura It has become an indelible scar, so I can't bear to lose anything anymore... No, that's just an excuse, an excuse I used to escape."

"In my life so far, I have met many people of all kinds, good people, bad people, interesting people, boring people...but only you and Miyake's presence means a lot to me, because you guys Let me discover another side of myself that I don’t even know. I asked myself, if Miyake hadn’t passed away, if the three of us had always lived in the poetic world as before, how would we be now? What will become?... I still will not choose to leave you, because the moment I met you, I have completely changed."

"I don't let anyone or anything decide my choice... I want to do it myself, because I know I can't leave you. Good news... I don't just hold the feelings of a friend to you. "

Liu squinted his eyes, and the fireworks were still blooming in the sky.

"My pain stems from my failure to recognize my true feelings earlier...I didn't face you in this way until I lost so much. Why couldn't I wake up earlier and protect you , protect Miyake, protect everyone from harm..."

"Good news...is it too late to say this now? What do you think about me...I have lost my data and computing power, and I don't have the confidence to let you give a [-]% answer."

He felt the hands covering Akiyama's ears tremble slightly.

"Your surname... It's better not to change it first. I hope to let you change it on the day when it should be changed. Your parents are reasonable people... It would be great if they could understand."

Liu didn't notice the last firework going up into the sky.

"Just now, Genichiro said to me, if I can't take good care of you, Miyake and Yukimura will definitely not let me go. The way he looks at me has never been so scary...I know he is serious. Just Still, he still doesn't know the right way to express it, as before."

"Miyake, Yukimura... please leave the good news to me."

The fireworks show was over, and the surroundings returned to silence.Only a few fireflies with faint lights were left, still dancing quietly at the feet of the two of them.

Liu suddenly felt a pair of warm hands covering his own.He looked down.

"Ok."

Akiyama said to him.

she is smiling.

... They walked down silently and came to the noisy street, inseparable and extremely happy.

——charlesdi|ckens《littledorrit》