[Net King] Take away my heart

Death ends life, but not emotional ties. ——

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"At that time, it was already agreed that we would run away together."

The chapters of memory are opened page by page.

I got in the car of Lawyer Yagyu, I rushed to the airport with my last hope, and I was thrown off the cliff by the car that suddenly lost control...

Looking forward to the faint starlight in the dark night, thinking about Jingshi, thinking about the bright future we are going to, praying, waiting...

In the end, everything came to a halt when that person appeared.

"Although I feel sorry for my parents for escaping like this, and I don't know what the future will be like, I still have illusions about my future life with Jiayin...I have illusions more than once, we have our own home, our own room, Even if the place is small, it doesn’t matter, as long as there is a bed that can be squeezed together, we can keep each other warm... Jiayin will learn to cook, and I will learn to go shopping. Maybe some things will be knocked over... But it doesn't matter if the food you make is unpalatable, it will gradually get better."

It was raining outside the window, and the gloomy sky made Jingshi's face look hazy, as if covered by a layer of light fog.

"Jiayin, do you still remember when I was a child, I often drew pictures?"

"remember."

"At that time, I had never seen you, and I didn't know what you looked like. So I often drew pictures imagining your appearance, and I drew many, many portraits of you... I dare not show it to you, because I am afraid of being You said it doesn't look like a painting."

"Ah."

"Later, Jiayin was taken home, you may not believe it... When I saw Jiayin for the first time, I was really surprised, because Jiayin was exactly the same as I imagined, there was no difference at all... I The pictures I drew are really like Jiayin... It’s amazing, right? It turns out that I already knew what Jiayin looked like before I saw Jiayin. Maybe I have known Jiayin’s existence since I was born Alright..."

Jingshi's voice was unusually soft, as if whispering.

"When I grew up, I seldom drew anymore. I went to the tennis club... But I still like to draw, so I often go to the art department. It seems that I can find childhood memories there. Good news, you know Why should I draw a person without a face? Because, the person in the painting cannot be other people, it can only be one person... I have been drawing this person since I was a child, and I like to draw her, because of her I can draw Meaning... This person is by my side, but I can't let anyone know of her existence. Because once the person in the painting has a face, my secret will no longer be a secret..."

My heart suddenly stabbed a bit.

"When I was at home, Jiayin always avoided me intentionally or unintentionally... I know why, I know Jiayin must be very embarrassed, but the more you don't let me get close to you, the more I miss you... very much I really want to be closer to you. I hope I can be by your side all the time, watching you laugh, watching you cry, watching you do anything... Seeing you sleeping, I will think, if I were that How nice it would be to be someone who can lull you to sleep." Jingshi said slowly, "Once, when I passed by your room, I found that your door was not closed...I want to close the door for you. I walked over, but found that you were asleep and having a nightmare. So I walked in... I walked to your bed, knelt down to comfort you and said, don't be afraid... I am here, I will protect you... I say to you, good night, my princess, have a sweet dream...you didn't wake up, and you didn't find me...you just slept peacefully like that."

There was a hint of weakness in his voice.

"Now, I finally have the opportunity to read you a story by your side... Would you like to hear it?... Long, long ago, there was a legend... The twins who were born were cursed, and only one could live , the other must be a sacrifice. A pair of twins survived by luck, because the younger sister was sent away at birth, and everyone thought that this would escape the curse. However, when they grew up, they met again, and the curse took effect again. So, this There was a disagreement between the twins... At this point, who will die and who will live? They both hope that the other can survive, so they can't compete. At this time, the elder brother of the twins said that because he sent his sister away, he could live to the end of his life. Now, as an older brother, not only did he not do anything for his younger sister, but also caused her to suffer so much, so this time, let me protect her..."

"No..." I couldn't help shaking my head, "No...it's not like that..."

That's not the story I want to hear at all.

"I have thought about whether I have been pulling you into this vortex all this time...Maybe Jiayin doesn't have that kind of affection for me, but I'm just forcing you, reminding you, and giving you hints, Because you sympathize with me like this, and because you know that I won't live long, that's why..."

"No." I kept shaking my head, tears gradually pooled in my eyes, "I never...never..."

"Jiayin, you should have the right to walk under the sun like Marui and others. You should be caressed by the sun, you should laugh with your friends, you should have many, many friends, and you should be with someone like Marui A healthy and sunny boy falling in love... I understand that I deprived you of the right to have these things. But I can't give up, because without you, I have no reason to live, and I have everything I want, except You...Only you, I can't even protect you. I will only hurt you, only pull you into the abyss..."

"No, you don't know... because you are always gentle, I used to hate that kind of semen." I tried to close my eyes tightly, trying to stop the tears from overflowing, "I was jealous of Mochizuki-senpai, I thought you The person who drew it is her, because I feel ashamed in front of such a perfect person...Jingshi has always been better than me, I thought maybe this is why my parents don't want me, I am very scared...I always feel that I should disappear People are me, if there is no me, Jingshi will not be sick, parents will not live so hard, if I don't exist... But Jingshi treats me very well... I hope you just treat me It's good to be alone, I hope you don't look down on me, but you are good to everyone... I'm sad, I don't know what to do, I don't know what the meaning of my existence is, what can I do... What can I bring happiness to others, what can I help you and mom and dad... I don't seem to be able to do anything, my birth... My birth was a bad news from the very beginning, the name Jiayin is simply wrong... ..."

Seiichi slowly reached out to me, and gently held my hand.

"Good news... when you look in the mirror, what do you see? When I look at you, I feel like I'm looking at another self in the mirror... We are the same, what do you think I will also think about it, I am a part of yourself, you are also a part of me, we live together, die together, live together... You are jealous of Mochizuki, how do you know that I will not be jealous of the people around you?... I really hope you will always belong to me, don't look at anyone other than me, don't listen to anyone other than me, Marui or Liu, I hope everyone stays away from you, because I'm afraid of you Will be taken away by them... Do you still think I am gentle when I am so selfish and ugly?..."

"Yes..." My voice became hoarse, "Yes..."

"I...can't be the prince of Jiayin." He smiled sadly, "But there must be someone who loves you more than me... There must be someone who can do better than me. That person will not hurt you, he will To truly protect you, he will always be by your side...he will replace me and become the prince of Jiayin."

"Jingshi, are you going to die...?"

"As long as Jiayin lives, I will live."

"But I can't live alone."

I held his hand tightly, as if he would disappear at any moment.

"Good news...can you sing a song for me? I feel a little tired..." Jingshi's breathing was weak.

I think back to the lullabies my grandma sang to me as a child.

"When I was a child, I often had nightmares at night, and I was so scared that I woke up crying and dared not go back to sleep... Whenever I had nightmares, my grandma would come to me and sing this song to me..."

I slowly hummed the familiar melody from my childhood.In the calm tune, Jingshi closed her eyes in peace.

"As long as grandma sings this song... I won't be afraid anymore... I won't have nightmares anymore... Do you remember, we agreed before that on our next birthday... we will go to see grandma together..."

We held each other's hands and waited together for the moment when the rain stopped in a way no one could have imagined.

"Good news..." Jingshi called my name gently, "I really hope...we can go to a place without prejudice...the people there...everyone is kind and kind...we...can hold hands freely ..."

I continued to hum my grandma's song.

"I know there will be an angel singing beside me, so no matter where I go, I am not afraid... Good news, you are not bad news, you are my most beautiful song, since I was a child... Grandma, she must think so ..."

A line of tears ran down my cheek.A heartbreaking temperature came from Jingshi's hands.

"We don't need to hold grudges against anyone...we are born together...we are dying together...we will not be alone...just back to the beginning...to the original...cleanest place...as long as...you Alive..." The temperature is gradually cooling down, "There is a word, maybe you won't be forgiven if you say it...but...I have always...always...always..."

I can no longer hum my grandma's lullaby coherently.I made intermittent, incoherent sounds.The sound eventually turned into a whimper.

"Good news... I..."

The sound of rain gradually overshadowed everything.

In the deepest part of my memory, I have already held hands with Jingshi like this, sharing a primitive life.His hands are so warm and kind, as if they have been guarding him from the very beginning, and have never been separated.

Yes, never separated.

In another ward not far away, a body is waking up from a deep and long sleep.

I would like to wander by your side as a wild ghost

follow you

Even if you fall into the darkest place

my love

won't make me a lonely soul forever

... And just like that, a tender soul passed away.