[Net King] Take away my heart

From the moment I heard the first love story

I started looking for you

Don't know anything about how blind this is

Lovers don't end up meeting somewhere

They are always with each other

——molanajalaluddinrumi

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On the day of my parents' wedding anniversary, my mother said that the whole family should go out to have dinner together, and told Jiayin and me not to go home after school, but to go directly to the restaurant.

Accompanied by the bell after school, I walked out of the classroom, and suddenly found Jiayin standing at the door waiting for me.I was slightly surprised, because Jiayin would never come here if she had nothing to do. The only time in my impression was that she forgot to bring her textbooks, so she came to ask me to borrow them.

"What's the matter...? Aren't you going to the restaurant?" I walked towards her.

Jiayin was leaning against the wall with her schoolbag, just as everyone was rushing out of the classroom, many eyes in the crowd were staring at this place.Jiayin seemed a little nervous, but when she saw me approaching, she breathed a sigh of relief as if she had been saved.

"...Can't we go together?" Jiayin asked me in a low voice.

"Go together?" I was even more surprised by the good news that said this sentence, "But I still have club activities... Don't you know the way to the restaurant? In that case, it should be okay to ask Dad to pick you up It doesn't matter."

"no……"

She lowered her head, as if she had something to hide.

Today's good news is very strange, I can't help but think so.We never go to school together, and we never leave school together. As a member of club activities, I have to go out early and return late every day for practice. Therefore, I have a completely different schedule from Jiayin who does not participate in formal clubs.

In addition to the timing mismatch, Jiayin has never been the kind of sister who likes to cling to me and act like a baby.Needless to say she was acting like a baby, Jiayin would deliberately avoid even getting close to me, but she suddenly ran uncharacteristically and said that she would go to the restaurant together, and even waited outside the classroom for me to come out, which made me feel surprised at the same time. A tiny bit of joy.

"If possible, I would also like to go with Jiayin." I said softly, "But there is a practice match in the tennis club today, and I definitely can't miss it, so Jiayin can go there first, okay? I'll go find you as soon as the game is over." .”

Jiayin did not speak.For some reason, there was anxiety in her eyes.

"...Do you want to come to the tennis club to watch the game?" I asked her softly, trying to calm her uneasiness, "But Sanada stipulates that the practice of the tennis club does not allow unrelated people to visit... Do you want to wait outside the court and not come in? Yes, but there is no place to sit, and besides, the game time is not short, I don’t worry about you standing outside alone for so long.”

"I...not..."

Jiayin's schoolbag was hanging down, and she began to twist the strap on one side of the schoolbag silently.This action seems to tell me that she has something to say but can't say it.

If there are no club activities, I am willing to go with Jiayin now.Because she seldom makes such a behavior that looks like a baby, as long as she is willing to get closer to me, even just a little bit, I think no matter what it is, I will immediately agree.

—but not only today.

"I'm sorry, Jiayin, I have to go to club activities."

I turned and walked away with some regrets. I thought Jiayin would say nothing more after the explanation, but she followed silently.Seeing her biting her lip and looking embarrassed, I thought no matter what, let her follow to the tennis court first.

Along the way, Jiayin did not speak, she always kept a little distance behind me and followed me to the tennis court.

I stopped in front of the court for a while, and then opened the barbed wire gate. When the members who had already arrived saw me, they immediately shouted "Mr. Yukimura!" with great energy.

I nodded and walked into the field.After hesitating at the door, Jiayin also followed in.I didn't want to turn my back on the good news outright and tell her to go away, so I just walked quietly to the side of the court where no one was around.

"Good news..."

I turned around and smiled bitterly at her.

"I'm going to play soon. I haven't changed my clothes yet. If Sanada comes over and sees you, I'm sure I'll be furious...so be obedient and go to the restaurant first, okay?"

She shook her head at me, looking a little pale.

"...you don't want to go." Jiayin struggled to force out the words, "you don't want to go out to compete...is that okay? I always feel..."

"You always feel...?" I looked at her suspiciously.

"Yukimura, why are you still dawdling there?" Sanada's voice came over, and as soon as I turned my head, I saw his face staring at Jiayin in surprise.

"Why is she here?"

I knew that Sanada would get angry soon, so before he got angry, I said: "It's nothing, she will leave soon, I'm going to change clothes and compete now."

But just as I was about to leave, I was pulled back.

"No." Jiayin reached out and grabbed my sleeve tightly.

"Good news..." I was really helpless now, "The practice match is very important, the other members are still waiting for me, you can't be willful here..."

She continued to shake her head, unwilling to let go.

"Yukimura, you should be very clear about the rules that no irrelevant people are allowed to enter—"

"I know."

Under Sanada's pressure, I had to try to get rid of Kaon's hand.Given my strength, it should be an easy task, but Jiayin seemed determined not to let me go, she looked at me almost beggingly.That look confuses me.

Not far from the stadium, several workers were climbing up a ladder to repair the lighting facilities that had just broken a few days ago.Standing in the middle of the field is a member who has already warmed up, and he is waiting for my appearance.

"I have to go--"

Making up my mind, I shook off Jiayin's hand vigorously.However, at the moment I just took a step, someone not far away suddenly shouted "Danger!", followed by a loud "clang", and the broken lighting fell to the ground and smashed to pieces .The member who happened to be standing on the court waiting for the game suddenly collapsed, and the giant lighting lamp hit him impartially.

Everyone held their breath watching this scene.

When I came back to my senses, I realized that I hadn't broken away from Jiayin.She held my hand tightly, and I held her hand tightly.

I looked at him and she looked at me with wide eyes.Everything seemed to suddenly become clear at that time, and I understood the reason why Jiayin insisted on following me.If it wasn't for Jiayin trying to stop me, then it is very likely that I was the one who was hit by the lamp just now.

Many people ran over to help the member, but I still held hands with Jiayin.Tight, tight, I could feel her trembling.She was so worried and scared, but she couldn't explain this feeling to me clearly. Until this moment, I didn't realize that helpless feeling.

"Good news..."

I called her name and gazed at her deeply.

"It's all right...thank you."

Through that tightly held hand, I convey a message that only me and Jiayin can understand in this world.Yes, no one else can know, the incredible feeling that only we who are twins can have——

That is, when the other party is in any danger, he will be aware of it at the first time and empathize with it.

You may never be able to tell exactly what this feeling is, but for me and Jiayin, from the moment the light fell to the ground, we realized a bond hidden in us stronger than ever before .

It comes from the depths of the soul, from the uniqueness, from the fetters of two people who are firmly bound together by fate.

"Now, do you believe in telepathy?"

In the art department, I suddenly asked Mochizuki this question without warning.

"I believe it." Mochizuki replied without thinking, "I often have this experience."

"Yes, like what?"

"For example... I often sit here after school and wonder whether Jingshi will come over today, when will it come, and thinking about it...you really appeared." She smiled at me, "This is Telepathy, right?"

Mochizuki was sorting out the paintings of the staff. She spread out the drawing papers filled with the smell of paint on the table, showing a very relaxed and happy look.

"December of last year, January of this year, February of this year... Ah." Mochizuki, who was classifying the drawings, suddenly remembered something and stopped his movements, "Next month is your birthday. Bar?"

I nodded: "You still remember."

"How can I forget this... birthday, then let me ask straight to the point, what kind of gift do you like?"

"Didn't you just say that you have telepathy?" I smiled, "Why don't you use your telepathy to guess what I want."

Mochizuki closed her eyes, pretending to be contemplative.

"Well... I see!" She opened her eyes.

"What is it?"

"I won't tell you." Mochizuki said pretending to be mysterious, "Just wait for my surprise when the time comes."

After speaking, she continued to organize the drawing.

"Please don't worry about it. Actually, there is no need to give any special gifts." I said, "If I can stay in this place and come to see everyone's paintings every day, I am already very satisfied."

"I always feel that Jingshi sometimes seems to have no desires and desires. It doesn't look like a middle school student. People at our age should like a lot of things, right? Karaoke, star chasing, comics Not to mention games...but Jingshi seems to have no interest in these, all you have is tennis all day long, nothing but tennis."

"Yeah... all I have is tennis balls."

Mochizuki's words seemed to hit something unintentionally.

I immediately pretended to be joking and said, "But I have a strong obsession with tennis. If I don't succeed in winning the three-peat championship, I won't even be able to sleep at night. Can this still be called wanting nothing?"

"You'll know when you like something else," Mochizuki said. "It's one thing to want to win, but it's another thing to really like and possess."

Thinking about her words secretly, I didn't make a sound.

I helped Mochizuki to classify and summarize the drawings.In the quiet art room, there is only the sound of paper flipping one after another.

After a while, Mochizuki suddenly heard the sound of her mobile phone vibrating in her schoolbag, which sounded like someone was calling her.

"Sorry, can you pass it to me?"

The schoolbag was placed close to me, and I helped Mochizuki take her mobile phone out of it.

I never noticed what Mochizuki's cell phone looked like, but when I handed it over, I found a string of charms hanging on it.A bunch of lovely charms.

"Well, it's just email." Mochizuki took the phone and glanced at it, then closed the screen.

"That mobile phone chain..." I asked.

"this?"

Mochizuki picked up her mobile phone and shook the string of charms. The small bells on the charms made a crisp and pleasant sound.

"Well, it's cute."

"Will Jingshi also like this kind of gadget? If you like it, it doesn't matter if I give it to you now."

Said Mochizuki wanted to reach out to pick it.

"Ah, no, I just want to ask where I can buy it."

"Why, isn't Jingshi using it for himself?" She tilted her head, "You want to give it away?"

I smiled and agreed.

"Who is it? A girl?" Mochizuki sighed, "Why do you feel a little jealous?"

"It's my sister."

Mochizuki blinked, acting as if suddenly enlightened.

"So that's how it is." Her expression became clear again, "It seems that Jingshi is still a good brother, and I really envy your sister. If it were me, I would probably never think of giving my brother a gift or anything. .”

"Mochizuki has a younger brother?"

"There is one, an idiot who is three years younger than me." She said in a joking tone, "He always knows how to annoy me and grab things from me, and I remember that he and his younger brother didn't do anything other than fight and bicker. "

"...Is it true that you will often quarrel?"

"Won't Jingshi and sister quarrel?" Mochizuki seemed to take it for granted.

I pondered for a moment and shook my head.

"Hmm...that's quite rare." She thought for a while, "Maybe it's because the two of you are so close? I feel that Jingshi's younger sister should be very obedient, unlike my younger brother..."

Especially good, these are four words that would be extremely ironic when applied to Jiayin and me.

It is true that Jiayin is a well-behaved and obedient sister who will never make people angry.But I understand that's not why we never fight.

Mochizuki chatted about some daily trivial matters about her and her younger brother one after another. Although she was full of complaints about her ignorant and uncute brother, there was always a hint of doting from the heart in her tone.Mochizuki and I, who are also brothers and sisters, seem to have found some common ground through this.

But as the topic of "brothers and sisters" deepened, I gradually began to feel that what Mochizuki said was not the same thing as what I thought.

Mochizuki told me the address where I could buy the string of charms. She thought I was going to give the string of charms as a birthday present to Jiayin, and she kept praising me for being a gentle and good brother.Maybe in Mochizuki’s view, giving gifts among family members is nothing more than birthday or celebration. However, for me, there is no need to specifically add birthdays or other reasons for giving gifts to Jiayin. I just want to see Jiayin I just want to see her keep my gift, and I just want to see her happy because of me.Even if it's just a small action, just a few seconds is enough to make her focus on me for a while.

I tried to imagine the scene where Jiayin and I bickered and quarreled like ordinary brothers and sisters—it was a very strange and inconsistent picture.I know we won't quarrel, at least not over things like Mochizuki and her brother.

I didn't tell Mochizuki these words, I just listened to her from the beginning to the end when she said something that seemed to empathize with her, but the essence was completely different.

Me, Jiayin, and Mochizuki are different.

The difference between us is that Jiayin and I will never be able to treat each other as family.I am not a "gentle and good brother" as Mochizuki said. I don't want to, and I won't be that kind of brother, because no one knows my selfishness better than me.

However, I am always confused and confused. Family is warm and relatives are closely connected. Mochizuki and her younger brother may be the representatives of this ordinary family relationship. With a little envy and a little hesitation, if one day we Being able to bicker and fight like normal family members, will the relationship between us become closer than it is now?more natural?More... ordinary?

Will we ever go back to the time when we were kids and we could tell each other what was on our minds?

But perhaps going backwards is a more terrifying thing than going forward.