[Net King] Take away my heart

for the heart full of sorrow

There is a comfort and peace in that place

for souls that walk in the shadows

that is an ideal wonderland

But for the traveler when walking through

I can't - I don't dare to look directly at each other

its mysteries will never be revealed

To the weak world's unclosed eyes

its king wishes so he has forbidden

Lifted eyelids with eyelashes

So though this sad soul has set foot

But all I see is a layer of thick fog

on a dark and lonely road

only bad angels go and live

there is a ghost called night

calling the shots on the black throne

i have drifted home

But I've just been to the most chaotic place

——Edgar Allan Poe, "Dreamland"

It's been a week since the accident.

Mom and Dad came to visit me in the hospital every day, but there was nothing they could do except sit and stare outside the glass window for hours.

How is Jingshi?Does he know something happened to me?I know he lives in the same hospital as me, but in a different ward.

Coming to this hospital is something that parents must do every day. Maybe they visited my brother after seeing me, maybe they visited my brother before they came to see me—in any case, Jingshi and I are about to leave Their energy is drained.

I still can't remember anything about the car accident, and the two policemen only came to the hospital once after that, and they simply reported the situation to their parents and left.

Yagyu's father died...the Yagyu family must be having a hard time too.

No one in Yagyu's family, including Yagyu, ever visited the hospital.What if I come?If you ran into your parents, it might turn into an embarrassing scene instead.

I don't remember why I was with Yagyu's father at the time of the accident, and the Yagyu family didn't seem to know anything about it.

Although the police repeatedly asked everyone not to publicize this matter as much as possible, the rumors about Yagyu's father and me seemed to gradually spread.Yagyu's father died in a car accident. This is a fact that cannot be concealed. At the same time, I became a vegetable. Even people who don't know the situation can probably guess a thing or two.

I was with Yagyu's father at the time of the car accident, which is strange no matter how you look at it, so it is inevitable that some people will start to doubt the truth of the matter.

Fewer and fewer students came to visit, and the only one who came several times was Lian Er.Everyone's concern and sympathy for me seem to be slowly turning into doubts.

I felt powerless, my memory seemed to have been hollowed out, and I couldn't even defend myself.

what do I do?I have thought about this question countless times.

I forgot a lot of things, not only the day of the accident, but even the events before the accident.

How did I know Yagyu's father?Why was I with him in the car accident?This is not only what everyone wants to know, but also what I want to know.

You have to find a way to remember it.

I stayed in the hospital for several days, I thought the police would find out the truth more efficiently, but now it seems that things are not going well.The police officer named Hehe seemed to want to start with Yagyu's family, but Yagyu's family's ignorance cut off this clue.

"Hey...why are you in that place?"

I asked myself on the hospital bed.

A 15-year-old underage girl and a 40-year-old married lawyer go out together, even I find it difficult to understand.

How far has my memory lost?What's the last thing I can recall?

The teacher at the school said that I had been attending classes normally the week before the accident, and there was nothing unusual about it.Can I recall the events of that week?I pressed my temples and tried hard to think back, only to find that there was still a blank space.

"No... I can't remember at all."

Maybe it was too hard, I suddenly felt a little dizzy.In theory, I shouldn't feel this way... because I'm just a ghost at the moment.

However, at the next moment, the entire room was suddenly ringing with alarm bells.I widened my eyes and looked at the monitoring equipment. The rhythmic dot was turning into a curve floating up and down at this moment, and my face began to change while lying on the hospital bed.

"W-how could this be...!"

As soon as the words fell, doctors and nurses pushing emergency equipment broke into the ward.

"Emergency! The patient has arrhythmia!"

A group of people began to give first aid to me on the hospital bed. I felt that my head was getting heavier and heavier. My eyes went dark and I fell to the ground.

After some time, I woke up slowly.

The ward, which was chaotic just a moment ago, has become quiet now.The monitoring equipment made rhythmic sounds again, and "that me" was still lying on the hospital bed, falling asleep.

Mom and Dad have already rushed over, and I saw through the glass window that they were talking to the doctor.As I was talking, I saw my mother's face getting bluer and greener.

Curious, I stepped outside and heard the last stanza of their conversation.

"...So, we can't be sure if this situation will happen again... In the long run, there are examples of sleeping for ten or eight years, but considering your economic conditions... In terms of her injury recovery The possibility of this is extremely small... It is better to make mental preparations early and make a decision early..."

From the eyes of my parents, I saw deep despair.

The doctor is predicting my future, maybe it won't be long before I will have another emergency like just now, maybe I won't be able to save it next time... Maybe I can get away with it for ten or eight years, but maybe I will never If you can't wake up, you can only continue to consume the hard-earned money of your parents, and then sooner or later, you will use up all your property...

Letting me die now is a very simple matter. As long as I obtain the consent of my parents and submit an application to the court, the hospital can unplug the equipment that maintains my vital functions and end everything easily.

Then... I will disappear completely.

A sense of urgency came over me.

You can't just die like this, something has to be done.I want to know the truth, I want to know what happened, I don't want to die without knowing why.

Grandma... Just then I thought of grandma.

Is grandma still alone in the country?Did Mom and Dad tell her about me?If grandma knows that I have become like this now, she must be very sad.

Grandma, I really want to see you.

I want to live, I want to go back to my grandma.I told my grandma that when I grow up, I will definitely earn a lot of money and go back to her, so that she can buy whatever she wants.

Grandma, what should I do?How can I remember those things?

Just as I was thinking about these issues, a figure suddenly flashed into the ward.

I was taken aback. That person was neither a doctor nor a nurse, but Nioh Masaharu.

——Why did he come here?

No, no one should be allowed in the ward except the medical staff.I looked at the door and realized that some careless nurse had forgotten to lock it.

"King Ren..."

I don't know Nioh very well, and it is precisely because of this that he didn't show up when Lianji and the others came to visit the sick that day.

Nioh and Yagyu are very good friends, and I speculate that part of the reason why Nioh has not come is part of it.

Even though I called him, Nioh apparently couldn't hear anything.

He stood in front of my hospital bed, staring at me in deep sleep without saying a word.Nioh didn't hold anything in his hands, his hands were in his trouser pockets, and he didn't look like he was visiting a patient.

"you……"

The moment Nioh spoke, I suddenly got goosebumps.

His expression was very strange, as if it was a bit ferocious, as if it was filled with hatred, which made his eyes filled with darkness.

——“Why not just die?”

I can't understand what Nioh is saying.

He's staring at "that me" and he's literally asking me why I'm not dead.

"Obviously it's easier to die..."

Nioh stepped forward and approached my hospital bed step by step.

My whole body is on alarm, this man is dangerous, don't let him get close to me! ——Even so, there was nothing I could do to stop him.

Nioh came to my side, he reached out and hovered over my face.

Under his hand is the oxygen mask that keeps me breathing.

"No... no! Stop!"

I rushed to him and took his hand away from there.But the next second I was pushed to the ground, and then as if nothing happened, Nioh was still standing there, his hand gradually sank.

He grabbed my oxygen mask.

"Don't!" I yelled at him, "Why did you do that! Why did you hurt me!"

Police officer Kawai said that what made me what I am now was not the accident, but man-made.

Someone is trying to kill me.

Is this man Nioh...?

Why on earth would King Ren do this?does he hate meWhat did I do to make him hate me enough to kill me?

Fear and panic spread throughout my body.

"Stop! Please! Nioh——!"

The moment I shouted with all my strength, Nio's hand stopped moving.

He slowly loosened his mask, and his expression filled with deep darkness suddenly turned into a kind of intense grief.

"……go to hell."

He clearly spoke terrible words, but his voice was filled with infinite sadness.

Why……?I can't comprehend at all what is happening in front of me at this moment.

Nioh took a few steps back slowly, turned around and walked out of my ward.Just as he had come, no one had noticed his departure.

His vivid silver hair is so dazzling, but he himself comes and goes like an erratic ghost.

ghost……

If the "that me" on the hospital bed is killed, then the me who is now a ghost will also disappear.

"You can't die."

I made up my mind to hold her hands.

"I will save you, I will definitely save you...I swear, I will find out the truth."