[Net King] Take away my heart

If I have to say what troubles I have after joining the tennis club, it is that there are a few girls who call me out to confess my love from time to time.

But this is not a big problem, usually as long as you politely decline the other party, there will be no cheeky stalking, or crying endlessly.

I haven't counted how many girls came to confess, but Lihai has a legendary confession sanctuary, every time I am called to go under the big tree where it is said that "confessing here is sure to succeed", I will immediately Know what's going on.

Ah... here we go again.

While sighing in his heart, he walked towards the tree, but his expression could not reveal the slightest tiredness.

Does Nioh-kun have someone he likes?

No.This is the truth.

Then... will Nioh-kun resist love?

well enough.This is also true.

I, I like Nioh-kun... Please date me.

Sorry, really sorry.

All in all an apology.Even if you don't feel that you have done anything wrong, you have to apologize, and you must apologize repeatedly, the kind of apology that makes the other person feel compelled to forgive you.

I don't have anyone I like, and I don't resist falling in love.I don't hate those girls who come to confess, and it's not impossible to agree to date, but it's too troublesome for me to deal with this kind of intimate relationship.Also, I can't find a reason at all to have to do this.

I'm not interested in girls, I'm not interested in love, even in tennis, I don't have the enthusiasm and awareness like Sanada and the others.

Being able to politely reject them is already the limit, and only people like Yukimura can still become friends even after rejecting them.In fact, I've always found it strange that I was confessed almost as often as Yukimura in Liu's secret file.If the object of the confession is Yukimura, I can somewhat understand the reason.But what are the reasons and motivations of those who came to confess to me?Out of curiosity, I once asked a girl who confessed to me on a whim.

"why do you like me?"

Before going to the last step of rejection, I asked like this.

"Huh? Because, because... Nioh-kun is very handsome..."

I believe that to be true.After the girl finished speaking, she lowered her face shyly, not daring to look at me.

Very handsome.

Because Nioh-kun is handsome.

Hahaha, I couldn't help but laugh out loud in my heart. This is probably something I never thought of, or it can be said to be the funniest reason I have ever heard.

It was at that time that this funny reason made me forget the pretense for a while, not only in my heart, but also in reality, I also burst out laughing.

It turned out to be the only rejection I failed, and the girl ran away crying.

In fact, not only did I not dislike that girl, but I also had some good feelings for her.She's honest, and that's a lot better than most people who tell lies -- like myself.

After her, the girls who would call me to confess under the big tree almost disappeared.Every time I pass by that big tree, I always think that the person who broke the legend of that beautiful confession may be none other than me.

Thinking of this, I began to feel faintly funny again.

Why did the gods create humans?

Unlike parents who give birth to children, we are not treated by the gods as their own children.We are not the playthings of the gods, we are not even qualified to be the playthings of the gods.

Our existence is of no benefit to this planet, we are just constantly destroying the balance of ecology and nature.Even so, the gods will not kill us from here. This is not out of benevolence, but the gods probably knew early on that humans would eventually send themselves to the road of destruction without doing it themselves.

What kind of existence are human beings?

Selfish, jealous, ugly, stupid, and smart enough to believe in gods they can't see at all, thinking that their beliefs are sacred and undefiled, and thinking that their omnipotent gods treat everyone magnanimously and equally.

There is no such thing as equality in the world.

Human beings cannot even choose their own birth, as long as human beings are born, they must obey the will of the gods.There are wise people who are ignorant, rich people who are poor, and healthy people who are crippled.

But in the final analysis, human beings are all the same, repeating the same mistakes over and over again, never learning lessons, never reflecting on history, thinking that they dominate the world and standing at the top of the food chain.

In front of the gods, human beings are so insignificant that they are not even as good as a grain of sand, equal to nothing.

The reason why humans cannot become gods is because gods are not humans.God has no human sin, God has no human love, God has nothing, God just put us here, watching us kill each other, watching us keep multiplying, and then killing each other, over and over again, Never stop.

What is destiny?

Destiny does not depend on gods, nor does destiny depend on human beings. Destiny is just an excuse that everyone imagines.

Whether you were born on a rubbish dump in the street or in a palace of gold and gold, whether you achieved something or nothing, everyone ends up in nothingness.

We are born to die.

Fate has no distinction between high and low, and destiny is the real equality.It allows noble people to be buried in the soil, and poor and humble people to be buried in the soil, no matter who it is, it will return to that origin in the end.

Without a soul, without immortality, life is meaningless from the very beginning.

I am not pessimistic and world-weary, nor do I hate beliefs, nor am I mocking human beings with a condescending attitude.

I just don't have the energy left to think about something more human, because just being alive is exhausting enough.

Talking, chatting, smiling, crying, moving, human beings are always forcing themselves to do these meaningless things.If you don't, you'll be excluded from social groups and people will call you weird, abnormal, and out of place.So I do these things, I try to look like a "normal", "alive" person.

——Masaharu, you look fake when you smile.

That's what a man named Tsuchiya said to me.Even though he is an idiot with a stupid head, he said such words to me with an innocent expression.

For the first time in my life, and probably the last.

"Ah, it was revealed."

I answered with a smile.I'm still laughing, of course I'm going to laugh, even if I don't feel like laughing.

Because I have to live on this mask for the rest of my life.

I am not greedy for life, nor will I take the initiative to ask for death.

Death is never easier than life.Jumping for a hug may kill innocent passers-by below, lying on a rail will make many people in a hurry worry their brains, guns are not easy to buy, hanging is too painful, taking medicine is too slow, even if a person cuts his wrist at home, you The landlord and the surrounding neighbors will probably be scared enough.

So you see, death is a very long-winded thing.Of course, if you don't care about those things, it doesn't matter where you die, but I'm a person who finds it troublesome to even think about the method, so I won't commit suicide.

But occasionally I also feel that if I was suddenly hit by a car while walking on the road, or was suddenly hit by something falling from the sky, or someone ran up and stabbed me to death, if I didn’t have to do everything myself, maybe I would die like that. good.

——Masaji, look, you're saying negative things again.

If it was Ah Tu at that time, he would have patted me on the shoulder foolishly and told me to live with hope and work hard, because we are still young and there is still a long way to go.

His voice and smile, his slightly chubby figure and honest tone, his white eyelashes and beard, every detail is still as clear as if it happened yesterday.

The gods never stretch out their hands to us, the truth never grows in our breasts.

On the day Ah Tu pierced his own carotid artery with a fruit knife, I clearly understood this point.

The author has something to say: Here is a rare addition! !

Thanks to the girls for their praise of Nioh in the last chapter, and Toru who received Lei Lei was very moved~

Please bear with his negativity for the time being (laughs), I believe that the depth of perspective in this article will not disappoint everyone~

Recently, some girls are ushering in the final exam ~ everyone, please work hard!

Toru is also in the final hell... My exam is at the end of the month~QAQ

Let's work together to get past the end of term!