[Net King] Take away my heart

I don't know if I'm alive or dead.

A month after the car accident, I gradually remembered some things from the past.I haven't completely forgotten everything about the whole third grade, but what I can remember is still limited to a certain period.

I wandered around the campus all day long, wandered around the streets, and wandered around everyone I could remember.

Lianji...

Chi also...

Yagyu...

Nioh...

Mom and Dad.

In the end there was only one person left.

Jingshi.

It was not difficult to find Jingshi's ward, because that was the place I had to go to every day when he first relapsed.

When he came to the ward, Jingshi was not there.I walked in, and the pungent smell of disinfectant hit my face.In the cold and depressing room, there is still the same unchanging picture, with metallic cabinets, instruments with colorful wiring, and bed sheets with traces of people lying on them.

The windows were open, and the curtains fluttered gently in the wind.

Jingshi has spent most of his life here so far.

I walked to the bed, sat down slowly, and stared at the half-open window in a daze for a long time.

With the swing of the curtains and the wind getting stronger little by little, I slowly narrowed my eyes.There was a sharp and piercing cry in my mind from far to near—it suddenly echoed in this ward.

——"Jingichi...! No! Stop, what are you doing...!!"

Why do you want to do this!Why hurt yourself!do not do that!do not do that!

That was a week after I announced that I would no longer be coming to the hospital.I didn't really forget about Jingshi and the hospital as I said before. I just told my parents that I wanted to take a break, and I would go to the hospital to see him again after the rest.

I do.

However, when I came to the ward again after a week's absence, the scene I saw shocked me so much that I could hardly move.

Jingshi was not on the bed, and when I walked into the ward and saw an empty bed, I hesitated.Then I found that the door of the bathroom was ajar, and the faint light coming through the gap hinted something ominous.I went to the bathroom and heard the sound of running water coming from inside.Pushing open the half-open door, I saw Jingshi standing inside.

With his back to me, he held in his hand the pill box he used to fill his medicine every day.He was pouring the medicine into the toilet little by little, and then pressed the button on the side like a ghost.

In an instant, those medicines were swept away and rushed into the sewer.

I stared at him with wide eyes, beside Jingshi there was a mobile stand for hanging IV.On the other side of him is the bathtub. The bathtub has been filled with water, but the faucet has not been screwed on, and the water is still pouring in continuously. Seeing that the water in the bathtub full may overflow at any time.

After noticing me, Seiichi turned around slowly.There was no surprise on his face, but a soft and melting expression.

"Ah... Jiayin, you are here."

After saying this, his right hand suddenly reached out to his wrist, and he pulled out the needle that was still in the infusion at once. The movement was so fast that I couldn't react.

Blood gushed out from there.

"No! Stop it, what are you doing...!?"

I rushed to him and squeezed his wrist hard.Jingshi showed a distracted expression, and sat on the ground like a soft paper man.

"What are you doing!...Why do you do this kind of thing!?" I yelled at him while pressing his hand.

Unlike ordinary infusions, Jingshi needs long-term large-scale infusions in the hospital. It would be very painful to change needles every day, so he uses intravenous indwelling needles.Because of the excessive use of disposable needles when he was very young, the veins on the back of Jingshi's hands were almost useless for infusion.So his IV catheter was placed in his wrist, and the IV catheter was thicker than normal needles, and when he frantically pulled it out, there was a sudden blood flow there.

My hands were soon soaked, and the fishy smell of rust permeated the air.

"Why!...Why do you want to hurt yourself!? What the hell are you trying to do...!"

Seiki didn't answer, but just looked at me with his usual gentle expression, his empty eyes seemed to have no idea what I was talking about.

"Do you want to die? Wash off all the medicine, since when did you start doing this kind of thing? Why do you do this kind of thing... Do you know how hard your parents work every day! They are all for you! They sent me away for you, threw me away, everything is for you to live... But you actually do this kind of thing! Do you want to die! Why do you want to die...!"

"Good news..."

Jingichi murmured, holding my face with blood-stained hands.

"do not Cry……"

It is impossible for me not to cry.I broke down and wailed. I grabbed Jingshi's clothes and shook him over and over again.

"How could you do that...how could you be so selfish...everyone wants you to live...try desperately to live...but you want to die!...what right do you have? What right do you have to Die! I want to live so badly...I want to live so badly...but you..."

Tears mixed with blood rolled down both sides of his cheeks.I held Jingshi's hands and kept trembling and howling.He finally began to tremble too, and finally also shed tears.

Seiki hugged me.

"Good news...except you...there is no one by my side..."

do not leave me.

Please, don't leave me.

That's where my memory stops.

When I opened my eyes suddenly, my face was full of tears.

The curtains stopped swinging, and someone's familiar footsteps came from behind me.

"Good news...?"

I miss it so much, and it hurts me so much, just hearing the gentle voice almost brings tears to my eyes.

I slowly stood up from the bed and turned around.

It was an illusion that the wind stopped blowing, the scenery melted away, and all the light was concentrated on him.

Just like when I saw him for the first time a few years ago, with water-blue soft hair, crystal-clear pupils, and a complexion as white as the first snow.

Jingshi.

my loved ones.

half of me.

My soul.

My... Beloved.

"Jingshi...can you see me?"

He looked at me quietly.

"Yes." He replied clearly, "I can see you."

Once again the gods turned the gears of fate.

The author has something to say: Note: Due to the needs of the plot, the description of the medical aspects may not be accurate

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