[Net King] Take away my heart

To good news:

how is jack

Maybe you will wonder why I don't write to him myself, but come to ask you about him.That's because my letters to him have not been answered, not once, so far.

I don't intend to complain to you here, whether I deserve it or say I'm guilty, I will simply admit these facts.

Jack didn't like me, and I just realized it more clearly once again when I came to America.

It is often said that women who are in love will have lower IQs. I am clearly only unrequited love, but it seems that I have become countless times stupid.I seldom talk about love with you, and I always feel that kind of atmosphere is not very suitable for us.But we often write poems together, more or less these hazy thoughts are contained in the poems, so I think I can vaguely feel the changes in you, and you can also vaguely feel the changes in me.

In the first grade, we were in the same class as Marui and Jack. Marui has always been the most popular character in the class. Jack is like his accessory. If there is no shining Marui by his side, then Jack can only be a dim There is no light.

Because of the halo of being Marui's good friend, Jack at that time could become a popular person in everyone's eyes with Marui.

To be honest, I didn't have the slightest interest in the tennis club before entering the second grade, and of course it was the same for Marui and Jack.

Back then Jack was just a goofy good old guy who spoke substandard Japanese, was dark and weird looking, and always stayed after school to clean up the mess for those who didn't want to clean the classroom .

If he is told to do it, he will do it, and if he is not told to do it, he will do it. How can there be such a bully in the world?Anyway, back then I was one of those people who wanted to run away after school, so Jack helped me clean the classroom a few times, and I didn't even say thank you to him.

One time you guys were talking about accents in class, and you just casually said I'll teach you the right accent, and that idiot Jack took it for granted.From that day on, he came to me from time to time to ask me about my pronunciation, and said to me seriously, "Miyake, if I am wrong, you must correct me. If no one corrects me, I will say it forever. I can't speak correct Japanese anymore."

What a hopeless fool.

Sometimes I feel that, in fact, I have a little bit of sympathy for Jack.He is obviously a good friend of Marui, and he follows Marui wherever he goes, but except for Marui asking him to buy this and that food, I have never seen anything between these two people that is enough to be called a friend fettered.It's not impossible for Marui to teach accents, right?He just doesn't want to spit out the chewing gum in his mouth, and pay for his friend well.

Jack probably liked Marui very much. Indeed, at that time, everyone in the class liked Marui very much.

...even you.

At that time, we were still a group of silly little ghosts who had just graduated from elementary school. We didn't understand complex interpersonal relationships, and we didn't understand the subtle ways of getting along. We just habitually followed the trend blindly.Since everyone likes Marui, I also like Marui.Many girls like him out of this kind of mentality, just because Marui has a good face, cheerful and easy-going personality, and can chat with anyone, so they regard him as the prince charming in the class Come and see.

I don't like Marui, and I don't like Jack either.At least back then, I also often despised people who liked them.

Good news, you also like Marui, right?When I asked you that, you replied "I don't like Marui".

have you done it?You don't.You just hid this love deeply, from the first day of the first grade until now, that feeling is still buried somewhere in your heart.

I have no right to criticize you, even though I have wanted to tell you countless times that your acting skills are terrible, even if you say nothing and do nothing, I can tell from the way you look at him that you like him.

Marui is a bad guy.I don't hate him, I have nothing against him, but I still want to yell at you that he's a rotten person, that he doesn't deserve you at all.

I know you won't confess your love, maybe you can hide this feeling for a lifetime.That's the kind of person you are. Your endurance is unbelievably good. I'm not complimenting you when I say this. After all, you're just like me, but because of an unrequited love that didn't work out, you became an idiot with a negative IQ.

If it's just changing girlfriends frequently, it's fine, but Marui, a no-brainer, even set up a red line for you and Chiya.You're surprised how I know?You don't tell me these things, but Chiya came and told me.

I hate Sanada, and I hate the people around him.But I know that two of these people are different, one is Renji, and the other is Chiya.

I won't meddle in things you don't want me to do, but I'm writing this because I hope you'll realize one day that you don't have to feel guilty about conforming to meaningless rules. It is agreed that you have the right to pursue happiness, you can confess to Marui, you can also like Chiya, why can't you?Do you think not liking anyone is his atonement?

You are so stupid.

Your misfortune can't exchange for his happiness, your misfortune has no meaning, it just makes yourself miserable.

When I left Lihai, I was worried. If I left, what would you do if you were left alone?But after thinking about it, I felt relieved, because at least Lian Er and Chi are by your side.

Chi is also a stubborn fool to the bottom, he doesn't think too much about anything, and it is precisely because of this that he has a purer and kinder heart than anyone else.Lian Er is an upright gentleman. Unlike Sanada, he is a truly thoughtful and responsible person. With two people like this by your side, maybe I can rest assured.

That's right, I'm just worried that you're worried to this extent.

You worried about me too, right?When I chased Jack around all day, you also showed blank eyes.But even if you can't understand it, whenever I say I'm going to the tennis club to collect information, whenever I say I'm going to block Jack, you will still willingly accompany me to go.

I never asked you why you liked Marui, and you never asked me why I liked Jack, and maybe that's where we both weren't frank.

I didn’t like Jack when I was in the first grade. He would always come to ask me questions about my pronunciation. At first I corrected him reluctantly. Where did I pick up the "standard pronunciation", I just dealt with it.

"Thank you Miyake-san, you are really kind!"

In the end, Jack the Fool actually accepted the book with a look of emotion on his face, and the next day he specially brought a coupon from the restaurant where his father worked, as a return gift and thanked me.

I admit that when I was in the first grade, I thought Jack was very troublesome.To me, he is also like this, obviously I am just perfunctory him, but Jack treats me like a savior, and looks at me with grateful eyes even if he asks a question.

It's so annoying, if only this guy could be a little self-aware and take the initiative to go far away and not come closer.This thought came to my mind more than once.

After entering the second grade, Jack no longer has any accent problems like you, and we were also assigned to different classes. Since then, we really haven't had a chance to see each other again.

Probably from then on, I suddenly felt a little strange.Jack no longer came to ask me about my pronunciation. Once the troublesome existence disappeared, I felt at a loss as if something was suddenly missing around me.

He and Marui gradually became active in the tennis club, and both of them became the main candidates. Finally, Jack was no longer just a shadow of Marui.When people mention Marui, they will mention him, and when they mention him, they will also mention Marui. These two formed a doubles, and the record was unexpectedly brilliant.

Am I going to feel lost?That's impossible, no matter what Jack becomes, it doesn't matter to me, whether he is famous or brilliant, to me he is just a classmate in the first grade.The only difference between me and everyone else is that I knew in first grade that he was a goofy guy with a substandard accent, and I was the one who impatiently taught him pronunciation.

I just figured out that he was a downright bad guy earlier than anyone else, that's all.

That sports meet really changed a lot of things, changed me, changed him, and changed Sanada.

I never expected that he would give up the game and carry me to the infirmary, so even though the pain was so cold that I broke out in a cold sweat, I still gritted my teeth and refused his help.

"Leave me alone! Go back to the game! I can walk by myself—"

It was hard on the mouth, but in fact, I was so painful that I couldn't tell the difference between south, east and north.Under such circumstances, Jack insisted on carrying me on his back, and said to me in a usual good-natured tone: "Miyake always likes to be strong, so what if he shows weakness once in a while?"

When I lay on his back, I suddenly felt that a corner of my heart was broken.The severe pain made me sweat all over, and the piercing feeling spread to every corner of my body.My face was wet everywhere, sweat from exercising, cold sweat from excruciating pain, and maybe tears that even I didn't know where they came from.

I didn't cry, and I'm still sure of it to this day.Because I kept biting my lips and didn't make a sound, even when I was in the infirmary because of the bandage and almost fainted, I didn't make a sound.

Thank you, Jack.This sentence lingered in my consciousness for a long time, but I didn't say it to him after all.

My heart is a stone, it has never been soft.But have you ever heard of dripping water wearing stone?Perhaps somewhere in this city, I was lying alone on the side of the road, and Jack was the never-ending rain.

Jack is a nice guy, but I know he's not just being nice to me, and I think he would have done that to any other girl if it wasn't me that day.

...But even knowing this, I still fell into it.

The rain is falling gently over the city.

Good news, when you look up at the sky in the rain, do you think of Marui?

In every light rain, the person I will think of is Jack.

The author has something to say: Thank you to every girl who bought Chapter V! Toru loves you~

From here is a new starting point, although the content will become more and more heavy, but the distance from the truth will be getting closer

The length of this story belongs to the middle part, and it will not be very long. The whole story is expected to end within 20 words~

I hope everyone can continue to accompany this story and accompany Toru to the end O(∩_∩)O

Toru will work hard!