[Net King] Take away my heart

Looking back now, I really did a lot of stupid things in the first grade.

I'm always trying to get closer to her, borrowing books, asking questions, encountering these old tricks have almost been used, if I continue, I'm afraid I will become a stalker like Senior Miyake.But if I really behaved like a stalker like my predecessor, I think I will be hated by her.

So I went to ask Mr. Marui, who seemed to be very experienced in this area, for advice.

"What, so Chi also likes Canon? Let's talk about this kind of thing sooner!"

As soon as I opened my mouth, he readily agreed to help me.Marui-senpai has always been helpful, which is why he is popular no matter where he is.Originally, I thought that Senior Marui's advice to me would be more gradual, but I didn't expect him to use the trump card of "double dating" as soon as he came up.

The so-called "double date" refers to the mode in which Marui-senpai and his girlfriend plus me and Kayin-senpai hang out together.

"Wait, this seems a bit too fast, right? I haven't confessed yet, have I?" She would go on a date or something as soon as she came up, and with her personality, it was impossible to agree.

Faced with my hesitation, Senior Marui patted me on the shoulder in an old-fashioned way: "With your slow pace of action, you may not be able to wait until she graduates! If you have a goal, you must go forward bravely. Take it, do you understand? In short, this matter is on my shoulders, Chiya doesn’t have to worry about anything, just wait and see my genius skills!”

Although a little dubious, I have to admit that Marui-senpai's plan is quite far-sighted.It's really abrupt to invite a date out of the blue at the beginning, but what if it's not just the two of you going out alone?If she uses the excuse of "let's hang out together" and there are other girls in the party, then she will naturally let her guard down.

Sure enough, Marui-senpai came to tell me the next day that he had already made an appointment with Kayin-senpai.

"This is our battle plan, listen carefully! If it can go smoothly according to the plan, as long as you confess to her at the right time, I guarantee that you will succeed in one go!"

real or fake?Can I take this opportunity to confess my success?Seeing Marui-senpai's confident expression, I looked forward to the date with excitement and anticipation.

It was a bright sunny day, so good that I almost thought that even God was helping me.The three of us, Marui-senpai and his girlfriend, were waiting for her arrival at the appointed station.

I still clearly remember how she looked when she walked out of the tram that day, with a denim-colored dress and a face as clean and transparent as the first snow.Unlike Marui-senpai's girlfriend who had carefully made up, she didn't dress up specially, she just came with a plain face.But I think she's beautiful, prettier than any girl I've ever seen.

The moment she got out of the car and saw us, she looked a little surprised.Most of the surprised eyes stayed on me, although I was a little curious why she looked at me so surprised, but I still greeted her with a smile.

"Senior Jiayin, please teach me a lot today!"

As I walked up to her, I felt secretly delighted.Senior Marui is really reliable, even if I don't have a chance to confess my love today, being able to walk around with her like this is enough to make me happy for a whole day.

As planned, the four of us went to the amusement park to eat ice cream cones, bought octopus balls, took photo stickers, and played a lot of rides.

During the whole process, Marui-senpai and his girlfriend walked in front of us. They held hands and had an intimate attitude, and kept hinting that we would follow suit.Although I tried to hold her hand, she avoided it inadvertently several times.

Under the demonstration of Senior Marui, I bought some cute little dolls as souvenirs for her.Instead of refusing my gift, she accepted it politely and said "thank you".I don't know why, although she ran around with us all the way to play, no matter what we did, she did it without complaining or showing an unhappy expression, but she was always silent.

...so silent that he didn't say anything other than "thank you".

When Marui-senpai tried to tease her to talk in order to stir up the atmosphere, she just replied awkwardly: "I'm sorry...I'm not very good at chatting."

The happy day passed in a blink of an eye, and when it was close to dusk, we rushed to the last project in the amusement park: the Ferris wheel.

The Ferris wheel is the most important part of Marui-san's plan. If it goes smoothly to this point, I should confess my love to her in the Ferris wheel.

Marui-senpai seems to know a lot of romantic legends that I don’t. He said that many couples will confess their love at the moment when the Ferris wheel slowly turns to the top. At that time, the chance of success is the greatest, and it is also the time when the view of the Ferris wheel is the best.

Because we were delayed for a while at the last ride, when we arrived at the Ferris wheel, there was only the last car left.Seeing that the carriage door was about to close, Senior Marui hurriedly shouted behind me, "Red, Chiya!"

So I took her hand and rushed into the carriage regardless of Sanqi 21 - the moment the carriage door closed, we arrived safely.

The Ferris wheel slowly turned, and the distance between the carriage and the ground gradually increased.Just when I took a breath and thought everything was done, a harsh voice came from my ear.

"Oh, it hurts so much, why are you pulling me!?"

It's not her voice.

I immediately opened my eyes wide, and suddenly realized that the person sitting across from me turned out to be Marui-senpai's girlfriend—what's going on! ?I obviously pulled her right!

I leaned over to the window and looked out, and it was Marui-senpai and her who were standing on the ground and watching us leave.

"W-how did this happen—!? Let me out——!! Hey—!"

No matter how much I knocked on the window and yelled, it was useless. The Ferris wheel just kept pulling me and the two people standing on the ground farther and farther away.

I didn't give up shouting until their figures turned into small dots that were so blurred that they could no longer be seen clearly.Marui-senpai's girlfriend glared at me angrily, and I looked at her helplessly.

"Hey……"

It would be nice if you could look back and check when you grab your hand.Why did I do this unbelievably stupid thing at the last minute?I sat in the Ferris wheel dejectedly, and I no longer had the heart to look at the scenery and think about the confession.

The Ferris wheel turned slowly in the air for more than an hour. When we finally landed on the ground, the two people who were standing there had disappeared.

Marui-senpai's girlfriend and I ran along the road to meet them, and finally found two people with strange expressions near the exit of the amusement park.

Miyake-senpai, I never knew what happened in this short hour.I was in the Ferris wheel, in the air, and they were on the ground, in a place I don't know, and said something that I might never guess.

Even at the highest point of the Ferris wheel, the distance between the sky and the ground is only a little bit, but because of a small mistake on that day, I missed the distance between those two people by a long distance.

When we broke up, Marui-senpai said that he wanted to go ahead with his girlfriend, and asked me to stay and send Jiayin-senpai home.

So the four divided into two teams and waved goodbye at the station.

She didn't say anything, just walked to the platform silently holding the doll I bought for her.

There were people coming and going on the platform, some people were waiting for the tram to enter the station, and some people were bored playing with their mobile phones with their heads down.I stood side by side with her. In fact, the direction of my house is different from hers, but I just want to stay by her side for a while, just for a while.

We didn't say a word while waiting for the tram, and when the tram came into the station and the door swung open in front of our eyes, she didn't intend to go with me, she just walked forward gently, turned around and was gone. stood in the carriage.

I watched her from the platform, and she watched me from the carriage.

"Shall I take you home?" I asked anxiously.I suddenly felt that this train might take her to a more distant place, and she would disappear somewhere at this moment, and I could no longer capture it all.

In fact, sometimes it seems to me that she is unreal, that I can't catch her, and no one can catch her.

The swelling mood reached its peak between the platform and the tram.She looked at me quietly, obviously it was only one step away, obviously I could walk from the platform to the carriage with just one step, but I couldn't move my footsteps at all.

"Akaya...he didn't tell me it was a double date."

She said to me while standing in the train.

What kind of expression did she use to say this at that time?I can't remember.But what I do know is that even though we are standing face to face, her presence, her voice, everything about her seems to come from far away.

"So you agreed to come because of Senior Marui's invitation, not because of me, right?"

It saddens me that I didn't see this as the reason for her surprise in the first place.

"sorry."

Her voice always seemed thin when she spoke, revealing a trace of sadness from time to time.

The conductor poked his head out of the first car to confirm the situation, and the station conductor on the other side began to direct everyone to retreat behind the yellow line, and blew a whistle to remind the tram door that it was about to close.

I like you.

I was so eager to tell her this feeling.

"Do you like Marui-senpai?" However, the exact opposite question came out of my mouth.

The signal light above the car door has turned into a blinking yellow, and the staff on the platform noticed that I hadn't retreated behind the yellow line, so they blew a few whistles at me.

But I stood there unmoving because I knew I needed this answer.

"I don't like Marui."

She looked at me deeply from the bottom of her eyes and said.

"I won't like Akaya-kun either. I won't like anyone...it's an agreement."

I couldn't talk to her any more because the tram doors closed at that moment.

This small door seems insignificant, but it separates us at two ends of the world.She left and was taken to a distant place by that train.I still stayed on the platform and watched the train until it completely disappeared from sight, and a huge emptiness was created in my heart.

Miyake-senpai, she and Jack-senpai are gentle people, and it is precisely because of gentleness that we always tolerate our willfulness and selfishness.But is this a good thing or a bad thing for us?

Knowing that you can’t get it, you still have no hesitation, take their kindness and tolerance as proof that you still have hope, live in falsehoods and illusions all day long, lie to yourself, comfort yourself, and be happy for even a look and a smile No, we are so sad, aren't we?

But I don't regret liking her.

Just because I like her doesn't mean she has to be mine, or that she has to pay me back for it.

It's my own thing to like her, yes, I want her, but so what?What doesn't belong to me doesn't belong to me after all, what belongs to me will belong to me after all.

If he could have said such insanely handsome words in front of her earlier, he might have gotten a compliment or two from her.

Senior, if you have to say that I have something in common with you, it must have nothing to do with Deputy Director Sanada, but the feelings I have for her.

I trust her, and no matter what others think of her or question her, I know you will trust her unconditionally as I do.Because we know exactly who she is, what she is, what she hopes...and her secret and the unending sadness that lies beneath that secret.