[Net King] Take away my heart

Why are the rabbit's eyes red?

If you search for this question on the Internet, you will get thousands of the same answer: because the eyes of the white rabbit are transparent and colorless, the red we see is the color of the blood in its blood vessels.

In other words, the rabbit's eyes are actually the color of blood.

When I was very young, I was often isolated by the children around me.

"Chiye-kun is so scary!" "Chiye-kun's eyes are red!" "It's like a devil!"...

Because I don't know how to control my emotions, I always get bloodshot eyes easily.My parents tried to control this genetic disease with medical methods, but they failed to achieve any effect.In the end, you can only control the number of attacks by yourself by adjusting your emotions.

I'm not good at patience, but I endured it desperately for a while.So what if you don't eat with other children, what if you don't play with other children, and it's not a problem to live alone.But I obviously endured it, but some naughty children still threw small stones at me and said to me: "I heard that you will become a devil when you get angry! Let me see if you become another one?"

Neither hiding nor escaping. Several boys surrounded me, beating me and cursing me non-stop.

"Freak! Devil! Disappear, you monster!"

No matter what, I couldn't bear it anymore.Once the nerves in my brain are disconnected, I am like crazy and no one can stop me.I beat the boys so badly they were all in the hospital.

Those bastards were taught a lesson, and my surroundings finally calmed down, but I was also expelled from elementary school because of this.

"Chiye, you are not a monster, but only you can help yourself. If you don't control it well, you will end up in the same way if you change to another school."

It's ridiculous, and it's not that I want to have this problem. My parents not only don't stand up for me, but also order me to apologize to those bastards.

I eventually transferred, and the new school was much easier to get along with than the previous school.It was in that school that a physical education teacher discovered my talent.

He recommended that I go to the Youth Tennis Club to learn how to play tennis. My parents didn't agree at first, but after repeated persuasion from the teacher, I reluctantly agreed.

There are many people who are older than me in the club, but it only took more than a month, and almost all the people in the club have been defeated by me.At first I would become very excited when I was playing, and it would happen automatically without any stimulation. With the help of that strange energy, no one was my opponent.

"Akaya-kun, it's very powerful to become a devil, but with your talent, you can win the game without using the power of the devil. Don't you think that's better?"

The coach has always taught me how to control my emotions during the game. He has no objection to me releasing my nature when I encounter a strong opponent, but he always said, rather than letting the devil control you, I hope you can control the devil.

There was a devil living inside me, and for a long time I was under his control.

This devil endowed me with powerful abilities, but also made me treat me coldly.Everyone is always afraid of me, those people in the school before, the people in the club, even the relatives will worry and say, "What will happen to this kid Akaya in the future?"

During the years at the club, the coach's training methods made me gradually become able to control the ups and downs of emotions.My tennis skills have also improved a lot in the past few years, but just when I thought that I would get rid of that devil sooner or later, the coach suddenly resigned from the club.

The new coach couldn't accept my style of play and suggested I quit the club to seek proper medical treatment, which I did.

I can't give up tennis, I can still become stronger, and I can use that talent to achieve better results. Even if the coach is gone, I will make a breakthrough to let everyone see my strength.

After graduating from elementary school, I chose to enter a prestigious tennis school that is said to be the strongest.

If I can become stronger, then it doesn't matter if the devil devours me.Since I am destined not to be able to get rid of this curse, and since this hateful curse will accompany me for the rest of my life, I might as well just become a devil.

Let me defeat everyone, let me stand at the top, fear me, surrender to me, I can conquer everything with the power of the devil... In the days when I lost my coach, I once again lost the ability to control myself.

You and Senior Jiayin should have never watched a tennis match, and that time, they only watched the practice match because of the information collected by the news department.

That was the most tragic match since I entered Lihai. I didn't want to lose too badly in front of you, but in the end I was defeated by Minister Yukimura.That match was doomed to my disadvantage from the very beginning, because I couldn't resist Minister Yukimura's attack at all, so I could only hysterically turn into a devil to confront him.

The power of the devil can corrode the surroundings, and it can also bounce back and corrode itself.In the middle of the game, I fell down covered in blood, which was really ugly.

On the way to the infirmary, I kept thinking, why?Why do I have to accept this fate?I don't want this kind of frightening power at all. Even if I have this power, I can't control it. Not only can this power not make me stronger, but in the end, I can only end up being devoured by destruction. ...Obviously I just want to be an ordinary person, why did the devil choose me?Why must it be me?

I'm not reconciled, I don't want to lose, if I can't beat them and become number one, what is the meaning of my life?The rejection and discrimination I have received over the years have turned into the force that gave birth to the devil in my heart. I struggled and resisted on the hospital bed, shouting "Let me continue the game! I will defeat him!" while bleeding.

Three or four people came over and held me down. While they were disinfecting and bandaging my wound, I was still desperately resisting. Deputy Minister Sanada, who couldn't stand it anymore, finally stepped forward and punched me hard.

"Bastard! You wake me up!"

His punches did the trick, but instead of being lucid, I was starting to lose consciousness after losing too much blood.

Seeing that I had calmed down and was no longer agitated, those people finally left the infirmary with a sigh of relief, and let me lie there alone to rest.After they left, I staggered out of the hospital bed, leaning on the wall all the way to the door.

"Damn it... absolutely can't lose... definitely beat you... wait for me..."

While enduring the pain and dizziness, he opened the door and walked into the corridor.There was a person standing outside who was visibly taken aback when she saw me come out.

It's Akiyama's good news.

She holds a notebook and a recording pen in her arms, which are the things that the news department needs to use when collecting materials.By the way, speaking of which, I just happened to be scheduled for an interview today, and it was probably because of this that she was waiting for me here.

Senior Jiayin didn't say anything, but just looked at me with some hesitation.Seeing my miserable appearance, no one is interested in interviewing me—because I am just a loser who lost the game, and Minister Yukimura, who is wearing a halo of victory, is the one who is worth interviewing.

Bastard, damn it, why is it at such a time, why is it in front of her.I don't want her to see me as worthless, and I don't want her to see me as a devil.

"What are you looking at? Do you think I'm scary? Haha, hahahaha!"

Chi Ye, you are ashamed.There seems to be a voice in my head saying this repeatedly, you are cowardly and scary, she must be frightened by your appearance, and she must not dare to approach you again.

Senior Jiayin was silent, looking at me with eyes that seemed to be pity, and I felt the blood flow continuously.

"Go away!" I yelled at her, "What kind of eyes are you looking at? Are you sympathetic? No need! I'm a monster anyway! If you're afraid of me, stay away as soon as possible!"

She stood there motionless.

"I don't think you're a monster," she said silently.

"Are you kidding... Are you blind? Can't you see my eyes! These are not normal eyes at all! These are the devil's..."

I stopped in the middle of my speech because I saw her take a small step, then another small step...she was slowly approaching me.

Why don't you hide, why do you want to approach me instead?I am undoubtedly dangerous, and she should know that.

"Do you know why the rabbit's eyes are red?"

She looked into my eyes and asked softly.

...Why are you not afraid of me?Why are you talking to me?Why are you still looking at me so calmly?

"Because the rabbit has no friends, it is too lonely to be alone, crying and crying...that's why the eyes turned red from crying."

——Akaya-kun, your eyes are like the eyes of a rabbit.

The rabbit's eyes are red, and my eyes are also red. She said that red eyes are actually very beautiful.

Senior Miyake, I know that she is now lying in the hospital, lying on the bed that she may not be able to leave for the rest of her life.But sometimes I can still feel that she is by my side, looking at me, guarding me, and telling me that the rabbit's eyes are actually very beautiful.

I cried many times after her car accident, I was very remorseful and painful.People often say that men don't cry easily, but I am not afraid to tell you this because I finally realized that the rabbit that has been smashing rice cakes on the moon is me.

I want to save her, just like she saved me, and I'd give anything for it... even burn my life to ashes.