Korean entertainment life reset

Wen Xiuzhi returned to the newspaper office and hurriedly handed in the manuscript, but was picked out for several flaws, and finally passed.Finally, I was free to find the editor-in-chief, but the editor-in-chief was busy with other things at that time: "Okay, you guys send me a copy of the hospital's diagnosis... ok... ok..."

"The editor-in-chief..."

"What's the matter?" the editor-in-chief asked absent-mindedly while looking through the address book in the phone with his head lowered.

"I was at Gimpo Airport at noon, and I saw Zhang Xianyu, the beast's."

The editor-in-chief suddenly raised his head, and then simply stood up: "Did you see something happened to his father?"

Wen Xiuzhi nodded: "Just walk in front of me."

"It's a coincidence. I just agreed with Cube to write a script to help them talk. Zhang Xianzhen made a mistake in the musical, but it's not difficult. Anyone would make a mistake." The editor-in-chief realized that he said a bit too much, "I see Retell it again, what was the situation at that time?"

"I took a picture." Wen Xiuzhi said carefully.

"Have you taken it?" The editor-in-chief's eyes suddenly sharpened, and he stretched out his hand, "Show me."

Wen Xiuzhi handed over her mobile phone: "I also remember what he did before."

The editor-in-chief clicked on the video, watched it with a serious expression, then turned the progress bar back, watched it again, then closed his eyes, and opened them after a while.

"You did a good job," he said, "Now, take the video for coding, and then write me what he did before, and I will contact the life department."

"Life Department?" What does this have to do with their entertainment version?

"Who has paid attention to the health knowledge in newspapers except housewives, and now there is a popular idol who helps them popularize first aid knowledge?" said the editor-in-chief. He was obviously in a good mood. However, there is no guarantee that there will be anti-picking and saying that he should let the audience pigeons stay by his father's side, or he is not filial. Isn't it the best of both worlds now? When the report comes out, I should ask Cube for an exclusive interview."

This is the case with too much news. The joys and sorrows of public figures only mean highlights and benefits to media people.

And when Wen Xiuzhi came back to the editor-in-chief with the finished coding video and her own description of the matter, the editor-in-chief had just hung up the phone.

"This will be a perfect report," said the editor-in-chief, "Zhang Xianju's father has escaped danger, everyone is happy. I asked Cube for an exclusive interview with Zhang Xianju. Do you want to try it?"

Zhang Tae-sik's awakening did not make Zhang Xianzhu wait for a long time.That night, he regained consciousness.However, Zhang Xianyu did not stay by his father's side at that time. The next day beast had "m! "down", and his physical exertion was too much before. After confirming that his father was fine, he followed the company's advice and took a short rest. The next morning, he went to finish recording the stage with the members. He went straight to the hospital again—except for the singing stage, other trips that required him to follow the main force were temporarily canceled by Cube.Although the media contacted by Cube has released reports, and a video of Zhang Xianyu giving first aid to his father at the airport shot by "tourists present" also appeared on the Internet, but the direction of public opinion is still not completely certain, the less exposure of Zhang Xianyu, the better.

Walking into this hospital again, Zhang Xianyu felt much calmer.He was still terribly tired, but he wouldn't be so overwhelmed by strong emotions that he almost couldn't think normally as he had been the day before.

Walking to the door of the ward, Wu Yingshu just opened the door and came out: "Xian Jiao, you are here, do you have no schedule?"

Zhang Xianxuan shook his head: "I'm not suitable to come out now except for the necessary, by the way, Mom."

He stopped his mother, hesitated for a moment, and said, "When you and Gelin came over yesterday, was Xuanya there?"

Wu Yingshu's face showed obvious unnaturalness: "Yes, your company told her to leave later."

It's not surprising that Jin Xuanya can't stay there all the time, Zhang Xianzhen is not concerned about this issue: "Did she say anything to you?"

Wu Yingshu's expression became even more unnatural, "Say it", she said, "Tell me why..." However, seeing her son's painful expression, Wu Yingshu shut her mouth in time, "Xianjiao, what's wrong with you?"

"I will clarify the reason later," Zhang Xianjue said, "I can't pass the responsibility on to her."

Seeing his father after he escaped from danger, Zhang Xianyu's reaction was not very excited.Sitting in front of his father's hospital bed, he fell into a long silence.

Finally, Zhang Tae-sik spoke first. "Sorry, I was careless," he said.

Zhang Xianyu did not answer.Zhang Tae-sik didn't know what to say next. In all fairness, Zhang Hyun-joo had done enough and said it clearly enough. After all, he was an entertainer who didn't even have four hours of sleep every day when he was busy. Jang Tae-sik's side.What happened this time was that Zhang Tae-sik was too careless, thinking that his body was fine, and felt exhausted running back and forth during the business trip and didn't pay attention, so he finally collapsed at the airport.

"Xiancao, can I ask you a question?" Zhang Tae-sik asked suddenly.

"Ok?"

"After I left... How long did it take you to walk out?"

Jang Tae-sik asked about his past life.

Zhang Xianyu's eyes drifted up subconsciously, and then sank down: "It's more than a year." He said.

"Too long." Jang Tae-sik said.There will always be a time when the pain will be smoothed out. Even if it is a close relative, more than a year is too long.Zhang Tae-sik knew that his son would not exaggerate the small sadness into real negativity, and it might take him longer.

"I can't get out." Zhang Xianyu said.

He was silent for a while, and then continued: "When it was too late, I realized that there are many things that I haven't done."

You didn't say sorry to your father for what you did when you were ignorant, you didn't care more about your loved ones, you didn't say anything about "love" to your father, and you didn't tell him that you are the best father in the world.

But he never had another chance.

All the regrets stagnated in my heart, and gradually turned into remorse, for the wrong things he did because of his innocence and naivety, and the things he should do that he didn't have time to do.And just because there is no chance to make up and change, these emotions can only accumulate in the heart, constantly fermenting into heart-piercing pain, which finally led to Zhang Xianyu's depression that lasted for a year.

The memory of that time is too deep-rooted, and it is also because of Zhang Xianju's little resentment towards his father now.It’s nothing to be overwhelmed all day—although he is not very good at dealing with sudden changes, but the resolve he has honed over the past few decades is still enough to keep him going until the end. What Zhang Xianzhen cares about and even feels afraid of is the fact that things are really irreversible. will have consequences.

——If he not only fails to rewrite the tragedy, but instead leads to a worse ending, how will he punish himself uncontrollably, even Zhang Xianyu himself will feel terrified when he thinks about it.

"I should have asked you earlier..." Zhang Tae-sik said to himself.

"Xian Yu."

"If I had been conscious at the last moment when I left before, even if it was only for a second, what would I be thinking at that time, I have already felt it."

"I regret it."

Zhang Tae-sik said.

"Because I am your father, and... I left early, you will ignore many things I did wrong. I didn't think so before, but when I saw you at the airport, I couldn't control my heart ", Zhang Tae-sik stopped and took a breath, "I'm afraid I won't wake up again, even if you can give me a few more minutes, I'm afraid it will be too late for everything."

Zhang Xianzhen leaned forward and held his father's hand, Zhang Tae-sik held it back tightly, almost exhausting his little strength.If he didn't come to the rescue this time, what kind of blow would it be to Zhang Xianjue?What's more, Zhang Xianjue still knows about the future, and compared to before, there will be more regrets that he can't even tell his closest relatives.Thinking of this, Zhang Tae-sik still felt terrified.

"I clearly know how dead-headed you are, how you like to take your faults on you, how lacking in self-confidence, how easy it is to make trouble for yourself. I know it all, but I didn't do anything. I didn't start to be afraid until I was about to die, I want to tell you that you have done enough and good enough, I want to tell you that I have always been proud of you, I want to tell you that you are not sorry for me, I want to tell you that even if I really leave, the biggest wish is that you can continue happily Life, don't let me down... It turns out that I must have felt the same way when I was about to leave. And these words could have been told to you earlier, but I am still so arrogant, you will feel that there is a second time It's hard to take chances and not change anything, but I'm the one who really repeats the same mistakes."

"Stop talking." Zhang Xianyu looked away, stared at the ground, and said.

"I want to say it now", struggling for a while on the edge of life and death, Zhang Tae-sik understood a lot of things, and the words that he had piled up in his heart but couldn't say were now squeezed in his throat urgently, not to mention not saying it to Zhang Xianyu now, If I say it later, it may be even more embarrassing, "Xian Jiao!"

"Well", Zhang Xianyu took a deep breath, "I'm listening, Dad".

"I missed a lot of things for you, and I always thought I was a good father," Jang Tae-sik said, "You were not so mature when you were young, but you were not so easy to doubt yourself. You had a very hard year in YG , In the next three years, I thought about it later, you had a hard life too, didn't you?"

Zhang Xianyu nodded.

"What did I do at that time? I thought about it. I probably didn't do anything. I have always thought that when you get older, you should grow up, suffer losses, and hone yourself, so don't worry about anything. Your three No matter how bad the year is, I should think the same way.” Zhang Tae-sik cleared his throat and suppressed the trembling in his voice, “It’s not like I didn’t feel it, but I refused to admit that my thoughts were wrong. People can't solve some difficulties independently, and I'm still reluctant to admit that you are like this, but you haven't solved the expression problem in YG for a year, and you told me that you stayed in Cube for a few months, and after a few months , you debuted with a cute image, the people in your company helped you, but I didn't, right?"

"How long have you struggled in the predicament, how long have you been depressed, and how did you become the character you are now? Sometimes I dare not think about it. What I dare not even think about is that if I had once left school suddenly when you went to When you come into contact with the adult world, take out your own experience to guide and help you, what will you look like now, will you be more cheerful, more confident, and easier to open your heart."

However, there are often not so many ifs in the world.In the original trajectory, from 2006 to 2009, during the three years of depression and decadence, Zhang Xianzhen once looked forward to encouragement and comfort, and his father also looked forward to his growth and maturity, but no one said what was in his heart. Instead, he poured cold water on him. , one will never turn back, even if there is no falling out, the relationship between them has gradually eased after debut, but they have done too little for each other.In the end, Jang Tae-sik passed away suddenly in his sleep, and there was no time to say anything. At that time, Jang Hyun-joo, who had become more lively, was hit hard, immersed in sadness and regret, and began his long period of low ebb.

As for this life, they finally said what they wanted to say. Jang Tae-sik is still alive, and Jang Hyun-joo has become mature and wise from a child who was stubborn but fragile, hard-working but impetuous, sincere but lost in words. , but at the same time, some of the not-so-good parts of his character that have survived the tempering of the years are hard to change now.

"I'm 50 years old today, but I still do wrong things, and some of the consequences can't be changed up to now," Zhang Tae-sik said, "The family spends so much time together, in fact, everyone will make mistakes, but You didn’t take my mistakes to heart, or even think about them, and I never thought you had anything to do with me. There are too many things like this, but you can’t find the right way for various reasons. We are all used to it and don’t mind it, Xianyu, promise me”, he sat up suddenly, staring at Zhang Xianyu, with a bit of urgency in his voice, “I will always leave first, even if you don’t consider age, there are many people in this world There are always all kinds of accidents, then you don’t need to spend too much time grieving for me, me, me..."

Zhang Tae-sik's chest heaved violently, he turned his face to look elsewhere, took a deep breath and exhaled, and turned his face back when the breath was not so chaotic, and said under his throat, "You know what? When I couldn't hold on anymore, an idea popped into my mind, it would be great if you could forget me." Thinking of how much his death had dealt a blow to Zhang Xianyu, Zhang Tae-sik panicked beyond measure.

"That's Dad, you know too well what kind of person I am," Zhang Xianzhen said in a muffled voice, "Then to be fair, if, I mean, if anything happens to me, so do you."

"It's a deal?" Zhang Tae-sik asked solemnly.

"It's a deal." Zhang Xianjue closed his eyes.

Quan Junjian didn't go up with Zhang Xianyu, but waited in the parking lot.Zhang Xianyu can't stay here for too long. The video of him giving first aid to his father at the airport has been clicked rapidly on the Internet. Now the relevant entries are almost full of n□□er's search list. The matter needs to be explained to the outside world. Zhang Xianyu must return to the company early so that everyone can discuss countermeasures together. Besides, there will be the recording of "Music Bank" and the last scene of "Mozart" tomorrow. Although it sounds cruel, but There is really not much time left for Zhang Xianjue to be with his family, even if they almost experience parting.

Quan Junjian sat in the car and searched for news on the Internet with his mobile phone. He didn't look away until he heard the sound of the car window.Zhang Xianyu was wearing a hat and sunglasses, with his hands resting on the window of the rear seat, and the sound was probably because he leaned directly against it.

"Are you okay?" Quan Junjian quickly put away his phone, got out of the car and asked.

"Brother", Zhang Xianyu's voice is not only deep, but also a little muddy, as if water has been mixed in the middle, "Stay away, please".

"What's the matter?" With that said, Quan Junjian didn't go over, and stood where he was, asking.

"Give me some time," Zhang Xianjue said, "then I will call you, it won't take long."

"Okay." Quan Junjian nodded without asking any further questions, and walked towards the entrance of the parking lot. After walking a few steps, he looked back again.Seeing that Zhang Xianyu just opened the back door and sat in, he felt relieved, found a corner, and watched from afar.

Sitting in the car, Zhang Xianyu took off his hat, and then his sunglasses.His eyes were swollen and painful, and there was a bitter taste from his chest to his mouth, and his nose was even more sour.He lowered his head, curled up his body, put his elbows on his knees, covered his eyes with his hands, and after a few seconds of silence like a statue, maybe because he felt that it was too uncomfortable to breathe through his nose, he parted his lips.

A distorted whimper escaped his throat.

He hadn't really cried for decades, and the nerves related to it had been blunted, and the next day's karaoke show and musical did not allow him to be unscrupulous.Zhang Xianyu's body curled up even tighter, his shoulders twitched constantly, and intermittent, out-of-tune whimpers came from his throat.He tried to clench his teeth, but he couldn't restrain his emotions. He closed his eyes, but tears still squeezed out from the corners of his eyes, then overflowed from the cracks in his palms, and slid down his arms.

For 23 years, he couldn't let go of his father's unexpected death, because of love, guilt, regret, and because these emotions would trap him and make him unable to think of other things.From the beginning to the end, Zhang Xianyu was not someone who would let him go easily.

But today, his father told him that he never thought he was wrong, he was proud of him, and he hoped that he would be happy, if it really came to the last moment of his life.All the things that Zhang Xianju did not dare to think about by himself were engraved in his heart word by word by his father.

The knot deeply planted in the chest for more than [-] years, the obsession extended from the previous life to the present life, until this time, finally collapsed together.

turned into dust.