Two or three things about having a crush on Mr. Dazai

I once stood on the top floor of the tallest building in Yokohama and had a panoramic view of the whole city from the floor-to-ceiling windows.

Someone asked me, "Does Takeshita-kun like the scenery here?"

I replied: "No likes or dislikes, not much interest."

At that time, there was only one person in my world, and there was no room for other scenery except him.

Later, I had a lover, and I passed the mountains and the sea with him, stepped on steel bars and concrete; we looked down on the tall Ferris wheel together and overlooked the crowd who couldn't tell the difference between tall and short, fat and thin, and we also ordered coffee in roadside coffee shops. Speculate on the various identity stories of passers-by with a glass of drink.

Then I realized—

If you really love someone, you will fall in love with the whole world in which he lives.

1. Friends in Tokyo

"Washing white?"

Hei Zizhe, who was sitting across from me, was already a freshman who had been in college for more than half a year. He had a poker face that had never changed for thousands of years, and his tone showed a little confusion.

I said, "Yes, whitewash."

Keiko Kobayakawa slapped the table: "Washing white?!"

She asked, "What does whitewashing mean?"

"It means that I used to be a person with a police record, and they wanted to take me back and put me in jail every moment."

I took a sip of milk tea and said, "You don't have to worry about this problem now, because I joined a company called Armed Detective Agency and occasionally help the police."

Kobayakawa was shocked: "...how come I never knew before!"

I said, "It's okay if you don't know. You are already worried about my relationship, you don't have to worry about my life anymore."

The woman Kobayakawa Keiko became strangely excited: "Then... Takeshita-kun, what was your identity before? Does Heizi-kun know?"

Heizi recalled: "I know a little bit."

He grumbled blankly: "Takeshita-kun didn't talk about his work in detail, so I only learned about 'Takeshita-kun is the number one killer in the world' and 'Takeshita-kun was in Yokohama not long ago. The two facts of 'death in organized melee'."

Heizi's ability to make complaints has not diminished, and he lightly dismissed the whole story about what I kept from Keiko Kobayakawa.

Kobayakawa was about to petrify, his voice trembling with shock: "You?... Takeshita-kun? Killer?? Ability? What is this??"

me."

"This is too incredible! Amazing!!!"

I:"……"

Kuroko Tetsuya:"……"

After she realized it, she asked, "Then Mr. Dazai from your family...?"

Me: "He cleared his identity a few years before me. He defected that year to our old organization, the Port Mafia, and worked for the government for two years before clearing his identity."

Kobayakawa: "Oh oh oh! The love and hatred of childhood sweethearts in the gang!"

You really don't know where a woman's brain circuit can go.I originally thought it would take her at least a moment to come to terms with the fact that her friend is a killer.

Heizi: "Will Takeshita-kun's future work be dangerous?"

See, this is a normal question.

Me: "Most of them are not dangerous. Even if I am in danger, I have a way to get out."

There was a trace of condemnation in Heizi's light eyes: "Next time you encounter danger, please don't cut off contact with us because of changing your phone number... We will be very sad."

Heizi: "Especially after seeing your tombstone."

"..."

I said apologetically, "Sorry, I won't do it next time."

"In order to make up for my mistake, this meal and the next meal are all my treats."

Kobayakawa: "Hey, Takeshita-san has agreed to treat you, so we won't eat Mji, but I will kill you hard!"

"Okay." I said cheerfully, "I'm not paying the bill anyway."

"Eh?"

"Next time, Mr. Dazai will accompany me to have dinner with you." I said, "Keiko, Mr. said that he has wanted to meet the person who called him a scumbag for a long time; Heizi, Mr. Dazai also wants to see with his own eyes how weak your sense of existence is. Please do your best next time we meet."

Kobayakawa: "..."

Kuroko:"……"

Ah, I really look forward to meeting them next time I come to Tokyo.

2. We all grow up

It was completely unexpected to run into Xiaoyin in the largest shopping mall after get off work.

The skinny little girl with short black hair has grown up. Outside the working hours of the port mafia, she took off her men's clothing and mask, put on a white floral dress, and let loose her long silky hair. Black hair, gentle and generous.

When she hurriedly called me and stopped in front of me, I was dazed for a while.

"Teacher...Mr. Takeshita."

She called me, then changed her mouth.

Xiaoyin is actually a very shy girl, she was like this before, and she is still like this now.

She looked at me, as if she didn't know what to say because she was so excited, her cheeks turned red to her neck, and finally she just said: "...you are back."

The news of my death was publicized by the Port Mafia - it was a signal that Mori Ogai and I knew to break away from the Port Mafia, but the news that I survived the trauma should only be revealed to the Port Mafia The Central Plains of the party.

In other words, before that, Little Silver didn't know about my return.

"Xiaoyin." I couldn't help but soften my eyes, and greeted her, "How are you doing recently?"

"Very well, thank you for your concern... How about you?"

I smiled: "It's not bad to change to a leisurely job."

"That, that's good."

She lowered her head and whispered like a gnat, "As long as you are fine."

I want to ask her if the black lizard is busy recently, whether the mission she set out is difficult, whether she was injured, whether she has visited my grave like Chuya Nakahara or Tetsuya Kuroko after hearing the news of my death, and her Is the brother who is called the "disaster dog" still looking for people to make appointments...etc.

But when I saw the tears in her eyes, I suddenly felt that there was nothing to say.

I stretched out my arms towards her, and just half way up, she fell into my arms.

Like a mirror flower.They're all sensual girls.

I think.

However, Xiaoyin has grown up after all, so she dare not hug her tightly, she will let go after hugging her.

I rubbed the top of her hair and coaxed her like I coaxed her last work: "Don't cry, girl. You can come to the Armed Detective Agency to find me if you need anything."

"Ok!"

The moment Xiaoyin agreed, I inexplicably felt a cool breeze behind me.

I followed my intuition to look in one direction, and then I bumped into a pair of cold gray eyes not far away.

I:"……"

Oh, let's go as soon as we say it.

At this moment, Ryunosuke Akutagawa did not wear the black coat he wore when he was working in Hong Kong, but casual casual clothes.

He was startled when he saw me.

This moment of stupefaction was extremely short, but as his long-time rival, it was impossible for me not to notice it.

Xiaoyin blushed and stood beside her brother.

In front of the girl, I didn't believe that Akutagawa would pull out a Rashomon on the spot, so I took the initiative to say, "Long time no see, Akutagawa."

"It's been a long time... Takeshita."

No sarcasm, no sarcasm, and no fights at the slightest disagreement.

"I heard that you haven't killed anyone recently?"

This is what I heard from Atsushi Nakajima.

"You don't need to kill someone to prove your strength." He snorted.

"That's right."

I couldn't agree more.

It was rare for me to agree with him, Akutagawa got stuck and looked at me complicatedly.

"You... Dazai-san didn't come out with you?"

"Yes." I pointed casually and said, "It's over there."

Akutagawa stiffened immediately.

"Pfft, I lied to you, he didn't come."

"--ghost!!!"

now it's right.

What are you trying to do with me?This is the familiar tone that the "bad dog" Akutagawa Ryunosuke should have.

3. Don't chase after the past

It stands to reason that since I joined the Armed Detective Agency, there would be little reason to go back to the Port Mafia.

But after I got off work, I ran into my former subordinate on the street and wanted to see how he was doing now.

So I directly launched the nothingness, followed him back to the headquarters of Hong Kong and Hei, and took the elevator straight to the office of the top leader.

Yo, he's doing pretty well now?Reported directly to Senou Foreign Exchange?

Looking at my ex-boss really makes my hands itchy.

If it were you, who worked hard for others for six years, he said that he never trusted you, and tortured you to death for the unwarranted betrayal in the future, and called it "for the benefit of the organization".

I don't know how to kill Mori Ogai, but life and death have been so many times, and limbs are amputated and brains are hell, I can't be too angry.

After the report, my former subordinate was about to leave, but Mori Ogai stopped him: "Recently I got news that Takeshita-kun is still alive."

"real?!"

The subordinate's tone was urgent, and a dazzling look suddenly burst out on his face.

I:"……"

Mori Ogai said with a smile: "If I plan to invite Takeshita-kun to return to Mafia as a cadre, what do you think? Will he agree?"

I:? ? ?

Subordinate: "Huh?"

Damn it.

Back to Mafia as a cadre?

Don't ask him, I'll tell you directly.

"impossible."

Now that I am no longer the superior and the subordinate, I have no scruples about making a move, and I break away from nothingness and draw my sword to attack in one go.

The dagger was bright, and when the blade I held touched Mori Ogai's throat, I clearly saw the drastic change in his face.

"...Takeshita-kun?"

The leader of the gangsters spoke with difficulty.

"Ok?"

"Mr. Takeshita!!"

The former boss put a knife on the neck of the current boss, I know the subordinate must be difficult to deal with.

So I simply said to him: "It's none of your business, I'll talk to Mr. Sen."

Mori Ogai raised his eyebrows, staring at the blade above his carotid artery: "Talking like this?"

There is a distance between me and him that could kill him at any time.As soon as Mori Ogai opened his mouth, the clinging blade drew blood on his neck.

"Let's talk like this." I said indifferently.

"Takeshita-kun has the final say." When Mori Ogai spoke, blood flowed down his neck. At this moment, I had to admire the courage and boldness of this man.

You know, with my blade so close, most people will be shocked and shit.

Mori Ogai calmly asked my subordinates to leave the office, and did not call any security personnel to come to Hong Kong.

When we were alone in the chief's office, I withdrew the dagger.

"Takeshita-kun really gave me a big jump just now."

It's just a shock, cheap you are old.

I certainly have the ability to kill him, but I have no reason to kill him.

Letting this man lose face as a leader in front of his subordinates, and even slashing his neck twice, is the happiest thing I can do.

"Mr. Sen, please don't mention the matter of letting me go back to be a cadre. Otherwise, I don't guarantee that such a hand slip will happen once."

Mori Ogai smiled tolerantly and made a farewell gesture, and I disappeared into the air in front of him.

There are two knots of grievances and grievances, there is no need to chase after the past, and repay the grudge immediately.

"From now on, Mafia and I will settle the matter."

4. Misty night in the tavern

One late night, Lupin's underground tavern.

Itan Fourteen said, "Come here—a glass of beer, and a glass of milk."

The old bartender in a red vest: "Okay."

"Bastard! You still know how to come to me! I thought you were really dead at that time!"

He took a swig of his drink and slammed the glass on the table.

I took a sip of milk slowly: "Well, just like you, I thought I was dead at that time."

"It's such a familiar taste, will anyone come here to order milk besides me?"

The old bartender thought for a while and replied seriously: "No, only Mr. Xiao can order."

"Then why is there still milk here?"

The old bartender glanced at the sulking An Teng XIV, and said with a smile, "Because the gentleman next door to you asked me to prepare it in advance."

"Thank you very much."

I swirled the milk in the glass.

"Thank you fart." He cursed as soon as he opened his mouth.

"Don't be angry, it's rare to get together, don't you want to ask me something?"

Itan XIV was silent for a while.

"Are you cleared?"

"Ah, whitewashed."

"Then there's nothing to say."

"You can still talk about it." I said, "For example, what happened to the ring on your hand? Are you going to get married? You stay in the torture room all day, where did you meet the girl?"

Xu Shi was annoyed by my questioning tone, An Teng XIV gave me a look and replied loudly: "It's my new partner!"

"Well, it must be a good match for you. Where did you buy the ring? It's very beautiful. When I have time, Mr. Dazai and I will pick a pair."

"..."

Iteng XIV drank a lot, and finally got drunk.

Crying and laughing, he said to me: "I heard that you dare to go back to Mafia and threaten the leader! Be careful for me in the future, don't be like that again!"

"understood."

I drink very little, and I get a little drunk when I smell alcohol.

I tilted my head and thought in a hazy way that many years ago, the best future that Dazai Osamu, Oda Sakunosuke, and Sakaguchi Ango could hope for was the gathering of me and Ando XIV.

"Ding--"

A glass of wine collided with a glass of milk.

In a late-night tavern, the criminals of the Port Mafia and the detectives of the Armed Detective Agency don't have to discuss positions.

5. Dead

in front of the tombstone.

"Mr. Oda, I am 21 years old, and I am with Mr. Dazai."

"Too many things have happened this year, I..."

"I'm tired, but also very happy."

"I'm not a ghost anymore."

"The name 'Ghost Assassin' is also a thing of the past."

"I'm also on the side of saving the weak and protecting the orphans... together with Mr. Dazai."

"Mr. Dazai said he loves me."

"He... woo... He said, he loves me..."

"it is true."

"Mr. Oda, Mr. Dazai's world is still so deep and so far away. Sometimes I am not sure whether he is always suffering when he loses the choice of suicide."

"We interact with each other all the time, in this overly complicated world."

"You understand him."

"It would be great if you were still here."

"By the way, I gave Mr. Sen two knives a few days ago, and he sent me away politely, isn't it quite a relief?"

"I don't know how your creation is progressing over there? Or has it been published? Are the children obedient? Is there super spicy mixed curry rice over there? Is it delicious?"

"Since nothingness forms a world by itself, it's not surprising that you go to another world."

"Mr. Oda, I..."

"I am leaving."

"see you next year."

6. Crush on this thing

After chatting with Sakunosuke Oda, I put the peace charm I made back in front of the grave, and Dazai was waiting for me on the other side.

Whenever I talk to Sakunosuke Oda, I can't help but recall the past scenes.

The 16-year-old Dazai always left me with a black back.

The 23-year-old Dazai stood under the shade of the tree, his tall and slender body outlined by the dappled sunlight.

Driven by a sense of ritual, I walked towards him step by step.

It's like walking through countless years and countless tears.

Finally walked up to him.

Dazai asked, "What did you say to Oda Saku?"

I said, "Say we're together."

Dazai hooked his lips: "What a coincidence~ I also said the same thing."

"No, not the same."

I deny it.

Dazai took my hand naturally, and asked with a smile, "What's different?"

Of course it's different everywhere.

"The mood is different."

The gentle wind blew up Dazai's windbreaker, and the long belt brushed our interlocking hands, and also my heart that was nourished by his love.

I've been walking too long from nothingness to you.

The so-called secret love: Everyone knows that I like you; but only I know how I like you.

It is this humble and grand secret love that created the unique Akira Takeshita, and the unique, our love.

-end-

The author has something to say: the full text is over.

Thanks to all the little cuties who have followed the text all the way to support here (bixin~

I love this episode of Wenye and Mr. Dazai in Wenye so much!Opened a colleague on a whim, finished the text with 33 words, and finally fulfilled a wish.

As for whether or not to write Wenye colleagues after finishing this article, such as the highly popular Zhongye CP article, it is most likely not.Just like Qiu was born only for Dazai, I also write for Dazai.I feel really honored that the style of writing can be liked by everyone, but some inspirations cannot be forced.

For me, this article is a brand-new attempt, whether it is the theme derived from Two-dimensional, the light expression style, or the No.1 style of writing.Although I think there are many regrets in many places, but as the first new attempt, it is generally not satisfactory.There is a full rating on the home page of the article, where you can tell me your thoughts.

There is also a very special thing. When the serialization reached December, the saved manuscripts were gone, and they had to change daily and weekly. As a result, the place where the card was stuck was too dirty, and a large number of colleagues (most of them were still be (.

Here, I strongly praise and sincerely thank the readers who have created fan creations, which is awesome!I have read every article in the comment area and lofter, and I will add refinement/likes to you. I am familiar with the names of several readers who have written a lot.You sharp knives_(:3」∠)_

From September 2019.9.23, 2020.1.23 to January [-], [-], "Secret Love" has been serialized for four full months. The story of Qiu and Mr. Dazai in this world ends here. Thank you for your company all the way. I hope you will like this story.

There are also some if ideas, such as Mr. Qiu and Hei Shizai, and the [-] questions about reversing be. Because they are relatively fragmented and do not form a story, they will not be released in the form of extra episodes. They should be posted on Weibo in the future.The Weibo name is @晋江-外外君, and I may also post some short essays about my thoughts (bad, I’ve been holding back for a long time), if you are interested, you can take a look.

That's all for now.

In the end, although the subject matter of my writing is erratic, I feel like opening a diploma, changing my writing depends on my mood, and my output is Buddhist, but I still look forward to seeing you again by fate.

I love you guys.

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2020.1.23