Two or three things about having a crush on Mr. Dazai

What happened today is really continuous.

It was the first time I received an entrusted task from my peers, and the task reward was three cups of vanilla milkshakes with all his pocket money gambled, which gave me some motivation for the matter of "rescuing a stranger who committed suicide by jumping off a building".

Normally, my most likely reaction would be to pretend I didn't see it.

Compared with me, who had no intention of interfering, the newly acquainted Kuroko Tetsuya was in a hurry, and quickly came to the top floor of the residential building with me.

Apart from me and Hei Zizhe, there are four or five other people on the roof, both men, women and children, who should be residents here.

On the edge of the roof sat a pale, precarious young woman.One of the woman's feet has already stepped out of the railing, and she can fall down just by tilting her body balance, so no one dares to act rashly.

"Little girl, what do you need to tell grandma? Life is still so long, what hurdles can't be overcome!"

The wrinkled old man persuaded.

"Sister, come down first, okay? Whoever bullied you, I'll beat him up for you! I'm good at Taekwondo!...Look at me, sister, I'll show you some punches!"

The little boy tried his best to get the woman's attention.

But the woman didn't react at all, and she didn't cast the slightest line of sight in this direction, she just stared at the void silently, half of her side face was covered with tears.

A burly man with a simple and honest face tried to get close to the railing, but she let out a piercing scream: "Don't come!"

The man had to stop in his tracks, looking sad and at a loss.

The old woman persuaded again: "My dear, if you can't think about it, it will be so sad for the family who loves you..."

Woman: "No, there is no family who loves me! They have left me long ago! ... The only one I have is that he doesn't want me anymore, no one will feel sorry for me."

"I must be too bad, that's why he doesn't want me. Why... I have worked so hard... He still, he still..."

I understood that she must have been hurt emotionally and wanted to commit suicide after being broken up by someone she loved deeply.

Old woman: "Oh, such things as love..."

No one dared to persuade, for fear of irritating the woman sitting on the edge of the railing.

"I said don't come here! If you take another step forward, I'll jump off!!!"

She suddenly burst into another scream.

It was only then that I discovered that Hei Zizhe was trying to use his low sense of presence to get close to the woman, but unfortunately, his characteristic of terrifying concealment ability blinded the shooter, but could not fool the woman who jumped off the building who wanted to die.

The blue-haired boy jumped back quickly, and even retreated behind everyone, not daring to challenge the woman's extremely sensitive and delicate nerves.

Heizi said helplessly, "...failed."

He asked me in a low voice: "Takeshita-kun, can you do anything?"

I said uncertainly: "There is a way, but I don't know if it will work."

Heizi Tetsuya: "Go and try."

People around me also cast hopeful eyes on me.

I took a few steps forward, walked to the honest man closest to her, and stopped.

I thought about it, and chose to ask directly: "Miss, are you desperate because you broke up with your lover?"

The straight shot made the man next to me try to cover my mouth.

The woman cried even harder, she broke down and said, "It's not as simple as breaking up! We have been in love for four years, but the four years are not as good as the woman he has known for only a few days! He wants to break up with me because of this! Obviously , I clearly agreed to get married..."

Her body was heaving up and down from crying, and she kept shaking on the railing, which made the man next to me quite nervous.

"It's very sad." I sighed with a look of disappointment on my face, "but I think the degree of misery you have experienced is far less than mine."

When it comes to suicide for love, I really have a say.

The woman was taken aback.

The man next to me was taken aback.

You don't need to look to know it, and the sunspot behind is also taken aback.

The woman choked and said, "How old are you!... What do you know?"

"That's not what you said. Miss, you are also very young. When you fell in love with your sweetheart four years ago, wasn't it my age?" I calmly said, "You can't use age to judge the depth of love. .”

The clumsy man gave me admiring eyes.

"If you still have a little compassion, can you stay in this terrible world for 10 minutes longer and listen to my love experience that is much more tragic than yours?"

"If you're making something up, I don't have any interest!"

She said so, but her reaction to my words proved that she was shaken.

I strike while the iron is hot: "I promise you. Everything I said below is true, otherwise I, Zhu Xiaqiu, will be struck by lightning and die miserably."

Heizi quietly appeared behind me, patted my shoulder, and questioned me with his eyes.

I deliberately said helplessly in a volume that women could hear: "It's true. I'm really worse than her."

The woman fell silent, quietly looking at the sky and weeping.

I knew she was willing to listen by default.

I spoke calmly.

"I still love that gentleman dearly."

"Seven years ago, when I first met him, he became my whole world. But due to various reasons, I couldn't meet him.

"I watched him wholeheartedly, and it was not until three years later that I finally had the opportunity to meet him. You can imagine my mood at that time, wishing to hold my heart in front of him.

"If he is an emotional person, he may be moved by my sincerity, and he will thank me for my love for him;

"If I'm lucky enough, my appearance and personality match his temperament, maybe he will accept me one day after getting along for a long time, and we will become an admirable couple;

"If he is a person who likes to create, our love will be written into poems, composed into music, and made into paintings. It would be great if it can become a sweet love.

"but……

"Unfortunately, he is none of the above.

"I still don't know if it was a mistake for me to appear in front of him. Because, for the person I have been watching for a long time, he really hates me.

"Yeah, it's disgusting.

"He threw away my heart like a shoe, and described my gaze as 'this is an unpleasant sight'. He seemed to say, who do you think you are, and what is your love. Being stuck by you This fact is really too bad.

"Miss, have you seen it before? The impatient, disgusted, disgusted eyes that don't even want to say anything to you, and wish you would disappear. You can't see the sensitivity of a woman's mind from his attitude." I have any value, and my self-esteem has been severely hurt, and it is understandable to hate this kind of unequal payment in a fit of anger."

"Can you believe my experience now?"

I spoke here in one breath and stopped.

No one else was talking on the roof, and they heard new footsteps from behind, but they were all quiet.

The woman by the railing was still in tears: "So what? Even if you can feel this pain, what can you do? ... I can't bear it anymore."

I sighed and said, "No, it's not the same pain. What I just said is just the beginning of my tragic love."

"I managed to get the chance to approach him, tried my best to show my affection to him, but I couldn't get a smile from him.

"His smile can be given to his colleagues, to his partner, to his subordinates, to his friends.

"... but alone did not give it to me.

"He called me more than once that I was like a dog, that I had no opinion and would only circle around him - which was indeed the case.

"Once I almost died in an accident, was seriously injured and was hospitalized in a critical condition, but still couldn't get his active care.

"Later, he accepted a new junior as his subordinate, and gave him the qualification that I couldn't ask for. He spent all his energy to teach that junior himself, and even used me as a sharpening stone of that person's ability.

"He took my worth out of me regardless of my mood, and he didn't think there was anything inappropriate. Although I felt wronged, I still cooperated with him fully."

"What does such a person like him to do?!"

The woman couldn't help it, and turned to me angrily.

Looks like half the battle is done.

I smiled and didn't answer her questions, and continued: "Some things happened later, and his ideas differed from the leader's, so he chose to leave—leaving without any worries and freedom. And severed I was able to find all his contact information, and he was gone for two years."

This sudden turning point made the woman stunned for a moment and forgot to cry.

"It sounds like it's turned into a suspense drama, but it's actually my tragic love story.

"Because I still love him deeply.

"When he just left, I was just like you. I couldn't bear the pain of loss. I felt that life had lost its meaning and wanted to die. After all, it was a full seven years of obsession, three years more than you."

I narrated in a calm tone, "What's even more tragic is that when he left, he knew that I would seek death for this—but he didn't care. Of course, I was rescued in the end, otherwise I wouldn't be standing here now."

woman:"……"

Someone whispered from behind: "This is too miserable! This boy's sweetheart is just playing with him!"

"It's so pitiful..."

"A tragic love story indeed."

……

I didn't care about the comments behind me, and continued: "I guess, you didn't tell your ex about your suicide on this high platform, because if he knew, he would definitely stop you. You and him have been in love for four years, even if you broke up , at least he is an acquaintance, so he doesn't care about your life or death like my husband doesn't care about my life or death, does he?"

The woman looked shocked, thoughtful.

I continued to flicker: "...So, even if you broke up, he still cherishes your life, and this treasure is even more than you cherish yourself. It is enough to have such a relationship between people, why bother to put your own Placing value and meaning entirely on another person, trampling self-esteem into the mud?"

"Your courage to sit on a high platform is beyond the reach of many people. You are such a brave woman, how can you say that you are terrible?"

Speaking of the latter, this logic made me wonder if I had been drinking.

Heizi and the simple and honest man cast admiring glances at me.

... Forget it, they didn't seem to notice anything wrong, so I just need to keep my expression high and deep to scare people off.

woman:"……"

I changed the subject and lowered my voice: "Compared to you, I am the one who will not stop losses at all. My husband has been away for two full years, and he has never liked me. I have nothing, and I can't forget it. This way It’s better to let go of a meaningless life that sucks.”

I maintained a sad look, looked at the void and stepped forward, then nimbly climbed over the railing and straddled up, approaching the woman while she was not paying attention.

This time I was also half-hanging in the air.

There was about an arm's length between me and the woman. Before she could react, there were bursts of nervous breathing sounds from behind.

I am very familiar with Mr. Dazai's expression every time he begs to die, and I have imitated it to the point of perfection.

I slowly smiled, then let go of the hand holding the railing, and reached out to the woman: "Come on, brave lady, I won't persuade you anymore. Let us leave the dream of this rusty world together. "

The high-altitude wind blew my hair, and the soft hair brushed my cheeks.

I don't know what kind of expression I made, but the effect is beyond imagination.

The moment I grabbed the woman's arm, she suddenly struggled violently: "Don't! Don't pull me——I don't want to die!!!"

……

Therefore, between life and death, people's minds can easily change from one extreme to another.

There is only one person in the world who has the same attitude towards life and death as Mr. Dazai.

At this moment, I suddenly felt a little missing.

I haven't had an in-depth conversation about life and death with Mr. Dazai, and the only communication I had was not a pleasant memory.

If the object of my persuasion is Mr. Dazai, can I change his mind like this?

Or was he unable to stick to his own ideas in front of him, instead being pulled into the abyss of death by him?

No matter what the result is, if you can see Mr. Dazai again one day, let's try it.

If I could see him again.

All thoughts flashed by.

On the railing, the woman was grabbed by my arm, thinking that I was going to drag her to death, so I wriggled desperately to the inside of the platform.

However, I just grabbed her arm and didn't exert force on her.As soon as the woman struggled, her body lost her balance and fell outwards.

"Ah ah ah ah ah--"

she cried.

I quickly leaned forward, and my other hand also left the railing. I wrapped my palms around her waist and dragged her in, pushing her to the ground on the roof of the building with my own waist strength.

The woman realized what I was doing, and looked at me with disbelief.

At the same time, according to the law of physics that the action of force is reciprocal, when the woman fell into the railing, my body was completely suspended in the air and slid to the outside of the tall building.

Amidst the chaotic noise on the roof platform, I clearly heard Heizi Tetsuya's almost horrified cry:

"Takeshita-kun!!!—"