Two or three things about having a crush on Mr. Dazai

Gide promises Oda "I'll make you understand me" before getting into a truck with his men and leaving.

I said to Oda, "I'm leaving too."

Oda asked, "Where are you going?"

Go and continue to follow Gide.

However, mission information cannot be disclosed, so I said, "No comment."

Oda stopped asking and waved me goodbye.

I launched the void, and followed the MIMIC truck with the speed of an arrow from the string—the soul body has no weight, and theoretically, no matter how fast the speed is, it can be achieved.

After meeting with Oda, Gide stopped all attacks launched by MIMIC against Hong Kong gangsters.

He began to collect information related to Oda.

I took the opportunity to report all this to Mori Ogai.

Then there was a message in my communicator: "Takeshita-san, you can come back. When you finish the last thing, your mission will be over."

This matter is to secretly hand over a document to MIMIC.

Mori Ogai emphasized: "Come back immediately after the document is delivered."

This order is as strange as "Assassinate Gide, if the assassination is unsuccessful, just hand over the documents to him".

The leader's orders must be absolutely obeyed. I received many strange orders, so I didn't think too much about them.

I pinched the leather bag, it was very thin.However, the importance of documents cannot be measured by thickness.

The mission went well. After I returned to Hong Kong and returned to my command, Mori Ogai said, "Please stay in your office and don't go out casually."

"Is this an order?" I asked.

"Yes." Mori Ogai replied with a smile, "It's been hard these days, Takeshita-kun can take a good rest."

Today in Yokohama is cloudless and sunny.

I was put under house arrest by Mori Ogai in my office, and there were two men in black holding automatic rifles outside the door.

Granted, Mori Ogai said it was for me to "take a good rest," but the order to limit my movement was essentially house arrest.

This order was completely harmless to me, but I suddenly felt uneasy.

I decided to use "Nothingness" to find Dazai or Oda to see the current situation.

Yes, due to the particularity of my abilities, Mori Ogai's people couldn't stop me at all.And once I enter the "nothingness", no one knows where I am, and if I say that I have nothing to do in the room and exercise my supernatural ability, they can't say anything.

The only thing to note is that "violating orders" must never be detected.Mori Ogai wants me to be in the office, so I can't show up in other places, and I have to keep myself dematerialized.

Otherwise, I will violate the order of the leader and betray the organization, and I will not be able to establish myself in the port mafia.

I thought it would be an easy thing to do.

Before I met Oda.

I came to the familiar western food restaurant. It was daytime, but it was unusually quiet here.

Unusual indeed - the boss died.

The store was in a mess, the boss died inside the bar with a spoon in his hand, and was shot three times in the chest.

There was a map nailed to the bar with a dagger, and I immediately recognized the crossed place as MIMIC's current base.

The curry rice made by the owner of this western food restaurant is very suitable for Oda and I. It is a pity that we will not be able to eat his rice in the future.

I walked through the ceiling to the second floor and floated into the dormitory that the boss provided for the five orphans Oda adopted.

No one is empty.

Was it transferred to another place?Or is it the same as the boss, dead?

Anyway, something must have happened.

"Da da da……"

It was footsteps, someone went up to the second floor.

A man with brown-red hair and a camel-colored windbreaker walked up slowly, his eyes filled with a terrifying silence.

I've never seen him look like this.

I even thought I saw Gide's silver-gray despairing eyes.

"What's the matter, Oda-san?"

I want to ask this.

but I can not.

Takeshita Akira is staying in the office of the Hong Kong Black Headquarters Building, and he cannot appear in other places.That was an order from the leader.

Oda took out a set of gunpowder weapons, bulletproof vests, holsters, pistols, magazines, grenades, bulletproof jackets, and equipped them one by one.

I quietly watched him make meticulous preparations before the battle, his movements were skillful and soulless.

"Good night, Kosuke."

After checking the weapon, Oda took out a cigarette and lit it in the room, said.

I never saw him smoking, let alone in the kids' room.

bad feeling.

"Good night, Katsumi. Good night, Yu. Good night, Shinji. Good night, Saku."

"Just sleep well in a quiet place, and I will avenge you."

The premonition came true.

They are all dead.

Died at the hands of MIMIC's people.

I often confuse the names of those five children, but the only one who matches the name and person is Sakile—the girl with two shofar braids who smiles sweetly at me.

Suddenly her childish voice sounded in her ear:

"...Little brother!"

She should be four years old this year, right?

Oda went downstairs and walked outside over the corpse of the owner of the western restaurant.

"Mr. Oda..."

I called him, and the voice disappeared into nothingness, so I couldn't even hear myself.

"Odasaku!"

Mr. Dazai stopped Oda outside the western restaurant.

"It's Dazai, what's wrong?"

Dazai said quickly, "Odasaku, I know what you're thinking, but don't do that. Even if you do—"

Oda's voice was as void as his gaze: "Even if I do, can't the children come back?"

"About MIMIC, there must be something behind—"

"What?" Oda interrupted Dazai, "There is nothing, Dazai. Everything is over."

"Odasaku, I hope you don't mind my using such a strange term." Dazai said in a low voice, "Let's rely on others, and hope that something good will happen later, it will definitely happen...Odasaku, don't go."

It was the first time I heard Mr. Dazai use such a pleading tone.

He also spoke from my heart.

Oda took revenge with the heart of death, how could he come back alive.

Dazai said: "Odasaku, do you know why I joined Mafia? Because I was expecting something to happen. People here put violence, death, instinct and desire naked on the surface, here You can see the essence of human beings more closely. This way..."

"I can find a reason to live."

In order to persuade Oda to give up revenge, Mr. Dazai took the initiative to tell Oda his heart.

A person like Mr. Dazai actually said to another person, go on living and find a reason to live.

Unbelievable.

If the opponent is Oda, it is not unimaginable.

However, Oda said: "My previous wish was to be a novelist. I thought killing someone would disqualify me, so I never killed another person."

"But, that's over too. I've lost that qualification. I have only one wish now."

Turn around after speaking.

Dazai-san wanted to grab Oda's shoulder, but it was in vain. His bandaged palm only held a handful of air, and fell down dejectedly.

Seeing his lost look, I subconsciously stopped in front of Oda, opened my arms, and blocked Oda's way.

He didn't see me.

The armed brown-red haired man walked straight through me, walking away on his vengeance.

The moment my body overlapped with Oda Sakunosuke, my heart trembled violently. I had a strong desire to emerge from nothingness, and I wanted to hold Oda Sakunosuke and say to him: "Mr. Oda, stay here!" Come down!"

I can't tell whether such a strong impulse... is for Mr. Dazai, or for whom.

I still didn't show up in the end.

I looked at Dazai in nothingness, and Dazai looked at Oda's back through me.

Like looking at me.

I saw powerlessness in Mr. Dazai's eyes.

Dazai's footsteps were so fast that he could fly, he jumped over the guards and broke into the office on the top floor of Gang Hei.

I floated behind him all the way, and when I saw Mori Ogai, I became very nervous and floated further away from Dazai.

Dazai got straight to the point: "Boss, I want to form a team of cadre-level superhumans to attack the MIMIC headquarters and rescue Odasaku."

"I'm afraid Oda-kun doesn't want to be rescued by anyone, right?" Mori Ogai asked Dazai speechlessly.

He pulled out an envelope: "The leader is the apex of the organization and also the slave of the organization. For the prosperity and perpetuity of the organization, no matter how cruel the act is, he must do it."

"Do you understand what I mean?"

What was contained in that envelope was just a thin piece of paper, with the words "Permit to operate with supernatural powers" written on it.

I do not understand.

Why is Mori Ogai unwilling to send troops?Could it be that he wants Oda Sakunosuke to kill all MIMICs by himself?

But Dazai understood.

He said in a voice without emotional fluctuations:

"For that precious license to open the business, leader, you started planning a few years ago. You sent Ango and Takeshita to contact MIMIC respectively, and after confirming its potential, secretly helped it escape from Europe and smuggled to Japan, forming Mafia, MIMIC , the government's supernatural powers and the spy department's tripartite confrontation."

Dazai's words made me suddenly understand.

Mori Ou diplomacy gave me the casual assassination mission of Gide, which turned out to be a temptation.The documents I passed on were information on smuggling in cooperation, and MIMIC was originally lured by Mori Ogai on purpose.

Dazai: "You knew from the beginning that Ango was an undercover agent of the government, and you used Ango's mouth to pass the information on MIMIC to the Supernatural Secret Service. The Supernatural Secret Service will not allow such a criminal organization to operate in Japan, but if it matches MIMIC, it will definitely lose It's terrible, they don't want to do it themselves.

"So you dragged the Ability Secret Service Section to the negotiating table and made a deal with it. Mafia was responsible for destroying MIMIC. The reward you got for this was the government's approval of Mafia's illegal activities—the ability to operate a license."

Let Ango Sakaguchi go undercover, using his identity as a triple agent to deliver the threat of MIMIC to the government.

Mr. Dazai has a terrible overall view. Based on his understanding of Mori Ogai, he made a completely correct guess using limited information.

Dazai: "In order to make Odasaku, the only psychic who can compete with MIMIC commander, you take the initiative to reveal to MIMIC the place where he raised his orphans. Only you know that I transferred the children's location information—that is I chose the place myself. You killed the children."

...you killed the children.

I was shocked suddenly.

The document that Mori Ogai asked me to deliver, the document that was delivered after Oda and Gide met, and the document that was sent back immediately without delay...

It is information about Oda Sakunosuke raising children.

With Dazai's calm narration, the fog was lifted layer by layer, and the whole picture of the matter was finally clearly displayed in front of his eyes.

The purpose of Mori Ogai, the purpose of Gide and MIMIC, the purpose of the Supernatural Secret Service Division where Ango Sakaguchi works, and the purpose of Oda Sakunosuke surround each other and form a big bureau.The center of the chessboard is the license to open a business with abilities that is extremely valuable to Hong Kong gangsters.

Some people see it through, some people can't see it through, and some people don't need to see it through.

I became one of the unwitting pushers.

"You killed the children."

My heart is as cold as being poured by a basin of snow in the cold winter.

Ogai Mori praised: "It's wonderful. I don't have anything to correct. All I want to ask is one question. What's wrong with what I did? Oda-kun's behavior has been a great contribution to the organization. It has always been me and Mafia. Why are you so angry when you made a major contribution?"

Dazai was silent.

For the organization, Mori Ogai did nothing wrong.

But Sakunosuke Oda is a friend of Mr. Dazai.

Dazai turned and walked towards the office door.

Mori Ogai's subordinates pointed their automatic rifles at him, "click", "click", the bullets were loaded, and the atmosphere was tense.

Dazai didn't care, and walked out step by step.

My dagger is out of its sheath.

If any of the rifles here are fired at Mr. Dazai, I will definitely have Mori Ogai blood stain the office of the Hong Kong gangster chief.

Between Mr. Dazai and everything else, I never had to hesitate.

However, Mori Ogai, who stopped Dazai just now, just smiled and watched Dazai's leaving back.

Until Dazai walked out of the office, he did not give the order to snipe.

I retracted my dagger.

Mori Ogai would not know that the blade of the Hong Kong black ghost he relied on was only a stone's throw away from his neck.

At that moment, with the departure of Mr. Dazai, the distance between me and the leader seemed infinitely widened.

Although, we have never been close.

run.

Faster.

Dazai raced wildly on the mountain road, from Ganghei to the place left by MIMIC for Oda.

And I drove the fastest speed, and quickly rushed to the destination - MIMIC's headquarters, an abandoned bungalow.

There are many dead bodies of MIMIC soldiers on the road, and I have no doubt that Oda took care of them all by himself.

I passed through the ceiling with the chandelier and saw Oda and Gide fighting.

It's the first time I've seen such a personal gunfight. These two terrifying men are holding double guns, and every dodge and attack is the ultimate in small rhythms.

No one can intervene in such a battle. Their fighting movements can only be described as smooth and smooth, like a coordinated pas de deux.

They are so much alike.

The same powerful and sharp skills, the same supernatural powers, the same lifeless eyes, and the same all-out effort to kill the opponent.

I guess Oda already understood Gide.

Their injuries are getting worse and worse, but their fighting movements are not slow.At a certain point, the two of them point their pistols at each other and suddenly remain motionless.

I broke into them while maintaining nothingness, and was suddenly sucked into another world.

"I was once a hero."

Gide's voice caught my attention.

They didn't seem surprised by the world's presence, and didn't respond to me—the nothingness was still in effect.

Gide said: "I used to be a soldier. My destiny was to defend my country and fight for my country and people. But in a trick by a senior official, my troops had to become war criminals. We changed into the enemy's uniform , pick up the enemy's pistol, kill fellow citizens, and save their lives."

That pistol is the "Grey Ghost".

"We have since lost our country and our honor. We have become ghosts that roam the battlefield. But we are soldiers, and we can only die in battle as soldiers."

Oda chatted with him like old friends.

Oda asked calmly, "Have you ever thought about changing the way you live?"

Gide smiled and said, "It's possible, if the time goes back to before I chose the path of being a soldier."

They shot at each other.

I watched as two bullets slipped out of the barrels of the two, moving slowly in the air.

During the infinitely stretched time, I heard Oda say, "I have one regret, I didn't say goodbye to my friends and family."

"There is a man who thinks the world is boring and has been waiting to die, but he and I are ordinary friends in the world of the mafia."

"Are you pursuing death like me?"

"It's not the same. He's just too smart. His world is farther away than ours. There's nothing there but nothingness. Those who dare to step into it must have boundless courage."

"What about family? I didn't know you had family."

"Yes, family. That is a particularly sensitive and dull child. Although he is powerful, he can't help but take care of him. He is infatuated with Dazai, but he can only recognize his bravery after drinking. Maybe in the future he can into that world."

My eyes widened in disbelief.

Sensitive and dull, powerful, and infatuated with Dazai, is he talking about me?

But Oda never told me that my relationship with him is...

--family?

"Is that the killer boy also known as 'Ghost'?" Gide asked.

"Yes." Oda replied.

"Then wish him success."

I somehow got Gide's blessing.

The bullets entered their chests and passed through them.

Gide smiled at Oda and said, "Sakunosuke, your bullets are still so wonderful until the end. I'm going to see my subordinates, and say hello to the children for me."

André Gide came to die in battle, and got his wish.

The world disappeared and I was ejected.

Gide and Oda fell backwards at the same time.

"Odasaku!"

Dazai still caught up.He rushed in and knelt down beside Oda.

Before dying, Oda said to Dazai: "You can't find a reason to live in this world of violence and bloodshed.

"Go to the side that saves people.

"If both sides are the same, be a good person. Save the weak and protect the orphans. Righteousness and evil may not make much difference to you...but this way, it will be better.

"Also, give Qiu some more time. He hasn't grown up yet. Everyone has had ignorant youth, right?"

Dazai: "...I understand."

Oda's voice was getting lower and lower, but he seemed to have some understanding: "People don't realize until they are about to die that they are living to save themselves...it's true..."

"I haven't given him the peace talisman for next year."

"I really want to eat curry."

Oda tremblingly took out a cigarette from his jacket, put it in his mouth, and Dazai lit the tobacco for him.

Oda took a breath in satisfaction, closed his eyes, and a relieved smile appeared on his lips.

The cigarette fell to the ground, and a wisp of green smoke curled up.

Quietly, something passes.

……

Dazai silently knelt beside Oda, bowing his head.Most of his face was covered by bangs and bandages, so he couldn't see clearly.

I knelt on the ground, blankly on the other side of Oda Sakunosuke.

I don't know when he knelt, maybe it was when Dazai knelt down.

When I heard Oda say "Give Shu a little more time" and "Yes, family", my breath seemed to be caught by something.

I dare not breathe hard, dare not blink my eyes.

It seems that by doing so, something very important will be missed.

Is that what the family is like?

Did he treat me like family?

like……

That's it.

……

And in the end, the only family I had was lost the moment I realized it existed.

- I have one regret that I didn't say goodbye to my friends and family.

——What about the family?I didn't know you had family.

——Yes, family.

——Is that the killer boy who is also called 'Ghost'?

--Yes.

……

I suddenly realized,

Oda Sakunosuke died.

The Oda Sakunosuke who made me drink more milk.

Is gone.

I held my breath and looked at Oda's still smiling face.During the intervals of my hard thinking, thousands of ants crawled up to my heart, gnawed carefully, and screamed ferociously while chewing:

Didn't it say that "when a person is born, he should be separated every time"?

Didn't you say it yourself?

Then why are you doing this now...

Unacceptable.

Dazai stood up.

My eyes moved up with his movements, but many fragments kept flashing in my mind.

Since then,

No one will push me a cold drink while eating super spicy curry rice;

No one will carry me home and take care of me after I'm drunk;

No one will give me medicine in a safe way;

No one will personally make me a safe talisman every year;

……

There will be no more.

Mr. Dazai and I went through the same thing again.

I can't be happy.

I knelt beside Oda's body and looked up at the expressionless Dazai.

Mr. Dazai, what are you thinking?

My heart hurts.

The pain is so painful that I want to take out my heart and step on my feet, and I have to grind my forefoot repeatedly to let it roll back and forth in the muddy soil.

Mr. Dazai, if you feel the same pain, then I will feel double the pain.

Mr. Dazai, I thought that there would be nothing else that would hurt me so much except that you made me restrain my love for you.

but……

but.

But Oda Sakunosuke died.

I once suspected that I was a survival machine that only lived for Osamu Dazai.

I also thought that I approached Sakunosuke Oda only because of Mr. Dazai.

But now I...why...

how……

……

Dazai-san looks like he's crying.

What about me?