please don't tell him

The third year of university, the fourth year of Xu Wei's departure.

After careful consideration, Xu Chenyuan felt that he really didn’t want to go through another painful exam, so he resolutely gave up the postgraduate entrance examination and decided to start a business. He led a group of fledgling students from the Department of Economics and Computer Science to prepare to start a company. .

Although Xu Chenyuan has learned well in his three years of university studies, it is one thing to learn this thing, and another thing to actually practice it.Funding, the market, and networking are all ambiguous things taught in schools. Xu Chenyuan was a little timid when he started to do it. Behind him is a whole team. At first, he can make a little loss, but he can’t lose everything.

So I had no choice but to look for help to my father, whom I hadn't seen for a long time. He took a train for more than ten hours to return to his hometown, just to learn from his father.

Anyway, his father was well-off back then, so he should be worthy of imparting experience to a few students.

Ever since his parents divorced, Xu Chenyuan has never returned to his hometown. It has been three years, and the sea has changed. Now there have been earth-shaking changes. Many high-rise buildings and viaducts have been built, and even the construction of the subway has begun. It was completely different from the small border town in my memory, Xu Chenyuan followed the navigation for a long time before finding where his father lived.

Over there is a bungalow area, years and wind and sand have left deep traces in this area of ​​the northwest of the motherland, a few stray dogs on the side of the road dozed off in the warm winter sun, no one disturbed them, it was just a matter of course. There is a peaceful breath that has been quiet for some years.

No wonder Xu Hai chose to live here.

Xu Chenyuan found his father's house. It had a low courtyard wall and the door was unlocked, but there was a black-backed wolfhound squatting at the door. Seeing Xu Chenyuan cowering in a corner, he stood up and barked at him.

"Heizi, don't call!"

A man's deep local accent came from the room, and Xu Chenyuan suddenly felt nostalgic.

Until he came out and saw the young man standing at the door, he was stunned.

Xu Chenyuan also tugged on the strap on his backpack, feeling a little indescribably awkward.

"Son..." His father was old and half of his hair was gray. Although he still looked so energetic, Xu Chen Yuan felt his throat tighten, and even his eye sockets felt a little sore.

As long as Xu Wei has been gone, he hasn't contacted his father for a long time.

"Dad." He also said softly.

At a loss, Xu Hai quickly lowered his head and wiped away his tears, and said with a smile, "Why don't you say hello when you come here, hurry up, come in quickly, it's cold outside."

Xu Wei walked in and saw a shelf by the balcony with a few potted flowers on it, which didn't grow very well. It seemed that his father was not good at taking care of these delicate things.

There were also some old books, some of which Xu Chen Yuan had seen at home, and some that seemed to be newly added after he came here. Among those things, there was a pair of chess with a tattered cardboard box.

Xu Chenyuan walked over and picked up the chess box lightly. The days of playing chess with his father when he was a child came to mind. He didn't speak, and finally put it back.

Xu Hai came over with a plate of tea and fruit, and beckoned Xu Chenyuan to come and eat.The radiators in the northwest side of the house are often extremely hot. After making a wish after staying for a while, I feel sweaty, so I take off the outer cotton jacket and put it neatly on the corner of the sofa.

Xu Hai looked at him, a little cautious, and said, "I haven't seen you for a few years, but I've grown so big, have I grown?"

Xu Chenyuan smiled slightly and said, "You also know that you haven't seen my son for several years?"

A reproachful one-liner made Xu Hai relax a little, and he let go of his tightly clenched hands on his knees, and said, "Yes, have you all graduated from college now?"

Xu Chenyuan shook his head and said, "Graduate next year, and I'm still an intern."

"oh oh……"

Xu Chenyuan looked around, the room was not messy, but it was a place where a man lived alone, things were arranged in a disorderly way, if his mother was there, he would have to chatter about it for a long time For example, the dust on the bookshelves should be dusted more frequently, and the base of the walls should not be exposed to water or they will turn yellow. Usually, the curtains of the French windows should be tightly tied with cloth strips.

"How... how are you doing in school?" Xu Hai asked.

Xu Chenyuan replied: "I will study economics and management at University A, and I won't take the postgraduate entrance examination. I will directly receive a degree certificate next year."

Hearing the name of the university, Xu Hai was slightly surprised, and then a gratified smile appeared on his face: "I just said that my son is definitely not bad."

Xu Chenyuan also smiled: "In the third year of high school, there was nothing to worry about, except for studying, there was nothing to do."

His words were unintentional, but in Xu Hai's ears, he was expressing his various dissatisfaction with his previous family life, so he blamed himself and said, "Before, Dad was sorry for you, I..."

Xu Chenyuan interrupted him: "It's nothing, it's good for you to separate, but it doesn't really affect me much."

This sentence is a bit heartless, but it is true. Since he grew up in a noisy environment, he also feels that it is good to be quiet and have no one to toss about. He really doesn't need anyone to apologize to him.

Xu Hai smiled bitterly: "I still owe you for not being able to give you a happy family until you grow up."

"No, please don't say that." Xu Chenyuan said: "This sentence sounds too stressful. Although you have done something wrong, I don't think you will regret being separated from my mother."

"Hmm...yes. How is college life? Have you talked to anyone yet?" Xu Hai asked again.

"I didn't talk about it. I have someone in my heart. I have been waiting for him for several years. I want to wait and see." Xu Chenyuan said without any concealment. Although he is not in a hurry to come out with his family now, he still has to let them have A psychological preparation, at least knowing that you have loved someone for many years, not just for a while.

Xu Hai smiled again: "Very good, very good, my son is affectionate."

"Ah."

The relationship between father and son is very embarrassing. It's not like a mother-son relationship, and it can't be compared with the relationship between a girl and her family. What's more, it has undergone major changes, and now it has been many years since I haven't seen each other. I really don't know what to do. What can I say.

"Then," Xu Chen Yuan spoke first: "How are you doing?"

Xu Hai waved his hand and said indifferently: "Hey, that's it. I found a job, the salary is not high, and I can't starve to death. I sit with my friends and drink soju every day. What can I do?"

It sounds like this kind of life is not worth mentioning, but Xu Chenyuan thinks that his father should be living happily.

Xu Chenyuan asked again: "Is your body okay?"

"It's fine, don't worry, take good care of your mother."

Xu Chenyuan nodded, knowing that he had turned eighteen corners before finally mentioning his mother on his own initiative, so he said a few more words: "She is probably too old to move around now, how many times can I return home?" Give me a good face, and I opened a small shop downstairs, and I am very busy."

"That's good, that's good..." Xu Hai lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking.

Is it thinking that I was sorry for her in the end, and I was repenting, or was I thinking of the family that was happy for a short time before, at least when Xu Chen Yuan was born?

Seeing that the reminiscence and lyrical words were all finished, Xu Chenyuan ran back to the topic, took out a folder from his bag, put it on the table, and said, "This time, there is one more thing. I am going to start a company."

Xu Hai showed a slightly surprised expression.

I talked with my father all afternoon, and when it was time for dinner, Xu Hai took him to a nearby restaurant for dinner. After returning home, Xu Chenyuan squatted at the door of the house to tease the black-backed dog.Since he was a child, he wanted to raise a large dog at home, but Chen Liping has always refused to agree.Once Xu Hai took a puppy back for him, and was scolded by Chen Liping all night. He thought the dog was dirty, so he had no choice but to give the dog away two days later under Xiao Xu Chen Yuan's persevering eyes. up.

In fact, when it comes to love, Xu Hai pampers and pampers him more, whether it is to make up for the little bit of guilt that he is too busy to grow up with his son, or because of the already strong fatherly love.

Xu Chenyuan stayed in his hometown for another day, and walked away. The next day, he packed his things and left at dawn. He didn't wake Xu Hai up, and didn't want him to see him off. It's winter, and his father is old after all.

It was because of another farewell that Xu Chenyuan didn't know what expression he should put on.

Even though he is already in his 20s, his fear of parting still cannot dissipate, and he still does the childish and cowardly thing of leaving without saying goodbye.

With the beginning this time, the next time I come here, I can change the name to be more reasonable. It seems that they have to prove that the relationship between their father and son is not as light as water, so that they are qualified to talk about concern and longing.

Xu Chenyuan looked at the mountains, rivers and lakes retreating along the road, and thought to himself, finally all grievances are settled.

He was finally able to throw off all the packages, take a step forward, and look forward to a better future ahead.