please don't tell him

"Fang... what? That man is your teacher's boyfriend?" Xu Chenyuan pushed the bicycle with one hand, and walked along the road holding Xu Wei with the other. Xu Wei was holding a roasted sweet potato in his hand, and was eating it non-stop.

Xu Chenyuan probably had a microscope in his eyes, and he still felt brooding about Song Xi's expression just now, it was an expression almost ashamed because the lie was exposed.

"Yes... yes, they have been together for seven years, and their relationship has always been very good. That year, Teacher Song followed him to other places!"

Xu Wei concentrated on the sweet potato in his hand, but there was a hint of envy in his words.

As soon as he mentioned Song Xi, there were countless things to say. It was the first time Xu Chenyuan saw him value someone so much.Xu Wei said that he has no older brother, Song Xi is not much older than him, and treats him very well, gentle and tolerant, just like his own brother.

When Song Xi was his tutor, what Xu Wei looked forward to most every day was 08:30 in the evening. Like a child looking forward to the children's program every night, he waited anxiously for his little teacher Song to come, and waited for him to test his vocabulary , and then give him a small cake as a reward.

"Later when he resigned, I cried." Xu Wei rubbed his nose embarrassedly.

It's rare that Xu Wei can talk so much along the way, most of them are the stories of Song Xi and Fang Yun, how they met, how they fell in love, and how they were together for so many years, all kinds of sweet stories during the period, and even a few The few quarrels were all poured out by Xu Wei as a storyteller.

Xu Chenyuan said helplessly: "Song Xi really tells you everything."

Xu Wei curled his lips and said, "Mr. Song is the one who loves me, and I asked him to ask about it! I finish my homework earlier, so I can listen to him tell me stories!"

"At that time, I just realized that my own orientation was different from others. At that time, I was very scared. It was Mr. Song... who told me that even the feelings that are not in the world can be happy, so I looked forward to the future. "

In fact, Xu Chenyuan understands his feelings. His initial fantasies about love should come from Song Xi and Fang Yun. The kind of inseparable and inseparable relationship seems to have become his belief. This kind of longing for life, if one day the fantasy is broken, he doesn't know if he will...

"Xiaowei," Xu Chenyuan asked tentatively, "Then...if one day your Teacher Song and that Fang...something, break up..."

"No!" Before he could finish asking, Xu Wei interrupted: "They have such a good relationship, Mr. Song likes Uncle Fang very much, I can tell that Uncle Fang is also very kind to Mr. Song !"

Xu Chen wished to see that he was so determined, so he didn't say any more.

"Well, if you are so optimistic about them, you will be able to grow old together."

If one day, his children are required to understand all kinds of misery in the world, then he hopes that day will come later.

But it doesn't matter, with him around, the sky won't really fall.

Even when the sky fell, he was there to support him.

It's getting colder and colder, there was still some sunlight to keep warm just now, now the sky is cloudy again, the cold wind is blowing, Xu Wei shrank his neck and said, "I feel like today is the coldest day of the year. "

After eating lunch outside, Xu Chenyuan was afraid that Xu Wei would catch a cold, so he didn't dare to let him stay outside, so he sent him home, and went home by himself, and made an appointment to pick him up the next day go to school.

Taking advantage of no one around, Xu Wei hooked Xu Chenyuan's neck and kissed him on the side of the cheek, and said with a smile, "I'm so happy! Now Teacher Song is going to teach our class in No. [-] Middle School, and you are here too. I’m already looking forward to the start of school!”

Children are so easily satisfied, Xu Chenyuan raised his hand to rub his hair, and said dotingly: "Well, so, you have to study hard."

"Well! Got it, Brother Yuan!"

After returning home, Xu Chenyuan flipped through his textbooks. He was about to enter the third year of high school. The second semester of senior high school was actually very short, and the class hours of the second middle school were very tight. At the end of the semester, he might start general review. Xu Chenyuan After a year and a half of high school life in a muddle, now I suddenly feel that I should work harder.

In the past, I was alone and had nothing to worry about. I always felt that one person was full and the whole family was not hungry, and there was even a sense of depravity of deliberately not working hard, but now he has Xu Wei, and he wants to have a future with Xu Wei, so he should also become stronger , has enough ability to protect Xu Wei and the relationship between the two.

This road will definitely be full of thorns and mud in the future, but Xu Wei's love is the sword in his hand, and he has to kill the demons and monsters who are about to stand in the way for him.

Love makes a person have a soft underbelly, and partiality makes a person have armor.

Xu Chenyuan read the book all afternoon, and at dinner time, Ms. Chen Liping finally came back from playing mahjong, cursing.

Xu Chenyuan was annoyed when he saw her, probably because he was playing cards and got into an argument with someone. Xu Chenyuan looked in the room and found that there was no water, so he had no choice but to go out and pour water, so that he could stay the whole night They all stay in their own rooms and don't have to go see their mother.

As soon as I went out, I heard Chen Liping on the phone, arguing with the person on the other end of the phone: "Aren't you coming back? Okay, I don't think you have this home anymore, so don't come back in the future!"

"I make trouble for no reason? You say I make trouble for no reason? Are you making money outside? Xu Hai, I don't even want to provoke you. How much money can you earn now? How much debt do you owe behind your ass? Why don't you ask my dad to help you pay for it?" Yes! Then give me back the money!"

"Since Xu Chenyuan went to high school, have you cared about your son for a day? What has he become now, huh? I don't want to say that he is my son when I go out. I can't afford to lose this man!"

When Xu Chenyuan, who was boiling water in the kitchen, heard this, he sneered, well, it was him again.

"What's wrong with Xu Chenyuan? What's wrong with you? I don't know much about it. I bow my head and hold a mobile phone every day to be closer than my mother. When I can't say a few words to my mother, I talk back. He is also your son. Have you ever cared about him? ?”

"I raise your son at home for you every day, take care of your parents, sweep the floor and clean the table and cook from the moment I wake up in the morning. Do you think I'm a nanny? Do you still have to say that every day?"

Xu Chenyuan took a sip of water indifferently, he was really used to it, his mother and his father had been arguing for so many years, and the back and forth was just such a few words, without changing a few words or inventing new tricks.

After the water was poured, Xu Chenyuan was about to go back to the house, but she caught up with Ms. Chen and just hung up the phone, and directly transferred her anger to Xu Chenyuan.

"Why are you going?"

Xu Chenyuan stopped and said, "Go back to the house."

Ms. Chen got angry when she saw his attitude, and pointed at Xu Chenyuan and began to scold: "I gave birth to you and I gave birth to an enemy, didn't I? This is the attitude of you and your mother?! Ah?! See me back I don't even have a word, and I just want to eat, drink and ask for money when I open my mouth, I might as well have a dog, who will wag its tail when I come home!"

Xu Chen Yuanqi's chest heaved violently. He tried his best to suppress his anger, turned around, and said, "If you want to lose your temper, please go out and turn left and go to the gym to play sandbags. Don't throw fire on me. I have nothing to do to you." .”

This is like completely igniting the gunpowder keg at home. Ms. Chen dropped the bag in her hand, pointed at Xu Chenyuan and yelled: "You have nothing to do to me? Look at you, ah?! How old are you, once you go home Can’t you see the dirty things on the ground? Can’t move two fingers to wipe them? In addition to playing with mobile phones and computers, it’s fine if you don’t study, do you still think this is your home?!”

"Either study better, or take care of your family. You say you are so good every day, what else do you have to brag about?! Last semester's final exam passed that virtue, go out and mention yourself to the neighbors. Don't you feel ashamed?"

"You know how to play with a mobile phone all day long, are you closer than your mother?!"

The anger in Xu Chenyuan's chest completely turned into a prairie fire, but he really didn't want to stand here and quarrel with Ms. Chen, so he put the water glass on the table heavily, and said indifferently: "Who is the enemy of whose? I let you put Have I been born? You brought me to live this fucking life without my consent, do you think I'm asking you to collect debts? Can you pay off my debts?!"

After speaking, Xu Chenyuan returned to the room and slammed the door hard.

The deafening sound of slamming the door could not cover up Ms. Chen's still extremely lethal insults outside.

Here it is again, it has been like this since she was a child, Ms. Chen's educational philosophy is to tell Xu Chenyuan that you can't do it, you can't do it anywhere, and you have nothing to boast about.

You are a useless piece of trash.

Even though the family was relatively rich later, my mother always told him that it was what they earned, their hard-earned money, what you want, you have to work hard for yourself, and you can only get those things if you make us happy. superior material life.

That's why he has no sense of belonging to his parents and this family.

To be precise, there is no place in this world where he can be recognized in his heart. The world is vast, and he never knows where he belongs.

It's not that I haven't expected it, every child will look forward to the approval of their parents, not to question and sarcasm, but to say to him sincerely: "You are good, you are good enough."

Even after listening to the dislike and insult for so many years, I thought I was used to it physically and mentally, but when those words rang out again, I still felt chilling to the bone.

He still remembers that when he was in elementary school, the elder brother of the neighbor's family wore a white shirt. That elder brother was very white, good-looking and well-behaved.When Xu Chenyuan was young, he didn't have the looks he has now. He had dark skin and a cropped head. Because he was always naughty outside, he often got bruises on his face.

I remember that when he saw that his neighbor’s elder brother looked good in a white shirt, he went home and told his mother that he wanted a white shirt to wear, but his mother said in a disgusted tone: “You are dirty every day. You always make me angry, and you still have to wear a white shirt? Are you not afraid that others will laugh at you?"

The young Xu Chenyuan didn't say a word, he understood the first half of the sentence, but couldn't understand the second half, making his mother angry, wearing a white shirt, and being laughed at by others, what is the relationship between these three things?

But the next day, he stopped the boy and beat him up as if looking for trouble.

Later, when he grew up, he never wore a white shirt again.

But he deeply remembered his mother's words, and it seemed that he suddenly realized that he didn't deserve all the good things in this world.

But Xu Wei...Xu Wei is a gift from heaven to him, he is the most beautiful person in this world, and all the good things are inferior to him.

He is his salvation, the only thing he actively fights for and grabs, no matter what others say, he must hold it firmly in his hand.