please don't tell him

After a while, Xu Wei finally got tired of crying. No matter how sad the tears were, they were temporarily out of stock. He stared stupidly at Xu Chenyuan with red eyes, and felt a little embarrassed to see that the front of his clothes was covered with his own tears and snot. , and some want to laugh.

Those sorrows subsided temporarily, Xu Wei was a little hungry.

Xu Chenyuan rubbed his hair and asked, "After crying for so long, are you hungry? Can I order a takeaway? What do you want to eat?"

Xu Wei lowered his head and clutched the hem of Xu Chenyuan's clothes, and said in a nasal voice, "All, all are fine."

It was all right to say yes, but Xu Chenyuan still took great pains to buy him hot porridge.In fact, he originally wanted to do it himself, but the rain outside was still so heavy, it was not easy for him to go out.

After the meal for the two arrived, Xu Chenyuan turned on the light in the kitchen, and the two of them sat at one end of the dining table and ate in silence.

The kitchen lamps of Xu Chenyuan’s house use warm and tender lights. The dim lights make people feel warm and safe. The lights went down for a supper.

At first, I thought that Xu Wei would not be in the mood to eat, but Xu Chenyuan was thinking about how to intimidate and lure him so that he could finish the bowl of porridge obediently, but he didn't expect Xu Chenyuan to worry about it. Bottom.

"It's so good, the children who have finished eating are the best." Xu Chenyuan teased him while tidying up the dishes.

Xu Wei blushed, and said dully, "I'm not a kid anymore."

"Aren't you a kid?" Xu Chenyuan smiled, thinking that you would cry because other kids stopped playing with you, what is a kid?

After Xu Chenyuan finished packing, Xu Wei pinched his clothes awkwardly and asked, "Well, my clothes..."

Xu Chenyuan frowned: "What?"

"D-Did you do it... I, I have to go."

Xu Chenyuan avoided the subject and asked, "Does your house have access control?"

Xu Wei shook his head and said, "No, it's just..."

"Stay with me for one night, my parents are not coming back."

"Ah???" Xu Wei's eyes widened. Although he didn't want to think about things in some strange direction, but as a gay, staying at another man's house late at night, it seems, it seems... It's still a bit over the top.

Xu Chenyuan finally lit the cigarette whose holder had been ravaged by him just now, and said, "Why, I won't do anything to you, you're back in this state now, what did you say when your mother asked?"

Xu Wei lowered his head in frustration and said, "She won't ask me."

Xu Chenyuan poured him a glass of water and put it in front of him, waiting for him to continue.

Perhaps it was because he had already cried in front of Chen Yuan just now, and he had developed an indescribable sense of dependence on this person, and those unhappy memories seemed to be just words.

"My father died of illness when I was very young. At that time, my mother had no job. In order to treat my father's illness, the house at home was sold, and the deposit was gone... I spent a lot of money, but I couldn't keep it. My father. After he left, he left a house full of holes, and my mother always ran out to do various jobs to make money. I was too young at the time, and now I basically have no memory of that period, and I don’t remember much. She changed her attitude towards me. It was just that one day, an uncle came to my house and took me and my mother into a big house. The house had two floors, many rooms, and a special room for cooking and cleaning. Servant. Oh yes, I will have a younger brother after that."

Xu Wei took a sip of water and said, "That uncle's surname is Xu, so my mother changed the name to me and asked me to call him Dad. Maybe it's because he is the second wife, and Uncle Xu is very rich. The family is very fond of him and my younger brother. She has always said that she will give Uncle Xu another child for the two of them, but after so many years, she has not succeeded, so she treats my younger brother as her own son and loves me even more. Forget about it."

Xu Chenyuan smiled mockingly, and said, "She wants to have a child, so she can stabilize her position in the Xu family."

Xu Wei showed a smile, and said calmly: "What you didn't understand when you were young, you will naturally understand when you grow up."

Xu Chenyuan was startled, he thought he knew how many times Xu Wei had experienced disappointment and sadness between the two words from understanding to understanding, and how many times he had been crying alone under the covers without anyone give him a hug.

Xu Chenyuan asked him: "Do you hate her?"

Xu Wei shook his head and said, "I don't hate it. I just miss my father was still there when I was a child, and our family of three was in that small house, and we were very happy at that time."

"But I also know that I can't go back."

I don't remember how indifferent his mother was to him, but I remember the warmth that seems to be just a dream in the depths of my memory.

Xu Wei is always like this, trying his best to love the world, but the world is not grateful to him.

That night, Xu Wei sat on the bed, and Xu Chenyuan sat on the sofa. The two of them were separated by a short distance, listening to what Xu Wei said all night.

Xu Wei didn't know that he had so many things to say in the first 16 years of his life, and Xu Chenyuan didn't know that he had so much patience to listen to him talk about those messy things.

He found that Xu Wei could even say that he secretly liked the girl with the ponytail in the front row when he was in elementary school, but he didn't mention Wei Sheng at all.

Xu Chenyuan understands that for Xu Wei, Wei Sheng may have been the one he thought could bring him out of the dark abyss, but in the end it really proved that Xu Wei was wrong.

Instead, he was the one who pushed him back again just as he was about to climb out.

Finally Xu Wei fell asleep exhausted, Xu Chenyuan sat quietly beside Xu Wei in the dark, just looked at him quietly, and when the east was white, he gently kissed him on the forehead.

All living beings suffer.There are so many sorrows and sorrows in this world, and life is always telling you non-stop that what you are experiencing now is just the tip of the iceberg, and what is hidden deep in front of you that you cannot see is even greater and unbearable despair.

If it's so hopeless, then why are you giving me a candy.

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Singles on Qixi Festival are going to go on vacation, so I will stop for another day, I wish my friends a rich and incomparable country as soon as possible, and marry Peng Yuyan