please don't tell him

Xu Wei cried for a long time that day, and Xu Chenyuan never knew that this little guy could have such a lot of energy in his body, which could support him to cry for so long.

Thoughts that had never arisen in his heart made Xu Chenyuan a little flustered, those tears seemed to be urging something that had been planted in his heart to take root and sprout.He never thought before that he would hold someone like this and listen to him cry all his sorrow and grievances to himself. When he gave the other person a hug that he could rely on, it seemed to comfort the loneliness that had been buried in his soul for many years .

When Xu Wei was finally tired from crying, he buried his face in Xu Chen Yuan's chest in embarrassment, not daring to look up, and the two of them just listened to each other's heartbeats quietly.

Xu Chenyuan sighed, dug the person out of his chest, wiped the tears off Xu Wei's face not very gently, and asked, "Have you cried enough?"

Xu Wei nodded.

"When you've cried enough, go take a bath. You're going to catch a cold. You sit here and don't move. I'll give you hot water. I have a bathtub at home, so you can take a bath."

Xu Wei nodded again.

Xu Chenyuan had no choice but to get it. Although he lost his language function again, at least he knew how to react.

Xu Chenyuan resigned himself to going into the bathroom to put hot water for others. He squatted beside the bathtub, rolled up the sleeve of one hand to test the water temperature for others, and suddenly felt a shadow over his head. When he turned around, he found that the child was standing behind his back.

Xu Chenyuan, who had never done such a thing before, felt that he was not on the stage, his face was slightly red, and he asked fiercely, "Why don't you stay outside and come in, huh?"

Xu Wei stared at him blankly, tears fell again.

"Fuck!" Xu Chenyuan hurriedly stood up and wiped his face with a towel: "The faucet is so bad, you? Cry when you say you want to? I didn't scold you, why are you crying!"

Xu Chenyuan's action of washing the cat's face made Xu Wei's facial muscles almost cramp. He had no choice but to grab Xu Chenyuan's hand and said dully, "I, I don't...don't cry."

Xu Chenyuan pointed to Xu Wei's eyes, and threatened him viciously: "Don't cry, cry again and I will rape you."

Xu Wei's face turned red.

Xu Chenyuan went back and tried the water temperature again, and said, "It's ready to wash, call me when you're done."

Xu Wei nodded, and took off his shirt without any pressure in front of Xu Chenyuan.

It was a special situation just now, and Xu Chenyuan didn't think much about it, but now it finally died down, and he finally remembered the matter of "avoiding suspicion".Xu Wei's body was very white, his skin looked tender, and his thin waist was so thin that Xu Chenyuan suddenly felt a little dizzy.

"I... I'll go out, you wash slowly."

After finishing speaking, he ran out of the bathroom as if fleeing.

Crazy crazy crazy crazy, totally crazy.

Xu Chenyuan leaned against the wall and helplessly raised his hands to cover his eyes.

After Xu Chen Yuan went out, Xu Wei put himself into the bathtub, the hot water of more than 40 degrees was just right, his cold skin was warmed, and finally he felt warm all over his body.

Sadness still haunts me.After Xu Chenyuan left, Xu Wei looked at the unfamiliar bathroom, his mind finally started to turn, and all the things about Wei Sheng began to play in his mind like a revolving lantern. He was like a sad spectator who was forced to watch his past life. These scenes of farce.

How ridiculous.He also knew how to protect himself, and stopped asking his mother to give him the warmth of his family. When he learned of his sexual orientation, he also knew to hide it carefully and not tell anyone. Homosexuality has no possibility of happiness in the future. , What kind of daydream is he doing?

But why did that person extend his hand to him and follow him without hesitation?

He hugged himself tenderly in his arms, and he said love words to him that made people blush and heartbeat, and those little memory fragments were pieced together into a wounding blade, which pierced hard into his heart.

Do you want a lot?Xu Wei has never been a greedy person, he should be the most clear, all living beings in this world are suffering, but someone handed him a sugar-coated intestinal poison, thinking that someone in this world would love him and pity him .

It's ridiculous, Xu Wei, you're a joke.

Xu Wei retracted himself little by little, crying silently.

He is extremely sober now, and because he is sober, he can't even die.

Died like this?Naked, in other people's bathtubs, coming with nothing, and leaving alone.

Xu Wei buried his face in the water, the surrounding was very quiet, he could only hear his own heartbeat.

It hurts when the heart is still beating.

The feeling of suffocation finally came. Xu Wei closed his eyes tightly. It was too painful. The pain caused by the lack of oxygen in his lungs was unbearable. How could those who committed suicide have such courage?Xu Wei was really afraid of pain.

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door, and then the voice of Xu Chenyuan: "Xu Wei, be careful when you take a bath, don't touch the wound with water, it hurts."

Xu Chenyuan’s voice sounded like a bell ringing in his ears, Xu Wei opened his eyes suddenly, got up vigorously and pulled himself out of the water, regaining oxygen made his lungs alive finally, Xu Wei sat in the water and gulped Panting heavily, the tears couldn't stop falling down again.

What is he doing... Even if he is going to die, how can he die here, wish brother is so good... how sad he should be.

It took Xu Wei four to 10 minutes to take a bath. Xu Chenyuan straightened his mind. He never thought that he would think about life in the bathtub, and almost turned his home into a murder scene.

If he finds out, he will probably fulfill the previous threat to Xu Wei: rape/rape him.

After a while, Xu Wei came out with red eyes, still wearing Xu Chenyuan's oversized clothes, with a hollow neckline and a long sleeve, making him look even more emaciated.

The soft hair was still wet, sticking to the sides of Xu Wei's cheeks, still dripping water.

Xu Chenyuan sighed, took out the hair dryer in the bathroom drawer, and said, "Don't tell me you dried your hair, come here, I'll blow it for you."

Xu Wei nodded, followed Xu Chenyuan obediently into his bedroom, sat on the sofa, watched him turn on the hair dryer, and the roaring sound rang in his ears.

Xu Chenyuan's hands were dry and warm, and he was rarely gentle. His fingers gently passed through Xu Wei's hair, helping him to dry his hair.

Xu Chenyuan still had an unlit cigarette in his mouth, and his slightly long hair was hastily tied into a small braid from behind. Xu Wei looked up at his face, always looking impatient , but at the moment is extremely gentle.

The hair dryer moved in front of Xu Wei, and the blown hair tied his eyes, but he refused to close them, and just stared at Xu Chenyuan in a daze.

Xu Chenyuan bit his cigarette holder and said fiercely: "Look at that, close your eyes! You're blowing your bangs."

Xu Wei then closed his eyes.

While blowing his hair, Xu Chenyuan looked at his eyelashes, wondering if this kid's eyelashes have grown up, why are they so long.Well, people with long eyelashes are crying-loving and have a bad personality, but this little guy, apart from being a crying bag, has a good personality.

In fact, I don't cry that much... I just have red eyes when I was bullied. To be able to cry like this today is how wronged I have suffered.

Xu Chenyuan said: "I used to say that I want to find a girlfriend with long hair in the future. After she takes a shower, I will blow-dry her hair like this. But before I find a girlfriend, I will blow-dry your hair first."

After hearing this, Xu Wei's eyelashes trembled, and tears fell again.

"My ancestor!" Xu Chen Yuan was so worried, he turned off the hair dryer, and quickly hugged him in his arms: "You said you are a faucet, do you really plan to carry it forward?" After thinking about it, he softened again. voice, asked: "Xiaowei, tell brother, what's the matter?"

Xu Wei sniffed, tears streaming down one after another, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Why am I being left behind again?"

A question with unclear meaning can actually represent many things, such as his unspeakable past and the despair he experienced just now.No matter which one it is, it can make Xu Chenyuan feel the dense pain in his heart, let alone the pain felt by Xu Wei, the two must be superimposed.

"Hey, it's okay." Xu Chenyuan would never comfort a person who just lost love, let alone he still has some kind of unspeakable desire for this person, so he can only hold him in his arms Touching his back over and over again, taking advantage of his unstable mood, secretly imprinted a light kiss on the end of his hair.

Poor Xu Chen Yuan lived for seventeen or eighteen years, and it was the first time he tasted liking for a person. He didn't dare to say it before, but in the future, he might not be able to say it.